Prayer Circles

Hello my dear sister, thanks so much again for giving me the time off and looking after the Circle, how did your own day go, I know you weren't celebrating it, but I also know that you were in deep pain too, I pray that you felt Solange close to you, love you my sister, you're an Angel to me for doing what you did, and I pray it wasn't too hard on you,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

To our newly bereaved Moms, Marci, Susie, Chris, Galatians4, my heart and love are with you in your deep pain right now, and especially my Prayers, I know the first Christmas, (if you celebrate it) would be a very, very painful one for you, on top of your already existing pain, I remember only too well how I felt during the first and the second, I pray you had a very tender one and if the pain was overwhelming at times, that the day passed quickly for you, my love and prayers are always with you, Galatians 4 I can feel your pain through your post, God love you, I agree with everything our sister Selva said to you, please keep posting and letting your pain out, we do understand, and our other newly bereaved Moms, please post if you're up to it and let us know how you're doing, always in my heart and prayers,
Much love & Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Shaner

Dear Sandy

So good to hear from you hon, I'm so glad to be able to help you while you took the time you needed for you and your family.

Thank you for telling us about Chris and Shane's candle...so touching.

And thank you for your comments on Valerie...you know what she's enduring right now and even if I was there in person I could not take her pain away...I will phone again tomorrow earlier in the day to see if I can connect with her. Will post and let you know.

Well I'm very tired tonight Sandy, so will close now for the evening and talk to you all tomorrow.

((((((((((Angel Mom's & Dad's))))))))))

Much Love, Angela xoxo

Dear Galations

My heart hurts over your very sad story of your darling daughter...I cannot imagine how much of a shock it must have been and still is to you to have her taken with no explanation...

I do believe you that if you had not had your son, you would not go on living; it is a very profound statement I hear from every parent I have worked with.

My dear, know I am giving you a big hug and holding you close...my heart aches for you...

your story reminds me of when I lived in the foster home at 14 and my foster mom told me in the morning that my mom had passed away overnight...so many unanswered questions...I can't imagine how alone you must feel with no one helping you understand your dear daughter's passing and the big question WHY???????

Know I am sending my love to you thru the internet and here is a teddybear hug for you...my love to you Galations...Love Angela xoxo

Hi dear Ang, hope you're having a terrific Saturday, our weather is glorious, still no snow, hurray, it was nice to be out today, just taking in the great weather! I LOVE your Teddy Bear Graphic, it reminds me of our dear Donna, who always closed her Post's with 'Bear Hugs' or 'Teddy Hugs'. It's VERY cute, unfortunately though Graphics, Pictures, take up precious space that Beliefnet has kindly given us on this site, that's why a lot of Moms have made Memorial Sites for their children here at Beliefnet, where they can post pictures, etc. They ARE very cute, so thank you sweetie with your big heart, for understanding.
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Angelmoms, tonight I don't have the heart to post much. Please know that I love you all. God bless you.....
In HIs Care....Eva

Hi dear Eva, I can tell by your Post that you're having some rough valley days, God love you. You must have had a painful Christmas, only you're 2nd one without your precious Matthew being there with you. It's so difficult, isn't it, when the only gift we really want is our child, to be a whole family once again, no empty chair at the table.
The new reality we live with can be a very painful one, especially on these special days such as Christmas, when our hearts and minds are drawn back to happier times when we were all together.
I'm so happy you did post, AngelMom Eva, we love you too, keep pressing on in His care, and know that our hearts and prayers are with you our sister, to help bring you back out of the valley, may His peace and love soothe your heart, dear one,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

I too know your pain,I lost my daughter 6 yrs.ago she was 22,she was murdered and it was covered up by the police.She was a beautiful person inside and out.She always found the good in people.A part of me died when she did.I was angry at God for along time,but I realized it wasn't Him I should be angry with.I've found my way back to God
But I know He never left myside.We are raising our 2 granddaughters(not her children)I thank God everyday for them,without them I don't think I would have made it,I know thats why God sent them here.I have moments of happiness,which has just started after 6 long yrs.This is the first Christmas I've looked forward to since her death.
My prayer for you is that it becomes easier and you can feel moments of happiness,and not to feel like you're in fog.I pray all day long for God to keep me going. My Deepest Sympathy for your lost,and I'll keep everyone in my prayers

Hi dear sharonleemary05, I am so sorry about your own tragic loss, your beloved daughter murdered at 22. Losing your precious daughter is the worst pain in the world for a parent, but to lose them at the hands of another, and then having to deal with the Police trying to cover it up, I can only imagine how hard it must have been for you. On top of your own grief, to have to deal with that also, my heart goes out to you. Little wonder you were so angry, it must have made it very hard to grieve for your daughter, God bless you. Yes, a part of ourselves goes with our child, and were forever changed by their passing. She sounds like a beautiful person, and I know she's continuing to shine in Heaven. I understand what you mean about your anger, it's a very normal part of grieving, moreso to lose your daughter under those tragic circumstances, but you're so right, God never abandons us, He's there all along and He in His great love understands. That's wonderful that you have your two grandchildren with you, they must bring a lot of joy and happiness into your life! I'm so happy that the fog has lifted for you after all these years, and you're experiencing moments of happiness and had your first Christmas to look forward to in so long, God love you. Thank you for your prayers for all, and know that we'll be praying for you too, and your sweet grandchildren. Please post back again, a very warm welcome to the Circle,
Love, Prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear sister Sandy and all of you dear Angel sisters. Even if I did not post for the last 2 days I've been keeping an eye and reading. Xmas day was very quiet for me, my brother was working, and I asked my sister to please go out with her friends, so I was all alone, I read When Bad Things Happen to Good People, then tried to meditate, my Dr. keeps telling me I should do this on a daily basis, and I try and try but can not concentrate, but Xmas day I finally reached that point of relaxation, oh, it was wonderful, for the first time in many years I felt complete relaxation, of course I had help, when I went to Dr. Brian Weiss workshop, I bought one of his books which included a CD, he has such a peaceful voice, and he guides you through it, so I finally relaxed, it did a lot of good. I think Solange had a lot to do with it, she once gave a poster of this little monkey with its hairs all up that said, "I need to learn to relax". I have it at my office. She used to tell me all the time, when I would worry about her, Mom please relax, you have to learn to relax, no matter how much you worry, when my time or your time will come, there is nothing you can do about it, so please relax. So I guess that was her Christmas present for me. Angela, I sent an e mail to Valerie yesterday, I invited to come to the Circle of love whenever she is ready. Love you my sisters. Selva

Hi my sister Eva. Yes we all know how you are feeling, remember we are just months apart, our second Christmas without our child, there is nothing to celebrate within our hearts, not yet. Keep on Pressing on my dear sister, that is all we can do. Love you and my prayers are with you always. Selva

Hi Lisa. I know that you are on vacation, thanks for the beautiful card, thank you too my dear Sandy, I was so happy to receive it. I know my sister, this is still very hard on us, pretty soon all this Holidays will be over, and even that we will be feeling our awful pain, nobody has to remind us of it. Hang in there my sister, and remember my prayers are with you always. Love Selva

Hi dear Sharonleemary05. Welcome to our Circle of Love, yes we know of your pain, I can only imagine what you had to go through loosing your daughter and not getting help from the police, I lost my niece in the same way (murdered) and the police was not help to us either. Then I lost my daughter 16 months ago, due to a car accident, she felt sleep while driving, no alcohol or drugs involved, and she was my only daughter. Please count your blessings, I will never be a grandmother, so enjoy your grandchildren , may God Bless them and you too. Love Selva

Dear Selva, You have my Deepest Sympathy.I can only imagine how hard it is for you.I do count my blessings,and I will keep you in my prayers.
May God Bless You
Sharon

Dear Shaner, Thank you for welcoming me,you don't know how long I've been looking to share my feelings with others that understand such a tragic thing to go through.My prayers are with each and everyone of you.
May God Bless You
Sharon

Dear Angel Mom's and Dad's

Thank you Selva, so much for em'ing Valerie. I just got off the phone with her. Tomorrow is Luke's 1 year anniversary. Valerie will go to his resting place in the morning and light a candle there and when she gets home she will light a candle. I will be lighting a candle when I get up and burn it all day. I will phone her in the afternoon to find out how she is doing...she will be alone as her husband has to work and her daughters have to work as well so that's why I will phone her.

I told her about you mom's and dad's and that all of you will be praying for her to get thru the day.

Thank you for all your love and May God give you strength to get thru your days to come...

In His Love,
Angela xoxo

Hi my dear sister, oh, that's a very good book, hope you enjoy it and it helps. Good for you, trying Meditation! It not only 'quiets' the mind, but has terrific physical affects too, it'll help to lower your blood pressure, help you to concentrate and sleep better too. I'm sure it helps you a lot more if you're listening to Dr. Weiss's CD, guiding you through it. I'm glad you had the day alone, as you wanted to, and your sister was able to still enjoy herself with friends. The day is now over, and just New Year's to get through. Oh, that's a cute Poster, :-) Solange is right, guess she knows her Mom very well, :-) and yes, I'm sure she was with you on Christmas Day to help you through it! Back to work tomorrow, but another short week. OH - you forgot to e-mail me about the 'cream' for the Roast.
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Ang, thanks for your love and prayers for all, and dear Valerie will be in our's tomorrow, as she painfully commemorate's her dear son's 1st Anniversary,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Oh dear Sharon, (please call me Sandy), I'm so happy you found us! This is a very safe haven for Moms, Dads, to let their feelings out, to share, encourage others on their own Journey's of Grief, and you'll only find understanding, love, support, and never any judging, your feelings, sharings, as well as those of others, are always honoured! We're all on our own individual Journey's, but unified in our loss of a child/children and the terrible pain we all go through. We're very happy to have you here, AngelMom Sharon, and truly look forward to your own sharings, postings, here at our Circle of Love!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello dear AngelMom Sou, have missed hearing from you, I pray that the dark clouds are lifting and the sun is peeking through again, if not my sister, it's very understandable, with precious little Sarah's due date now here. I know you went to visit with your tiny Angel today, :-) next Sunday when you go, tell little Sarah that we love her too. Hope you were able to enjoy your days off and are still planning your kitchen,
salaam my sister,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Our Dearest Sandy,
Thank you for your kind words and loving prayers...I don't know if you realize what an impact you have on those of us, who at times hang on to every word you write. Thank you for acknowledging us by name. I have been checking daily…but I’ve been too overwhelmed to post. This is the most difficult road to endure in life but you let us feel like we don’t have to travel it alone. Especially when we’re too overwhelmed to pray for ourselves, just knowing that you are praying for us brings a sense of peace to our grieving spirits. Thank you and God bless you.
Love, Marci

It has been a most difficult week for our family. It was not only the holiday pressures and facing our first Christmas without our beautiful son Sean, but our Daughter went through the 6.5 Earthquake that hit coast of CA. Friends and family called us checking on her she lives just 40 miles from the center. She goes to school in San Luis Obispo and lives and works in the Pismo Beach area. She travels throughout the area and had been to San Simeon the day before (hardest hit area) I cried non-stop for 2 hours! I just wanted to make sure she was okay, the media on TV kept the coverage going and people from all over the area kept calling in saying how terrible it was and the destructionand no electricity etc. All I could think of was my poor, little 21 year-old college student daughter without electricity shaking in her boots! When she finally got through to us she let us know that she had been surfing the entire time and never felt a thing...nor was she aware of any destruction going on. She had wondered where everyone on the beach had gone! All we could say to her was "DUDE! GOD DOES WORK IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS!"
I don't think we could have taken anymore tragedy in our lives. She survived an accident 3 years ago where she fell asleep at the wheel coming home from work at christmas time. She is a miracle. We live in a rural area where there are sections without streetlights and paved roads. Our beloved son Sean-Michael got lost at night and when he tried to get his SUV out of the ditch it rolled on top of him crushing him. Our youngest son, Evan is 16 years old and will NOT drive until his 40 years old! and then only during the day time with his dad in the vehicle! ~.~ love Marci

(((((Marci)))))

Your pain is a double load to bear...I am so relieved to hear your daughter is okay...Marci, my son is Sean Michael too. I will add you to my prayer list; I cannot imagine your pain but I thank you so much for posting and all the Angel Mom's and Dad's support you and love you.


(((((Selva)))))

I have read Dr. Brian Weiss' books and used his meditation techniques. He is great isn't he! Will post tomorrow re: Valerie.


(((((Sandy!)))))

So good to read your posts and know you are okay after Xmas; not great, but ok. Thank you for your prayers for Valerie to get thru the day; it means more than I can say.


(((((Eva))))))

Hugs to you for your pain.


(((((Sharon)))))

I'm sorry to read your daughter was murdered...and then to add insult to injury, a cover up...my heart hurts for you.

In His Love,

Angela xoxo

Dear Angel Moms, ~ Please forgive me for not posting lately. I have been trying to deal with some major health issues which have prevented me from posting on a regular basis. That, along with missing my Diane, MaDear, my brother, Charles, and realizing that time is marching on has been quite difficult for me. I guess overwhelming is the correct word to describe the last few days. However, I am determined to press on, as our dear Eva reminds us, and continue doing God's work for as long as I am able. Thank you so much for your prayers, fwd pages, and responses to the pages I have been sending over the past few days. I have really enjoyed finding so many wonderful pages to share with you angel moms. Most say exactly what I feel in my heart for all of you! And, for that, I am extremely grateful. I have also been catching up on reading back post from everyone, and I continue praying for all. I also feel so very close to each angel mom/dad and their guardian angel each time I light a candle in loving memory of all of our angels who are watching over us from heaven 24/7. I have been feeling my Diane's presence so strongly here lately, until I find myself wondering what it all means. Now that the book is all but finished; [Still waiting on final editing, formatting, and copyright, etc.], I feel as though I am faced with having to let go of my precious daughter & the many bitter/sweet memories forever! I know that does not make sense, but it feels as though once I have completed Chain Reaction, I must face the entire reality of all that I have managed to survive thus far. I guess the only way I can explain it [what I have been feeling] is to say that there is a kind of quiet sadness that has entered my spirit, and out of nowhere, the tears just pop up when I least expect. However, due to the many prayers that I know are being prayed, I feel encouraged to continue on my journey and I pray that I can continue to in my effort to encourage our newly bereaved angel moms and dads, to make the effort ... As difficult as it is to do sometimes, to do the same. May God, in His tender mercy, continue to walk with us on our endless journey, giving us those precious moments of peace, for which we all pray! May it comfort each of us to know that our precious children are always watching over us, and that the love we shared with them while they were here with us, is now eternal, and that love bond will sustain us until we embrace them again in heaven!
God's peace and blessings, love & Angel Hugs,
Verna