Prayer Circles

Hi mi hermana Marci. I also join the rest of our sisters, storming Heaven for you and Melody. May God give her strenght and clear your way to be with your sister.Love and prayers. Selva

I would just like to pray for anyone who has lost a child. It's a tough thing to go through. I lost my son, Devon, in 2001. I was 7 months along, and he was still born. To this day, it's a struggle, but my family has helped me through it tremendously. So please say a prayer for my son, and all the other children in heaven. Thank you.

Hi Annluv79. Of course we will pray for your little Angel Devon as we pray for all our dear Angels. You are so lucky to have such a good family who understands and help you. You are welcome to our Circle of Love, anytime you feel in need of prayers and understanding, we will be here for one another, We know of that terrible pain. Bless you. Selva

[This is a copy/paste rambler from Yo Miss V.] :) Must do a little at a time until the wrist has a chance to heal. :)

Hello Everyone! :) Yes, I am being good, and following Dr.'s orders! Staying off the computer as much as possible; wearing my wrist brace, staying away from overhead objects, and taking my meds and stuff, ... and even going to bed AT NIGHT! No more late hours for Miss V., Ya'll! So if you see me on your buddy list, that does not mean I am online! I have the plan that allows me to be signed on at no extra charge. So I sometimes just leave it on.

Hey, Sue! :)
Ha-ha! About the little old lady's response to the preacher, ... To that, I say, "Amen!" How's the weather down your way? It is wet and cold in Shreveport. Thanks again for the laugh, Sue. Laughter is good for the soul! I was once a joyful soul, you know? It takes a while, but we do find reasons to laugh again ... in our own time; as hard as that is to believe. Peaceful moments are, indeed, such a powerful blessing! They come to us in a variety of ways; which in time, we learn to recognize as well as appreciate. We just gotta met someday soon. As a matter of fact, I may have been somewhere near your area the other night when I miss the Parkway High School turn while trying go pay my daughter a short visit after attending the MADD-VIP Meeting in Benton, La. After I realized I had missed the turn, I decided to keep going and make a stop at a convenience store before turning around ... But before I realized it, I was wayyyyy down the road! Talk about scared! No more traffic lights to be seen anywhere; just pitch black spooky hwy. ahead! Ha-ha! I finally found a place to turn around, [a scary looking place with a big gate that was wide open], and I was too afraid to get too near, so I waited until all was clear and backed out onto the dark two lane hwy. and headed back to Bossier City, saying, "Thank you, Jesus!" Ha-ha! Naturally, I did not mention all of this to my daughter, once I made it safely to her residence. My meeting went extremely well, however, [over 60 in attendance]. Many requested to speak with me after my presentation; and one gentleman even shed tears and told me how touched he was that I had managed to take my grief and do something positive with it. I always include inviting them to visit our circle of love to discover how angel moms/dads lives are forever changed ... when our precious angels are called home before we are. I also request that they please, please take time and read the comments so that they can become aware of the masks we are so often forced to wear around others! And many requested the name of our circle of love again. But, needless to say, ... I was grateful for their comments and show of compassion, ... But glad to make it back home safe and sound! Ya know, ... Benton is a pretty good drive from Shreveport; especially at night! Gotta go check on my sister and Felecia in a few. Maybe we can meet at Taco Bell [my grandson's favorite place to visit], ...across from Airline School, one day soon! Talk to you later.
Love & Prayers for all,
Verna

Our dear Marci, how is Melody doing? How are you doing? Please let us know when you can,
Much love, prayers & Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Annluv79, ~ I am so very sorry that you lost your precious little angel, Devon. My baby daughter, lost twins shortly after having an ultrasound done. It's been over a year now, but as Sandy said, the pain never goes away completely. Eventually, the pain is not so intense, but it's the unconditional love bond that exists between a mother and her beloved child that makes going on so difficult; especially during the very early stages, and also during holidays and special days; many of which we once looked forward to. Eventually, we reach a point where the heavy fog is lifted and we do our best to refocus, and pick up the pieces of a life that we know has been forever changed.

As my dear sister, Selva said in her post to you; You are fortunate to have a strong family support system. It's been a little over eight years since I lost my adult daughter, Diane, but until recently, I could count the times family or friends for that matter, would even so much as mentioned her name. Of course, once I began reading, and became aware that many who are grieving the loss of a beloved child have had similar experiences, I eventually began using every God given opportunity to open the eyes of both family members and friends to let them and others know that the mention of our child's name is not going to make the pain any worse. I also tell them that; as hard as it may be to believe, to hear our child's name mentioned in the context of love and understanding, is music to our ears.

And, No, it does not make any difference if God loaned you your beloved child for only a little while in the womb, ... That was, and always will be your beloved child! Actually, from the moment of their conception, I knew I loved both of my daughters; and would have given my life to save either one of them. Unfortunately, I was not given a chance to do so. However, once I wadded through my "not wanting to be here years ..." I began to see a golden opportunity to support, to pray for, and to speak out on behalf of angel moms all over the world; just as the many other angel moms here do on an ongoing basis. Fortunately for me, by the time I stumbled upon the circle of love; [still don't know how I found it] :) ... I had almost reached the point where I could try to make the effort to give back some of the support I had received from a local support group of angel moms who were there for me at a time when I was feeling there was no way I could live with the kind of grief I was living with on an almost hourly basis! They took me in -- Earth Angels -- I called them; and they gave me the support and encouragement I needed to stick around for a while longer. At that time, that was all I could promise anyone; and I told them that, ... And they assured me; over and over again that they, too, had felt that way for the longest time! I believe that hearing them say that so often, really started me to thinking that; If they could survive losing their child, then I could too!

That was the beginning of the end of what had been a long, dark and shattering nightmare! I still have those reoccurring thoughts of giving up and giving in sometimes; especially on what we angel moms refer to as valley days, and "Out of left field days!" But I know now that if I give in to what is only a temporary feeling of longing to see my child, I will have failed so many angel moms who are just beginning their painful journey. I realize and I am grateful to God, and this group of angel moms who have been here for me on an ongoing basis. Even those who cannot post as often as they did in the beginning; they, too, are an important part of our circle of love! They have not forgotten us nor have we forgotten them. :) The important thing is that we continue to pray for each other. Many come and read as often as possible; and sometimes, they drop in to let us know how they are doing and that they are still remembering us in their prayers. That is what make this such a great prayer circle! Our newly bereaved angel moms and those who are a bit farther along, have become a very big part of our extended family, and I am a part of theirs. And, now, you have become the newest member of our extended family. :) Having lost your beloved Devon in 2001, you are still in the beginning stages of grieving your loss. Although we regret the reason you've joined our circle of love, we welcome you, and you may be sure your precious and beloved angel, Devon, and also you and family will be remembered in our heartfelt prayers. May it bring a smile to your face to know that our older guardian angels will take care and baby sit your little one, and spoil him just a little bit :) until your work here on earth is finished. Then, you will be with your precious son forever and ever. :)

Love & Angel Hugs,

Verna
Diane's Mom
8/16/60 ~ 8/31/96
Forever In Our Hearts!

A Poem I came across and wanted to share,

It's very quiet here, where is everyone?
No postings - that mean's I'm worried, pray everyone is doing alright and that's the reason why!

Love, prayers & Hugs,
Sandy

Hello Everyone,

Our dear Marci's sister Melody was operated on and is now in ICU. Their Mom flew from Spain to be there, a 20 hr. flight, God bless her, she must have been so worried on the flight!

The Dr.'s are optimistic about Melody's recovery, she's not entirley out of the woods yet, but I know with continued prayer and love the Great Physician will bring her through this storm! Marci thanks all for their prayers and love, and I assured her we'll keep it up! God is good all the time, all the time, God is good!!

Lots of love, prayers & {{HUGS}}
Sandy

Hello Everyone,

This is so sad to post after posting the above one yesterday.

Our dear Marci's sister Melody passed away early this morning, 2am, her heart went into diffrillization and she was just too weak to correct it.

This is so devastating for Marci, the family and especially their Mom, losing her beloved daughter Melody.

Marci ask's that we continue praying for her and the family, and i know we all will.

Love you dear Marci, our prayers and love are with you and your family at this very sad time.

Lots of love & tender Hugs,
Sandy

My dear hermana Marci.I am so sorry. i pray that God will give you strenght and that His Mercy will cover you and your family and specially your Mom. We will keep on storming Heaven with prayers.Love Selva

Dear Marci, :( ~ I am so sorry to read about Melody's passing. Having lost 3 siblings over the years, I can relate to how hard this has to be on you. And of course, all of us here can relate to what your dear mother is going through. Please know that I join all the other angel moms in prayer for you and family. Please give your mom a big loving and compassionate (((((hug))))) from us angel moms, and be sure to let us know if we can help in any way. We will continue to pray for strength to endure, for all.

Much love & prayers,

Verna

Sandy, ~ Thank you for standing in the gap for dear Marci, and letting us know of her beloved sister, Melody's passing. It saddened me greatly and my heart took a dive, as I read your email. I had so hoped that she would survive. I will keep Marci, her Mom, and her entire family in my heartfelt prayers. I can imagine or relate to how the sad news affected you, dear Sandy; in that the cause of death reminded you of what happened to your beloved Shane. It's similar to something I experienced when Princess Diana was killed on the first anniversary of my beloved Diane's death ... and also the cause of death, their age, ex hubby's first name were the same. Talk about reliving everything! So please know that I will say a special prayer for you also. I would have submitted a prayer post sooner; but I am just now able to get online. My computer crashed on me earlier today and I had to wait until my son-in-law got off from work at 8pm to check things out for me. Apparently, I touched or moved something while I was dusting around the monitor, and the whole system went blank. Everything seems to be working OK presently. Again, My heart goes out to our dear Marci and family and I join all angel moms in keeping all in prayer.

Love & Angel Hugs'

Verna

Dear God in heaven, ~ Our hearts are very sad today because of Melody's passing. Lord, we know that even though you will be there for Marci and her family, it will take some time for them to move through the many stages of grieving; especially so for their mom. Lord, I ask that you would become their spear of strength as they join together to say good-by to their beloved Melody, and. I ask that you will be there for each and every member of Melody's beloved family, in the days, weeks, months ahead, ... just as you were for me, all angel moms, and others. Lord, as we continue on our grief journey; together, ... as well as individually, please lead us every step of the way! In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen

Marci, ~
Our prayers are with you during your hour of sadness
I dedicate this poem In Loving Memory of Melody's Home Going:

The Dream

Today in a peaceful dream ...

God let me walk you to the door
I knew I'd see you here no more
And as we reached those heavenly gates
He let me peep inside ...

And as far as I could see
Old friends of yours and family
Rushed down that beautiful heavenly path
To welcome you inside.

With hugs & kisses they whisked you in
Saying thank You Jesus time and time again
And then I saw you kneel in silence
to say a special prayer

And in that prayer I heard you say
To those of us grieving here today ...
"You have no reason to be sad ...
You did what you could do

For that I thank you all, you said.
But, please, don't think of me as dead.
For in your hearts I will never die!
So, don't be sad ... And please don't cry!"

And then I saw you lift your head ...
And turn and smile that beautiful smile! ...
I could not say good bye ... So I said,
"I'LL see you in a little while!"

Written by: Verna R. Clay
All Rights Reserved

I am so sorry for your losses. I wish I could relate but I can't but I am saying a prayer anyway because I am touched by the thought of a child dying at such young ages.

Dearest Marci, I was so sorry to hear of your sister's passing. Like the rest of the AngelMoms, I was praying for a different outcome. My prayer now is that you and your Mom and everyone else that loves Melody feel the strong, comforting arms of our Heavenly Father surrounding you during your time of sorrow.
God Bless You,
Susan

Sandy, Hello!
It's good to connect with all of you also. I keep myself very busy most of the time. My daughter, Miranda, is doing well also. She is a delight to me! Jason's birthday was Dec.16 and the anniversary of his death is next Friday, Jan.28. It will mark 4 years since he was murdered. I am involved in a local support group here in S.C. for parents of murdered children.
It's still hard to keep going on with life sometimes, but I push myself.
How are you? It's so great that you can help others. I seem to get easily overwhelmed at some of our meetings and I feel that I don't think I can go back,but I usually do. We have some very good people in our group, but of course it is all very sad circumstances that bring us there. I think of you often, and hope you are doing well in your life. I still have a memorial site for my son, Jason E. Ward.

To all of the parents and people that post on this prayer circle for Shane, please realize how special Sandy is. I know you all have been very well cared for and helped by her, and Verna and of course Debbie too. They are so special, and have been very important to me in the healing process and journey on which I've been on for the past 4 years. Thank-you and Bless each of you, and your loved ones here, and in heaven. Love, Babbs

Hello poobearein!

Thank you so much for your prayers, it always means so much to us when others come here and take the time to post, say a prayer.
Father, please bless poohbearein in whatever it is you know she may be needing, through Christ Our Lord, Amen.

Love & Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Barbara, terrific to hear from you again!! Glad you're keeping yourself busy, I'm much the same, sometimes there doesn't seem to be enough hours in the day to get everything accomplished! At least we're never bored, :-). Oh, that's nice to hear about Miranda, I know how close the two of you are and I'm sure that brings you a lot of comfort. How are you doing with Jason's Anniversary coming up shortly? Four years sounds like a long time, but on these special days it feels like not very much time has really gone by, it brings us back to the day that changed our lives. Jason's Memorial Site is still up? - I'll be sure to visit and post on his Anniversay, God love you.
You're still involved with the Group, good for you, I know what you mean about it being hard emotionally sometimes, I felt the same way myself with the Group I belonged to, but on the other hand you can freely share your feelings, everyone else is feeling the same. Particularly for Parents such as yourself who've lost a child to murder, there's no doubt other issues to deal with as well. I'm sure you're a big help to others in the Group, :-).
I think of you too often and wonder how you're doing, so I'm very happy that you wrote back!
Our other son Chris went to China with his girlfriend over the Holidays, had a wonderful time and asked her Parents for permission to marry. So they're offically engaged now, but he tells us that the Marriage itself (when I bug him:-) is in the future, perhap's late this year or early next. We'll see. God bless you Barb, I pray that God give's you His peace and comfort as you approach Jason's Anniversay date.

And please don't be a stranger, it's so great to hear from you!

Much love, prayers & Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Barbarah. Thank you for your prayers and post. Yes our Angel in Chief Sandy is an inspiration to all of us, I thank God for her every day and for all our dear sister Angels on this posts. may God Bless you always. Love Selva

My dear sisters, I have to ask a favor. Don, which is one of Solange's recipients and a very special one, he was the one who really Thank Solange the first , and who really tried to get in touch with me which was not allowed by the agency (Solange was an Organ Donor) and we beat the system, it is really sick, he was a diabetic since he was 12 years old until he recieved the transplant from Solange, he is no longer a diabetic, but his organs and system has suffered for a long time so his whole system is really detiorated from been a diabetic for so may years, he just got his right leg amputated, but it is not healing well, now he has gone into shock, his stomach is full of some fuild and he is at the hospital, very ill and in a lot of pain. His mother Evelyn has lost 2 other sons, one was murdered, and the other one shock to death while eating, she is really has gone through a lot, now Don is really sick, so I please, my dear Angel sister, ask for prayers for Don, they are really such nice people. I really need that we all Storm Heaven for Don to recover, he is really a good soul, and his mother has gone through so much. Please my dear sisters join me to pray for Don's recovery. I know that God listens to us. Love Selva