Prayer Circles

Hi my dear sister, great to see you posting!! I know, I felt so bad for her, she's like you, having trial after trial, and is so depressed over losing her Benji of course. Yes, I think most of us at least think about suicide, with the great pain that we feel, as much as we want to be with our children, we do have our own Mission's to complete here first, just as our dear children did, THEN we will be reunited with them for Eternity!! I know, I wish she would post too, but she said right now it make's it too 'real' for her to do so, bless you my sister with the big heart, I'll tell her that we're praying for her - she did ask me to tell everyone she love's us and is praying for us all the time,
OH - why didn't you post a prayer for me at the Prayer Circle?? Maybe one day you'll have a bad hair day too,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Oh our dear Ang, thank you so much for your prayer for me, yes, it was one of those day's, ha, ha, I DID post a prayer there, for my broken curling iron, ha, ha, some people didn't get the joke at all, God bless them, and actually posted real prayers for people, ROFL, what are your thought's on Oprah now in the Trinity, or the Quadrinity, as it's called now, ha, ha!
Beliefnet, ya got me, but what a fun front page it was!! I also posted on the "Why I Hate Spring" thread, another April Fool's Day one, and again, some people didn't realize it was just a joke and posted why they LOVE Spring so much, oh, I'm cracking myself up here,
*sigh* I hope tomorrow is a better hair day,
I posted at little Amber's site, God be with her, thanks for letting us know about her, what a heartbreaker though,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Angel Moms, ~ If you received a request for from me asking for your child's special dates, please ignore! I don't know what happened, but I got the same request from me! :) Apparently, I must have clicked on the wrong button when I was deleting a lot of old files. As a result, AOL Security caught it, and would not allow me back online until I confirmed who I was, and then I had to change my password and a whole lotta other stuff before they would allow me to sign on again. So, for once, I can praise AOL for being on top of things. Thank God, my son-in-law was able to call and get it all straightened out for me, and I am back online!

The past couple of days have been stressful, as I am sure you can imagine, ... But family and I are thanking God for giving us the strength to endure. Felecia had an OK day, and we are thanking God for that.

May God continue to bless each and everyone on a daily basis. I love you all, and thank you for your prayers!

God's peace and blessings,
Verna

Dear angel moms, I Know that I have not posted in a while just going through the layers. I would like to thank everyone for your prayers for me and my family on my daughters b-day 3-29, we made it just fine the day started out really sad and depressing, but I got up and went out side and looked around and thought I should not be holding my head down but rejoicing over the time that the Lord allowed me to have with one of his precious angles my daughter only if it was 7 years, it was 7 whole years of joy and love that he gave to us and for that we can be happy. I went to choir practice that night and had a glorious time in the lord we praised and loved the lord all night long and out of every thing that gave me so much joy, because I love to lift the Lords name up on high and it just seemed like he was telling me and my family that everything is alright that she and her father are having a wonderful time in the lord in heaven so smile and be joyful in my name. I thank you Lord for that night and every thing that you did for me and my family. I just had to share that with somebody, thank you Jesus!!!

keep on praying and I will continue to speak blessing for all of your families.

p.s Thank you Sandy love you in the name of Jesus my sister.

Love angle mom Ebony.

Hello our dear Miss V! OK, will ignore, you really have your fun with AOL, don't you, :-) Thank goodness you have James to help you out, when I get myself into trouble on the PC I yell for Chris, :-) he's my personal 'tech help'. That's very hopeful news about Felicia Kaye, Miss V, very happy she's doing a little better! Take care of yourself too, try and get some rest and don't overdo it, (I know, very hard) and you know that our prayers are still with Felica Kaye and our love and prayers follow you,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello dear AngelMom Ebony! Terrific to see you posting again, we were wondering how you're doing, and how you handled Ainsilique's birthday. It sound's as though you got through the day very well, considering all, your sadness and depression on the morning of her birthday was quite normal dear one, and you managed to turn it around with Our Lord's help and embrace the day with happiness in your heart, I can see you have a great love for Him as He does for you. Yes, better to have had those 7 years of joy in your life than not having Ainsilique at all and it must bring you a lot of comfort knowing she's with her father, God rest his soul too. Thank YOU for sharing all that with us, and don't be a stranger around here, post whenever you feel like it, we're always here for each other,
Much love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Another excerpt from the Newsletter,

There has been a lot of talk lately of how we are doing so well then... BAM! something comes out of the blue to blind side us.... A graduation, a wedding, a commercial, an autopsy report, the birth of a baby, finding our child's clothes or pictures, our surviving children birthdays, even spring!!! WOW, listing just some of the triggers, I can't believe any of us are sane!!

I have always said, it is the least expected things.. the ones that catch us off guard, and sends us back into the darkness and the never ending tears of grief are the worst. Unlike Easter.... we know its coming, we prepare our minds, and family. We get ready for the tears and heart ache that comes with every holiday.

If I could say anything to make this better, I would. I'd wipe away all these things that make us hurt over and over again. All the things that make us doubt our own life, our sanity, the ability to still parent, our marriages, and our faith. But there are no words, no magic wand. You have to go through this. You have to shed the tears. You have to get blind sided from the unexpected, and prepare for the the expected. This is all apart of grief and our new life. It doesn't feel like it, when you are in these down times, but you ARE healing. Instead of thinking "I'm back sliding, and I was doing so well." think "I'm over come by my love for my child" Every tear that falls is not a failure that you are not coping well any more, it is an unsaid "I love you" to your angel.

Much love & Angel Hugs to all,
Sandy

Hi my sister Ebony. I am so glad you went through Ainsilique's birthday with the help of Our Lord. He is always there for us. Yes you can consider yourself a blessed mother of an Angel, God let you share His angel for 7 years, and it was a blessing, some people don't even have those blessings. Thanks for sharing, and please come back and share somo more with us, you know we will understand and we all share the same greif. love Selva

Hi my Angel in Chief. I just finished working about an hour ago, I'm really tired and ready for bed but had to check into our circle of love.Yes Easter is coming, I remember when I used to take Solange to church and then after mass they will have the egg hunt, she had so much fun, I will make her special Easter Basket, and of course she enjoyed that too.Well now she will have her special Easter Basket made in Heaven, even when she was grown up I will make sure to give her something for Easter, now I will give her my love and prayers, yes it is sad. Love you my sister. Selva

Hello my dear sister, you just finished working?? Good gosh, that's a very long day for you, take a nice bubble bath, relax and get to bed early, but so happy you checked in first! Oh, I know, the memories, we all went to Mass first on Easter morning, then the 'egg and chocolate' hunt began from the Easter Bunny, :-)
And yes, I used to buy the boys a Chocolate Bunny or two even when they were older, :-) It was a lot of fun, wasn't it, but now they're with Our Lord, and celebrating Easter everyday, but it doesn't make the Holiday easier for us when we miss them so much. Our love and our prayers are the best gift we can give them, my sister, keep pressing on. It's rained here all day, April shower's I guess, as the old song say's "The sky is crying". (an old blues tune) Please get your rest,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Ay my sister Ang, I am so sorry you are having such deep valley days, please my sister hang in there, keep Pressing On and we will be praying very strongly for you. Please whenever you can keep us posted, and remember you can count on us Stroming Heaven for you my dear Angel on Earth Ang. We all love you, may God give you strenght. love Selva

Dear Angela, ~ My heart and love goes out to you during your valley period. You know we understand what it's like to lose a part of yourself. You must be hurting in the worst way! I know, sweetie, at times ... It seems as though going on just isn't worth the effort. I have been there many, many times, too! And I can relate to such feelings. But, I know that doesn't take away your own personal pain that you are feeling right at this very moment, because no two people's grief is the same. Sandy is right, you are doing the right thing and that takes courage! When I was there, I don't know what to do, because I didn't even know what was going on! I was still in such shock and didn't know it was the pain taking over! As Sandy has reminded us so many times; We can relate, but only you and God can really know the depth of your own personal pain at any given moment. I just hope and pray that knowing that we love you, and can relate to what you are going through will somehow help ease your intense pain. I know there is very little I/we can say that will make the pain go away, but I sure wish I/we could do just that. But I/we can't. And it hurts deeply that I/we can't. [tears]. But I/we know that our Lord and Savior can and we are trusting that He will wrap His loving arms around you and bring you through this time of crisis. He is the only one that can ease your pain and give you the peace that you so richly deserve! I will be praying in the spirit throughout today and all night so that the Holy Spirit can intervene on your behalf in ways that I can't. Please know that you are dearly loved and needed by all in our circle of love. We don't have to live close to be closely connected in spirit & love. Just know that we are here for you, and will be praying that you will allow us to share in your pain. My/Our thoughts and prayers are with you always!
God's peace & blessings,
Verna

But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount on wings like eagles. They shall run and not grow weary. They shall walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:31

Hello my fellow AngelMom's, Monday, once again the start of a brand new week, this week may be a difficult one for many, thought's and memories flooding back to you, Easter with your child no longer physically in your live's, and I know for many here it's the first one you'll be experiencing. It's important for all of us to embrace this Holiday in the most comfortable way that we can, what will help us get through the day, honouring wherever we are in this Journey. My love, support and prayers are with all, in whatever way you spend the day, praying that peace will replace some of the pain that you'll experience.

Our dear Marci, haven't heard from you in a bit, please post if you can,

Our dear Susan, I pray that the situation with your precious Savannah has had a favouable outcome for all,

Our dear Lisa, haven't heard from you either lately, how are you doing?

Deb, our expectant Mom with Twins! hope you're enjoying a good pregnancy and no morning sickness, :-)

Our dear Miss V, praying that Felicia Kaye is doing much better,

Our dear sister, I know your test's are today, please let us know how they went,

Our dear Ang, I'm so happy you're in the hospital and getting the help you need,

Our dear Sharon Lee, pray you're feeling much better, and can Post soon,

If I've left anybody out, forgive me, it certainly isn't intentional, my memory isn't what it used to be, :-)

Lots of love, Hugs and Prayers for all,
Sandy

Hi my dear Angel sisters. I just got an e mail from Ang, she is at home and slept well, I know that God listened to our prayers once again, they did not have empty rooms at the hospital, so Ang decided to go back home, I am sure you know by now, Thank God once again to listen to our prayers, He loves us. Yes my sister i got my scans etc today, now I have to wait until the 19th. Well God knows I am ready, so whatever He decides its great with me. Love you all my sisters. Selva

Dear Susan,
So wonderful to hear from you! You not only had Sandy putting out the “call” for you but I did too! We all enjoy your friendship and posts.
I am so sorry to hear about the difficulty you are having with your daughter, Savannah. By the way, I love that name…I thought about naming my daughter Kristi, Savannah, but my dear Husband said we were way to far from Georgia! When Kristi was two, a family moved into our neighborhood that was from Savannah and their teenage daughter, Paige would babysit for us. My CALIF Native daughter learned to speak with a Georgia accent! It was adorable! I could have named her Savannah!

It does sound as if you have your hands full with your daughter Savannah, and bless your heart; it seems like you have done everything you can to help her. Many teens go through a stage where they have a difficult time understanding and respecting authority. It comes from within themselves, it something that they must learn to deal with. We can read and follow the advice of every childrearing book out their and it doesn’t do any good. We can send them to professionals, but it is ultimately up to them (our teens) to realize that they must change their attitude. Every action has a reaction, whether it is positive or not, it is up to us. We choose our reactions. As parents it is our job to love, protect and nurture our children. We feel responsible for them and their actions. We feel as if what they do is a “reflection” on us. We have to remember that God created us with “freewill” and sometimes there is not much we can do about it! I once heard a story about a Christian family where the child was more than a “handful”. He would continuously tell lies to everyone, getting himself in trouble at home, school and friends. There was nothing that these loving parents didn’t try in their attempt to raise him up in the way that he should go. By the time he (the child) was Forty years old, his lies had cost him countless friends, several jobs and two marriages. He decided to stop lying, and he never told a lie again. It was his choice, his freewill to stop lying. Please take care of yourself, Susan, God knows how much you love your daughter and only wants what is best for her and your family. We will continue to pray for you and your family that God will bless you and anoint you with his love and comfort. I pray that the Lord will also give you the strength and perseverance that you need to cope with your own grief and loss.
With much love and prayers,
Marci~.~

Hi Angelmoms!
It has been a while since I last posted! Sandy I am sorry you had to put the call out to me! I always try to “beat you to the punch” and post before you have to put that call out! I have been too busy struggling with mountains of papers lately (remember I have stacks 5 feet tall!) I’m leaving Tuesday, to go stay with my daughter for a week. She came home over the weekend and picked up Evan (my 16 year old) and took him to her condo for the week. I can’t wait to really spend some time with my daughter! She has always been my best friend and comrade in our house full of boys! I love running on the beach and painting sunsets with her. I seem much closer to God when I am at the shore. The ocean has such a calming effect and just the fact that “all things come from the sea” is very nurturing and healing. I can not tell you how excited I am to be getting away from the everyday job of coping with grief. It seems like when you go away, you don’t have to be constantly on your guard and you have the choice whether you tell others of your loss or not. I am ready to get out of my rut!

May God Bless you all and keep you in His care,
Love your friend and sister,
Marci ~.~

Good(Early)Morning, my dear AngelFamily,
I first want to say Praise God!! He has helped me find a way to get through to my precious Savannah. It helped that last week was Spring Break for us and Savannah was home with me all week. We had a lot of time to talk and she was open to listening. I told her that she was not letting her father and I parent her and since she is not old enough to live without parental guidance, we were going to have to send her somewhere that would be a substitute. I think the lightbulb finally went off in her head and she realized her behavior and attitude was keeping her from growing and maturing. She said she didn't want to go anywhere; she would prove to us that she would be able to live here, follow the rules and not let her anger get the best of her. So far it seems to be working. I know it has only been a couple of weeks but in the past she could not behave as long as she is behaving now. She understands she is at baby steps when it comes to privleges and she is okay with that. That is also something new; normally she would be driving me crazy trying to get all of her "rights" restored. But I think she realizes this time she has to earn it. I made it very clear that this would be her last chance, the next time she loses control and we have to call someone to intervene she would be sent away. She knows I mean it this time. I thank God that He has helped Savannah see the hurt she has caused me and her Dad because we had another crisis to deal with this past week that would have sent me over the edge if I had to deal with her problem as well.
My worst fear came true. Weston got into a wreck Friday. He was not hurt...THANK GOD....but, it was his fault. He was pulling out of a subdivision onto the highway and was clipped in the rear sending my suv spinning and then into a ditch. He was given a $195 ticket, plus both vehicles were towed. The other car that was involved was a fellow "wrestling" mom carrying 3 members of the high school wrestling team to practice. Savannah's boyfriend was in the car. Imagine their surprise when they get out of their respective vehicles and discover they all know each other. When Weston called to tell me I almost passed out. He told me no one was hurt but both vehicles were damaged enough to get towed. Russ had gone to the store to get milk and I was so tempted to call him and tell him but I decided to wait till he got home. Thank God I waited because he got very pale and had to sit down. He spoke to the policeman at the scene and Weston also and that seemed to ease his mind. The strange thing is he drove past the scene on the way home and saw the police lights. He thinks it was right after the cars had been towed because there was just people and police. He said Weston came to his mind as he saw the scene and said a prayer for Weston's safety that night. Can you imagine??
I had a hard couple of days after that. I go from absolute thankfulness to God for sparing my son to "I want to spank him" for causing the wreck that will probably get us dropped from our insurance. Not to mention the money it is going to cost us. Weston graduates in a few weeks. I guess paying his ticket will be one of our gifts to him!
So, it's been a good and bad week for us here. But our Heavenly Father was with us the entire time. That's a BLESSING!!! I know He will continue to be with me as I pass month #11 without my Alex on Thursday.
God's love and protection to all,
Susan

Dear Susan,
So glad to hear everything is working out with Savannah! The Lord rules!

I'm sorry to hear that Weston was in an accident. I guess when they say that experience counts, it's true. At least maybe in this case, it was Weston's "inexperience" that was at fault. You must have been beside yourself when you got that phone call!
When it rains it pours! Hang in there, sister, we are walking this road together. The 9th (friday)is 8 months since my beloved Sean-Michael's accident. I don't know why, but it's the date of his funeral that effects me more, the 15th. A friend shared with me that "Sean was born on the 15th day of the month of July, he was put to rest on the 15th of August, the 15th Psalm is his ".

PSALM 15
LORD , who may dwell in your sanctuary?
Who may live on your holy hill?

He whose walk is blameless
and who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from his heart
and has no slander on his tongue,
who does his neighbor no wrong
and casts no slur on his fellowman,
who despises a vile man
but honors those who fear the LORD ,
who keeps his oath
even when it hurts,
who lends his money without usury
and does not accept a bribe against the innocent.

He who does these things
will never be shaken.


with love and prayers,
Marci~.~

Dear Angelmoms,
I am off to my daughters! Praise God!
I just wanted to check the posts on our circle of love, before I left. Please know that you all are in my prayers. Angela, Verna, Lisa, Deb, Sharon lee, hope all is well with you! Dear Selva, I pray that the outcome of your tests is a favorable one. I pray for you always.
Bless you all,
With much love and heartfelt prayers,
Marci~.~

Ah! Our dear Marci, I wasn't online last night, so missed your Post, I pray that you have a wonderful, peaceful time with your dear daughter, a respite from your grief, and that being by the Ocean renew's your spirit and bring's you the closeness that you feel, Happy Easter my dear sister and to your family too,
Much love & Bunny Hugs, :-)
Sandy

Hi our dear Susan, I am overjoyed for you with the situation over Savannah being resolved lovingly and favourably for you all, thank You Lord for answering all prayers said for this!
I know you are one happy Momma about this, and I know with God's blessing's, it will only get better for all!
Oh gosh, what a curve ball thrown at you and your hubby, thank God indeed that Weston wasn't hurt, I know how filled with fright you and your husband had to be hearing that, God bless you dear one, it had to be very hard on you all! Ah, I know it gave you a very bad fright, but Weston is alright and that's really what matters, :-). I agree with our Marci, it's just a case of 'inexperience' and I'm sure he's learned this valuable lesson, so try not to spank him, :-). Hope your vehicle isn't a write-off, and only minimal damage to it and the other vehicle involved, yes, there go's your Ins. Premiums, BUT you still have your Weston, and that's what's important.
Yes, I guess that's an appropriate gift for him upon Graduation, although he was probably hoping for something else, :-)! I'm so happy for you and Russ with Savannah, and I know Weston had an Angel over his shoulder, his big brother Alex looking after him!
Yes, HE will be with you on Thursday, and so will we, our dear sister, our love, prayers and support are always constant, praying for a better week ahead too,
Much love & lots of Hugs sweetie,
Sandy

Hi my dear sister Marci. I know that you are already on your way to be with your daughter, but still I want to tell you that I am so happy for you, Count your Blesings my dear sister, and I pray to God that you will have a so much needed relaxed and sweet time with your daughter. Love Selva

Hi my dear sister Susan. Wow what a horrible experience, but you know that Weston has Alex looking after, so don't worry so much (easy said than done) I am so happy that Savannah is getting all together,like I said God listens to our prayers, aren't we lucky! You know that teens go through their tantrums but eventually they will come to their senses. I am very happy and I will keep on praying for your family and Savannah. Love you my sister. Selva