Prayer Circles

HEY OUIGLEY,glad to hear from you. sorry to hear that you've been sick with the flu though,hope you are feeling alot better.Ouigley,LASVegas is a very big and tempting place, but i will be praying even extra more for you . because as I said , I still believe in you , and i knpw you can do this . this weeekend is going to be one of your biggest grestest challeneges. this is a chance for you to prove to yourself,I CAN DO THIS,I AM STONG ENOUGH TO FACE ANY CHALLENGE.WITH GOD I CAN CONQUER ANYTHING.I KNOW THAT WEAKNESS WILL NOT BE MY DEFEATER, WHEN WITH GOD , STRENGH IS MY VICTORY.THERE'S an old song we use to sing in churh and the wordsare:Victory in JESUS, MY SAVIOUR FOREVER.HE SOUGHT AND BOUGHT ME WITH HIS REDEEMING BLOOD. HE LOVED ME ERE I KNEW HIM, AND ALL MY LOVE IS DUE HIM.HE PLUNGED TO VICTORY BENEATH THE CLEANSING FLOOD.Ilove the words to that chorus.Ouigley, i have so much faith in you that you can do this, You have to willing and i know you can and you want tobe tobe stronger than that urge to be temted by that drink. you know that it is not going to accomplish anyhting, but just make you feel dafeated, for having givenin,and i know you dont want to do that. And if you feel you have to have somthing , they have non-alcoholic drinks. my brother sometimes buys that strawberrydaqueri mix for his family and juices and friut ,and makes non alcoholic smoothies for them sometimes.they have all kinds of nonalcoholic drinks now, ba was elling you about the kind she does.but the you gonna find you dont really need any of it at all. you are loved , you matter, you are someboby.And my heart and prayers will be with you this weekend specially tripled.DEARGOD;I COME IN PRAYER FOR OUIGLEY AND THE ONES THAT SHE WILL BE WITH THIS WEEKEND. LORD, I JUST PRAY THAT YOU WILL GUIDE HER IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION AND RIGHT PATH . LEAD HER STEPS CONTINUELLY TO YOU LORD I PRAY. AND IF TEMPTATION COME IN HER PATH , LORD I PRAY THAT YOU SEND YOUR MIGHTEST OF WARRIOR ANGELS TO BLOCK IT EACH AND EVERYONE . LORD, JUST PLACE TOTAL VICTORY WITHIN HER PATH AND PLACE YOUR MINISTERING ANGELS OF LOVE, PEACE, AND HARMONY ALL AROUND HERAND ALL WHO ARE WITH HER. IN ALL THIS I ASK IN YOUR PRECIOS HOLY NAME . IN JESUS NAME I PRAY.AMEN. LOVE YOU ALWAYS, KRIS.THANK YOU OUIGLEY FOR WAHT YOU SAID ALSO , IT TOUCHED MY HEART. I feel like the LORD LED me here for so many reasonsand ITHANK HIM FOR IT,AND RENEE.

Hi ALL,
I didnt get the loan but thanks. I applied for one and won't no for 7-10 days. They told me I made too much money to get a pell grant, so I applied for 8000$ thru the goverment that I would pay back 6 months after I graduate( but thats ok)...as long as it works out for me to go to school and help others at a Doctors office, that would make me completely happy with this new career :-) I hope Kris your health gets better..You are a very strong person and very special and helpful to many. Renee, you are also great and appreiciate all of you in here and your prayers. I hope you all have a safe and happy 4th of July. We are going out to dinner then at 10pm watching the fire works then boating all day saturday( but I will have my O'duls while the rest drink real beer)...hahahahaha..PRAISE JESUS...Life is good and I enjoy soo many different things now that Im sober, esp helping others and being strong for others. You get such gratification in Knowing that 1 person was helped bye a testimony..God does wonderful miracles. I never was this strong in re- hab as I am now with you guys and God in my life. I continue to pray daily for you all and want the very best for you all. In Jesus Name, I Pray Dear Lord you touch all the above seeking your guidance and much needed prayers, I pray you protect them, heal them, Love them and guide them on the right path, In Jesus name,
AMEN....God Bless all,
LOve in Christ :-)
Bettyann(BA)

hey bettyann, it's always so good to hear your positiveness on here. sorry you didnt get the loan you wanted , but i have every confidence you will get it ,the one you are waiting on. have faith continually, think always positive, and know that GOD is working in you in a wonderful way right now . it is so ggod to hear you sing HIS PRaises. plese be safe this weekend and and have a HAPPY 4TH OF JULY. my mother went through her surgery well today and we are so thankful to GOD for that. she has been in the hospital for 1 month 9 days, and will have to stay in there probably a couple more weeks. they removed more of her colin today, but hopefully ,this dhould be the end od the ordeal of that now.her insides were really messed up, but there's a happy side , she is going to be fine.happy days are gonnaflowing your way. love you, always and foreverin CHRIST.KRIS.

hello renee, ouigley, bettyann, thank you fro all the concern and prayers. today has been a really good day, and i was able to rest really good last night, and i was exhausted when we got in from the hospital. we got there about 10 till 7 yesterday morning and they didnt get through with momma until almost 11.so the surgery took about 4 hrs.but it was a relief to my brother and all of us that everything went so well. of course, i had no doubt.i knew GOD would be there in that surgeery room and be there with momma. we got back over here from alexandria about 4 ,back to olla where we live.my brothere and them are buzy packing and getting ready to move to hendersonville, tennesse.so when yall hear the name mark leland on the radio and see him on the t.v. , yall can say hey that kris's brother.ha he has his own web site,where you can go to hear him .go to one of one email addresses on herei put down and i will give yall the address and site to go to. you can hear his music , hev writes , sings and plays .oh , hey you talking to his #1 fan here, so i'll just let yall check it out.iwill miss him .but this has been his dream and destiny every since he was six years old and he sang amazing grace in one of daddy's church.i hope you all had a safe 4th. i stayed home aftere we got in and a friend of mine came over , and we just sit outside and watch the fireworks that peple were doing around here.well ,im getting preety tired , so ill come back on later. love all of you. kris

hi everyone, It seems everyone is doing well. :) Bettyanne, sorry you didn't get the loan. I misunderstood in the last post. I see you didn't let it discourage you though and that's wonderful. I am sure that all will work out for the best. I hope the second loan comes through for you soon. I hope you enjoyed your weekend. It sounds like a great time!
Kris, so much wonderful news! Glad to hear that you are feeling better and that all went well with your mom. Great news, about your brother! You'll have to keep us updated so we can say "hey, that's Kris's brother on the radio/ T.V."! You must be so proud. I'm so happy for you.
You are all in my heart & prayers always. God Bless. Love, Ren

Hi everyone,
Hope you had a great, safe weekend. Just got home after boating and camping all weekend. Ate sooooo much this weekend I feel miserable...hahhahah..I was around lots of people but still only drank O'duls and Ice tea all weekend. Quigley, hope you had a good time in Vegas :-)Kris glad your health and MOms is better. Renee hope all is well for you also. Back to work Monday then off all weekend again to go boating...Stay strong all, Faith, Trust, Love...will get you thru..I am craving smoking again but ate instead:-(
I just try and chew lots of gum till my jaws hurt heheheheehheh..Hope everyone has a great week, one filled with Happiness and Peace. Take care all and God Bless,
Bettyann

Hello all,

Well, ended up in Reno instead of Vegas because we missed our flight - someone was in a car accident outside my boyfriend's shop and he helped them until the ambulance showed up - so we had to drive to Reno but we had a great time. I did end up drinking some.. thanks for your prayers everyone - one day at a time - i know. My boyfriend is going to court this morning and he actually asked me to write on this site and pray for him. I've never known him to be like that so I think that is a good sign so will everyone pray that the judge treat him fairly and make the right decision? His life is in such turmoil and his ex would not let him have his son last night because he was late picking him up.

I pray today Lord that you can hellp me to focus on my job and to do a good job. I pray you can keep me going on the right path - the path you would choose to have me follow. I pray for all of you ladies on this site - You're very strong Bettyann - I admire your willpower - I'll pray that you can keep it up - Kris, I'd like to check out your brother's web site that's pretty cool - you sound like his #1 fan - what a sweet sister. Boss is coming - will write and pray later - God bless .

dear ba, glad you had a great weekend and i am so very proud of how strong you stayed around all of that drinking.it is great to hear how far you have came. keep up the faith,and keep going forward,iwish you continually the best in search of your goals GOD IS LAYING OUT FOR YOU TO ACHEIVE. keep striving for the goal in medical assitance.you know when one door closes ,another one opens.wishes you the best always.love&faith,IN JESUS CHRIST.LOVE,ALWAYSKRIS.

HEYQuigley, you know when i read your mail, at first the thing that came to my mind was GOD had sent a detour,to delay yall from going to las vegas, because that was'nt no coincedence,right outside the shop where your boyfriend worked, because of the kind act that he done by staying and helping in such a terrible sitution,yall missed the flight to las vegas.i do believe in someway, GOD was allowing that to happen to keep yall from making that flight,through this tragedy,missing this flight ,count it as a blessing , because GOD had a reason why HE did not want yall to make thAT flight.and i said, im still not giving yp on the fact that i know and believe that you are going to be able to one day ,look at a drink and just wanta put it down forever and wonder why you ever allowed yourself to never quit sooner.i so believe in you Quigley that you can do this, BUT do you believe in YOURSELF .?I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS.AND YOU RIGHT,ONE DAY AT A TIME,MAKE EVERYDAY COUNT TOTHE FULLEST.we're not promised tomorroms,but we do have our todays.and noone is perfect,we all fall short of the GLORY OF GOD,but is'nt it wonderful that HE LOVES US SO MUCH THAT HEKNOWS THAT AND HE LOVES US JUST THE SAME.Iam always going to be here for you.i'm gonna say a prayer for yoour boyfriend and anytime you need to talk or write,my addresses,emails,#is on here.go to anyone of those emails.here is mark's address, where you can go to hear him, you can sign his guest book.let me know what yall think of it.MP3.COM.MARKLELAND ARTIST JENA,LA.YOU ARE LOVED,YOU MEATTER,YOUARE SOMEBODY.LOVEYOU,ALWAYSIN CHRIST JESUS,KRIS.

DEAR GOD, I JUST COME IN PRAYER FOR THE BOYFRIND OF QUIGLEY.I PRAY DEAR LORD THAT YOU WILL JUST BE WITH THIS MAN AND THE STRUGGLES THAT HE IS GOING THJROUGH WITH HIS EX WIFE. LORD I JUST PRAY THAT YOU WILL SEND A CALMNESS THERE AND PEACE .THAT THERE WILL AN AGREEMENT MEANT IN SAKE OF THIS PRECCIOUS THAT IS INVOLVED . DEAR JESUS THAT THE JUGDE WILL SEE THAT THIS IS TRYING AND WILL SEE FIT TO GIVE HIM TIME AND LEEWAY WITH HIS CHILD. LORD , SEND A PEACE AND COMFORT AROUND HIM AND LET THAT EVERYTHING WORKS OUT FOR THE BETTEREMENT OF YOU AND YOUR JUDGEMENT,AND LET HIM LORD THAT YOU ARE WITH HIM.GIVE HIM PEACE,COMFORT,AND TAKEAWAY THE SADNESS THAT HAS FILLED THIS MAN;S HEART.JESUS, I ALSO PRAY THAT YOU WILL BE HIM AND QUIGLEY AND THE RELATIONSHIP THEY ARE BEGINNING TOGETHER.JUST FILL THEIR WITH THE LOVE BOTH HAVE NEEDE AND SEARCH FOR . IN ALL THIS I ASK AND I PRAY ,IN JESUS PRECIOUS NAME.AMEN AND AMEN.

HEY RENEE,GLAD TO HAER FROM YOU .im trying to get started today , i gotta get up and get ready for our prayer group here in a few hours. but i wanta to make sure , i anwseresd everyone .ihope e erything is well your way . how is your mother doing ? i been doing a little more writing. i've wanted to put some of daddys sermons in the prayer circle you went to, but i have'vt as of yet. strengh has been down today a little,but yall me by now ,i dont let it stopped me very long .i just keep on keeping on.hahhaha.the LORD GOD IS SO WONDERFUL.HE GIVES ME STRENGH WHENI HAVE NONE. but i am getting a liitle tired,so iwill cloce for nowand i will come back after our prayer group.love you always,kris.

hello to everyone else, who may come and has come here ,MAY GOD BE WITH YOU ALL.

Hello Kris,Renee,Quigley,
Hope all are doing well and are continuely in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there Quigley, I didnt start drinking and becoming a drunk over night just as I couldnt quit overnight. I tried a re-hab last year and stayed Sober for about 3 weeks then started slowly drinking again thinking only 3 beers or 2 glasses of wine would be ok, until it became a nightly ritual..This is why I try soooooo hard now to totally stay away from booze, because 2 or 3 isnt enough then I smoke when I drink, it goes hand in hand..It's hard still but I seem to be able to just pray and loose the desire when the temptation arises, and when it does I drink O'duls when Im around people drinking, other than that I drink a gallon of tea at night...hahahahhah..Just keep asking for Gods help and BELIEVE ME..he will come to your rescue when he feels your ready..Never give up, he always is bye our side..we just need to give ALL our problems to him since we are to weak to deal with things ourselves( believe me I no)..I had to learn to like myself, love myself so I could give up the booze. I wasnt happy when I was drinking and I didnt like the person I was becoming, calling in sick lots with hangovers, smoking a pack of cigs a day, fighting all the time with my Fiance...Since I have quit we havent gotten into 1 fight yet PRAISE JESUS...in fact he hardly ever drinks now, only a few beers on the boat on weekends so now we get along much better:-)Sometimes God puts us thru trials and tribulations to strengthen us, whey I dont no, but I do no at 39 this is the first time Iv'e ever said NO to alcohol since I was 16..He can do miracles..We may fall and stumble caz none of us is perfect but he is always there to lift us back up.I cant say I will NEVER have a drink or cig again, caz Im not perfect..But I do no for NOW it's been my number 1 priority to stay Sober and I have and feel 100% better health wise..I wish you more energy Kris and great health. Renee hope all is well for you and you have Peace in your heart. Tommy is alive in spirit and I think watching over all of us and helping all of us in addiction..Praise God you started this site.I care so much for you all so deeply and love hearing your stories. Hope you have a great week and good things come your way.God bless,
Bettyann

Hello all - thank you Kris and Bettyann - You have no idea how much it means to me for you both to be praying and believing in me - Renee, I hope all is well with you - I can never express my gratitude to you - I'm grateful that you guys believe in me because I'm losing faith in myself - I am very down this morning - I'm irritable, cranky and hung over and disgusted with myself. I'm afraid I am going to drive my new boyfriend away because I am scared because I'm starting to care for him a lot and I have been drinking more and more - he drinks too but very conservatively and last night I ended up drinking till 1:00 and I had to work at 7:30 this morning and I said all of these mean things to him - he told me this morning that I hurt his feelings so bad and that he doesn't understand why I'm drinking so much - I don't either - what am I doing? I'm scared he will hurt me like the last guy - isn't that dumb? So - what do I do - try to make him leave me so I don't get too attached - am I nuts? I'm so confused - I know it will pass - just a bad day, I need your prayers more than ever today - love you all

DEAR QUIGLEY,JUST READ YOUR MAIL AND MY HEART IS JUST SAD.FIRST OF ALL, IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU ARE REALLY CARING AND STARTING TO HAVE DEEP FEELINGS FOR THIS MAN AND IT IS SCARING YOU AND YOU ARE WANTING TO RUN , BECAUSE YOU ARE AFRAID OF GETTING HURT AGAIN.AND YOU ARE AFRAID THAT IF YOU GIVE YOUR HEART TO THIS MAN TOTALLY THAT YOU WILL BE SETTING YOURSELF UP FOR ANOTHER HEARTACHE.SO YOU THINK IF I JUST GO AND DRINK AND GET PLASTERED , I WANT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT HOW MUCH I REALLY DO CARE FOR THIS MAN AND THOSE FEELIND\GS WILL GO AWAY,BUT QUIGLEY, HONEY SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO TRUST AND WE HAVE TO TAKE THAT CHANCE AT LOVE.YOU KNOW MY STORY AND HOW I WAS DONE,IF NOT IT WAS VERY BRUTAL&AND VERY AHRDAND ONE TIME THE LAST TIME I WAS WITH THOUGHT THAT IT WOULD BE FUNNY TO PUT ME IN A COMA FOR THREE DAYS BY SHOOTING ME UP NEAR MY HEART WITH 25 CCOF CRANK.I FORGIVE,AND IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO GET OVER THAT . BUT I DID. I DONT BLAME HIM FOR MY DISEASE,ALTOUGH HE ALMOST KILLED MORE THAN ONCE, I THANK GOD THAT I;M STILL ALIVE AND I THANK GOD FOR EVERYDAY I HAVE,YOU SEE I HAVE ALREADY OUTLIVED ALL MY LIFESPANS WITH MY TERMINAL DISEASES.THE POINT I'M TRYING TOMAKE IS ,HE TOOK A LOT FROM ME , BUT GOD GAVE ME BACK EVERYTHING TENFOLD. YOU SEE GOD JUST HELPED ME TO BE STRONGER. AND QUIGLEY,HONEY , I'VE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE.BUT YOU HAVE GOT TO TAKE THE CHANCE .DRINKING IS NOT THE ANWSER, IT'S NOT A OPTION,IT'S NOT NOT GONNA SOLVE THE PROMBLEM,THE PROMBLEMS WILL STILL BE THERE IN THE MORNING AND LIKE YOU SAID , YOU HAVE A HANG OVER AND I REMEMBER THOSE, I HAD A FEW OF THOSE MYSELF IN YOUNGER DAYS.THEY ARE HORRIBLE.GIVE THIS MAN A CHANCE . TRUST YUOR HEART.ALLOW HIM TO SHOW HIS LOVE FOR YOU.DONT BE SCARED TO LOVE AGAIN.IWAS,AND YOU CANT BE.I WROTE A POEM FOR YOU, THE LORD LAID ON MY HEART TO WRITE.BEFORE I CLOSE TO WRITE THE POEM,IWILL HAVE A WORD OF PRAYER FOR YOU.DEAR GOD,I COME IN PRAYER ASKING THAT YOU JUST TOUCH QUIGLEY HEART LORD. JUST ENTER IN AND TAKE ALL HER PAIN AND WORRIES AWAY. JUST REASSURE HER DEARLORD THAT SHE IS LOVED, AND THAT SHE IS WATCH OVER AND THAT YOU HAVE HER IN THA PALM OF YOUR HAND , DAER JESUS I JUST PRAY THAT YOU WILL SEND A CALMNEESS TO WEATHER THE STORMS OF HER HEART LORD . JUST SEND HER PEACE , LOVE, UNDERSTANDING, COMFORTNESS, TRANQUILTY,JOY,AND LET HER KNOW THAT SHE DOES'NT HAVE TO BE AFRAID. AND DEAR GOD I JUST ASK THAT YOU WILL REMOVE THE DESIRES OF DRINKING AWAY FROM HER. GIVE HER A PEACEFUL SPIRIT.IN ALL THIS I ASK AND PRAY IN YOUR PRECIOUS NAME . IN JESUS NAME I PRAY . AMEN. YOU ARE LOVED. YOU MATTER. YOU ARE SOMEONE.LOVE YOU ALWAYS.KRIS.

HEART OF MATTER;
THE HEART PUTS A BARRIER AND A SHELL
AROUND THE INNER WALL OF ITS SELF.
SOMEHOW TO PROTECT AND HELP IT TO HEAL.
SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO ALLOW THE HEART;TO GO FREE,ANDALLOW FOR IT TO FEEL.

A HEART THAT ONCE HAS BEEN BROKEN , CAN BE MENDED ONCE AGAIN.
WITH LOVE THE PIEACES CAN BE HEALEED ,IF YOU ALLOW IT TO ENTER IN.
SOMETIMES YOU HAE TO TAKE A CHANCE
LET YOUR HEART AND SOUL DANCE.
SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO LET THE HEART GO FREE.
SO IT CAN PURSUE THE HEART'S DESTINIES.
SO IT CAN FIND IT'SLOVE AND HOLD IT , CHERISH IT,TREASURE AND MEASURE THE GROWTH.
TO NOT BE AFRAID OF LETTING GO;TO JUST SET THE HEART INSIDE A GLOW.
WE HOLD THE PIEACESOF A HEART THAT WERE BROKEN.
SO TIGHTLY INSIDE INSIDE AND LEAVE WORDS UNSPOKEN.
BUT THERE COMES A TIME,WHEN YOU MUST LEAP AND FOLLOW YOUR HEART.
FOR THOSE PIEACES THAT ONCE WERE TORN APART;
ARE NOW WAITINGFOR LOVE TO BEGIN A NEW START.7-09-03WRITTEN IN DEDICATION TO QUIGLEY .LOVE ALWAYS,KRIS.

DEAR BETTYANN, IM SO AMAZEED AT HOW AND HOW GREAT YOU ARE COMING ALONG. IREALLY ENJOY READING YOUR TESTIMOIES. WHAT A WONDERFUL TESTIMONY YOU GAVE TO QUIGLEY. IT IS VERY EASY HOW YOU CAN GET SNARED INTO THE TRAP OF ALCOHOL, DRUGS OR PILLS OR ANY ADDICTION. BUT IT IS SO REWARDING WHEN YOU ALLOW GOD TO STEP IN AND TAKE CONTROL AND LET HIM DO THE WILL HE HAS WANTED TO DO FOR YOU IN YOUR LIFE. BETTYANN , YOU GONNA START SEEING EVERYDAY JUST HOW MUCH HE CAN BRING YOU THROUGH AND SEE YOU THROUGH AND HELP YOU THREOUGH, AND I COULD'NT HEPL HELP BUT GET A LITTLE LAUGH OUT OF THE TEA, IM GRINNING FROM EAR TO EAR RIGHT NOW, CAUSE I LOVE HEARING THAT.HOPE YOUR BATHROOM IS NEAR!!HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!IM GONNA DO A LITTLE WRITNG AND ON MY BIBLE AND I WILL COME BACK LATER .THER'S IS MORE I WOULD LIKE TO WRITE.LOVE YA,KRIS

DEAR RENEE, HOPE THIS FINDS EVERYTHING WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY DOING FINE.YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS AND MY HEART AND PRAYERS ALWAYS,ALWAYS.LOVE,KRIS.

Quigley, Dont be down on yourself. You are drinking more now caz you remind me of when I used to do that. You dont want to deal with the feelings your experiencing , fear, love, scared, alone, confused, etc...so its easier to just drink and get drunk then hopefully tomorrow will be better and you will forget your problems..NOT...the problem is it will still be there, all the problems. Whatever your circumstance, you cannot let those"reasons" become "excuses". Easy or Hard,if you remain imprisoned in self-denial, then days, weeks, months, years will continue to be wasted.It's your life and the clock is ticking. Your life is not a dress rehearsel(dr.Phil)..Is today a perfect example? THink about it. Like so many other days, it is now over and lost forever. Whatever you did or didnt do, felt or didnt feel, suffered or reveled in, shared or didnt share, it's done.You can start a Journey to a better, more fullfilling life..Just keep praying and ask yourself what is scaring you and why you are drinking to not feel? It really helps to right a journal. Hang in there. You can do it, you will do it, but YOU NEED GOD'S HELP. YOU CANT DO IT ALONE...We are all here for you..If this man is meant to be God will work it out.God Bless always, hang in there
Bettyann

Today

What do you think,
as you start each new day?
When you open your eyes,
what do you say?
Today is a day
like none of the rest
it gives you a chance
to be at your best,
Some seem so happy,
so bright
and so gay.
This is the time
when all goes my way.
In a blink of a moment,
you look back at the past.
The times were hard
but, flew by you so fast.
Today is a day
just like all of the rest.
But one thing is different,
You're still at your best.
For all of the good,
the happy and the sad,
You can still look back
at the times you've had.
You might want to laugh.
You might want to cry.
Just don't loose the feeling
You shine in God's eyes.
- FA Bradley

Dear Heavenly Father,
I ask that you watch over Tommy's soul. May he find peace in heaven. Also, please contact the spirit of Charles so that he may embrace the opportunity that Tommy never could. Deliver him from the evils of addiction. Help him to see that there is a better way.

Dear Kris & Bettann,

Thank you both for being there and your prayers and support. I am feeling much, much better today. Kris, No, I didn't know your story and I'm very sorry that happened to you. I can't imagine anyone being able to do such a horrible thing to another person - you are so strong for pulling through that and having the attitude that you do. I apologized to my guy and you are right, I am caring a lot for this person and I wasn't quite expecting that since I just came out of a 5 year relationship 6 months ago. So, I'm going to try and get over that fear - he has definitely got a lot of his own problems with his ex-wife, son and court but I just pray I can stay strong for him because I know he needs me there for him just like I need his support with the not drinking. We are going to Lake Shasta this weekend with the kids and I pray I can be the person I really am inside and not go off the deep end again.

BA - Thanks for your advice - my boyfriend asked me the same thing - he wanted to know what I was hiding from and why I felt I had to drink so much - it hurt his feelings because he thought I had to drink like that to be with him which is not the case. The truth is is that I'm not sure why - except that I don't feel really comfortable around people until I have had a couple drinks and then my problem is I don't want to stop at just a couple. I'll keep trying - you sound like you're doing great - keep up the good work.

Dear Lord,

I pray that I can overcome my fear of caring for B and I pray that if we are meant to be we can both work together at helping each other through our problems. I pray that I don't ever act the way I acted the other night again. Please keep my tongue from lashing out and saying cruel hurtful things and help me to learn not to drown myself in an alcohol stupor. Please help me to learn how to embrace life sober. Help me to focus on my job today and to do a good job - please give me strength to listen to B's problems and to let him lean on me when he needs to. Help me to listen to you and live my life the way you want me to amen

Kris,

Will you give me the web site again for your brother? I tried to pull his name up but that didn't work and I can't find where you typed it in in here.

I'm off for a 3 day weekend of hot califiornia sun - Everyone have a safe weekend - God Bless

Hi all,
Hotter than heck :-) Going boating this weekend as it is 95 and very hot.Quigley, hope you have a good weekend. I totally understand your story.I didnt like to be around people inless I first drank a few, but like you a few wasnt enough..kept going and going till I was a fallen drunk with a very bad foul mouth...I come from an alcoholic home so I suppose when I was drunk and things didnt go my way I always used harmful and hurtful words to my boyfriend.The next day I felt so bad( that which I could remember)..He always said I dont no why you get this way when you drink..WELL...It's the alcohol..some people can drink and others get mean and drunk like us, so we are NOT meant to drink. It takes time but life is just as fun w/o the booze. I'm going to a concert tomorrow first time Sober,,hehehheeheheh so this ought to be a new experience for me..Just ask and you shall recieve..You no deep down that you have a problem with booze so you just need to TRY to give it up totally..Dont fool yourself like I did thinking well just 2 or 3 will be ok this time..caz eventually its nightly and more to feel the buz!!!!.I enjoy O'duls now, it taste like beer but no alcohol in it..It will get easier trust me. I had a bad day today, went with my mom to the casino and lost 75$..wanted to go bye beer on the way home,,but kept telling myself now where will that get me if I drink 4 or 5 beers? IN TROUBLE AGAIN...so it( the desire) finally left me and I came home said a prayer and made ice coffee. There will be times when you want to drink but just tell yourself it wont solve anything and only get you into trouble and make things worse. I will continue to pray for you all..Like I said, God does things in his own timing..I prayed last year to quit and never did, now this year I almost lost everything, boyfriend, house, job, dogs the things that mean alot to me all over 1 lousy night out partying with a girlfriend and getting home at 3am and causing a fight with my b/f and hitting him.Well needless to say, I was mad he kicked me out for good the next day but look what has happened since..GOD has turned things around for me in more ways that one. We get along great now, Im hopefully going back to school in Sept for Medical asst as long as the loan goes thru and life is good Sober..It will happen for you, have faith, trust and just keep praying and never give up..Soon the desire will go away when GOd thinks you can handle it. God bless to you all and I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, I will talk soon,
Love lots
Peace@Love,
Bettyann :-)