Prayer Circles

Hello our dear Ang!! Terrific to see you back, you were missed! I'm so happy that you got through your brother's Anniversary as well as can be, yes, what a wonderful healing for you! That's so sweet of you to be looking after your friends like that, you're being the Angel that they needed in their lives. You heard from Angelo?
Please tell him that we all say hello too and hope he's doing much better, he had enough to deal with too. And still does. Well, see, out of helping your friends has come a Ministry for you, you and your friend are filling a need in your Church, reaching out to those who are sick, and there's nothing like a Teddy Bear to hug to warm a person's heart and lift their spirits! Good for you, our dear Ang!
You were once a Mod. here - I've been Hosting 2 Boards here at B'net and they're both extremely busy and keep me hopping - but I love it.
Yes, get yourself a bird, :-)
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello AngelMoms,
It's been a tough week mentally and physically over here. We had a huge tree limb fall right behind the house in the middle of the night. I think the tree was damaged during the storms a few weeks ago and it eventually died and fell off. A few feet either way and it would have either landed in my son's bed or right on top of my outside dog. It actually flattened my dogs stainless steel food bowl. My angel Alex was definitely looking out for us.
On top of that, I have been battling severe depression again. I know most of you have been there; I just got tired of fighting it and I let the bad thoughts take over. My husband caught me at my lowest point and brought me to my doctor. My doc is a great guy, he even came to Alex's funeral. We talked for a while and he ended up changing my meds and giving me something to help me sleep. As you can see by the time, I haven't started on that yet; but I promised my husband I will starting next week. Little by little I am feeling better.
You are all in my prayers,
Susan

Hi dear Susan,
Good gosh, yes, thank God it landed as it did, imagine, enough weight behind it to flatten your dog's aluminum dish!
Yes, your precious Alex was looking after his family, :-).
Oh sweetie, that's too bad, I'd rather have the flu than Depression, at least with the flu you still have your spirits and you know in a few days or so it'll be gone, but not so with Depression and i find the worst of it is, people very seldom understand, but thank goodness for your hubby, he saw it getting worse in you and did the right thing, you have no control over those thought's, but with new meds. and something to help you get some sleep, I know you'll start feeling better soon.
Why are you waiting until next week? Being up at 4 am tell's me you need some rest and now. Not telling you what to do, just concerned.
Yes, sound's like your Dr. is very personable and approachable, that make's all the difference. When I needed help my Dr. put me on Zoloft, it didn't cut it so she changed it to Effexor and that did. Sometimes you have to experiment a bit to find the right one for you. You know we're always here to love you and support you, and my prayers are always with you too, as are all the other AngelMoms.
Much love & Tender hugs,
Sandy

Hi our dear sister Susan. What a terrible thing, but at the same time look at it this way, Alex was there for all of you , that is a sign my dear sister, he is telling you, MOM, I am here for you, even if you can see me I can see you. I just moved to another place but I am still your son and my spirit is very much alive. Depression, ay my dear sister we are all expert on that, but please don't wait until next week, why?. I've been taking Prozac for 23 months now, is a way to help us cope with such a tragedy, and if we can help ourselves some, then why not, after all we have to continue living even if we don't want to, it is God's Will, and we are going through so much pain, that we do need a little help. Don't try to do it on your own, this is THE PAIN, I go to my pshyco every week, take my pills and I am still living Hell, imagine if I did not take those pills? I can con commit suicide, it is against my belief and I am sure Solange don't want me to do that, so I have to keep on , and so do you my dear sister. Until God decides we have to be here, but think, The Reunion, yes we will be with our child again and this time Forever. Keep on pressing on, just take a moment at a time.See I have no other children, Solange was all I had, so count your Blessings and Hang on to God, He will help you. Love you my dear sister, and please keep on coming back to our Circle of Love, you will find all the understanding, and no judgement.We are all together in this. Love Selva

Please pray for our family. We lost Stephi, 7 yo disabled daughter 11 wks ago. I have been feeling very depressed, sad, anxious, overwhelmed, in a deep black pit unable to get out. We also have money problems. Please pray for us. Visit Stephs website at, www.geocities.com/ourangelstephanie and sign the guestbook! Thanks.

Dear (((((Cheri)))))

I visited Steph's page and signed the GB for you. Congratulations for donating Steph's corneas so now 2 people can see! I know that must have been a very difficult decision, but in that way, Steph can live on thru others. Cheri, I have not lost a child, but I do websites and webpages for lost children and have endured triple family suicides in my own family. You have come to the right place for support; the grieving mom's here and Sandy, our Angel Chief is very loving and supportive. I will keep you in my prayers and thank you for your post...Lots of Love, Angela xoxo

(((((Cheri)))))

I emailed you from Steph's site but it was returned. Please click here to email me...Thanks, love Ang.

Hi dear Cheri, and a warm welcome to the Circle. You just lost your precious Stephi 11 week's ago, no wonder you're in that black pit, God love you. The pain is terrible, isn't it, you feel as though your heart has been ripped from your chest. You're very much in shock and disbelief right now and that's OK, it's very normal to feel that way right now, your loss is so recent. There is no greater pain in this World than for a Parent to lose a beloved child, nothing compare's to it.
I hope you have good supportive people around you right now, and please cry as often as you like, it's a way of letting some of the pain out. Please don't listen to well-meaning people who try to help by saying you should be happy your child's in Heaven, (of course that's comforting) or those who tell you to start moving on, they mean well, but they can never understand the pain and how our world has been turned upside down. Take it one hour at a time, one day at a time, go slowly, grieve at your own pace. All of us here know the pain of losing a child, so please post back, you'll only find love, understanding, compassion, support and prayers, never any judging, this is too lonely a road to go down by yourself, so know that we're all here for you,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Cheri, I just visited your beautiful website for Steph, a wonderful tribute to her life and the joy and love she gave to you and your family, that was wonderful to donate her corneas, the best gift one can ever leave to someone!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

I lost my son in a car accident on Oct.19-2000. He was only 18 years old. It will soon be 4years and at times it feels like yesterday. My prayers and thoughts all go out to those who have lost a child. It is the most emotionally crippling thing that can happen to a family. God Bless Each And Everyone of You.

I haven't physically lost a child, but sometimes I feel like I've lost my 21 year old son who is in jail looking at prison time, who drinks to forget about life, and has a meth problem. He knows God exsists, but he lives in a world that serves satan. He was raised in a christian home with both of his biological parents, and I don't know what to do other than pray.

I haven't physically lost a child, but sometimes I feel like I've lost my 21 year old son who is in jail looking at prison time, who drinks to forget about life, and has a meth problem. He knows God exsists, but he lives in a world that serves satan. He was raised in a christian home with both of his biological parents, and I don't know what to do other than pray.

Hi Starrni. Welcome to our Circle of Love. Yes this is "The Pain". I am sorry to hear about your son, I lost my only daughter 20 years old, also in a car accident, Aug 15, 2002. It has been 23 months. It is a horrible nightmare that we wish we can wake up and forget about it. God Bless you too our dear Starrni. Feel welcome to port here anytime you want to. We all understand this pain, we cry together, and we pray together, this is a very hard road to travel alone. So please post anytime you want to, you will find lots of understanding, love, prayers, no judgement here. Love Selva

Hi Atelan. I am so sorry, but you have to have faith and God will help your son, you can count with our prayers so that God will lift your son out of that valley. Just keep Pressing On and please count on our prayers, feel welcome to post here anytime you want, yes it most be a terrible pain, but remember there is Hope. Welcome to our Circle of Love Atelan, we will Storm Heaven so that God will help your son find HIM. Love Selva

Hello starri,
So very sorry to hear of your own loss, your beloved 18 yrs. old son. No, time doesn't really matter that much when it come's to missing our children, does it, it's something we live with everyday. God bless you on your own Journey of grief and please post here anytime you want, tell us about your son, we're all very good at listening,
Love and Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello atelan, that's very sad to read, but never give up hope, keep up your prayers for your son, he's suffering from the illness of addiction right now, I pray he's ready to accept any help that is offered to him right now. Please don't estrange yourself from your son, he need's your love and support right now so much, our prayers are with you for strength for yourself too, this has to be very hard on you yourself. God's love and peace to your son and yourself, and please post back anytime, you're always welcome here,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Our dear Marci, we haven't heard from you in a while, hope and pray you're doing as well as you can be, please post and let us know how you are,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Thank you all for being so kind. When my son died in the accident he was with a friend and his friend's girlfriend. Ricky had caught a ride with them to get home that night. They was one mile from where we live and the accident happened. My husband and I had taken our first trip to Gatlinburg TN for the weekend,we had never been anywhere by ourselfs since Ricky was born. Come to find out the girlfriend said she was driving but later we learned that my sons friend was. He had been drinking and was traveling to fast, went into a curve and lost control and hit an embankment and flipped the truck over three times. My son died at the scene with major head trama. We have been in court for three years trying to get this solved. Finally in December of 03 the girlfriend admitted what had taken place. But the statue of limitations was up and she got 6 months probation and 100 hours of community service. Stacy received two years probation supervised and a fine of 500.00. We thought that getting to the bottom of this would help ease the pain and put a end to our nightmare of three years. But it has not , I cry every day and think every day about him. Our 16 year old daughter at the time was so close to Ricky that during her grieve she got anorexia, and tried to commit suicide by hanging herself. We had to commit her for months . She is doing better now but they say she will never be the same again. I had to seek professional help also. My therapist told me I was like a bridge and that it was filled to its limit and fixing to burst. That's when I went antidepressant and nerve medication. Which I still take to this day along with sleeping pills to rest at night. My husband also had to seek help and get on medication. I'm now taking care of my mother who is in the first stages of alzehemers. My husband has had five back surgery's and has steel rods and pins half way up his back. And I have had three back surgery's. One on my neck which I have a metal plate and screw, and two on my lower back. I have two bulging discs one more in my neck and another on the bottom. I'm putting off all surgery until I just have to have it. I work 40 hours a week as a customer service rep, and accounts receivable.I also do floral arrangements for funerals and other decorations. Some days I don't know if I'm coming or going. I pray every night just get me through one day at a time. Ricky was a happy boy. He loved to play jokes on everyone and was always a smiling. He was 6'3" and weighed over two hundred pounds. He use to love to pick me up and swing my 5ft10" frame around and around. I miss him so much. He would sit and tell me everything that was going on in his life. I home schooled both Ricky and Kimberly from high school and they both was real close to each othe and me.She is the only reason I'm here to write this today. My greive was so bad I'd get up in the middle of the night and get a small pistol we had and leave the house and would not remember a thing about. Walk in the rain, my husband had to watch me real close. My therapist said my grieve was so extreme that I was blocking all fo this out.We can just now talk about him without crying all the time. Sorry for rambling on, but it has felt good to let this out. I know what all of you are feeling, and I'm hoping as time goes on, life for our family will get better. I pray for all of you out there.
Susan/God Bless

Hi my dear Susa. Welcome again to our Circle of Love. My dear friend, you are going through so much, we all understand. I had only one daughter, she felt sleep at the wheel, she was borned to Heaven Aug 15, 2002, also head injuries, but a lot of our sisters here have other children that have gone through a lot of pain also. I was divorced at the time my child went to Heaven but my ex husband died 1 1/2 year before my daughter. I am also going to physcriatits, and taking medication, and its OK, we all need outside help, this is the most horrible pain any parent can go through. WE need all the help we can get. It is avery long and painful road and we can not do it alone. I am glad that your daughter and all of you are getting outside help, my dear sister, this IS IT, we can not do it in our own, just try to seek help for all of you, and specially for you daughter, she is young and needs help. You will find all our prayers for you all, no judgement, so you can just let it all out, we understan the pain, but please let it out, We will be here for you, and we will storm Heaven with prayers. See the way I see it, its that God knows what a terrible pain we are all going through, so He will help us. Love and God Bless you. Selva

Checking to see if I can submit a post. :)

Well hello everyone! :) Now that I can submit, I have to go find the post copy/paste. Sandy, if you see this it probably means that you can submit too!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Miss V.

Hi Everyone! ~
Good news! Felecia came home Friday! She is still very ill, but she doesn't seem to be so sad and depressed. I visited with her two days before she came home and took her some yellow roses & it really seemed to lift her spirits! She informed me that she was no longer on a restricted diet and was now allowed to eat regular food. Felecia loves macaroni & cheese; so I went back home and fixed her some Mac & Cheese and catfish and took it to her. We are so grateful to God to still have her with us. Just wanted to share the good news and thank you all for your prayers.

My book project manager is back in town, so we are busy with final editing of Chain Reaction! We are hopeful to wrap things up in a couple of weeks. So wish us luck! Once I have the complete edited copy in my hands (Ha-ha) the next step is copyright, and then grant proposals & sponsors. Maybe this year??? Had I know all of this was involved, I doubt I would have ever started this project. But with prayer and God's help, I will try my best to get it finished soon.

Hey Sandy! For the first time, I had problems submitting here at Beliefnet. An error message popped up and asked that I reenter my user name and password. I did but was informed that it was not right. So I began to fear that maybe it was not Beliefnet that wanted to know. :) Just to be safe, I changed my sign-on password and I am about to try to submit again using my same beliefnet sign in name and password. If you see this post, you will know I did something right for a change. Ha-ha!

A warm welcome to our new angel moms. I am sorry to read of your loss, and other problems you are dealing with. As Sandy and Selva have already said, you & family will be remembered in our heartfelt prayers. Please know that we are here for you and each other, with love, compassion, and understanding and you will never be judged.

I pray that God will bless each and every one of you and give you those moments of peace for which we all pray.

Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna
Mother of Diane
08/16/60 - 08/31/96
Forever In Our Hearts

Hello Dear Selva, ~ I know this is a very difficult time for you with Solange's heavenly date coming up on August 15th. Although it will have been two long years, I know to you it seems like yesterday. :( My Diane's birthday is August 16th, and her heavenly date is August 31st. It is hard to believe that I have been on the road to survive for almost 8 years! Were it not for God and the many, many prayers of others; especially during those early years, I know I would not have made it this far. I still find it hard to turn on my TV on her heavenly date. I try to do something special that helps to block out all the vivid reminders! Just remembering Diane's joyful spirit is enough to make me smile, and even laugh sometimes when I think of some of the fun things we shared through the years! I thank God all through the day, 'everyday' for not giving up on me! As I have said many times in the past, I was so very angry and blamed God for allowing my child to die that I asked Him to please let me die. But as you know by now, God was not finished with me. Now, I am able to thank Him for giving me the strength to carry on and try to help others carry their cross of a lifetime. As you and the other angel moms know, there is no greater loss that the loss of a precious and beloved child. We make the mistake of thinking we will get pass it. We don't get pass it! But with God's divine help, we do find ways to survive. My restored faith in a loving God continues to give me the strength I need to carry on. I know that God will help us through the special days. I agree, my sister, we cannot do it alone!
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But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount on wings like eagles. They shall run and not grow weary. They shall walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:31
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God's peace & blessings,
Verna