Prayer Circles

Hi dear Marci, thank you so much for keeping us all in your prayers, and you know that you are in our's. You're so right sweetie, that's why it's so important for us to make time just for ourselves, whether it's curling up with a good book, a long bubble bath soak with Candles, or even a piece of good Chocolate, :-) something we do special, just for ourselves, as I tell every new Angel Mom, be gentle with yourself, you're in deep pain right now. So glad you attended the Candle Lighting Ceremony, and the story related by the Pastor is truly an inspiring one, a man of great love and courage, who was proud to tell the people he ministered to that he was finally 'one of them'. So sorry to read about his dear wife though, God bless her, I don't believe there's many of us who don't question 'Why?', we're human, and don't fully understand God's ways, we just have to trust in Him, and know that His love is constant, unconditional, and I don't believe we'll fully understand until we enter into Paradise ourselves. My fervent prayers and love are with you dear Marci, I know your pain is so very deep right now,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear sister, we're all praying for you dear Selva, as you're going through this very rough time, and you know our hearts are with you too, if you feel like posting tomorrow great, but if not we all understand, sending you lots of love, prayers and Tender Hugs, our sister,
Sandy

Hi dear valour, thanks so much for telling us about Angelo and his precious daughter, it break's my heart to hear of those poor innocent children who are preyed upon by very sick people, God love him, after 17 years to finally be able to let go of his pain, that is definitely the Hand of God in your life and his, bringing you both together so you could speak to his oh so heavy spirit with your own loving and understanding words, and he, after all this time finally being able to let go of the terrible pain he's been carrying around, Praise God indeed, He put you in the right place at the right time, and also Angelo, what an awesome God that we love and serve! Thanks so much for the links, and much love to you dear Ang for reaching out to this devastated father in love, and helping him to finally have some peace in his broken heart! You have gently guided him and listened to him in his great pain, and have put him on the 'right' road in His and his wife's Journey. May God bless you mightily for heeding His call! I'm definitely going to visit his website right now, and write to him, I pray he comes here too, where his voice will be heard and his grief honoured, but never any pressure, first I'll visit his website and see his beautiful daughter taken so tragically at the hands of another, and then offer my own words to him, and my prayers,
thank you again, dear one, your own light is shining so brightly right now,
Love & Big {{Hugs}},
Sandy

Hi all my dear Angel Sisters. Thank you so much for all your prayers, I really needed it, Solange's Godmother Eva was cremated, she did not want any services but a mass, so they will have a mass in NY on monday and then we will have another another one in Miami. I am sure Solange was there to greet her.Love Selva

Hi my dear sister Sandy. Thanks for your understanding, you are our Angel in Chief and I love you so much. Sousou thatnks for your prayers and I am praying that all the test comes out great, please let us know. Marci , what a great story, it really touched my heart, it feels so good to know that there are people out there with such big hearts, with all this hate and war and dead going around sometimes I feel that good people are a minority, but with stories like that, I know that good hearted people are still a majority. My sister Verna, I am praying for you and your mother in law and you know my sister, that the power of prayers works better than any medicine, and you can count on mine my dear Sister.Angela you are an Angel here on Earth, I feel like you are part of our family, may God Bless you for all the good you do, I just received an e mail from Angelo, I invited him to be part of our Circle of Love, I hope he does. Lisa and Eva, we are "the youngest in time" with our loss, just months apart, I know how hard is December for us, I am not planning to do any celebrations, but remember I have no other children, so you are lucky enough to share Christmas with your other children, Bless you for that and please count your blessings, just for a moment think that you were the ones in the other realm, wouldn't you love for your family to be happy? That is what our Angels wish for us, to be happy, so lets try and do it for them, yes I know it is hard, but remember you have other sons and daughters. I love you all my sisters. Selva

Hi my dear sister, I thought I would check the Circle - we've been out all day, the crowds and the traffic were a nightmare, :-) and I'm really tired, but OH so happy to see a Post from you!
Thank you for the Prayer and Card my dear sister Selva, that was so sweet of you!
I truly pray my dear sister that you are feeling a little better, oh yes, I know that Solange was there to greet her Godmother Eva, and welcome her home, she is now free of all earthly pain, take some comfort from that, and it's wonderful that they will have a Mass in Miami too, then you and everyone else will be able to attend it. Marci's story is very uplifting, isn't it, we very seldom hear of the millions of people around the World who are doing such good things for others, I am a firm believer that peace and love start with each of us, reaching out in love and understanding with all our brothers and sisters, creating a 'ripple' effect, that we will all come to understand that we are all one in God, and that the only emotion that ever really matters is love.
That was so nice of you, in your own deep pain right now, to reach out to Angelo too, and invite him also to our Circle of Love. I love you too, my dear sister, we're all here for each other, and I send my love and prayers to you on the wings of the Angels, to help you right now to have more peace in your spirit,
Lots of love & Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Hello to All Angel Mom's and Dad's
I talked with Angelo again today and he is feeling encouraged b/c so many of you Angel Mom's em'd him and he did sign up on beliefnet. He will be doing a post very soon.

I made a page for prayer requests in Angelo's daughter Angela's memory. I am just waiting for Angelo to get me Angela's picture for the page; but will give you the link so you can see what I'm talking about. The page is not on the poem listing yet until I get Angela's picture.

The reader will click the email button for a prayer request to me, I will send it out as an email. Then there is a link for the reader to click to come here to Sandy's Prayer Circle so they can post and get support and give support.

I would appreciate any comment/suggestions from you Angel Moms and Dads b/c you may see something that needs to be done that I don't know about. Here is the link:
Click Here

Much love to all you Angel Mom's and Dad's and know my love is with you all.

In His Love,
Angela xoxo

Hello my dear, loving sister Sou. I've just read your beautiful and oh so tender words to Shane, and I'm typing this through teary eyes. Not tears of sadness, dear one, but your words have touched my very soul. Your most heartfelt and eloquent feelings expressed by your own loving heart Angel Mom Sou, have not only affected me deeply, but I know they have also affected Shane, who I know has been given the privilege of holding your sweet, precious Sarah in his arms. I can't seem to come up with the right words right now to express my love and gratitude to you, but know that you have touched my heart in a very special place right now. May God in His great love bless you with your own heart's desire right now, and my prayers are foever with you,
Many, many Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Angel Mom's and Dad's

How precious you all are and your dear sweet children in heaven. My heart aches for all of you and I wish I could snap my fingers and make it better for you...but I feel utterly helpless...

Please know I pray for all of you every morning when I read my Bible. Never a day goes by without asking Our Heavenly Father to carry you Bereaved Parents thru the next few days....the most painful days in the year as you miss and long for your dear loved ones....

Please know I care so much for you all and I will do all I can to help you walk on your path of loss.

In His Love,

Angela xoxo

Oh dear Ang, you're not 'utterly helpless' here dear one, :-) what better gift to give to all than your love and Prayers! I can't think of 2 better gifts than those, and you do both oh so well, you are truly a blessing to all here, and you dear one are in our prayers and love too,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear sisters. This Circle of love reminds me of a little poem that I read a very long time ago. Hi Mr Travelling man, to this little old church, just a Heaven of rest when you are carriying a load, so come in and pray Mr travelling man and lay out your load in this Heaven of rest. Well I can not remember all the words but the message is the same. I invited Angelo to come to our Circle, he might think this is only for mothers, but I hope he understands that his is for "Bereaved Parents". I also told him that I know about his pain, besides loosing my only child, I also lost a niece in 1984, to a perverted person named Christopher Wilder, he was killed 3 months later and he took the answer to his grave, we never found Shari, he killed 13 other girls all over the US after the Fla police fail to keep an eye on him, he was the most wanted man by the FBI, all over the nationale news, yet, he kept on killing this your girls using the same line, I'm a photographer for Vogue Magazine and will make you famous. This is a very long story, they even made a movie about it, on mother's day back in those days we "traspassed" into his house looking for clues, I used to scuba diving in those days and there is a canal behind his house were I dove, and guess what? the police took us in for trespassing (on mother's day), my company used to own channel 6 in Miami (nbc) when I called my co workers they were there in 5 minutes, the whole state new a bout the story so then , the police did not know what to do with us (and her mother) I remember it was a sunday and they had to call a judge at home to come an clear us out, we had hundreds of lawyers wanting to take the case, but of course we were cleared of the charges.Solange was 3 years old at the time, I was so paranoid, that I will call my mother every 3 hours to see if Solange was OK,(my mother will take care of her while I worked)I had this trauma, that Solange's mother was well known through out middle school, that "her mother was very strict and over protective) she always understood why, and will laugh about it, always got away with everything she wanted (good things). I love you my sisters, still in valley days, Angela you are an Angel. Selva

Hi my dear sister, gosh yes, that Poem reminds me of the Circle too, Travelling Man (on a Journey), stop and rest a while in this Haven, lay down your heavy load (like our heavy hearts)and rest awhile! Thanks for posting it, it really has a special meaning here, doesn't it! I sent Angelo a short note, apparently he's having problems logging on, but I hope by now he's solved them and we'll see a Post from his soon. Thanks for telling him that, my sister, we've had Dad's posting before, and he can show us from a Dad's perspective his own story of loss, and his pain and how he's handling it. I remember you telling me that story dear Selva, those Police and others didn't know that they wouldn't stand a chance against you, :-) when you have your mind set on something, watch out world, :-) and what a comfort and support you were and still are to your niece's Mother, I remember also that a few months back you were callled in to identify some remains they had found, but sadly weren't her's. I pray they DO find them one day so she will be properly laid to rest and give peace to her Mother and you too. I know my sister that you're still in deep valley days, my love and prayers are constant with you, please take care of yourself,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Angel Moms and Dads

I pray for peace for your dear hearts.

Angela's picture is on her page now Click Here

I have a tooth abscess and it has had me sick all week and I could not figure out why I was sooo tired....well am on anti-biotics now.

Dear Selva! Thank you for your story; I know your email meant a lot to Angelo and he will be by soon. I know it is very hard for you now with your recent loss; (((((((Selva)))))))

(((((((Sandy)))))))

(((((((Verna)))))))

Take it easy on yourselves and be good to yourselves. The stress of the next few days will wear on your body. Know I am praying for all of you.

In His Love,
Angela xoxo

i was finally able to put my sons cremains in his resting place yesterday,i feel like my whole world is falling apart and no one understands.i feel like this is the only place i can go.it's christmas and i can't stop crying,i feel so guilty.thanks for listening.merry christmas to all of you.
God bless,
susie

i was finally able to put my sons cremains in his resting place yesterday,i feel like my whole world is falling apart and no one understands.i feel like this is the only place i can go.it's christmas and i can't stop crying,i feel so guilty.thanks for listening.merry christmas to all of you.
God bless,
susie

ROBBIERABBIT

((((((((((Susie))))))))))

You poor mommy! How awful for you! Hon every parent I've talked to feels guilt...it must be so awful to feel so alone and that nobody understands your pain....susie I've just lifted your name up to the Lord in prayer and even if you don't feel it, He cares. I care. The good thing is you are letting your tears come and you need to get rid of the awful feelings inside by crying...it does not go away but it lessens a little of the angst when you cry...oh hon i wish i could take your pain...please know I care.

With Love, Angela xo

Hi dear Susie, what a very painful thing to do, on top of your already deep, raw pain you're feeling right now.
It hurts and it hurts bad. That is the last thing you ever wanted to do with Robbie. I understand sweetie, no Mom ever wants to put their child in a grave, or put their cremated remains to rest. It tears our hearts right out of us. We're Moms, we've always protected our child/children, sometimes fiercly so, but losing them and then laying them to rest makes us feel powerless, we couldn't save them from passing on. All of us feel guilt during the grieving process, you're feeling guilty right now over your ultimate loss, and what you had to do yesterday. Your whole world right now has been turned upside down on you, and you're experiencing so many different emotions right now, along with the terrible pain. These feelings and pain you have right now are oh so universal, we all feel it and sometimes we feel as though we're going crazy, but trust me sweetie, you're not, whatever you're experiencing right now with your feelings, emotions, are very, very normal, and we've experienced them ourselves, and some are still experiencing them. You are not alone here Susie, everyone of us here who has experienced this ultimate loss knows of the incredible pain you're in right now. If you go back a couple of pages, you'll see SarahMyAngel's post about her pain over her baby being in a grave, it's the most heartbreaking thing we'll ever have to do, other than losing our child. I know Susie, very, very few people do understand what we're going through or are going through. But we do. You are never alone here. We're all here to support you, walk beside you, give our love to you, and listen to you. I think Christmas must be the furthest thing on your mind right now, so please be very gentle with yourself, and spend the day in whatever way is best for you. It would be too difficult to live up to other's expectations of you right now, gently explain to them how you're feeling right now, and I pray they honour your feelings. You cry and hug something of Robbie's and let your pain out. And always know that you can come here and talk about your raw, biting pain right now, your feelings and emotions, this IS a safe Haven and trust me Susie, nothing you'll say and express hasn't been felt by anyone of us, we do understand and we care. So please Susie, post back again, I know it's hard sometimes to put your feeling's into words, but we're very good at reading between the lines. It's so important to let it out around people who understand and we all do here. My heart aches for you dear one, and my prayers and love are with you,
Love & Lots of Tender Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Susie. We understand, see all of us in this Circle of Love have gone through the same horrible pain you are suffering right now, some of all are kind of new at this, but most of the other Angel Sister who have been in this painful journey a little longer, can help us a lot, with the prayers, their love and understanding. I lost my only daughter Aug 15, 2002, I still feel the guilt, the anger, despair, see our lifes will never be the same, a great part of it is gone, we lost our child. Cry my dear friend, and please come here and post often, you will find all the understanding here, see people who has not suffered this type of pain, will never understand. You can let your feelings out here, you will never be judged, all that you will find is prayers, love, compassion, helpful advices. I will pray to God to help you in these painful times, He listens Susie, even when we are Angry at Him, He understand our pain. Love and prayers. Selva

I feel as if I don't even have the energy to keep on keeping on. I lost my daughter to suicide or murder by her Iranian boyfriend on Feb. 24, 2002...but, it seems like yesterday. I want to hold her, to tell her how much I miss her and love her. She was my life. In the name of Jesus Christ, I ask that peace be in all our homes during this season...a time when the absence of our children is felt so horribly. Like I have read of others, I, too, am completely without hope and so filled with pain. I want my daughter. I want to know how she died.

Hello MsBabs, I'm so very sorry to read that you've also lost a child, your beloved daughter. It still hasn't been very long for you, so you take time, lots of it, your own time, not what or where others expect you to be. The second year can be even more difficult in some ways because the shock and disbelief have worn off, and the terrible reality starts to set in. Grieving is hard emotionally and physically, it drains you, it occupy's all your thoughts and time, and saps your strength. And adding to your pain right now are your painful thoughts of once again facing the Holidays without your precious daughter with you. All the Moms here who are facing the Holidays know what that is like, everybody understands. I know you want your daughter back, sweetie. It's so very, very hard in the beginning, and as I said, it still hasn't been very long for you, you've read other posts here from Moms who are hurting badly too, so please know that you're not alone. What you're experiencing is very normal, as painful as it is, God love you. Hold tight onto your faith, even when you're angry, God know's your heart and understands. I pray you find the answers you're looking for, hopefully that will give you some peace. Please post here whenever you want, we all understand and care. May God in His great love, mercy and compassion give you His peace, and you'll be in our love and prayers,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Deb, I know you're leaving in the morning, have a very safe trip, and enjoy the time with your family, please post when you get back,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello Angel Mom Sou, miss your posting, I pray that all is well with you!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Thank you God for the time we have been blessed to share with those you have chosen as special...the children.
As Jesus loved the little children, and God gave His Son to redeem our darkness, let us remember the purpose of our lives............to have faith in the darkest hours....knowing that to You a million years is like a day, so age of death, hard to bear for anyone left behind, is not so important as faith and purpose. The children were SO chosen by you........We were Blessed for having these angels in our lives. Thank You.

Hello dear angel moms, ~ I pray that you are being gentle with yourselves as we make an effort to get through the holidays without too much stress! I am feeling some better although still very weak as I continue to recover from the flu bug. I have been catching up on reading during the we hours & spent the rest of the night finishing an email that I started to angel dad, Angelo, a few days ago. The hands are still not healed to the point where I can do a lot of typing in one setting; so I type a little and rest a little until I get it done. That way, hopefully I am not doing too much damage to the nerves in my hands and arms ... allowing them to heal. So, please understand if I miss submitting posts as often as I have in the past. :) Thanks to all for your prayers, fwd pages, and emails. You truly are the wind beneath my wings! :) I will always remember each of you and your precious children in my heartfelt prayers. And I will continue lighting a candle each night for all our precious and beloved children who are spending Christmas with our Lord and savior, and our heavenly, Father, God! Though they are in heaven, they still remain with us in spirit form, and send us sweet and tender heavenly hugs and kisses all the time! :) Yes, they are happy, alive & well, but they miss us too! :) Nevertheless, they want us to finish our share of work here on earth that God has given to us to do. Then, for each of us, when our time comes, our children will rush down that beautiful heavenly path, to welcome each of us inside! Forevermore! Until then, we must finish living the rest of our children's' life, in such a way as to honor their memory. We live now, for them to the best of our ability ... Even as we continue to grieve, and miss them so! They will always be our beloved sons and daughters ... God ordained it from the beginning! Our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, has paid the ultimate price to assure that we shall live forever with our children in a world that to us will be brand new! Although the cross that each of us carry daily, is oh so heavy, and the price [learning to endure the ultimate grief], is high; we must continue ... against all odds ... to embrace each other and console each other and pray for each other on a daily basis! Realizing that there is power in numbers, and that it helps to know that we don't have to carry our heavy cross alone! Knowing that, each day we are getting closer to joining our children. May God go with us, ... and give us a measure of peace, as only He can as we continue our journey. In Jesus' name, Amen!
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Hello dear Angela, ~ Thank you for your heartfelt prayers, and for reaching out to all angel moms and angel dads. It fills my heart with gladness to know that angel dad Angelo may be joining our circle of love and compassion. When our Lord whispered in our Sandy's ear to create this wonderful circle of love, she created it for bereaved parents; not just moms! Yet, few dads have found the courage to share their pain here. I have been praying that God would send more angel dads to our circle of love, to share with us how the loss of their child has changed their lives forever. When I recall how hard it was for Diane's dad to finally open up and express his grief and pain over losing our daughter, I realize even more, what a blessing it will be to have Angelo join us on our grief journey, but only when he is ready. Perhaps he will someday share with us, to help us angel moms better understand how men/dads deal with the ultimate grief of losing a child.