Prayer Circles

Hey y'all Angelmoms!
Just a quick post to let you that I am okay... Just trying to "cope" and not "crumble". Sandy, thank you for caring and putting out the call for me! Sure makes one feel wanted!

August 9th is our first one-year anniversary of our son Sean-Michael's passing. It is all so overwhelming right now with our son Matthew's friends accident and Matthew Meyer's passing. It was a repeat of our son Sean's accident... Emergency services could not find them. They are doing a study to find out why our area has the highest fatality rate in Los Angeles County. I can answer that for them. Wide open spaces, no lights, and not enough emergency services to go around. In both accidents all they had to do was send a chopper out (which they do all the time looking for bad boys)to search the area. They refused. Amazing.

Love to all of you. Susan, hope you are feeling better with your meds. Selva, mi hermana, please take care of yourself. Solange and Sean are watching us both very closely right now...Let's make 'em proud! Verna, great to hear Felicia is coming home. For what it's worth - I think you should buy a new computer. Anything over 5 years old is not worth updating. You can buy a great new PC for $500! Save your old PC for storage. A PC is just like a car - eventually you have to replace that old clunker and when you do you wonder what took you so long to do so!

Sandy, much love to you! I so appreciate your love, caring and sharing of yourself.

To all the new Angelmoms. Welcome and God Bless you. I am so sorry for your lost. My story of the lost of my beloved 18-year old son Sean is on page 193. I have come along way since then thanks to this wonderful circle of love and the prayers and support of our angelmoms.

With much love and prayers to all,
Marci ~.~

PS Jeff finally came home from the hospital this past week and is doing well physically. Both he and Reed are struggling over the loss of their childhood friend Matthew Meyer. Reed is facing charges. I ask that you continue to pray for them and their families...

Hi my dear sister Verna. Yes it is getting to be very hard, I can not just imagine been without my dear Angel Solange for such a lot of time. I am in deep valley days, this is the first time I have not see Solange in 23 and a half months, I don't know how to handle it, it does not seems to get any better, I think it just gets worse. Ay my dear sister, I have nothing to keep on living I just hope that God helps me. Love you my dear sister. Selva

Hi my dear sister Marci. You have gone through so much. I have been praying for you so that God will give you the strenght to go on. I have no words, just prayers, like I told you before, Solange's ex boyfriend went through the samething, I always talk to his mother, he was the driver, he got one year (after paying good lawyers) in home detention, but he is all screwed up, he does not want to go to a pshyco etc, so his parents are living a nightmare. I keep praying for him and parents and I will pray for God will help them and you and your family, please keep on posting, you know that your are part of our family. Love Selva

My dear sister Verna. Please give Felecia a big kiss from me, she is a fighter, and we are prayers she will make it. Ay my dear sister I (we) will storm Heaven for her nad I know God will listen to our prayers. God forgive but I think He owes us. Love Selva

Well, I made it! Last night Miss V and I tried to logon here, but weren't able to, they kept asking for our password and kept giving it to them and they would say "NO", :-) So if anybody else tried, it wasn't your username or password, it was a glitch here at Beliefnet that occured, but hurray, it's been fixed!

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i just want to say to everyone who has lost a child, it will get better.we lost our son unexpectdly at 1 month old back in '91 and it will get better.it never totally goes away but you learn to accept it more and get on with your life.you will never forget them but you'll get to a point where you will be able to start enjoying things again,which is what they would want us to do.they wouldn't want us to be miserable all the time.

Hi Susan, thanks for sharing your own story with us, very painful also. Glad you found out the truth ahout the accident, but no, it really doesn't help very much, Ricky's still gone and you and your dear family are left behind to grieve, endure the awful pain that is there and the missing of him so, so much in your lives.
Losing one of our precious children change's our lives so much, doesn't it.
We're no longer the person we once were, as we say here, this is such a complicated and painful loss, it permeate's every aspect of our lives and that of our families. Others (thankfully) don't understand how devastating it is not only to us, but the brothers, sisters left behind too.
I'm so sorry to read about your daughter, but very happy that she's getting the necessary help she need's, as well as yourself, God love you all.
As Selva said, we understand the pain here, the more you let it out, the better it is for you, this is a very safe haven to do that in, so I hope you'll post whenever you feel like it, we can all relate here. And you never have to apologize for 'rambling', that word just doesn't exist here at this Circle. Yes, just take one day at a time, much easier to deal with it when you do that. Our love and prayers are with you too, and your family,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi our dear Miss V, wow, wonderful news about Felicia Kaye, thank You Lord for all answered prayers for her! Yum, mac 'n cheese would cheer me up too, :-)
It has been a big undertaking, but just think, all that hard work is beginning to pay off and Chain Reaction will be a reality by the end of the year! Maybe sooner! Then we'll be looking for you on Oprah, :-)
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear sister, August is a very difficult month for you, Marci and Miss V, but you do have something to live for, it's hard to see that right now with being in so much pain, but I know that God has a special plan for you. Our love, understanding and prayers will see you through another difficult time for you, we always have each other here to fall back on.
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi our dear Marci, great to see you posting! Of course we love you and want to hear from you, so I hope I don't have to put out a call to you again, :-) you know by now that we care and hold you in our love and hearts and when we don't hear from you, worry set's in!
I know sweetie, this is a very rough time for you too, Sean Michael's special day coming up soon. I know it doesn't possibly seem like a year to you, time does go fast, but I do know on the other hand that a year without him physically there with you all can seem a lifetime as well. You know too that we're all here for you to help in anyway we can to 'soften' it, even a little.
No, with everything else that's been going on with the accident, Matthew, his parents, and the other 2 boys and their parents, it's been a very hard time on you as well and of course hard to cope with it all.
Well goodness yes, if they only would use a helicopter they'd be much more efficient at getting help to those in that area, I can't for the life of me understand why they dismissed that?
Glad to hear Jeff is home and doing well physically and of course I feel for Reed, not only losing his friend, but being charged as well, all are in my contined prayers.
And you too our sister,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi jlc2004, welcome to the Circle and thank's so much for posting and sharing your own loss. You're so right, in time you learn how to live with it but of course you never forget, impossible to forget our children that we love and always will. May God bless you and your family,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

OH Susan, I shed tears for you and your family, My boyfriends daughter died, we knew her 2 years, my 13 year old is talking suicide, in counseling, having a very hard time with the loss. I quess everyone deals with it a little different. Me i'm on anti depressants too,So hard to accept ! We are not supposed to bury our children.
My are prayers tonight are for your family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chris

Hi All! ~ My computer has lost it's mind!!! Ha-ha! Some kind of virus! :( Will post hopefully sometime next week when I get my new computer. All are in my prayers!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Hi my dear Angel sister. Hi Chris I am so sorry specially about your own daughter, I am so glad that she is under counseling, we are all in it. I'm still going through counseling (23 and half months)and taking Prozac etc. It is a very long and hard road, so we all need help You can count on us, we all understand the pain, and you can count on our prayers. I am very honest , so I think God owes us , so I always ask Him for relief. Love Selva

Hi Miss V. I miss you, should we get a message to James, no more repairs, you need a new computer, if we all chip in then maybe we can get a new one, I'm on. How is the book project coming along? When are we going to Oprah? You are in my prayers my dear sister, give my grandson a big hug and kiss from her cuban grandma. Love you my sister. Selva

Hi my dear sister with the big loving heart! ~ You are a sweetheart to offer help but thank God, I can handle it. :) The only reason I've waited this long is because Papaw made me promise to never use a credit card again! Ha-ha! So that meant putting a little aside until we could afford it. And guess what? I go shopping for my computer today! I am so excited and can hardly wait. Leia [book editor] and I meet later this week, so I can turn in my manuscript. It's still on disks, but with luck and not having to make too many changes in format, I should have a copy in my hands real soon. So keep storming heaven my sister, and maybe my efforts will pay off soon! God bless you Selva, my sister, and all my other angel sisters as well. You are all in my thoughts which places you in my heartfelt prayers!
God's peace & blessings,
LOVE2U ~
Verna
Mother of Diane
8/16/60 ~ 8/31/96
Forever In Our Hearts

I will give your grandson a big hug & kiss for you today! :)

Hi my dear Miss V. What a great news, you are getting a new computer, but remember, you have to take care of your hands and arms, so lets not over do it. I am very happy for you, and yes we will go to Oprah, that i promise!, our dear Angel in Chief Sandy will be off until late thursday, she went to see her son Chris and her niece and sister etc, so we will keep of the Fort for her. Love you my sister V, it is a sad month for us, but we will keep on praying. Love Selva

Hello dear AngelMoms!

I'm back, after a short (too-short!) vacation and visit! Had a wonderful time visiting with my family and being in the 'big' city again, :-). I had dinner with Chris and his girlfriend it was so nice, he actually made it for me! I'm impressed, all the recipe's I've given him have payed off! Then we just sat around chatting. Yesterday I spent it with my sis Laurie and my sweet little niece Selena, she's so cute and no, I'm not biased in the least, :-). We were all sitting outside in their backyard, and Selena kept saying to the neighbour's, "Want to come over, my Aunt Sandy's here", ha, ha! She had me in stitches over some of the thing's she was coming out with, :-). She'll be entering Kindergarten in September, which work's out good for my sis, she start's the Nursing program in September also. I'm proud of her and I know our Mom would be too. I hated to leave, but on the other hand there's no place like home and your own bed again.
Always in my love, heart and prayers,
Sandy - Hugs too!

H E L P !!!!!!
mother needs prayers
My best friend has a son in his 20's who was in a car accident many years ago, he survived but is paralized from the chest down. he finished school and has done pretty good.a daily stuggle with emotional and phisical needs for him and his familly.
yesterday he went back in the hospital, what started out as a bladder infection has spread through his body and as of now in his lungs. after such a long battle of hope I'm so scarred.
I am going to be with her (pam)-Son (steve) Please light your candles to join mine in pprayer ,that we don't have to loose yet another child. Chris

Oh gosh, Chris, that's sad, BUT with all our prayers for Pam and Steve, with lit Candles too, I'm trusting in Our Lord for a healing for Steve, please let us know and keep us updated,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

just came back from strong hosp. not real good at this time, infection in blood, lungs not good (on ventalator), in a drug induced paralize, blue lips.
the accident was 8 years ago, he was 17 at the time. parents very worried at this time. also heart stopped last night but revived.
I'm keeping my candle lit !!!!
I told pam about you all, told her we have help in the prayer dept. Chris

OMG dear Chris, we will Storm Heaven for Steve and his parents, we will ask God to have mercy and also to give Pam enough strenght. You can count on us and we will also keep our candle lit. Please let us know and tell Pam thera are a bunch of Angel Moms praying for her and Steve. Thanks for sharing. Selva

Hi my dear Angel Moms. First of all I want to let you know that I went to the Dr. today and after all these months I finally found out that I don't have cancer. I have been running from one Dr to another and biopsies done all over again and second opinions etc since I had the accident Jan 6, well thanks for your prayers and love I am cancer free.God listens to us Angel Moms. Like our Angel in chief told me, God have other plans for me. Thanks again to all of you. Love Selva