Prayer Circles

A Special Days {Valentine}

By Verna R. Clay
02/14/05

On special days I often feel
Such sadness in my heart
No matter how the day unfolds
I draw myself apart

I am grateful I have the love and support
of loved ones and friend all around
But yet it's still so difficult for me
to keep from feeling down

I try so hard to keep smiling
to feel the joy others feel
It's not by choice it's taking longer
for my shattered heart to heal

When special days are upon me ...
Please try to understand
I am carrying the cross of a lifetime
I am doing the best I can

When special days are upon me
I may enter a world of my own
Where I pray for all who have lost a child
To let them know they are not alone

I'm aware that my sadness may cause you to stare
So I sometimes wear a mask ... Just for you
My world is one you don't know exists ...
And I pray that they never do!

As special days are upon us ...
Count your blessings and please say a prayer
For all bereaved parents wherever they are
Please let them know you care!

God's Peace & Blessings,
LOVE2U


Clinging to The Ties That Bind

On special days ... Bereaved parents embrace each other, and all who support us,... and cling to fond memories, and the blessed assurance that with each passing day, we are one day closer to being reunited with our beloved children and other loved ones who have gone on before. To God be the glory! Forever and ever, Amen!

Amen to God in the Highest.. Amen
Praise and thanks be to God on High
Heaven and Earth are filled with His Glory!!

Thank you... all of you.. for the wonderful wishes and Verna.. for your very very nice poem, it is always such a pleasure to read your poems.

I would like to share soemthing with all of you. To lift my sadness and unhappy thoughts, I wear nice accessories.. dress up for work. I wear my favourite coloured clothes.. and buy my own Valentines gifts. I just bought 3 blouses for myself last night.. to make myself happy. When we continue to do little things.. to make ourselves happy.. it is always.. a step closer to living a happier life.

I hope that all of you..will try it out..doing little things like that. Next, I will go to a sidewalk cafe.. near the waterfront.. for tea and cakes... perhaps.. this Thursday.. and I will ask my 2 sisters to join me and if they are too buys.. I will still go on my own anyway.

Wish that some of you are near to me... we can have fun together!!!

Love and prayers
Agnysse

Hi our dear Miss V, very nice and meaningful poem for Valentine's Day.
I still can't access your website, aahh.
I lit my Candle on Valentine's Day for my Shane, and everyone else and their precious child here at this Circle of Love,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi our dear Agnysse, that sound's like fun, I love sidewalk cafes and it bring's back memories of Shane and I sitting at them, talking and people watching, :-). Wish we could join you too,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello Everybody,
Our dear AngelDad Angelo is asking for prayers right now, he's very depressed and would very much like to see his marriage reconciled.
And so we lift him up to the Lord~
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Thank you Sandy for letting us know... the needs of others besides our own sadness.

Let us all pray...

Heavenly Father, we believe that all marriages are holy and we know that no marriages are perfect. Please help AngelDad Angelo, in his current marriage problem. Heavenly Father, no matter what may happen to our daily lives, Abba, teach us awareness within ourselves... so that we may be able to see any kind of problems which we are not able to see "normally". Most of us are "walking and living in blindess" Heavenly Father. We are blind because we fail to keep in touch with Your will, Heavenly Father. We know that, we are in the awareness of Your heavenly will, Father, we know that we will be blessed with reconciliation in most things which we are going through.

Heavenly Father, thank you for reconciling AngelDad Angelo with his wife. When it is Your Heavenly will, Father, all things will be reconciled. Light your Divine Light.. in all of us, Heavenly Father, so that we may see Your Divine Light which will help us to resolve our earthly problems. We are weak Heavenly Father and we all humble ourselves to your Great Kindness and Almighty Will. Grant that all who are suffering from turmoil and discontentment, Heavenly Father, will be shown the way to contentment and towards Your will.

Abba, our Father, we thank you for showing us Your way
Abba, our Father, we thank you

Abba, our Father, we need and love you
Abba, our Father, we need and love you

Abba, our Father, teach us contentment and Your divine awareness
Abba, our Father, teach us contentment and Your divine awareness

Amen, Father, Amen... Praise be to God.. in the Highest. Peace to all mankind and contentment to all souls.

Amen, Amen, Amen

Love and Light
Agnysse

A beautiful prayer our dear Agnysse, I haven't heard about Angelo, but we know our prayers have been heard by God and leave all in His Hands,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear sisters. I'm sorry I have not posted lately, the reason why its that I am working very long hours with "tax season" and the computer where I have Internet is always busy, and to be honest the other reason it is why I have been so down and in the valley lately that I don't have the energy, but the love for my sisters is greater than the valley days, I know we are all having our hard times. Just wanted you all to know that I keep you all in my prayers, and my love for you is BIG. I did my prayers for Angelo, I really hope his wife will come to realize they both have gone through a lot of pain together, so the love they have for one another will conquer any misunderstanding.My dear sister Agnysse, so glad you joined Our Circle of Love, you have so much Faith and Love in your heart, I wish I could say the samething, I have a lot of love but not as much faith as you, I still have my little tantrums with God for taking my only child, yes I understand that only He knows why, but I really don't understand. You are really a great human being and an inspiration to me. Love to you all my sisters. Selva

Dearest Selva

We all understand when one is very busy either at office or home. You do not have to explain to us about your busy life as you owe us "nothing". Knowing that we are all praying together as One in God's name... everything will work out fine.

I was reading a book called "The Prayer That Changes Everything" - By Stormie Omartian. This book taught me, that praise and worship to God.. in His Highest - even in times of grief, pain, loneliness, anxiety, confusion etc... always praise and worship God...first thing in the morning.. or when you are at your lunch break or when you are travelling to work.... ALWAYS works wonders!!!! Well, it did wonders for me. All of us know that it is "impossible" to sing praise and worship God when one is in great grief.... but give it time.. and lots of determination, it ALWAYS works!!

I know it, 'cos it happened to me. I still feel the grief when I remembered the day, when I had to go identify the body of my daughter, Amelia - a the mortuary. It was THE most devastating day of my life. But, you know Selva.. through it all.. the grief and pain which I still have in my heart, mind and soul.. praise and worship to God.. always... lift me up.. very much higher.. than I deserve to experience.

Believe me, I am still going through it and praise and worship to God.. never fail to heal me.. when I remembered my pain.

No one is great except for God. Without my Heavenly Father - my God.. my Life.. I am nothing!!!

For I am always feeling helpless and He never fail to lift me up.. and I won't get to know you wonderful Sisters out there. Sandy.. for keeping this Circle of Love.. etc etc... all these wonderful people.

What else can one wish for, when unconditional love, support and true friendship is in abundance - on this board. I am only thankful, that I have this special Circle to come to.. each day... to share my love for God.. with each and everyone of you. A chance which God Himself has provided and I don't want to miss this chance. I will seize every opportunity to praise and worship Him.. because He is so very special to ALL of us.

Selva, know that when you start to sing praises and worship to God.. your child's soul, will be lifted up... even higher.. for the love, prayers of praise and worship to God.. from a mother is the greatest gift.. any child can have!!!! I will continue to pray and worship God.. to guide you... into His Way, and know that His Love endures - FOREVER. You can still chide God for taking your child away... He can understand your grief. God doesn't mind that you are angry with Him sometimes.... but I think that it is about time.. you do something for the soul of your only child. Lift the soul of your only child to God Himself... and sing praises to God in the Highest... so that God will hold your only child.. in His loving embrace.. and know that your only child is BEING LOVED by God.... Our Creator.

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Continue....


He who created us, will hold us in His loving hands and will lift us up.. forever and ever.. Amen, Amen, Amen

Be at peace with yourself Selva. There are still some things in yourself.. in your heart, which may have happened while your child was alive.. which you cannot comprehend and let go. Ask God to help you.. to let go..of what is in the past.. and that we do not have to understand.. why or how it happened.. but that it happened for God's reason. His reason - His will.

And when you are able to accept that and let go of the past, please live in the "NOW - THE PRESENT" which God has given us.. to live in peace and harmony with every God's child.

Be at peace Selva, be at peace
God is holding you in His arms..
He loves you very much but you cannot feel that love... 'cos you allow the magnitude of grief to block God's love for you and your child. As soon as you are able to let go of everything, healing will start and you will be wondering.. why you have wasted so many days... wallowing in grief when you can experience the love of God. That is the true wonders of God... to feel His Love for us.

God, our Heavenly Father...
Embrace Selva in your loving embrace
Take away the layers of hurt which had encompassed her
Let her feel the strength of Your Divine Love, through the Holy Spirit
God's peace is with you Selva.
He is inside of you. He is the whole being.. of what you are - 'cos He created you.
Be at peace with yourself Selva... peace descend upon you.
Father, we thank you.. for not giving up on us... for we are only human.
Send forth Your peace and stay within us, Heavenly Father. Stay with us so that we will truly sing praises and worship to You .. Oh Heavenly King.
King of our heart, mind and soul. King of our emotions and our failures and bring forth your Divine Light and shine forth for all of us to see and embrace.

Amen, Heavenly King and Father, Amen
We love you God, we love you
We praise you God, we praise you
We are at peace with You, God
We are at peace with You.
Amen, Amen, Amen

Love and Light
Agnysse

Hi my dear sister Agnysse. Thanks so much for your so much needed prayers. I'm sorry that I can not praise The Lord as much as you do, I'm in my 30th month since loosing my only child, I am still strugling with pain, anger, depression and all that. I really envy you, I wish I could have the Faith that you have, but I don't. I still feel the anger for loosing my only daughter, I stopped asking Why, because no matter what the answer will be I will not accept it, so I don't want to hear God's answer, not yet. Maybe some day I will as ready as you are, but all of us are different in the way we grieve. I admire your faith, God Bless you, I still have a long road ahead of me, see, I have no more family, just a sister and brother God Bless them, everybody else is gone from my life here on Earth, I think I am a good person, at least I try to be, but I think I do not deserve this pain, and my daughter was an Angel here on Earth, she was a near perfect child, so why? I don't want to know.Maybe God needed a great Angel back in heaven, but why ? I also needed her here. So my dear sister, please keep praying for me and maybe one of these days I will also praise God as great as you do. Love Selva

Hi our dear sister, great to see a Post from you, you have been missed around here! I know this is your busy time with taxes, you must be dreaming about numbers in your sleep by now, :-).
We understand that grieving, being in the valley and working as well is draining on you - emotionally as well physically, both take so much out of all of us that sometimes we just want to drop into bed at the end of the day!
Aw, that's so sweet of you, our love for you is BIG too, and so are our prayers, :-). Take good care of yourself too, I know you'll be glad when tax season is over. And Nancy too!
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

We were posting at the same time, our dear sister, :-). Everybody grieves at their own time, their own pace and their own way, we alll know you have faith, once the road get's a little brighter for you, the clouds will start to lift and the sun will start peeking through once again. God is big enough to handle your anger right now, just keep your faith, keep praying, and you'll come through and your anger will slowly go away.
Love you our dear sister,
Sandy

Hi our dear Agnysse, that had to be very hard to see your precious daughter in the mortuary, why don't you tell us something about your precious Amelia, we'd all love to hear about her,
Much love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello our dear Marci - good gosh, heard on CNN today about the rain, mudslides in California, hope and pray once again it's not in your area! Such a tragedy for all those living there,
Lots of love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Sandy

Oh... talking about Amelia would be endless.. but just a few special thoughts about her.. which will stay with me forever.

Amelia, when she passed away, she was 19yrs old. Pretty, tan and sexy young lady. She has an IQ of 159 - gifted, talented and intelligent. She exceled in the field of Chemistry Engineering.

on 21st August 2002, when she passed away, she had a quarrel with her boyfriend and she laid on a parapet (2 to 3 storeys high (in school), crying in the rain.... with her face to the sky. The parapet was kind of in a sloped position. I guess that she might not have noticed it.. as she was really upset that evening. The parapet was made of metal and still had layer of plastic covered on it and I think that it was slippery and she fell from it. She was only about 2 to 3 storeys above ground.

From what I've gathered (from a very reliable spiritual medium) that she was killed by a very evil spirit. I didn't expect to hear this (as I was a very skeptical person) but then.. there couldn't be any other reason for her to die from a fall. She was (still is) very loved by all of us and she was a very cheerful young lady - most of the time. Nothing can be explained.... but this much I know for sure... when God allow this kind of situation to happen, there must be a real good reason... for Him.... to allow this to happen. I don't want to ask God anymore... why or how... or why my sweet Amelia...

I have left everthing to God....to settle the scores for me. My pain, anger, disbelief (the act of evil spirits), vengeance, anxiety of trying to understand, if Amelia was safe.. even after she passed on, to the other world. Those were the days of "spiritual warefare" between good and evil. I know that not everyone believes in the fight between good and evil especially, when it concerns a soul who had passed on.

Believe me, I had gone through it..and my days and nights were most disturbing, confusing, disbelief, turmoil, anger (was angry that God allowed this to happen in 2002!! - but not now)

I know that if I were to post the happenings on any net.. people out there.. will think that I am mad!!

But alas, I have sent all of those bad negative feelings and thoughts.. out to God.. let Him take hold of EVERYTHING which is not good and right.... and believe that God alone, will make everything right for both Amelia and myself.

I put my trust in God - He is my Life
I put my trust and faith in God - He will make everything right
I will put my trust and love in God - He will revenge for me
But alas, it will all be His Divine will and not mine
I will accept whatever decisions, He will choose for us.. and lay our souls in His hands - to make everything right.

God, I love you... I love you, so very much
God, I need you.. I need you, so very much
God, love us all... we all... love you very much.

Amen and Glory be to God.. in the Highest, Heaven and Earth are full of His Glory. Hosanna, in the Highest.

God Bless all of you
Agnysse

Hi my dear sister Agnysee. I am so sorry about Amelia. My daughter Solange was born to Heaven August 15 2002 just a few days before Amelia. My Solange felt sleep while driving, Oh so bad, no alcohol involved, she was just tired. I envy you that you , I am very honest, that you did found relief in praising God, I am still batling (forgive my spelling) with God. Bless you my dear sister, please pray for me that I can also find all that understanding. Love Selva

Dearest Selva

We begin our prayers..

Heavenly Father, Almighty God of heaven and earth,
Thank you for releasing the agony, anxiety, anger, confusion and her endless battle with her thoughts in her heart, mind and soul.

Dearest Heavenly King, Father of all souls, bestow on Selva, the everlasting divine love - Your Divine Light, Oh God.

We love you and we need you God
We love you and we trust you God
We love you and we surrender everything up to you, God
We know that we will conquer all of those negative feelings, emotions, senses through Your Divine Mercy.
Send Your Heavenly Angels upon us Oh God
That we may be guided and guarded by them
And through each day, we will exalt the love and kindness of our Almighty God and King
Whom we will forever humbly adore .. forever and ever.. Amen

Thank you God, for staying inside of us
Thank you God, for shining Your Divine Light upon us Oh God
Thank you God, for Your wonderful blessings all that is good and in great abundance God
Thank you God, we thank You

Praise be to God, in the Highest.
For His Great Love endures - FOREVER and ever.. Amen, Amen, Amen

Love & Light
Agnysse

Hi my dear sisters. Just wanted to let you all know, that no matter how Angry I am, I still pray for all of you and myself. Love you all. Selva

Hello everyone in our circle of love!

I've been offline due to illness, starting to feel much better now but not overdoing it just yet, :-).

Hm, March 1st today, my sweet handsome Shane's Anniversary is coming up, starting to feel anxious over it of course.
Much love, prayers & Hugs to all,
Sandy

Dear All, ~ Please pray for Angel Dad, Angelo, to be reunited with his beloved wife Mary,if it is within God's will. He especially ask that we pray on this Thursday, march 3rd at 1 PM.

Dear Angelo, ~ I can assure you, that you and your beloved Mary will be prayed for here. May God bless you both and keep you both close to his heart, and in His loving care!

Love & Prayers,
Verna

Dear All, ~ Please pray that Felecia's doctors will be able to get her blood pressure and temperature under control. Her mom took her back to the hospital today and they admitted her. I picked little Ashley up and will keep her over night and get her off to school this morning! :) Of course, I will already be up! ha-ha! The good news is; I'll be able to sleep peacefully after I see her off to school! Sick or well, about 6 or 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep is about all yo Miss V. can handle! :)

Hey Sandy! Sorry to hear you've been a little under the weather; but glad to know you are feeling a bit better. So am I. :) I slept most of the day away [Tuesday] and then got up, ate a healthy breakfast, ... took my meds and drank lots of fluids; which seem to be helping; made out a few bills, then went to visit Auntie for a couple of hours. It was such a beautiful day here. But, that's all supposed to change later this week. :( So, I figured I'd better not miss my chance to take in a little sunshine. :( While visiting with Auntie, my sister, Pearl, called from the hospital and asked that I come pick up Ashley. She had to take Felecia in for an unplanned checkup. Auntie told her that I had just said that I'd better go because I felt I was needed on the other end; meaning that I needed to go pick up Ashley. :) Normally, I help her with homework on Tuesdays, but didn't know about her mom being in the hospital until Pearl called. Fortunately, the hospital is located between Auntie's house and where we live, so I got there in a matter of minutes, and took Ashley home with me. God willing, will give ya'll an update sometime tomorrow, or later on today [Wednesday]!

Hubby's mom is has stopped eating, again, so please pray for her also; and for safety on the highway when we go check on her. Don't know what day yet. Whatever the outcome, we know that God hears even the smallest prayer, and He will be with us through all of our life storms!

Yes, ... dear Sandy, ... I can relate to those special day blues. :( We can never get beyond those special day blues; huh? ... but we know that with prayer, ... God will give us the strength to deal with those painful moments. Both you and Cindy will be in our 'special day' heartfelt prayers throughout the entire month of March; but especially on March 15th. Cindy is feeling it too, so let's send her and anyone else who is in valley time, lots and lots of inspirational and/or fun pages this month. Speaking of which ... I have been laughing so hard on some of the fwd pages you angel moms have been sharing with me! Ha-ha! Some, I've even run-off and shared with my sister and Felecia, who don't own a computer yet. I also share the prayers we pray for Felecia! She is always soooo appreciative! :) She always ask that I thank you all for praying for her! :)

Love & Prayers, ... And lighting my favorite 'French Vanilla' scented candle for all our guardian angels, :)

Verna

I love this song! If I have your email address,I will fwd the page I found with Elvis singing it. :) There are also lots and lots of oldies on this page! So, ... Stay tuned! :)

Love Angel Hugs,

Verna

I believe
I believe for every drop of rain that falls,
a flower grows.

I believe that somewhere in the darkest night,
a candle glows.

I believe for everyone who goes astray,
someone will come to show the way.

I believe, I believe.

I believe above the storm the smallest prayer
will still be heard.

I believe that someone in the great somewhere
hears every word.

Every time I hear a newborn baby cry,
or touch a leaf or see the sky,

Then I know why I believe!

Every time I hear a newborn baby cry,
or touch a leaf or see the sky,

Then I know why I believe!

Love that song, dear Miss V, it's an oldie but a goodie, :-). Yes, other than being tired, I do feel better, so I'm just taking it easy. Yes, it's valley time too, so that could be also making me more tired than usual.
Hope you had a good trip and Felicia is feeling much better, continued prayers for all.
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy