Prayer Circles

TO ALL ON HERE I PRAY FOR THE PEACE THAT ONLY JESUS CAN AND DOES BRING FLOOD YOU WITH PEACE INSTANTLY LIKE HE DID ME . HE IS SO MERCIFUL. I LOVE ALL OF YOU. THANK YOU JESUS FOR BEING WITH US,IN THE GOOD TIMES AND THE BAD. AMEN SANDY THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING SUCH A LOVING PERSON AND MAKING ME FEEL SO WELCOME HERE. MY HEART TELLS ME I AM IN SUCH A SAFE PLACE HERE ON THIS SITE GOD KNEW I NEED IT. GJOD BLESS YOU. SHARON

Hi my sister, that was a fast response!
Oh dear Sou, I'm just very happy to help you (if I can) and really, the thanks goes to God, I am most humbled that He use's me to try and help other Moms with their painful loss too. Ah, that's so sweet of you my sister to thank God for me, I am very grateful for that, and very happy that we met, but under sad circumstances. NO dear AngelMom, you're NOT going crazy, I thought that about myself in the beginning too, but I learned that so many other Moms experienced the same feelings as me, just as you are doing yourself now, that we know it's very normal to feel that way. Well, if you felt that way, then it's a very good thing that you didn't buy anything for little Sarah, otherwise you'd be feeling more guilt than you already do, and you know in your heart of hearts that you did nothing wrong, it was NOT your fault that your precious Pearl passed away. Oh my gosh, Sou, a diaper as small as your Palm? She may have been only 12", but she was perfect, and now her little clothing is very precious to you. I know my dear sister, you miss her so much, and would give anything to have her back, it show's what a tender loving heart you have, and how wonderful a Mother you truly are! I thank God for you too, my sister, you inspire me too, and I'm very grateful for your Prayers! So you see, you help me too, and I am very blessed by it,
salaam my dear sister,
Much love & Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Hello MyPearlie, yeppers, I'm happy you posted, and now I don't have to worry, :-) Looking at Pam's site for her Heather had a big impact on you, I'm so happy you could relate so strongly to what she has posted on her site, it helps so much to know that someone else has experienced the same thing, doesn't it! Hoping and praying for more and more Peace for you everyday, and don't be a stranger around here!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello my dear sister Selva,
I pray that today you are feeling a little better, but please still take it very slow and easy, you are missed here, but we all want you to get better my dear sister, so please take the time you need to get your health back, you know my heart, love and Prayers are with you so much,
Lots of love & Tender Hugs,
Sandy

HELLO ALL ANGEL MOMS AND DADS i needed to come here today to think i found out over the weekend the cover up of the police brutality my son went through i never drink alcahol but i surely needed it did not make things better but made my pain hide i too don't know what to say i am just so dumbfounded it is disbelief how someone could be so cruel i beg god for his forgivness to the monster i hate because i know this is not good for me and it is destroying me i am trying to move on and do more positive things with my life i am in the process of getting a home and everything keeps going backwards please all angel moms and dads pray for me i am in need of prayers deeply i also found that interesting how i and Sharon have been going through the same thing my name is also Sharon Strange i find some connection there i want to thank you all for making me feel like family this is the closest to love i felt in awhile i pray daily for you all sending lots of angel hugs and kisses

Sandy This is Nancy again, Selva is at
home, resting but still in a lot of pain
We are trying to get to an orthopedic doctor so he can follow thru and find out what is wrong with her.She can't walk. Selva told me to give you my email
address, so here it is. nadpa100@aol.com
If you want to write to me no problem.
Love from Selva to all of her friends and also from me.
Take care

Dear God,

I come to you tonight asking for total healing of our dear sister, Selva. Lord, You know how much we love our sister, and no one knows better than You how big and loving her heart is. Lord, she has done so much to lift the spirits of other angel moms, even as she grieves, and longs to see her beautiful Solange. Lord, I ask that You would please reveal to our dear sister that she must hold on to her faith and cast all of her sorrows and anything she must face in the days ahead on You, Lord. Give her the peace that only You can give. Let her know that she is being prayed for by all of us here in our circle of love. Please don't let her give up, Lord; Not now! She has come this far by holding on to her faith in You, Lord. Please wrap Your loving arms around our sister, and comfort her. Lord, I ask that You reveal to her doctors everything they need to know to treat her injuries so that she can come back to us soon. In Jesus' name, I pray, Amen!

Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Oh God, Our Heavenly Father
High Upon Your Lofty Throne
Father These Grieving Parents
Need Your Mercy And Grace
To Get Through All The Pain
And Emotional Turmoil They
Are Experiencing Right Now
So Many Accidents Father
Have Affected So Many Families
Oh Great God In The Heavens
Please Lift Up Their Burdens
To Your Loving Bosom And Free
These Grieving Parents From
The Grasp Of Death And Loss
Of Their Dear Children
Father I Lift Up Their
Hearts To You And Ask That
You Please Give These
Grieving Parents Your Kindly Yoke
And Make Their Burdens Light
Thank You Dear Father For All
And I Ask This In The Mighty
And Ever Dear Name Of Your
One And Only Dear Son
Christ Jesus, Amen

(((((Families)))))

Love You All So Much
Angela xoxoxo

Oh God, Our Heavenly Father
High Upon Your Lofty Throne
Father These Grieving Parents
Need Your Mercy And Grace
To Get Through All The Pain
And Emotional Turmoil They
Are Experiencing Right Now
So Many Accidents Father
Have Affected So Many Families
Oh Great God In The Heavens
Please Lift Up Their Burdens
To Your Loving Bosom And Free
These Grieving Parents From
The Grasp Of Death And Loss
Of Their Dear Children
Father I Lift Up Their
Hearts To You And Ask That
You Please Give These
Grieving Parents Your Kindly Yoke
And Make Their Burdens Light
Thank You Dear Father For All
And I Ask This In The Mighty
And Ever Dear Name Of Your
One And Only Dear Son
Christ Jesus, Amen

(((((Families)))))

Love You All So Much
Angela xoxoxo

Dear Sharon,
I am sorry you are feeling so bad. It must be horrible to think over and over again what your son had to go through. I am sorry I don't remember how long it has been since he passed, my memory is fading by the day but it sounds as you are relatively new in your grief. I pray for you that yoy heal and find the peace of heart and mind that you need. I know it's hard to imagine but try to imagine your son with our Lord and a better place. We all want out children back with us, but at the end to Him is the best destination of all. Your son is at peace and looks over you, probably his heart hurts to see you in so much pain but he will understand. He knows you love him and always wil.

God willing, when you feel better again, you might want to 'do something' in honor of your son. You might want to start a group for families and victims who went through the same, just to get more awareness. I don't know what to say but I pray for you to find the right path and put all your trust in God's hands and have Him heal you.

God bless
Sou

Hi shininggold5292, yes, this is a very safe haven to let your feelings out, you'll only find support, compassion, understanding, love and prayers here, your feelings will be honoured and never judged, so please post whenever you feel like it,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Good morning AngelMoms,

Just a short update on myself. My husband and I went to sign up for a gym last night. I am sure it will make me feel better, I can get out my anger in kick boxing class and sweat out my guilt in the steam room or sauna. It is a great gym with a huge pool, jaccuzi a lot of aerobic classes and so on. I always wanted to join but I was not in the mood to see "happy" people but we finially managed to sign up and we plan to go today God willing.

They have some very nice people there so I am sure I will find some new friends to make me think of something else than my pain. I think that getting active again and seing the therapist will be good for us.

Today my mind a bit clearer than the last week. I am glad I am out of these deep valley days, of course it won't be long until I am back there :o) but until then I take it day by day.

I pray that you all will find peace of heart.

God bless
Sou

Ah, dear AngelMom Sharon, (prettybird), you found out the extent and what happened to your precious Benji over the cover-up? OMG, that must have been a terrible thing to hear, I can't imagine your pain, and nobody would blame you for your anger. Any Parent would feel deep anger when their child is murdered brutally by another! I pray that Justice prevails, and the cover-up that is hidden in darkness be revealed to all in the Light of God. Don't be too hard on yourself right now dear Sharon, your anger is very understandable, and I know one day you will be able to come to terms with it and let it go, give it over to God, so that you too will be healed from it. I hope you find the housing you so need right now, and with all our prayers, the ability to go forward, but in time, dear one, you're just at the beginning still of your grief. Lean heavily on Our Lord, and I'm very happy that you have found some love here, we do care, and we do love you, sending lots of love, prayers and Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Nancy, thanks for giving me your e-mail address, I'll write today to find out about our dear sister, she must be badly injured God love her, and in a lot of pain, so I hope and pray you do find a good orthopedic Dr. to examine her and find out the extent of her injuries, you take care too, Nancy,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Sou, good morning to you, I guess we're on at the same time posting, :-) The gym you and your husband joined sounds like a terrific one, having all the amenities, I hope you both really enjoy it tonight! Our sister Selva, when she was very angry, her sister Nancy bought her a punching bag, and that's how Selva let some of her anger out too, so it's great to hear that they also have one, and you can do the same! I so agree with you my dear sister, going there and being active, as well as seeing your Therapist will help you get a better handle on your grief, I understand so much that you didn't want to be around 'happy' people before, but, I know this will make a big difference in your life! I'm sure there are so many nice people there, and you're such a sweetheart yourself, you'll make new friends in no time! I think it's a very positive thing for you to do along with your husband, and I'm very happy for you that you are making some 'me' time, doing something good for yourself, I'm happy too that today is another OK day, out of the valley, just do as you say, one day at a time and if you do slip back, that's OK too, it's all part of your Journey, but you have love and support here, and help from your Therapist, so I pray that the valley days won't be as bad as they were before! May God in his love and mercy bless you and your husband abundantly my dear sister, and I'm really happy for you,
salaam my sister,
Much love, prayers, & Angel
Hugs, Sandy

Dear sister Sandy,

yes we are on the same time :o)
This is one of the first pages I check out in the morning, and approx. every 30 minutes throughout the day.

It could be my fading memory, but I can't remember every YOU saying how you are doing!? You always give support to others but I don't remember you ever asking for support (since I joined here). Even if you don't ask, please be sure that you are in my and all others prayers all the time. When I pray, I thank God for you and I ask him to give you peace and happiness and all the other things you want.
If you need support please let us know, we are not very strong at this time but we will do out best to reach out to you just as you do to us :o)

God bless you
Sou

Dear sister Sandy,

yes we are on the same time :o)
This is one of the first pages I check out in the morning, and approx. every 30 minutes throughout the day.

It could be my fading memory, but I can't remember every YOU saying how you are doing!? You always give support to others but I don't remember you ever asking for support (since I joined here). Even if you don't ask, please be sure that you are in my and all others prayers all the time. When I pray, I thank God for you and I ask him to give you peace and happiness and all the other things you want.
If you need support please let us know, we are not very strong at this time but we will do out best to reach out to you just as you do to us :o)

God bless you
Sou

Hello dear Angel Moms,
Selva, I sent you an email this morning. I hope Nancy reads it to you. I am praying very hard for you to have a speedy recovery. We miss you here at the circle.
Lisa

I have my compassionate friends meeting tonight. We were supposed to write a letter to ourselves from our children and read them at the group. I thought about it a lot over the past few days and I just couldn't think of anything to write. I guess I will just listen to everyone else. The only thing that kept popping into my head was Aaron telling me "it's all good" Mom. That is what he would tell me all the time when I was scolding him, etc. He used to make me laugh under my breath when I was really mad at him.
Sandy,
Thank you for the email about Selva. I sure hope she is okay. I have been worried about her ever since I read it.
So, like Sou, I want to know how YOU are doing????
Please post and let us know what is going on in your world, besides helping us.....
Love,
Lisa

Dear Lisa,

It's good that you are going to CF, I heard they are good and very compassionate. Why don't you write the letter just as you wrote it to us? For example: Do you remember how I used to tell you 'it's all good' when you were mad at me because I did this and that? Sometimes I made little crazy things just to see you furious because I got my laugh out of it. Mom, I know you miss me but I am at a better place now and one day will be THE DAY when we meet again, I will come running towards you and hug you like I never hugged you before..."
Sorry I have to stop, I feel tears coming up again and I am at work, so I don't want them to get used to me having breakdowns here once a week :o(

Let us know how it went, all the best to you!

Sou

Lisa, I hope you will have the strenght to write a letter to yourself. It's a very good idea, I might do it too, just for myself. I know I couldn't read it aloud to a group I would just loose it, may God give you the strengh tonight!! You go girl!

Dear Angel Moms and Angel Dads, ~ As always, I pray that our Lord and Savior will continue to bring healing to our hearts as we continue on our journey. So painful is our journey during the very early stages of grief process. It is during this stage that we must acknowledge our grief and at the same time, know that it is OK to express what we are feeling, and that it helps us to do so. It is also at this very early stage that we are so very grateful to know that we do not have to travel this road alone. Although it has been a little over 7 years since I lost my precious 36 year old daughter, Diane, not a day goes by that I don't think about her. The only difference is the unbearable grief has settled down to a quiet sadness that is much easier to bear. This quiet sadness will always be a part of the new me, but I have learned to accept it; Not only to accept it, but to be grateful for and experience the many peaceful moments which God sends to me daily. Last, but not least, I am so very grateful that God has given me the opportunity to share His unconditional love and compassion with others who are just beginning their painful journey. I will always pray that the pain and emptiness that we must endure in the beginning stages, will become less and less, as we continue on our journey. May God grant our newly bereaved angel moms and angel dads, peaceful moments each and every day. ~Amen!

Hello dear Lisa, ~ Oh, I know how you feel. Even after all this time, I still get emotional when I tell my story during the Victim Impact meetings that I do with MADD. But, believe it or not, I always feel better after I have done so, because I feel I may have said something that touched the hearts of those in attendance. The same will be true with the letter that you write. Sou, has given you an excellent topic to share! Just as you shared the fond memory of Aaron in your post above, Sou has given you a perfect example of how you can share it as a fond memory which expresses how Aaron would express his memory on that same topic. So, if you feel strong enough to share, then do it! Your sharing in the post above touched my heart, so I know it would touch the hearts of the other parents there. And, even if the tears come, remember, you are among others who understand! Good luck on your sharing! But, as Sandy would say, ... No pressure; Only if you feel up to it! :)
Either way, Sou & I, and all the other angel moms/dads love you anyway! I have MADD (VIP) meeting at 6 o'clock tonight, so I need to get started on my presentation, and get ready for the long drive ... but I will try to come back on later tonight to read and/or post.
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Selva, ~ Please know you are always in my thoughts and prayers! Follow the doctor's orders ... PLEASE! We miss you dearly! Come back to us soon! Nancy, please let us know daily how our sister is doing!
Love & Angel Hugs to you both!
Verna