Prayer Circles

Thank you all my dear sister Angels for your prayers for Mercedes, well she is getting better, she is out of ICU, and in a regular room, thanks to all of you, she will make it one more time. I can not thank you enough, and of course I thank God again and again for listening to our prayers. Love Selva

hello angel moms,
i hope and pray that things are going well for you all. i have been feeling really good and gaining lots of weight (14lbs) and tired alot. besides that doing well. shaner i haven't felt the babies move yet but when i do i will let you all know. today i am 13 weeks. my husband laughs at the food i can eat and how many times i eat in 24 hrs. i still go to curves three days out of the week to stay in physical shape.
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dear selva,
i hope and pray that your mercedes is not in pain. i pray that you she will hear are prayers and they will be answered. amen.
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dear father i ask for your prayers for my friends here and that you will reachout and touch their shoulder to let them know you are near. i ask that you will continue to guide them and give them the strenght to take day for day. i ask this in your name the father, amen.

love debby

Hurray my dear sister, and thank You Lord for answering all prayers said for Mercedes!
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Deb, great to hear from you!
Thirteen week's along right now, you're out of the First Trimester! Gosh, no wonder you haven't felt them yet, for some reason I thought you were further along, :-) Fourteen lbs. isn't too bad, but wait a while, especially with twins, you just may gain a heck of a lot more, :-) It's terrific though that you're still working out, it's healthy for you and for the babies. So eat, our momma to be, do you have any craving's? YES, let us know when you DO feel them, so happy you're having such a healthy pregnancy our dear Deb!
Much love & Teddy Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Selva, ~ I am so happy that our prayers are being answered for Mercedes! Please give her a big hug from all of us here!
Love, & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Hi Deb! :) I have been hoping to hear how things are going. What a special blessing to be carrying twins! Please keep us updated and let us know when you feel the first kicks!! :)
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Hey Sandy! ~ How's the cold coming along? Are you about over it? I can't BELIEVEEEE someone snitched on you! Ha-ha! Just teasing Ya. :) Sure hope you are feeling better, and getting over it though. I'm still taking my meds for the bronchitis; although I no longer have any symptoms. I hate taking meds, but still following doctor's orders. I go for my checkup soon, so maybe she will discontinue that one. Sure hope so! You take care so we won't have to gang up on Ya again! :)
Love & Angel Hugs,
Miss V.

Ha, Ha, I can't BELIEVEEE someone snitched on me either, ha, ha, turn around is fair play I guess Miss V!!
*ahem* somebody - and I won't mention any name's, was up LATE posting last night, :-) I'm A-OK, thank you all for your love and concern, glad to hear you're finally over your Bronchitis Miss V, that was a long haul, yeppers, keep taking them until you see your Dr. again!
Lots of love & Angel hugs,
Sandy

Hello dear AngelMom's, Dad's,

Angela sent me a letter this morning and asked if I would post here for her, she is slowly starting to feel better, went for a nice bike ride yesterday, and want's to thank all who prayed for her! Take it slow and easy dear Ang, and hope to see you posting yourself when you can,
Much love & lots of Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Our dear Marci, pray that your day's and night's aren't as bad, no pressure, you post when you can, just know that we're thinking of you and sending our love and prayers,

Our dear Susan, haven't heard from you in a while, miss your posting's, hope and pray the same for you dear one,

Our dear Sou, I know you must be having a wonderful time with your Parents, make every moment count, :-) post when you can too,

Lisa, Eva, haven't heard from either of you in a while, hope and pray the same for the both of you, please let us know how you're doing, miss you,

Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello all Angelmoms and our dearest Sandy!

I'm doing alright... (Hmm wasn't that a song? "doin' alright" by Joe Cocker or someone? Tee-hee! That must be old age catchin' up with ya when everything you say reminds you of a song!)

Life has always had its ups and downs, only now I think that I pay way more attention! I know that every morning I get up that I pray that I will not be as tired as I was when I went to bed the night before. It takes me a whole lot longer and a few more cups of coffee until I feel like I am ready to even move, let alone begin taking any bites of that monstrous elephant! I know that it is the only way to eat an elephant; one bite at the time. Why is it that on some days the elephant just seems to grow bigger with every bite I take?

I think that I have shared with you all that I raised 5 children, three sons, my daughter and my nephew Jonathan. He really is like a son to us. He has been in Japan for 3 years and will be moving to Chicago for 6 months and going to school. He has come home this week to visit before moving off to Chicago. We have really enjoyed spending time with him! Especially since our days have been spent shopping for his new baby boy and wife that will be joining him at the end of May when her Visa is approved! Ah! a new little baby to still my aching heart! I can't wait to hold him and love him to pieces! I'm only sad that they have to be so far away from us...Chicago is much closer than Japan, however!

Our days have been busy with a whole lot of running here and there, but I don't mind. This past Sunday we attended the wedding of my Beloved Sean's good friend. He is only eighteen years old! I can not (nor can his parents) believe that he is married! Some people are very intense with what they want and he was always very intense growing up. He has his life all mapped out. He is married now, going to college, and joining the Navy. He has progressive goals; I pray that God blesses him with the wisdom and strength to persevere.

I pray that everyone is doing well, please know that my heart and prayers are with you all. You all are my strength and inspiration! I’ll be back soon!

With much love,
Your sister,
Your friend,
Marci~.~

Hi Everyone, ~ Just a note to let everyone know that family and I are doing OK. We have our hands full at the present time; Trying hard to share the responsibilities involved in caring for our dear Felecia. She had stressful day yesterday. They got her blood pressure down, again, but her blood sugar dropped below 70 a few days ago, due to the meds she has to take for the Scleroderma. So, we are dealing with it one day at a time. Today, they found fluid around her heart and lungs, and she is currently being treated for that. I visited with her earlier this evening, but only for a short while, since I know she needs to rest as much as possible. Other family members and our church family are doing the same. I did stay long enough to plant finger kisses all over her face, and give her an update on her little one's splashing day at the park. I made sure it was OK for her to laugh without being in pain. She assured me that she could. :) So, needless to say,... I left her and Ashley's dad, who was already there, laughing as I exited the room! Ha-ha!

What happened the other day was sooo funny! :) As I stood watching the three of them; Grandson, Steven, Antone', and little Ashley, ... Little Ashley came flying down the slide, and landed in a big puddle of mud! Her little feet never touched the ground! Ha-ha! We managed to dig her out, and make sure she wasn't hurt, but we were in severe pain holding back the laughs! I gave them that "You'd better not laugh" ... [Look], and they understood. But, as we were headed back to the car to go home for a change of clothes for little Ashley, ... She insisted on walking backwards ... All the way to the car! Ha-ha! Well, needless to say, it was all we could do to keep from laughing out loud. Once we got her loaded into the car, (on her knees, facing the back seat, ... in praying position), ... The kids hid behind the car and had their quiet laugh! They KNEW Ashley would be watching their facial expression, once they entered the car. Trust me, ... That was the longest ride home! ... In painful silence! Ha-ha! But, once we delivered her to her home for a change of clothes, while getting her bath, we had a chance to take turns going outside and letting the laughter out! And, of course, one back at the park, we decided to avoid all areas that had the slightest mud puddles! :) The kids love for me to take them to the park! 'Cause we have NO laughing rules!!! Ha-ha!

Family and I thank you so much for keeping Felecia and all of us in your prayers.

I am taking my 30 min. walks at least twice a week and taking my meds as directed. As you said in a recent fwd page, Sandy ... I am never bored because there is always so much to do & so little time! :) Cheryl informed me this evening that one of the teachers at the school where she works wants me to volunteer to teach some of her very special students how to crochet a couple of hours a week. I sponsored a crafts class on activity days when I was there, so I guess this teacher remembers how much our kids enjoyed learning to crochet and working with tapestry designs. So, I may find myself back in the classroom for an hour or so a week very soon! :) Anything to get me out of the house is good.

Sandy, I have learned my lesson; ... No more chocolate cookie cake for me for a while! :) I also ride my stationary bike for a minute or two at least 3 times a week! Ha-ha! Ladies, I am serious!!! I couldn't wait to get it, [I've had it for 3 or 4 years no], but I need to do more than pass by it. Ha-ha! Hubby says it was a waste of money. I keep telling him I do my riding while he is sleeping! He just looks at me and say, "Yea, ... Right." Ha-ha!

I would like to welcome our new moms: (A few pages back.) I am still playing catch up. Please know that I am so very sorry to read of your loss. My heart goes out to you both, and I have included each of you and your families in my heartfelt prayers. Both Sandy and Selva have expressed so well the love and compassion you will always find here in our circle of love. I find that it helps to talk about our loss; especially in the beginning stages. And no matter how far along we are, we will always miss our children. Last week, for example, I had to deal with all the never-ending news media coverage concerning princess Diana. As those who know my story can imagine, it really brings it all back for me, and I will have to go through it again and again on each anniversary date. But, I thank God every day that I found this prayer/support group where I know I can come to express what I feel, and not have to worry about anyone telling me I should move on, or that enough time has passed, or that I should be further along. Sure, life goes on, but grief, especially the grief of losing a precious and beloved child, is something that we never get completely beyond. Although most angel dads have their own ways of expressing their grief, I finally learned that they are hurting too! Marci, I enjoyed reading your post the other night. I hope you realize how very lucky you are to have the emotional support of your hubby during the loss of your beloved Sean. Moms like you, Sandy, Sou, Eva, and a few others here, have no idea how difficult it is to feel that you will are going through it alone! It literally took years before my hubby could allow himself to grieve openly over our loss. Then, there are moms like our dear sister, Selva, who had no choice in the matter, having lost Solange's father before losing Solange. God, ... Every time I think about what trauma she had to have gone through during the loss of her beautiful Solange. :( And then, there's angel dad Angelo, who lost his daughter in a tragic manner many years ago, but is just beginning to deal with trying to find a measure of closure.

Still, ... Even the angel moms/dads who support each other during their loss; ... It is still the ultimate pain each has, or ever will know! The loss of any child in any manner, is a parents worst nightmare! It just seems such a blessing to know that many did not have to face such a tremendous loss alone! So, angel moms, I say to you, ... Count your blessings, ... Even as you continue to grieve. I, too, had to learn how to count my blessings, ... Once I learned, through counseling and from listening to other angel moms in support groups who also had felt that they were forced to grieve without the support they felt they needed from their spouse. What we know now, we didn't know during the earlier stages. That is, each of us, ... Mom/Dad, sister, brother, grandparent(s), aunt/uncle, friends, ... All have a right to grieve in her/his own way! While it is good and a blessing to support each other, the needed support doesn't always come in the manner we expect. But thank God, it does come! Sometimes from total strangers! God sees to it that we will never have to bear our cross alone. So, I guess the point I am trying to get across is: Even during the most difficult of circumstances, God knows and He cares! If we hold on to that thought when we feel like giving up, we will survive, and someday look back and realize we couldn't have done it alone. Enough rambling for today! May God keep each of you in His loving care!
Much love, and Angel Hugs to all.
Verna
{PS: I don't think I am going to get this rambler to submit in one post, so I hope I don't lose it!} :)

Hello our dear Marci!! Missed you a lot, so happy to see a Post from you!
Hm, that does sound like a line from a song, 'doin alright' - do you think young people today even know who Joe Cocker is, :-) I hope so, there was some terrific music that came from that era, I always loved Santana and now they're back in the spotlight again! My fave music has always been the Blues, Muddy Waters, John Lee Hooker, BB King, and of course the late, great Robert Johnson - Eric Clapton recently put out a CD with some of his music on it - oh geez, that mean's I really AM old, yikes!, ha, ha!!
Doin alright is better than being in the black hole, although I know you must still have day's, moment's when you still feel you are (that elephant that seem's to grow, even though you're eating it one bite at a time). You're dealing with your grief the best way for you, and that's what really matter's, each of our Journey's are unique to us, and we all find a way to 'eat that elephant' too. NOT easy though, is it. Marci my sister, I pray you're getting some much-needed sleep at nights, you really need it dear one to cope with all, so please take care of yourself!
Yes, you've told us about Jonathan, it must have been wonderful to have him back home after such a long time, I didn't know he was in Japan though, so all the more exciting to see him again!
You must have missed him so much, and now you're shopping for baby clothes, hurray, big contrat's to you, your family, and Jonathan and his wife!! There's nothing like holding a brand new life, a sweet baby, to help ease a broken heart, and somehow I know that they're going to have a fight on their hand's to get the baby out of your arm's, :-) May will be here before you know it, and you'll be thrilled to meet his wife and take her shopping with you for baby clothes, :-). Yes, it's still far away, but much closer than Japan as you say so I think you'll be seeing much more of them, and I'm so happy for you!
Yes, it's good to keep busy, it help's a wee bit to take our mind's and heart's off of the pain, for a while anyway, a little respite. Wow, one of Sean's friend's was married over the weekend? 18 is young, but some people at that age are way beyond their year's and do know exactly what they want, it sound's as though Sean's friend is one of those people. You were really brave to attend it, you didn't find it hard to do so? I couldn't attend any of Shane's friends Celebrations of life during the first year or so, I knew I'd break down crying and raining on their parade, so I stayed away. Good for you though!!
Ah, you're the same with us, that's why we miss you when we don't hear from you, plus your friendship and love!
YES, hope to hear again from you soon,
it goes without saying that you're always in mine too, as well as the other AngelMoms,
Much love & lots of Hugs,
Sandy

Our dear Miss V, I WILL be back to post to you, GREAT to see you here again!!
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi our dear sister marci. It is great to hear from you. Oh what a wonderful feeling, you will be a grandma, so great! count your blessings, when you get a bite out of the elephant, always count your blessings, you have so much to give Thanks, what great news Jonathan coming home, yes my dear sister Chicago is just a few hours away, Japan is sooo far and expensive. I am happy for you, and always remember, when that elephant is getting bigger, remember IOWA, Brian Weiss told me that in one of the workshop that I went at Omega Institute, he said to me, Selva, just think that Solange moved to IOWA, it is just the same, she just moved, so did Sean. We are all taking bites into that big thing, but our Angels are there with us, helping us in our trials. Love you my sister, and remember our prayers are always with you. Love Selva

Hi my dear sister Verna. It sounds like you are having a great time with the little angels, I have to be honest (as usual) I envy you but in the nice way, yes my sister , enjoy the little ones, God bless them, but be careful with tacos, you know that Felecia is always in our prayers, Oh I feel so sad when I think about her , she must be worrying about her little Ashley, but deep inside she knows that her family is there for her and will be there for her little daughter, what a relief for her, Ay my dear sister, you are busy enough, and now you will be going back to teach, God Bless You. I know that your daughter is SO PROUD OF YOU, my dear sister, and so I am, I have the priviledge to know so many Angel moms that are Angels here on Earth. Thank you God, again and again for taking me to this Circle of Love, and having so many dear sisters. Love Selva

Hi my dear sister Debby. What a wonderful news, keep on eating healthy, and PLEASE keep us posted, remember those twins will have so many grandmothers, I am one of them. God Bless you my sister and your little ones. Love Selva

To all of you my sisters Angels, Thank you for your prayers, God is so nice to us, Mercedes is home tonight, a little weak, but at home with Antonio, and she will recover. Thank you my dear sisters, God answered once again. Love Selva

Hello our dear Miss V, oh gosh, I had to laugh too, poor Ashley, they're so cute at that age, and no, they don't like people laughing at them, so whatever it took to stop you all, ha, ha, Amen.!! Gosh, poor Felicia is still going through the mill, now fluid around her heart and lungs? Yes, she must really miss her baby, does Ashley ever get to see her? What a beautiful gift to have such loving family, friends surrounding Felicia Kaye right now, may God bless you all tenfold, I know it has to be very hard on you all, but as we always say, God has the final word, and I'm still with Stevie, :-) BELIEVIN!
Good for you Miss V, I'm proud of you, exercising, eating right for your diabetes, My hubby's sorry now he didn't listen, now he has to inject himself 2x a day, when it all could have been prevented if he had stopped eating all those sweets! Actually, I can't really blame that, he just has a very bad case of Diabetes, no drug's brought his levels down, or exercising, so it's led to this. I worry about him all the time, he's already had one heart attack, and with his Diabetes so out of whack (befoe the Insulin) I was so worried something else would happen.
So big kudo's to you, you deserve it, and also for going back to teaching, that's terrific!! Yes, you will be one bizzee lady, but I know you love it!! Who has time to get bored, :-) not you with all that fill's your life! Happy for you our dear Miss V, and you know our love and prayers are still going up for Felicia Kaye as well.
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello our dear sister, I'm happy for you too, you know that, your dear Mercedes out of the hospital and back home, Praise God indeed!! I thank God too for bringing you and everyone else here to our Circle of Love, you're all so loving, caring sisters!!
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy