Prayer Circles

My dear sister Sou, haven't heard from you in a while, hope and pray everything is still 'sunny' for you, please post when you can, miss you!
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Sandy,andAngel moms and dads, The girls have a touch of the flu,they have bounced back well from the accident.I'm the one who seems to have the problems,my back is so bad by the end of the day I can hardly walk,I'm use to the pain,sometimes it gets unbearable,but I keep on going,I give it to the Lord. I'm going through some mental pain also right now about my daughter Melissa.Melissa is the mother of my Danielle & Jessika,also my youngest birth child.Melissa has been in jail for some stupid mistakes,last time she was in she got saved,when she got out she started going to church from where the preacher at the jail came from,she got baptised and seem to be doing really good,really getting her act together.Her boys were taken in Sept.by the courts,a very tragic scene at the courthouse,I had my youngest grandson in my arms and they ripped him out of my arms and took him and ripped his older brother out of my daughters arms,it was horrible,everyone screaming and crying. Since then she had been doing what they wanted her to do,special classes,counseling.Her husband,God forgive me,is a low life,doesn't hold a job,drinks alot,not very supportive,she said she loved him and she saw some good in him.Well something come up from the past,and she has to serve 50 days,she has 30 left.The only thing that keeps her hanging on is hoping to get her boys back.Since she has been in jail she has been raped by a female inmate and beaten by some of the sheriffs,when they had to move her.Missy is only 27yrs.old and really had a hard life for someone so young,we've always have tried to help her and the boys,but with her husband not doing anything to help and most of the time he ended up making things worse.Also she is bi-polar,sorry to be so long,but I wanted you to have the whole picture.Today when she called me,she said she had been taking to my father,he has been dead for 29yrs.she thought she was 7yrs.old and the that I had put her in a foster home,which was the jail,wanted to know where Brian & Christie were(she didn't even remember Christie died).What I am asking for are prayers,she needs them so bad now,I don't know whats going to happen.I can't do anything because shes married.
God Bless All of You
Sharonlee

Oh, our dear Sharon Lee, this is terrible! Certainly I'm happy that the girl's are much better, and with all this stress and worry, no wonder you're not feeling very well, God love you!
I'm so sorry about your Missy, my heart ache's for you and her, I don't give a darn why she's in jail, who among us hasn't made mistakes in life. This is very wrong, no inmate should ever have to go through what your precious Missy has, and is still going through! Does Missy have a lawyer, or is there a Advocacy Group that could act on her behalf? On top of all she's been through, her bi-polar illness would make it even MORE difficult for her, God love her - I hope they're giving her the medication she need's for her illness! Perhap's you could call the Jail, Detention center, and speak to someone in authority there yourself, maybe they're not aware of her illness or what has happened to her, her husband as you say, not being supportive, may not be doing anything on her behalf. I'm so, so sorry dear one, this must be so hard on you, your family and especially Missy! I'm happy you shared this with us, now we can storm Heaven for prayers for this awful situation, knowing that Our Lord hear's and answer's all, my heart, love and prayers are with you dear AngelMom, and please let us know how thing's are going,
Much love & lots of Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear sister Lisa, what a wonderful news,Chris is coming back home and with new experiences, yes I hope that you cook his favorite meal, and please my sister Count your Blesings, what a wonderful time, I am sure that Aaron is rejoicing, and He will be there for you guys. Thank You Lord for my sister will have a much needed good time. Love Selva

Hi my dear Sharonlee. I am so glad you let it out, of course we will storm Heaven for you, Melissa and all of your family. I am so sorry you are going through so much, you can count on us, we will be here for you and your family, I believe that us bereaved mothers and fathers have a great comunication with Our Lord, He knows of our pain, and He listens to our prayers, so does our Virgin Mother, she knows tha pain of loosing a child, so She understands, we will strom Heaven for your daughter, make sure she is getting her medication, keep on pressing on, the rest is all to God. Ay my dear sister, you will be in my prayers 24/7. May God Bless you , Melissa and the family. Love Selva

Dear All, ~ Please forgive me for taking so long to post. My emergency "Things I just gotta do today" seems to be getting longer by the day! :) I've totally committed myself to helping my sister take care of her daughter, who as you know has an incurable disease, which we just recently found out about. The disease of which I speak is called Scleroderma, for which there is no cure. The disease attacks ones immune system. Because it is a rare disease, not much research has been done, and many doctors, (we have been told), have miss diagnosed the symptoms. We continue to pray that a cure will be found soon. You can read about it by going to google and doing a search for Scleroderma. They do have support group here, which my niece has been a member of for well over a year, without our knowledge. However, I learned yesterday that she only attended once or twice, because at that time, her symptoms were not so severe. Presently, she is on kidney dialysis three days a week. The treatments leave her very weak, but she is a fighter, and we are praying for divine healing. Thank you all for praying for all of us, and you know you are in my prayers 24/7! I literally have everyone here in my heart and prayers everyday, no matter what kind of mission God send me on. You are the support family that I prayed for so long ago, and I thank God for having all of you in my life. May God bless and keep each of you in His divine love and care! It is 9 AM here, and I am getting ready to start my busy day! After getting lunch started, I go take my niece's little girl to Head Start, (preschool), then my sister and I take my niece to take care of some important errands. Then, I go in for another shot for my bronchitis, then swing by to visit with Auntie, (MaDear's 90 year old sister), then back home to put the finishing touch on dinner, the wait for the school but to arrive ... Delivering my grandson and grand niece, (That's when the fun begins), Ha-ha! ... Because Papaw is working now, and they are really HAPPY about that. But, homework first; then pick up my niece's little 5 year old from preschool and now there's three! :) Then wait for ... NO, PRAY for Papaw to step through the door! Ha-ha! ... And, all is quiet again! Once Cheryl & Tammy pick up the kids, I then allow little Ashley to teach me, :) Then, under protest from her, reluctantly ... Deliver her to my sister, who has already warned her that she doesn't want to hear ANYTHING about what she DOESN'T want to do! Ha-ha!
God's PEACE & BLESSINGS to everyone!
LOVE2U

Sandy, ~ Your precious little niece sounds like a living doll! Aren't they the most fun at that age! Well, I have 25 minutes left to get dressed and start my day, so I will try to start catching up on back posts later on tonight after a couple hours of sleep. Actually, I have been doing better in that area, since I've been doing a lot of reading on the importance of sleep to one's overall health! :)

All other moms, ... I've done my reading, so please know you are very much in my thoughts and prayers! I will try to get caught up on posting to each of you soon!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Hi my dear sister Miss V. so great to hear from you, boy you have your hands full, Ay my sister, you know you have all of us to Storm Heaven for you and your niece and family, but at the same time I am worry about you, are you taking care of your health?, it seems that you are overdoing it, remember your family needs you strong and healthy, so please Miss V (we all know you) take care of your health so you can be there for all of them. You have my prayers 24/7 my dear sister, and lets hope that your niece will be OK, God knows what she needs and He will provide. Love you my sister. Selva

Hello our dear Miss V! About time you posted, :-) I know you're a bizee lady, but you have to drop in here from time to time!
Yes, my little Selena is the apple of her Aunt's eye, it doesn't look like I'll be a Grandmother anytime soon, ha, ha, so I have to spoil somebody! (my sis just loves me for it, I'm the Aunt who always has gum, chocolate) :-) Maybe one of these day's Chris and Lin will decide to get married, but right now I'm not holding my breath, :-)
Wow, you've got your own hand's full right now too, God bless you for being there so committedly for your family, especially with your own health concerns. I've heard of scleroderma, but not quite certain about the illness itself, so I'll look it up on WebMD. That has to be so hard on your dear niece, being on dialysis 3 x a week, I hope she start's to feel well enough to go back to the Support Group, I know people on dialysis always have a challenge, in between treatments they still don't generally feel well.
Glad to hear you're finally getting some sleep at nights, I'm very impressed, did our nagging pay off, ha, ha! You're always in our's too, you know that, and I'll definitely include your dear niece, you stay well and enjoy those Joyful moments that bring you to the mountain top!
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello my dear sister, great to see you posting too, I know how busy you are right now and Nancy as well, I bet April 15th can't come fast enough for you both, :-) but don't overdo it yourself! Love you my sister,
and lots of Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Our dear Susan, Marci, miss your post's too, my heart, love and prayers are always with you, but it'd be great to see a Post from you, miss you both!
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Angels Moms & Dads,Here I am with the need of more prayers,but first,I like to say to LOVE2U,you have my prayers for your sister,I know about the disease your sister has and how tragic it can be,but they also find cures and miracles happen everyday,I'll pray for your family and for the research that needs to be done and that your sister doesn't suffer much with this disease.Now I need prayers again for my dear sister-in-law I told you about awhile back that has the tumor on her pituary gland in her brain,shes having surgery on April 19.Also I found out yesterday I will be having a IVP on Friday morning for my kidneys,I have had blood in my urine for four months,no medicine has helped and theres been no sign of infection.They say God doesn't give us more than we can handle,but I'm beginning to wonder.But I'm not giving up or in,I'm a fighter and I know the good Lord is right beside me. I'm not sure when I will be able to post again,but my e-mail address is countrygirlrfun@yahoo.com , if worst comes to worst my girls can answer my e-mail for me,but I'm not sure they would be able to post for me or not.
I feel very blessed to have made all the wonderful friends here,you all listen and don't judge no matter what.
God Bless All of You & Thank You for always being there.
Lots of Love
Sharonlee

Our Dearest Lisa,
I just wanted to let you know that you are AOK! You have absolutely earned the right to be a “whacked old lady!” You are a Mother who has lost her child. That is not supposed to happen. Losing our children most definitely violates as well as defies the natural course of life. Our children should outlive us!

It is your privilege as a “Broken-hearted Parent” to manage (you don't have to master) your GRIEF the way that you see fit. It is your loss. Your publicly expressed tears are your way of releasing your pain! YOU GO FOR IT GIRL!

I must confess to you that you are not alone when it comes to flooding others in public. I too have shed a few tears on some of the MOST UNSUSPECTING STRANGERS!

In 1995 our swim team participated at a swim meet at The University of Southern California, (USC). Janet Evans (our most favorite Olympian) was there and everyone who was someone in swimming was at this meet. My Mom’s Hubby and our dearest friend had just passed away six months before shortly after being diagnosed with ADENOCARCENOMA, called the Healthy man’s cancer (non-smoker).

My husband had called out to me to come join him in speaking to a group of people who were from another team. He introduced me to a handsome older gentleman with the cowboy hat by saying “doesn’t this guy look like Grandpa Joe?” I was fine until the gentleman gallantly removed his hat and exposed a full head of shiny silver hair and nobly said to me “I BETCHA YOUR DAD DIDN’T HAVE A HEAD OF HAIR LIKE THIS!” He did! And I cried and cried and cried. I had no where to run or hide in that a crowd of 1500 swimmers and their families. That poor guy felt so bad he avoided me for the rest of the 3 day meet!

This is the most painful and difficult experience we will most likely have to go through in our lifetime. We all must mourn and grieve in our own personal ways in order to heal. Our life has changed and our relationship with our child has changed. We don’t have to get over our grief just because others think that it is time for us to. Most people (family and friends included) are inexperienced and naive when it comes to helping those who grieve. It’s hard for us to explain to them what we need or how we feel when we don’t know ourselves. Whether we want to or not, there will be those who we will have to ask that they be more understanding of our healing. We can’t control our grief, but we can try to cope with our grief. Time and our tears are what heal us. We can focus on the present and get through each moment at a time. We can and we will eat that elephant we just have to remember to take one bite at a time.

With much love, Marci~.~

Dearest Angelmoms and Dads,
My heart and prayers are with you all. I appreciate the friendship and loving support that we share here at our "CIRCLE OF LOVE." May God Bless us all with His Love and Strength.

with much love, Marci~.~

Sandy I did try to beat you to the post. I guess it took me longer to type my "novel"!

Selva, Thank you for your email. I appreciate you so much. Thank you for helping Sandy with caring and loving us all!

Oh our dear Sharon Lee, good gosh sweetie, you're really in a 'storm' right now, but God will safely bring you to the Shore, I've copied your e-mail address, and will write to see how you're doing, God bless you dear one, you know without a doubt you'll be in our heart and prayers, as well as your dear family, try and keep your chin up, I know that's a hard thing to do right now, but these trials will pass, I pray you've heard better new's about your Missy also, all of you are covered in our prayers, and hold onto that 'fighter' spirit in you, we're very blessed also to have you here, in this Circle of Love,
Lots of love & {{Hugs}}
Sandy

Hello our dear Marci! Great to see a Post from you, yes, I guess I beat you, "Great mind's think alike" (we'll just ignore the rest of that saying)
That was no 'novel', I know it'll bring our dear Lisa much comfort too, she'll be very happy to see your Post and wise word's, you make your Post's as long as you want! That was definitely a painful moment for you, my dear friend, to see the man with the head of hair that resembled your own Dad so, so much, you saw your own Dad in him, no wonder you cried, God love you!
You didn't tell us though how YOU'RE doing, I hope and pray you're taking those small bite's yourself, this is THE hardest Journey we'll ever travel on, but we're all blessed here to be travelling on it together, my heart, love and prayers are with you and all,
Much love & lots of Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Our dear Chris and Mike, I pray you both get through this difficult day for you both, lean on each other for strength and God, and you know you always have all of us for support, love, prayers too, praying for you both on Stephanie's 6th month Heaven Date, please post if you can and let us know how you both are,
Much love, prayers and Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Oh My Dear Sharonlee,
You are really going through some tuff stuff. My prayers are with you and your family. Like Sandy said, I hope they are letting Missy take her meds in jail like she is supposed to.
You have so much on your plate now...God knows you are a strong person and will only give you what you can handle. I am praying for you to find out why you are having blood in your urine. My Dad had that about 10 years ago and it ended up being either the aspirin he was taking everyday to prevent heart attacks or it might have been when he was taking Naprosyn for bursitis. I can't exactly remember, but we were all really scared too. Bless your heart so much at one time.....
I will also pray for your sister-in-law. That is another scary thing you are going through. Please know we are all here for you whenever and whatever you need to post. We will listen and not judge.
Keep on pressing on...
Lisa

Marci,
Thank you so much for writing to me. You really lifted me up today. I am glad to know that I am not alone in my grief. I know exactly what you meant when you said that friends and family are very naive about grief. My family hasn't a clue and I can't seem to find the right words to let them know. I find myself getting resentful and angry at them because they don't understand and their lives are back to normal. But I know they don't know what to do or say and they love me the best way they know how.
I am eating my elephant on bite at a time.....how are you?
How is the swim team coming along? I bet you guys are getting ready for a really busy season, huh? My brother and sister both used to swim on swim team in the summers. I used to love to go watch them...that is when they got to swim early. After a couple of hours in the heat and I couldn't handle it anymore. What part of the country are you in? I am in Texas.
I hope you doing ok today and God Bless you.
Lisa

Hi Sandy,
Thanks for the awsome military pictures. Do you ever wonder if some of these pictures are doctored? Not just the ones you sent me this morning but others that we get amongst our emails. I swear some of those pictures would be impossible to take. Oh, well....I was just wondering if you ever thought that too.
It's good to hear about your niece Selena. They are so fun at that age. My brother has 2 boys that live near by and I love to go to their baseball games. My older sister has 3 girls but they live in Louisiana. I only get to see them about 2 or 3 times a year. When they were younger I used to take them home with me for days at a time. Girls are so different than boys. I forgot and can't find the email that you sent about the time difference between us. What time zone are you in?
Peace and Joy be with you,
Love,
Lisa

Hi Selva,
It's good to hear from you, I have been getting your emails but we really haven't talked in quite a while. I bet you and Nancy are just about insane by now. Just 2 more weeks!!! How are you feeling? Your back and everything. Are you fully recuperated?
Lisa

Hi Verna,
Don't worry I didn't foget you...lol. I am like Selva and wondering if you aren't over doing it a little? You sure do have busy days. I don't think I could keep up with you. I'm so very sorry about your neices disease. I have heard of it but don't know a thing about it. I will definitly look it up on the web. Going to dialysis 3 times a week has got be rough on her, would a kidney transplant do any good? How old is she? It's good that she found a support group online, I hope it helps her as much as this one helps us.
I just realized that you live in Louisiana too. What part? I grew up in Slidell then moved to Houston. I still have family there and love to visit.
So, you still have bronchitis? It seems like you have had that forever. I hope your shot makes you all better and hopefully get rid of it this time.
Peace and Love,
Lisa

Hello All, I've been away dealing with my suicide anniversaries and it has been very, very tough this year...

Just spoke with Angelo and the sentencing is tomorrow in NYC. Will post and let you know what the judge decides....

Angelo passes his greetings and love to all of you...

Love Angela xo

Hi dear SharonLee, I am so sorry that you are going through such rough times, even though you are a fighter you are in need of prayers right now and of course we will be storming Heaven for you specially on april 19, so that everything will be OK, also for your sister in law, you can count on my (our) prayers, you know? sometimes I think that God has a special place for us, He knows how much we are suffering and still hanging on to Him, so He does listens to our prayers, I close my eyes and picture Him smiling down at us and saying, wow, these mothers really keep me busy!. Count on our prayers my dear sister, for you, ister in law, Missy and all the family. love Selva

Hi Marci, great to hear from you, yes we all go through the "agony" of trying to make people understand our pain, I keep hearing "you must go on", you have to be strong, there is nothing you can do so you have to go on with your life, you have to take care of yourself, think of your family etc etc etc, but we know how we feel,and they don't understand. I gave up trying to explain, I just listen, smile and keep quiet. We can't blame them, they do not know THE PAIN, but there is one thing I learned "the hard way", I cry whenever and wherever I am, when the tears come, I let them out, it is MY Pain, so I have to feel it no matter what. Love my sister. Selva

Hi my dear sister Lisa. Always welcome your e mails, remember to "count your Blessings" after all you have another child. I am feeling better, going through therapy, but now my right leg is giving me pain, I have been walking pressing on my left leg (all my fractures were on my right side) so now my right leg is swollen ?, I am going to the Dr. on monday, lets see what he says, but I got rid of the walker(hated it) too soon, I am driving and going to work and yes working my a... off, can not wait until april 15, this is a 7 days 12 hours a day, but can not complain, it is the only time that we get paid, the rest and I am sure you know that you are an accountant, we are the last to get paid. Love you my sister and enjoy your son's reunion. God Bless Selva