Prayer Circles

Please my dear sisters. Pray for me on Mother's day I am so scared. Of course I will be praying for you too. Love Selva

My dear, dear sister, please don't be afraid, you WILL once again get through it, why? because God will give you the necessary strength and so will all of us, with our love, prayers and support. I pray this spirit of fear be taken from you and that you be surrounded by God's Most Holy Angels, for protection and much comfort, love you my dear sister, always here for you and all,
Lots of Angel Hugs,
Sandy

My dear sister, ~ First let me say that my heart breaks for all that you are going through. The special days are always so very hard; Especially during the early years of your grief journey. I understand the fear that you are feeling. The fear, the sadness, the longing to have your beautiful daughter back in your life. I understand how hard it is to have to face yet another Mother's Day without your precious child. We all understand because we have and are walking beside you through it all. Our heartfelt prayers are with you, as we continue on our journey of missing our children together. We will continue to embrace each other and pray for each other as we press forward. Having been on my journey for 7 years, 8 months now, I can tell you that getting through the special days will not be easy. But with prayer, our Lord and Savior will give us the strength to endure. The fear, the anger, the sadness, ... All that you are feeling, are all a part of the healing that is taking place within our broken hears, minds, and spirits. The healing continues as we face our sorrows together. God knows we cannot do it alone. God understands everything that we angel moms are feeling at any given time. He is never too busy to send the Holy Spirit to comfort us, and give us encouragement when we need it the most. I know from experience that there is nothing I can say that will take away the fear that you are feeling. What I can do, is ask our Father, who is in heaven, to calm your fears, and allow you to feel His eternal love and our unconditional love and compassion during this difficult time, and in the days, and months ahead. As Rabbi Kushner reminds us in his book: People are God's language. And, as our Selva reminds us: If God puts us to it, ... He will bring us through it! :) So, we will go through it together my sister!
Much love, And Angel Hugs & Kisses from your beautiful Solange and all our Angel Kids in heaven! :)
Diane's Mom
08/16/60 - 08/31/96
Always remembered, ... Always loved! :)

Chain Reaction

Sometimes I cry myself to sleep
When to life's trials I see no end
Just when it seems that on one cares
God says to me, "I'll be your friend"

Sometimes I feel life is not worth living
I get tired of trying
I don't want to go on
Just when I've almost given up...
God steps right in and makes me strong!

And uses me to help someone
Who just can't bear their cross alone
When to life's trials they see no end ...
I say to them, "I'll be your friend"

Verna R. Clay
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Hi my dear sisters. Thank you so much for your love, support and prayers, I Thank God for you and this Circle of Love everyday of my life. I know that If God puts me through it, He will pull me trhough it, it is that I'm going through so much pain, that it scares me when i know I will have to endure more, you know anniversaries and Mother's day is one of the worse, I don't have my mother and don't have my daughter, so it can be tough. I know I am still a mother and Solange is still my daughter, but I get a little selfish sometimes and I want her back. But I will keep Pressing ON, and I know with your love and prayers I will go through another Mother's day. Love you my dear sisters, and May God Bless you. Selva

Dearest Selva,
Oh my dearest! My heart is with you! Please know that if I could, I would tape your heart back together again, as good as new! we all know that bandaids don't work on this kind of heartache! I pray that God will comfort you and give you strength and peace to get you through the special days. Solange is so proud of you! She is truly amazed at how "awsome" you are and how well you have been "coping". She sees how you reach out to others in your own grief to lovingly comfort them.

I know that my beloved Sean has already met her and asked her to teach him to salsa! Together they look at us and say "our Moms are something aren't they?!" Selva, They are so proud of us. Love you sister!

GOD HEARS US AND LISTENS TO US.

Lord you know the hopes of the helpless. Surely you will listen to their cries and comfort them. Psalm 10:17
Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy!
I look to you for protection. I will hide beneath your wings until the shadow of this violent storm has passed. PSALM 57:1
God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble. So we will not fear, even if earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into the sea. Let the oceans roar and foam. Let the mountains tremble as the waters surge! PSALM 46:1-3

God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted. Matthew 5:4

GOD LISTENS AND HEARS US AND BRINGS US COMFORT AND HEALING.

He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When others are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.
2 Corinthians 1:4

AND SO THE "CIRCLE OF LOVE AND PRAYER" GOES ON GIVING LOVE AND COMFORT THROUGH GOD AND PRAYER TO THOSE THAT MOURN THE MOST UNBEARABLE LOSS OF A CHILD. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

with much love,
Marci~.~

Ah our dear sister Marci, bless you for your kind word's in your own pain, and the beautiful Scripture quote's to comfort, knowing that - if I coulc 'borrow' your Elephant for a moment, there's a big one in this Circle of love this week, Mother's Day approaching. We can't take bites out of this elephant, but if we talk about our feeling's, share, support, we'll help to remove that Elephant from this Circle, he's too big to shout across to, he's standing in between us all, so I think that by talking, sharing, and with all our love and support, prayers for each other, we can move that Elephant out of this Circle and speak about it freely and openly. Our dear sister Selva is sharing, our Miss V has shared, and tomorrow I will, as I pray the rest will also. OK? OK!!
Lots of love, prayers and Angel {{Hugs}}
Sandy

Thank you Marci, you are going through your own pain, Thank you all my sister Angels. May God Bless you all. Love Selva

Goodmorning and God Bless you all... I'm sorry for not posting. Just seems like there is nothing to say ....Only sadness here in my heart.I thank you all for emails and cards you send me.I'm sorry I don't respond back.Please forgive me.
To all new angelmoms....I love you..God loves you....Give him your pain..He will ease it...All of us angelmoms and dads know what you are going through. The pain..the never not understanding "why's"..I don't try to understand anymore. I just simply bide my time til one day I will understand.I go through my life and just simply wait.I love you all..please continue to keep Ron and I in your prayers.....
In His Care I Press On....Eva

Broken hearted Mother to Matthew Codero Parr:
born November 17,1986
killed June 8,2002

Matthew Cordero Parr...... he did'nt like his middle name..."specially when I called him by his full name...lol..he knew he must be in trouble....Not all the time...I just loved saying his name...He was my smile in the mornings..Now he is my smile in my "mournings"... I love you my son...Dad and I continue to miss you and love you dearly......................Mama

Just want to tell you all, that i will be thinking of you on sun- Mothers day. Although I wasn't stephanies (mom) It still brings another sad day.
I've come to know you all alittle and can't help but share in your pain !
Bless you all, Chris

Great to see a Post from you our dear Eva, it's been awhile, and of course we want to know how you are, how thing's are going for you and Ron. Yes, it's so hard sweetie, we all know what you're talking about, just keep pressing on, and you know our love, support and prayers are always with you and Ron, I pray that His peace flood's your heart and slowly replace's the awful pain,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi our dear Chris, great to see a Post from you too, what a wonderful blessing to know you're thinking of all, bless you too, Mother's Day will be hard for Mike, and hard for you too, but please try and enjoy it for your own daughter's sake, and your's, as you continue to support Mike and think of your sweet step-daughter Stephanie, love and prayers for all of you also,
Much love & angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear sisters, today I'll share my own thought's and feeling's on Mother's Day. My own Mom passed away in 1981, the day before Mother's Day, so it was sadly spent in a Funeral Home. My two youngest sister's were only 15 and 12 at the time, and us three older one's tried to be strong for them, we had the luxury of growing up with Mom, but there were sadly robbed, especially my sister who was only 12 at the time, we were very worried about her, and did all we could to love her through this loss, as well as my other sister who was only 15 at the time. So Mother's Day has always had an 'edge' to it for me, as well as my sisters and brother.
And then our beloved Shane passed on so suddenly, and my first Mother's Day was a write-off, I wanted nothing to do with it, and spent most of the day in bed, crying and still in deep grief over Shane, it was only 2 month's ago that he was gone. The second Mother's Day was much the same, Chris wanted to take me out to supper, so I did go, we went to a favourite Irish Pub here that he and Shane frequented, and I had gone there with them a couple of time's, enjoying their company, having a glass of Guiness, and playing pool. But the day was surreal, I was there in body, but everything else seemed changed, the Pub itself seemed to have an 'empty' feeling. I didn't want to lovingly take away from Chris what he was doing for his old Mom, so I put on my 'mask' and pretended to love the Dinner, but I was very thankful when it was over, and i could come back home. The 3rd Mother's Day I decided to go through the 'drawer', you all know what I mean, the special place where you've kept all those thing's from your child/children's youth and school day's, the painting's, their 1st Report Card's, their Ribbon for winning a Spelling Bee and all the beautiful handmade Mother's Day Card's and gift's they've made for us over the year's. I looked and touched the Pac-man necklace that Shane made me in Gr. 4, out of clay, and I proudly wore it that Mother's Day around my neck, the Macaroni Brooch, that I also wore with love one year too, all the sweet Card's, from them both, in their innocent, loving scrawl to me, oh, how I treasure them all. I haven't looked at them since, it's just too painful still. And as they got older, the Card's, the little one's that were included in flower's, the beautful loving word's they wrote in the Card's, all treasure's close to my heart, I can look at them on any day now but Mother's Day. Palmer always get's me a Card for Mother's Day from him, and now he always get's me one from Shane, writing what he think's Shane would want to tell me, bless his heart. This year Chris can't make it home for Mother's Day, and I reasurred him it was alright, he feel's so bad, but frankly Moms, I still don't much care for the day, it's one of those thing's that have changed for me, as my life changed when Shane passed. I just can't help it, maybe the further along I go, I'll enjoy it once again, but for now it's a painful day that I want to selfishly scream at the Co's that capitalize on it, and all their advertisement's that go with it. Yes, it's selfish, but I have to be true to my own feeling's. This Mother's Day my own Mother's Anniversary of her death fall's the day before, sometime's I just can't believe that much time has passed, and here I am today, older than my Mom was when she passed. Life definitely has some sharp turn's and twisted road's.
For all of you who will experience your first or second Mother's Day, I know it's not going to be the same, how could it, but please always know that I'm here for you all, and will be thinking and praying for all of you to get through the day the best way you can,
Much love to all and Lots of Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi our sister Eva, it is so good to hear from you again, Ay my sister,how can you think there is nothing to share, Here? at the Circle of Love? that is what we share the most, our pain. This is the only place that we all understand and go through the same, nothing new but our pain, at least here we can let it out with sisters and brothers who understand. Ay my dear sister I know that next month will be Matthew Ann, our sweet smile Angel, we will be still be here for you, praying and Pressing On.Love you my dear sister and please don't be a stranger. Selva

Hi Chris. Thanks for sharing, I know that even you were not Stephanie's mom you understand ,because you know of Mike's pain, thank you our dear sister, for your prayers and love , and yes like Sandy said, please try to enjoy it for your daughter, and please count your blessings. Love Selva

Ay my dear Angel in Chief sister, thank you for sharing your own sorrows, you are always there for us, still you are grieving with us, Thank You God, for this Circle of Love, what will I do without it, yes Mother's day brings so many beautiful memories but at the same time sooooo sad, I have all of Solange's Mother's day cards, as she grew up, then she will say Thank You mom, for raising me so "Independent" and teaching me what life is all about, you are such a strong person and you made me one too, I love you Mom. Oh my God how I wish to hear that again. Love Selva

Hello AngelMoms, It's been a long time since I posted. I've been okay I guess. I have been painting pretty much anything in my house that doesn't move or need to be fed. My son, Weston is graduating high school on the 15th and my Mom is flying in from Arizona next Monday and my oldest son Chris and his family (my "grandcuties") will be here Friday. They live in Germany.
The work I am doing has been a blessing in disguise..I am dreading so many days this month. Alex's first "anniversary" is this Saturday (the 8th) The DAY before Mothers's Day. He died the Thursday before Mother's Day. I know I have other children, but I simply cannot celebrate another Mother's Day ever again. I just want the day to go away. I am also dreading Weston's graduation. Alex's high school graduation was such a celebration in 2001. My Dad was still alive and my Mom and he came down. Chris and the grandcuties were living 20 minutes away. My ex-husband even came with his wife and kids. We must have had 60 people at my house. I made 10 lasagnas and we ate and laughed and had the best time. Right now I feel like I am planning another funeral. My heart just isn't in it and I feel a lot of guilt because Weston deserves so much more than he is getting from me. Please keep me in your prayers. You are all in mine.
Susan

Hello Everyone, ~ My heart goes out to all as we face another holiday together. No doubt, it will be a difficult day for all. Actually, I don't recall many details any Mother's Day after losing Diane. I guess you could say I just kind of floated through them in a daze. Oh, I did cards, flowers, and special gifts for my mom and auntie as I always had, and appreciated the same as always from my other daughter, Cheryl, and stepdaughter, Dinah. But, the feelings I had prior to losing Diane, just wasn't the same. Then, losing MaDear in May of 2000, things really became a blur. My sisters and I still do the traditional card, flowers, and special gift thing with our Auntie; but the feelings of joy is no longer possible. Sometimes I wonder where all the time has gone. It seems as though it was just yesterday that both Diane and MaDear was here with us. Now, what remains are the fond memories of happier times which we count on to help get us through this most difficult day. The good news is; with prayer and the realization that we will face it together with other moms who are facing it, we will be able to endure. Last but not least, we can count on our Lord and Savior to give us peace as only He can throughout this special day.
God's peace and blessings to all.
Verna

Hi our dear Susan, yes, you've been missed around here! With you saying 'you've been doing OK, I guess', I can read between those line's and know that you really haven't, God bless you. Keeping busy is a good thing, sooner or later though you're going to run out of thing's to paint, :-) so I pray that you're letting your pain out too as you go along. Yes sweetie, I was looking at the Calendar yesterday and I saw that Alex's 1st year Anniversary is THE DAY before Mother's Day, I'm so sorry our dear sister, the 1st year Anniversary is such a painful one, we always remember that day a year ago, everything about it re-play's over again in our mind's and heart's, when our live's fell apart and were forever changed by the death of one of our precious children. Susan, you don't have to 'celebrate' Mother's Day this year, tell your family how you feel, reassure your other two children that you love them very much, but you just can't do it this year. I believe it's much better to talk about it as a family, rather than you trying to go it alone, your other two will pick-up on it right away anyway, so be true to your feeling's and do it your way. Especially this year, it's your first, and it's a day after Alex's Anniversary, his first also, so you're really being hit with a double whammy and your pain and grief are definitely going to overshadow any other feeling's at this time, God love you. That's wonderful that your Mom and Chris, and your grandcutties are going to be there, it may just help you to be able to give Weston the day you want him to have with his graduation, you'll have lot's of family support, your precious grandbabies will be a good distraction from the sorrow in your heart, and with all our prayers, support and love for you, Weston's Graduation Day just may surprise you, it may go a lot better than you're anticipating. Remember, one hour at a time, one day at a time, try not to think too much about future event's, (hard to do, I know), but let's just help you get through Alex's Anniversary and Mother's Day at the moment, you know it goes without saying that we're all here for you, and we're sending our love, support and prayers on the wings of the Angels to be with you on these two very special day's coming up, God love you. I'm so glad you shared with us what you're facing and more importantly, how you're feeling, this is your Circle too, and I know between all of us here we'll all get through the rough day's, please post back when you can, these are stormy water's you're in right now,
Much love & lots of Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Hi our dear sister Susan, it is great to hear from you again, Ay yes my sister, Alex anniversary and Mother's Day all together, but if you must grieve then you do, but I have to tell you my sister, I have no other children, you do, so make the must as you can, you are in pain and everybody knows that,just think, you have your mother, your son, your grandbabies, you are so lucky my sister, and I am sure that Alex will be there with you all. Count your blessings, and Alex will be there with you. Please don't be a stranger, we are all here for you. Love Selva

Hi my sisters. Verna and Sandy. I Thank God every day of my life for you. Yes I am going through valley days, but I know that your prayers are with me always. I Thank God. Love you my sisters. Selva

Hi my dear sister, I thank God for you too, you know that, and yes, I know you're going through very intense valley days, but I'm still storming Heaven for you, and you WILL get through them, Our Lord is with you, and so is my love, support, you know that,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear angelmoms,
Hello to all! It's wonderful to hear from so many of you! It really does suck that we have to bond together like this doesn't it? Why can't we be the "old or young women who hate to wear pink prayer circle" or "Moms who feel sorry for PC-Deficient people prayer circle?"

Sandy, please don't get me wrong, it is with tongue in cheek that I complain. It is not our "Circle of Love" that I think sucks. It is the reason why...

We, as parents, are suffering the most dreadful and heart wrenching loss imaginable. If only we all didn’t need this prayer circle for the true reason it does exist.

If I were “Tinkerbelle” or “Glenda, the good witch (Wizard of Oz)” I would wave my magic wand and say “It is not so! Children click your heels together and say “There’s no place like home! And you all go home to your parents!” But, alas it’s only daydreams and wishes I have to offer.

I know that I need our “CIRCLE OF LOVE”. I am so grateful to Sandy and all of you other, Angelmoms, Selva, Verna, Lisa, Sou, etc. who pour out your heart and give your love to us all. I am truly blessed by your love and support.

Heavenly Father, I come before you Lord, asking that you might lift up our circle of love. Please let everyone who comes to the circle, feel Your love and find comfort in our posts and prayers. I pray that You will Bless them with peace, wisdom and understanding. I pray that you will give them strength and courage to face any obstacles and difficulties that may come. In Your Son’s name I pray, Amen

From the depths of despair, O Lord, I call for your help. Hear my cry, O Lord. Pay attention to my prayer. Psalm 130:1-2

With much love and prayers,
Marci~.~