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Hi my dear sister,

I am sorry I didnt write in such a long time. I hope all of you are making it through the days and weeks alright. I am with my family in Germany right now, I will stay until mid August. I am so happy to see everbody again, I didn´t tell any of my friends that I am coming so I just appear at their door and you should see their faces... like they´ve seen a ghost!! hahahaha I just love it!
I still miss my baby so much, I had thought it would be become better since it´s almost been a year, but way to go. Before I left to Germany I went to the cemetery to say good bye, I bought a nice flower arrangement which was put in a vase that looks like baby shoes, it was kinda cute. When I was there they were holding another funeral at the other side of the cemetery, the coffin looked awfully small. I was all shaking because it looked like they were buring a teenager or so, it was just horrible. For some stupid reason I had thought that after my girl passed, that would be it, no child has to ever die, I am still shocked when I see that other mothers and fathers have to go through the same.
Well, I am being patient until my time comes and I can be with my girl again. Just as you do I guess.
I wish you well, it will be a while until I will write again, I just hop to the internet cafe whenever I find one while on my way to somewhere.
Love u all
Sou

HELLO ALL ANGELMOMS!
So good to be back! Albeit ever so briefly! We sold almost $30,000 worth of Fireworks! Amazing how much money people will spend on fun! If only all that mullah was profit! Everyone wants a piece of the pie, so we might end up with 1/4 of that amount!

The 4th of July was very overwhelming for me. I had a bad dream the night before and woke up in the middle of the night "just a sobbin' and a wailing." Just like the first days and weeks after my son Sean's passing. Not a very good way to start the busiest days at our Fireworks booth! Everyone and their Uncle Fred come out of the woodwork (or Los Angeles) to make sure they have the ultimate of all party favors!

Many of our old (not always in age) swimmers and their families stopped by the booth to say hi. It was a little stressful because I didn't know if some of them knew about our son Sean or not. My son Matthew said to me "of course they know, even people who don't know us, know." He was right. People have come up to us in stores and told us “they knew someone who knew us and what a tragedy!”

Honestly, it didn’t take much for me to hit MAJOR OVERLOAD and believe me I hit it big time! When the tears came they did not stop for at least an hour! Anyone around me wound up joining me in my tears fest! I tried to hide from the “general public” by going behind the booth to my car…and of course everyone came searching for me then! I tried to explain to everyone that I was having a difficult day and in turn they would respond by hugging me and crying themselves! I wouldn’t have minded any other day but on the 4th of July when it was very important that I had not only my wits and emotions in tact but also the physical strength and stamina to endure 12 hours of selling $17,000 worth of fireworks! (The best we’ve ever done in 7 years) For the entire day and into the night I hid behind sunglasses and blamed the dirt, the dust and the devil for my red and swollen eyes!

I must go. I am on my son’s PC and he needs to check swim times. He has a close friend, who is swimming today at Olympic trials here in Long Beach, CA. Lisa Andrade, we are so proud of you, “you go girl!”

My dear Selva, I am so sorry you are in so much pain. Please take care of yourself. I care, me hermana. Con mucho besitos (my Spanish is gringo Spanish! But you understand, right?!

With much love and prayers to all,
Marci~.~

Sandy so glad you have a new pet!

HELLO ALL ANGELMOMS!
So good to be back! Albeit ever so briefly! We sold almost $30,000 worth of Fireworks! Amazing how much money people will spend on fun! If only all that mullah was profit! Everyone wants a piece of the pie, so we might end up with 1/4 of that amount!

The 4th of July was very overwhelming for me. I had a bad dream the night before and woke up in the middle of the night "just a sobbin' and a wailing." Just like the first days and weeks after my son Sean's passing. Not a very good way to start the busiest days at our Fireworks booth! Everyone and their Uncle Fred come out of the woodwork (or Los Angeles) to make sure they have the ultimate of all party favors!

Many of our old (not always in age) swimmers and their families stopped by the booth to say hi. It was a little stressful because I didn't know if some of them knew about our son Sean or not. My son Matthew said to me "of course they know, even people who don't know us, know." He was right. People have come up to us in stores and told us “they knew someone who knew us and what a tragedy!”

Honestly, it didn’t take much for me to hit MAJOR OVERLOAD and believe me I hit it big time! When the tears came they did not stop for at least an hour! Anyone around me wound up joining me in my tears fest! I tried to hide from the “general public” by going behind the booth to my car…and of course everyone came searching for me then! I tried to explain to everyone that I was having a difficult day and in turn they would respond by hugging me and crying themselves! I wouldn’t have minded any other day but on the 4th of July when it was very important that I had not only my wits and emotions in tact but also the physical strength and stamina to endure 12 hours of selling $17,000 worth of fireworks! (The best we’ve ever done in 7 years) For the entire day and into the night I hid behind sunglasses and blamed the dirt, the dust and the devil for my red and swollen eyes!

I must go. I am on my son’s PC and he needs to check swim times. He has a close friend, who is swimming today at Olympic trials here in Long Beach, CA. Lisa Andrade, we are so proud of you, “you go girl!”

My dear Selva, I am so sorry you are in so much pain. Please take care of yourself. I care, me hermana. Con mucho besitos (my Spanish is gringo Spanish! But you understand, right?!

With much love and prayers to all,
Marci~.~

Sandy so glad you have a new pet!

Hello our dear sister Sou!! Yes, you've been missed around here, Miss Globetrotter, :-) now we know why - you're in Germany!! You sound so happy, visiting your family and seeing all your old friends again - surprising them! I bet they were shocked and surprised to see you, not knowing you were coming!
Aw, that was such a sweet thing to leave for your little Pearl - of course you still miss her and no, it wouldn't help much seeing another young person being buried when you went to the Cemetery. Just this morning we read in the newspaper of another young man passing away who was a friend of Shane's. I seem to notice them far more now, it's so sad.
You have a wonderful time our dear Sou, and when you're at another Internet Cafe, you stop in and say Hello again!!
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi our dear Marci!! Glad you're back too, wow, what a saleslady you are, that's not exactly chump change, good for you and the swimmers, raising that much!! Aw, well, I think it was bound to happen, Marce, you've been working hard and then seeing people you haven't seen in a while, those that know of you and what happened to Sean Michael, just a little too much for you to take in, so good for you having a cryfest - and others joining in, don't feel bad about it sweetie, you still sold quite a bit that day! Ugh, one of those dream's, they're awful, aren't they, they leave you so shaken and upset, bringing your pain right back to square one again. Hope you haven't had anymore, :-). Sean Michael's Birthday is just around the corner too, so no doubt that's playing on your mind. Yep, sometimes sunglasses are our best friend's and stop people from asking what we don't feel like explaining at the moment! I'm happy for you that it's all over, manning the booth that is, hopefully now you can get some rest?? You deserve and need some!

I don't know about you, but my bleeping Yahoo is still acting up. I'm very fortunate if I can send 1-2 things out in a day! People are wondering why I'm not responding to them, I just can't, Yahoo won't let me, (-:. If they don't get it straightened out soon, I'll be using my other Account and transferring everything to it.
Yes, we love our little PJ - a friend of mine say's it stand's for Peace and Joy, I didn't think we'd get so attached to a little Canary, but boy oh boy, does he have a little personality of his own - and love's to sing! He even recognize's his name now, :-).

Well, for some unknow reason I awoke early this am, didn't go to bed until late, so I'm ready for a nap right now, ha, ha!
Much love, prayers & Angel Hugs to you our Marci,
Sandy

Hi Everyone! ~ You guessed it; I'm still having problems getting online. Still getting the popups, but will have to wait until the kids and I can go shop for more memory or a new computer. Cheryl and James are in the process of moving. That, plus long hours on the job, and the demands of their church ministry keeps them so busy, I hardly ever see them anymore. :( Hubby went down south to check on his mom, so I had the pleasure of my grandson overnight as man of the house. :) We had fun, but boy is he a handful! So full of energy! I asked my Rue how in the world does she keep him from killing himself with all the flips and dangerous bike riding and skate board stuff he does! Well, hopefully, I'll get a chance to get back on later tonight. Cheryl and James are having problems with their computer also. Makes me wonder if there's something going on with the service providers all over. Getting signs of being cut off again so I'm out of here!
Love & Angel Hugs to all,
Miss V.

my dearest sisters,
We need your prayers, your love, your strength. Our oldest son Matthew called us this morning at 5:00 am saying that his friends (not Matthew) were in an accident and no one could find them. We left immediatly to search for them. We were the first to arrive at the scene. My husband and son Matthew, removed Matthew's best friend from the passenger seat and my daughter Kristi began CPR. Another friend was a passenger in the rear seat was found outside the car critically injured. Only the driver was awake. The CHP and emergency services said that they were out looking for them but could not find them. WE FOUND THEM. My son pronouced his best friend dead. The others were airlifted to a trauma center in Los Angeles. Most likly only the driver will survive. I can not believe the unprofessionalizm and lack of compassion that I have just witnessed. We were told that they had given up the search after two hours because of no leads to where they were. The driver was able to call 911 immediatly and also called our son's cell phone. We knew the approx. area that they were in and we kept searching. You do not give up. They tried to tell us that the call had been misdirected when another friend had called asking for help and he overheard someone in the background saying it was a prank. CA Highway Patrol we the first "professional" to respond and they were unprepared to handle the emergency. A female officer was "trying" to assist my daughter in CPR and was clueless to the proper procedures. Our son called the parents of the rear seat passenger and they came to the scene and watched their son be airlifter to the hospital. We went to the home of my son's best friend. Their only child Matthew Meyer had just graduated college and was entering into Law School this fall. He was home for the summer and worked for my husband doing construction. The other friend Jeff Ertell is still in critical condition. He too is a shining star in his family where he and his sister both were adopted. The driver Reed is critical but stable. His parents are still grieving over the lost of their youngest of two sons. Reed blamed himself for his little brother taking his own life 2 years because he was away at college and couldn't be there for him. Please pray. Please pray for these families. For strength for compassion for healing. We have all been there. I love you all.
Marci~.~

PS: regarding computers. There are some really nasty viruses going around. My son's buddy is the head of the computer department at UCSB and they said that there are several that they are having trouble detecting. Try going online to Symantec.com and have them do the free search for viruses. I know that my Virus protection picked up several emails that they warned me about. Email me if you need help.
Marci~.~

OMG dear Marci, that's terrible!! Oh, the poor families, of course they're in our hearts and prayers!! And you and your's also, that had to be very traumatic for all of you too! Praise God He put you there to find them and do what you could to help, if not for you showing up, it may have taken even longer for these professionals to get there!
So very sorry, please give the families that you know our condolences and that our prayers are with them all. God's blessing's on all,
Lots of love, prayers and Hugs,
Sandy
p.s. my Yahoo straightened out today, thank You Lord!!

Ay my dear Marci, how terrible for all, it is such a horrible trauma for your family too, of course my dear sister, we will all pray for those families and yours. I see these accidents happening in Miami almost in a daily basis, to the point that my pshyco advised me not to watch the news anymore. May God have mercy on those parents, and those poor kids suffering, poor Reed, he will have a lot to handle, Solange's boyfriend had an accident about 9 or 10 months before she left, he was driving,his tow best friends one was paralized from the neck down, the other had brain damage, and he was the only one who only had some broken bones, he still under the trauma and the guilt, and refuses to go for help, his poor parents are going crazy with him. May God give you all strenght. Love Selva

Hi Marci, ~ Sorry to read about the tragedy and your son's loss of his best friend. How traumatic this tragedy had to be on all involved! My faith in a loving and caring God assures me that God and his guardian angels were already on the scene long before the tragedy occurred to receive the young mans spirit, as well as to make sure the other victims would be found before taking him back to heaven to live forever in God's kingdom. Acknowledging this won't take away the pain, but it will [in time] lead to more peaceful moments for which we all continue to pray. My heart goes out to the victims and their families, and I join you, Sandy and the other angel moms in praying for all involved. I pray that God will wrap His loving arms around these families and give them the strength to endure. Please keep us updated on the conditions of the surviving victims. Again, all are in my heartfelt prayers.
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Angel Moms, ~ Please know that I appreciate all the wonderful fwd pages you've been sending. They help to lift my spirit whenever my computer allows me to open mail; which isn't too often. I will send an occasional card out when possible, but reserve whatever memory/space that's left to post here as often as possible. Hopefully, I'll have things up and running smoothly soon. As always, on special days & everyday ... Whether I am able to post or not,you're all in my heartfelt prayers.
God's peace & blessings,
Verna

MARCI, This is all to sad. I hope all of you are feeling somewhat better today. But thank-GOD for people such as yourself that have the good hearts as you do. You are blessed! I believe you live not to far from where i lived in CA. I have been close to these same kind of tradgies several times, God has always come through for me, and i know he is going to do the same for all of you. Thank for being a good person we all appreciate that when we see that. As long as there are people like you i will stay living in hope. I will be praying for you everytime you come to my mind. GOD LOVES YOU! SHARON

My dearest Angelsisters,
Thank you so very much for your loving support and heartfelt prayers. I am truly feeling the strength and comfort that your prayers have brought. Thank you.

Today was a very tough day. My son's friend Matthew Meyer, Mother wanted to talk to me. We went to their home on the day of the accident, but did not stay. The first day is all so overwhelming, isn't it? I didn't want to relive any of it. But I did. You never forget the overwhelming heartache and unbearable pain that encompasses you. The disbelief, rage and that feeling of being unable to fix or control situations in our lives. The day when your world stops.

Today, I went to Matthew Meyers home. I held the mother of my son's friend and let her know that I new her pain.

Mrs. Meyer has cystic fibrosis and is waiting for a liver and lung transplant. She wants to die now. I told her that our children live on through us and that it's up to us to let the world know about them. She said her world has ended. She was never suppose to have Matthew. She wants to go now. I pray that God will give her the strength she needs. I pray that he will bless those around her with the ability to comfort her and help her heal physically as well as emotionally.

The driver of the car, Reed, was in surgery yesterday and they said that his condition is now upgraded to stable. He has several broken ribs, punctured lung, broken arm, broken collar bone etc. The other passenger, Jeff is still in intentsive care. He had a head trauma (bleeding from the brain) broken pelvis, collarbone and broken arm. They are monitoring him and waiting until he is stabilized before doing the surgery and repair that he needs. They are both alive, PRAISE GOD!

My son, Matthew went to the hospital today to see them. He wasn't sure if they would let him in to see Jeff. He was able to speak to both boys. Jeff doesn't know what happened to Matt Meyer yet. They have been keeping him heavily medicated and have asked that visits be limited to family members and close friends only. My son said that Jeff recognized him and called him by a nickname that Matt Meyer had given to him. He doesn't remember anything and doesn't understand the extent of his injuries.

My sisters, Please continue to pray for the boys and their families. There is a very tough journey ahead for all those involved.

I thank you from the bottom of my grieving heart. I am so thankful that I am able to come to you all, my dear sisters.
with much love and prayers,
Marci~.~

My dear hermana Marci. I (we) will storm Heaven with prayers for the kids and their family and very specially for you and yours, my dear sister, you are going through so much pain, I know the horrible nightmares are coming back, I will pray very very hard for God to give you the strenght, I know you are a very strong person, but sometimes we feel weak, you can count on my (our) prayers 24/7, also for the parents and kids, may God Bless you all, Love Selva

Our dear Marci, when one of us is hurting, in need of any kind, we all form rank and encircle the sister with our love, empathy, prayers, and that's what we're doing for you, also drawing Mrs. Meyer, the other parents and the boy's into it as well. All of us are closing in tightly in a Circle to give you and all the necessary spiritual and physical strength badly needed at this time of trial yet again. A spiritual bouquet for all. Please take care of yourself too, I know this has brought back many painful reminder's for you and your family, in your own grieving. And please keep us updated if you can,
Lots of love, prayers and {{Hugs}}
Sandy

Oh my dear Marci,
What a tragedy. I had to read your posts twice because I just couldn't believe what I was reading. My heart and prayers go out to all of the families involved. That includes you and your family also. What a blessing you were to them; helping them in both a physical way by finding them, starting emergency care and especially comforting everyone involved. You must have thought you were in a nightmare, yet you put all of your feelings aside and helped. YOU ARE THEIR ANGEL!! Sean has a very special Momma!
Love and Prayers, Always
Susan

Hello our dear sister Marci,
Oh gosh, all you've been through this past week, and today is your beloved Sean Michael's Birthday. His first one for you to go through without him being there physically with you and all. You're going to recall Birthday's past, last year's, not knowing at that time it would be the last one. Very difficult to go through, I know doing something tangible does help a little.
Perhap's light a Candle for Sean Michael today, let some Balloons go, write him a letter, or put your thought's into a Birthday Card. Just some suggestion's for you to help with this special day. I'll be lighting a Candle myself for Sean Michael, and saying an extra prayer for you and your family today. Happy Birthday Sean Michael, I pray your dear Mom and family feel you around them today, you know it's been a difficult week for them and now today, a very special day for them, you are so loved dear boy! We promise to do what we can to help your beloved Mom and family today, and I know you'll be helping too,
Lots of love, prayers and Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Hello my dear sister, of course the 15th is a date indelibly etched into my mind and your's too. You know my prayers and love are with you too today, Solange's 23rd month, may Our Lord's strength and peace cover you and Marci, myself today on this 15th day of the month.
Lots of love, prayers and Tender Hugs to you too my dear sister,
Sandy

Dearest AngelMom Marci,
I join Sandy in wishing you God's peace and love on this very special day. Take extra special care of yourself today and know that you have the love and prayers of a whole lot of AngelMoms. Happy Birthday Sean!
AngelHugs, Susan

Hi my dear hermana Marci. Today is a very rough day for us and Sandy, yes I know it is Seans birthday here on earth, also it Solange's 23 month Birthday in Heaven, my love, prayers, and understanding are with you and Sandy. Love. Selva

Dear Marci, ~ I tried to submit a long post and poem to you on your beloved Sean Michael's birthday but my monitor went blank before I could submit. Sure hope the day wasn't too difficult for you and family and that our prayers helped you make it through the day. Would love to ramble, but computer is still giving me fits! Lol Always know you and family are in my heartfelt prayers!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Dear Selva, ~ I am still so very grieved over the news article that you sent concerning the drowning of those poor innocent people. I lit a candle in loving memory of all who lost their lives. It is so hard to imagine anyone being so cruel. :( Also, my sister, I am keeping you, Sandy, Marci, Cindy in my heartfelt prayers. I know all too well how difficult the special days can be. Today, for example, I am remembering that Diane's birthday is one month from today. Also, everyone, I learned at the MADD-VIP meeting last Tuesday that Diane's photo was one of the one's selected to be displayed on a highway billboard in Baton Rouge, Louisiana. Unfortunately, we will have to drive down to see it and take pictures of it once it is finished. I am grateful, however, that her photo was one of the ones selected. I'll let yall know when & if it happens, and I rec word of the location.
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Hi again all, ~ Just wanted to let you know that all of my new emails have been deleted. :( On the AOL sign in page there is a notice that AOL is experiencing problems with online help. At this instant, I am being cut off!
:( Will try agai