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Hello my dear angel sistermoms..I come to you tonight with hope that you will lift the families of 7 teenagers killed in a car accident this early morning..I donot know all the details..Only that 4 of the teens were girls...and three boys..Seems that one of the teens boys took his dad's car without permission..He and two other boys picked up the four young girls from a spend the night party they were having.I believe the news said they had snuck out of the house....the teen driving was speeding over a hill...the car went airborne somehow and then crashed into a tree killing all 7..They showed the car on tv..it was so hard for me to look at this car...for looking at it caused me to wonder..looking at the car my Matthew was killed in...it looks as if noone could of been killed in it..for the car hardly had a mark...from inside and out..but to look at the car these young poor children were killed in.. I cried during the whole news cast..I cried for the famlies that these young teens left behind....so my sisters..Please lift them up in prayer...I know not what to pray...for my heart still aches at the scene I saw on t.v. I don't know if I will be able to sleep...God bless you all and keep you.Know that I continue to pray for us all....The news channel I was watching was a Memphis,Tn. station...I love you....In His Care I Press On...Eva

My Dearest Selva and Verna,
How is it that when you need encouragement and support the most, God has a way of putting someone or something (our circle) in our lives? Tis truly amazing, GOD’S AMAZING GRACE!

Your posts to me came at a time when I could not stop the tears. I was down. I felt forsaken, not just by God, but the world too. I’m so tired of all this heartache. I have never been one to cry or complain, until now. I am back to sobbing and wailing. I’m just missing my son so much. Your kind words of caring and support were so loving and so needed! You have no idea how grateful I am. It can be so overwhelming when you have been hurt by life. I too feel as if we really do understand each other here in our circle.

Thank you and God bless you,
Marci~.~

Dear Angelmoms and Angeldads,
This is the first time in my life that I have ever been alone. I home-schooled my children for twelve years. My beloved son, Sean-Michael went directly from home to college. My youngest son, Evan chose to go to school last year; he didn’t want to be the last one home with mom! My daughter Kristi is away at college and can’t make it home as often as we all would like. Matthew, my oldest son, is back at home temporarily to help us out, but he is a man at 23 years old…Just like having another husband making suggestions all the time! LOL! Sean and Evan were two years apart and we have always called them the “little boys.” When Sean turned 13 years old, he would correct us and say “teenager” Evan could be a little boy, but he was not!

Now the house is empty and my days went from total and constant chaos to a strange quiet feeling, almost like a continuous numbness. How does one’s life change so abruptly? My days used to be so busy from sun-up to sun down. Now I can’t find the energy needed to complete even the most mundane of tasks. Our business books and papers need constant attention, but when one’s mind can’t focus…Okay, I am in LA-LA land! (i.e. a dream state-out in left field!)

This week has been a tough one. My dear husband and I have fought almost the entire week over our anniversary weekend. We have not celebrated too many birthdays or anniversaries at home. They always seem to land on a swim meet weekend where we have to be there for our 25-50 swimmers from 7:30 am to till 7:00 pm for 2 or more days. After 10 years of coaching swimming, my husband has decided to slow down just a little and take the weekend off for our 24th wedding anniversary. We received an invitation to attend an anniversary wedding for a family renewing their vows that same weekend. Guess who wants to attend the wedding and not go away on a much deserved weekend with their wife?! There were many of doors slammed noisily shut this week! I am not one to go into fits or convulsions, (remember I am very prim and proper) however, this week I even had the dog shakin’ in his boots! At the last minute I figured I should go to the wedding if only just to make it miserable for my husband! Totally out of character for me! The drive was much more than what we had anticipated 21/2 hours, much of which we just sat in LA traffic. I was doing my best to be silent, none of my usual “car talk”. I answered him when he spoke to me but I never offered any exciting dialog.

The wedding and surroundings were absolutely beautiful. The ceremony was at sunset on the balcony of the sister-of-the-bride’s home overlooking the Pacific Ocean. Talk about a million dollar view! They homeowner’s were also considering purchasing the vacant lot next to them for a couple million! Imagine dirt for sale for 2 million?!

We were treated like royalty! They served dinner poolside, all you can eat grilled salmon and filet mignon! Food is always number one on my husbands list, his motto is “To live good, is to eat good!” A live band from Las Vegas was flown in to entertain us with classical rock. It definitely was a chance for the “average Joe” to see how those with more than modest means live.

My plan was that I wanted my darling hubby to think that I was only fulfilling my role as a dutiful wife accompanying her husband to yet another of his many social engagements. Heaven forbid if he found out that I actually was enjoying myself!

Even though I was mad as hell at never getting to celebrate my anniversaries, I realized that every day together just being together is a celebration. I doesn’t take fancy weddings (we eloped) or elaborate parties to make a marriage, it takes love, commitment, and a whole lot of humble pie!

I redeemed my self to my husband by humbly attending the wedding with him. My husband has redeemed himself by humbly promising to make it up to me next weekend with a get away… I won’t hold my breath. Sometimes just the mere offer of a piece of humble pie is all it takes.

With much love and prayers to all,
Marci~.~

If I rise on the wing of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast. Psalm 139:9-10

If I rise on the wing of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast. Psalm 139:9-10

Hello our dear Eva, that is truly heartbreaking, 7 children killed, 7 set's of Parents with their hearts torn in half. May Our Lord give them the necessary spiritual and physical graces and His strength in the days, weeks, months ahead.
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Our dear Marci, I don't know how you found the Circle (other than God's Hand directing you here) but I'm happy that you have! When someone share's their feeling's, thought's, or whatever they happen to be going through at any time, we can all benefit from it, and identify so strongly with whatever someone has posted. That come's from the love that is the central point of this Circle - as our dear sister Selva call's it, 'This Circle of Love'. All of us find total acceptance here, and validation of our own Sharing's. You were touched by our dear Selva's and our dear Miss V's sharings, and in return, other's will be touched by your own! I can relate so strongly to your feeling's of 'the empty nest'. Three month's after Shane passed away, our Chris graduated from University and was immediately offered a wonderful job in another city. My heart did not want him to leave, but I kept these feeling's to myself of course, I knew I could never stand in his way of starting his own life, and I did my very best to show happiness for him! It was so difficult though to go from a happy, noisy home with my day's filled to all of it wiped away, compounded by my grief and pain over losing Shane. I truly understand how you're now feeling and I emphatize with you dear one. This Journey can be so complicated, can't it.
Love the piece of Psalm you posted, other than the 23rd, one of my other favourite's is Psalm 42.
Hang in there dear Marci, you know we're all here for you, for each other.
Much love & Tender hugs,
Sandy

Our dear, sweet AngelMom Lisa, I know this is going to be a very sad for you, just know that we're here for you on this special day, your sweet boy Aaron's birthday, there's another party in Heaven going on,
God bless you Mother of Aaron,
Lots of love, & Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear sisrte Lisa. Just to let you know that you are in our prayers, I am sure all of our Angel kids are celebrating with Aaron, and we will be doing it the samething someday. Be easy on yourself my sister and cry if you must. Just keep Pressing On to God, remember He is always there for you. God Bles you. love Selva

Hi my sister Eva. How horrible for those kids and their families, I can relate to how you feel, I hear of those accidents almost daily here in Miami, and it always take me back to that horrible night. Of course we will pray for those families. Love you my sister. Selva

Hi dear sister Marci, I am glad you are part of our Circle of Love, remember we all share the same kind of pain, only us who have gone through this type of horrible loss, can understand.Yes life can change in a matter of seconds, we learned the hard way, so we should Thank God for every minute here and try to do the best, I know that you feel lonely, but remember your kids are only "hours" away, so think they have to go on with their lifes the same way you did, it is hard to let go, but Thank God you have other children, you are very lucky. Glad you went to the wedding and you and your hubby are not longer mad at each other, and you enjoyed yourself, that is so great. love you my sister, and take it easy on yourself, it is normal to feel tired, lost, sad and of course you can't focus, but its OK,sometimes it helps to work on your books etc, it will keep your mind busy for a while. Much love to you. Selva

Hi my dear sister Angel in Chief. I'm taking a little break from lunch so I can post, I feel bad when I'm not able to do it. I have not gone to see the movie, well I have not been at the movies in years, some of my friends have seen the movie, I know it is a very porwerful one. I'm going to my Dr. tomorrow maybe he can tell me to get off the walker. I am feeling better as far as the pain. Well have to go back to work now, I will write again later. love you my dear sister. Selva

Hi my dear sister, I imagine that poor Nancy is still very busy during this tax time, and it's hard for you to post at night's, so our sister with the big heart gave up some of her lunch hour to post to us, especially our dear Lisa, who need's our love and support today.
Our dear Lisa Lou, I forgot to mention that I have a Candle lit for Aaron also, God be with you today, our dear one.
Yes, very powerful and deeply profound Movie, if you're not planning on seeing it, I'll write you offline to explain one scene to you, I don't want to spoil it for anyone here who hasn't seen it yet, :-). Wouldn't that be wonderful if he does tell you to throw the Walker away, :-) but please listen to him, I know what you're like, :-) and I'm so happy for you that the pain is slowly going away, at least now you can sit, lay down, etc., without being in constant pain my dear sister. I know your other pain is still there, God love you, but remember, once you're feeling much better, go fishing again, OK? Ok. Love you my sister,
Lots of love & Teddy Bear Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Angel Mom's and Dad's

Valerie lost Lucas 18 in a car accident Dec, 2002. I just spoke with her and she tried to hurt herself b/c of being in so much grief and pain and depression missing her baby Lukey. I did up a site for him last Oct. and he was one of the nicest kids around...isn't it always the nice ones that are taken...and drug addicts can do drugs and not seem to hurt their bodies, altho they are in pain and that's why sometimes they do the drugs...please pray for Valerie to find strength to go on and continue in this horrible life without her Lucas...I know you parents know her pain...here is Lucas' site Lucas


Thank you all and Hugs for all of you Bereaved Parents....I cannot imagine your pain....

Love Angela xoxo

Hi dear Ang, I wrote Valerie last night as you requested and invited her here to our Circle of Love. My prayer's are that she does, she'll realize she's not alone, and will receive the love, support and understanding here that she need's. Addiction IS a disease, and many time's those who suffer from this illness turn to other way's to take their own terrible pain away. There's always an underlying cause to their addictions, and they too need our love and prayers that they will seek help for their ilness.
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

OK, here I go again, :-) Our dear AngelMoms Sou, Susan, SharonLee, we haven't heard from you lately, I pray you're all doing well, but we all miss your wonderful post's and sharings, my heart, love and prayers are always with you,
Much love & lots of Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Angel Mom's & Dad's!

Just wanted to let you know Valerie is doing well, just spoke to her on the phone and she is sounding very much better now that she has had a 4 week rest at her sisters place and she is on medication.

Her voice has life again and altho it's hard, as you all know, she is getting thru this difficult time.

Thank you for your prayers for Valerie; she asked me to thank you as well.

With love in Christ,
Angela xo

Hi Angela, I just wrote to Valerie, please talk to her to join our Circle of Love, I am sure once whe writes whe will find lots of understanding, love, and prayers here. You are an Angel my dear Ang. God Bless you. Love Selva

Hi my dear sisters, ~ Just a quick note to let you know that I'm OK. Felecia Kay is still in hospital, but out of intensive care. We are waiting on test results. I have not been able to post lately due tech problems with cable connections, and also due to health related problems with my vision, [among other things]. My MIL is doing OK. Thanks for covering us with your prayers, and you know you all are covered in my prayers daily. What a blessed assurance it is to be able to go to God in prayer! He is always online! I will post an update ASAP.
God's peace & blessings,
Verna

Hello our dear Miss V! That's great that Felicia is doing much better, the family can rest easier now! Are you having problems with AOL again, :-) You poor soul, they're always giving you a hard time, :-). Take care of your own health and you know our prayers are always with you too, yes, our awesome God is always online!
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear Miss V. So great to hear from you and to find out that everything is coming into place. Our prayers are still with you, but please please, take care of your health, remember us? we still need you. Love you my dear sister. Selva

Hello everyone, ~ I just wanted to thank everyone again for your prayers. Earlier today, I saw this beautiful prayer that someone shared here at Beliefnet as a favorite prayer. I believe it was listed under prayer of today under the link for Depression. I thought it was so touching and wanted to make sure to share it with all angel moms and angel dad, Angelo. May you find a measure of peace & healing in the words of this touching prayer shared by:

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This prayer - written by an English solider in World War 1 before he died - can be recited about a person of any faith at a funeral, or it can be used by Christians as a prayer to Jesus:

Do not stand by my grave and weep,
I am not there...
I do not sleep,
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints upon the snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning hush,
I am the soft uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight,
I am the stars that shine at night,
Do not stand by my grave and cry...
I am not there,
I did not die.

Sharing one of my favorite poems written by Langston Hughes. It reminds me so much of MaDear's outlook on life. I do miss her so! Still, I am glad that she is getting the rewards I feel in my heart she so richly deserves. Eternal rewards that was purchased by our dear Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. As a very dear friend of mine once wrote:
"God sent His Son to save us
Oh how He must have loved us
To send His Son ...
His only begotten Son!"

For, it is by His sacrifice, His grace that we are so deserving!

Mother to Son
by Langston Hughes

Well, son, I'll tell you:
Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.
It's had tacks in it,
And splinters,
And boards all torn up,
And places with no carpet on the floor --

Bare.
But all the time
I'se been a-climin' on,
And reachin' landin's,
And turnin' corners,
And sometimes goin, in the dark
Where there ain't been no light.
So boy, don't you turn back.
Don't you set down on the steps
'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.
Don't you fall now --
For I'se still goin', honey,
I'se still cimbin'
And Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.