Prayer Circles

Hello Angel Moms!

I forgot to tell you that I have a website where I make Memorial Pages for your dear children in addition to the site where you view Miss V's poetry.
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If you choose to leave a message in the Guestbook, may I ask you to name the page so I may pass your message onto the parent? thanks and may God Bless!

Love, Valour xo

Hello dear Valour xo!!! ~ Right now, I wish you could see the big smile on my face; even though the tears are blurring my vision. :) I have been reading back post four hours, since I responded to your email & Cindy's email earlier this evening. Due to an ace bandage on one hand and professional brace on the other, Lol, I am doing a lot better peck typing without having so much pain!!!

As you can tell, I am Soooo far behind [due to the pain] in my individual/group post to all of our new moms. But, I am determined to edit & get them completed and submitted by daylight, God willing, so ... Stay tuned! :)

Thank you again, Valour ... For the letter of introduction, & for sharing the poems on your website! And, also, for the link at google; which assures that they can now be read by angel moms/dads/parents all over the world! And I dearly loved reading the touching story about everyone needing a "John" in their lives! So very touching!!! No doubt in my mind ... You truly are one of God's Earth Angels, in every way! Soooo, my dear Valour, my advice to you is to: Accept God's blessings, and keep right on doing what He has given you to do!!!

I continue to thank God for whispering in Sandy's ear, and telling her to help get the poems out there! Once she introduced us via email ... The rest is history ... Done in such a beautiful graphic setting ... Designed by you! I wish you could have seen my reaction to the graphic setting you chose for the poem I did called My Cross! I am Soooo glad you gave me a little hint before hand that you liked it. The words of My Cross brought healing years ago and has continued to be an incentive to keep pressing on, even as I grieve. However, seeing the poem presented in such an awesome setting ... The message seems to hold more meaning; and is medicine for the soul's continued healing!

I asked Sandy in an email once, (Lol) how did she manage to keep up with you!!! Remember, Sandy?? We may have shared it with Ya later. :) I mean, at my age, and all, ... I was like ... Whew!!! ... I gotta hurry and find some of Dem poems I done wrote!!! Ha-ha! Fortunately, my book project manager has promised to help me come up with a unique system of filing that will aide me in finding things in my files!!!

Seriously, though, you do work extremely fast, and your designing of the pages are Spellbounding! As Sandy and I often remind our new angel moms, as well as each other ... Each of us are doing God's work in our own way ... As He directs us on our never-ending journey; that leads back to Him & the heavenly reunion we will someday have, with our children and all other family members and friends. And, you, my dear sister -- are a very important part of God's divine plan.

No, ... [fortunately], you have not lost a child; which leads me to believe that is exactly "Why" God has sent you to us here ... In our circle of love! All you need do, is read a few of the back post throughout these many pages to discover just how much you are needed!!! Through no fault of their own ... Not many people are willing or caring or compassionate enough ... Or have the sincere desire, or the time to reach out to those of us who have experienced the greatest pain one will ever know in this life. In my opinion, the loss of a child is, by far, a mother's worst nightmare! It is "The ultimate cross." I've found much healing since I joined this circle of love. Since that time, I have been richly blessed to join hands with you & Sandy, & so many precious angel moms, and others, I have never met ... Both here, as well as in your lovely garden! And, for that ... I will always be grateful! Always!
Love & Hugs,
Verna
LOVE2U ~

Yes, dear Ang, we always appreciate it when someone who hasn't experienced this unique loss comes to the Circle and post's prayers for all, and you have done so with your kind, compassionate heart! Thank you also dear one for providing the links, now if any Angel Mom wants to have a Memorial Site done for them, they have your information, and with your God given talent, I know they would be done with your love and your beautiful usage of graphics and music! Also Angel Moms, Angela will make your site tailor made for you, reflecting your own thoughts, feelings, pictures you may want to add, her beautiful work speaks for itself, :-)
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

For Those Moms Who Are Facing The Holidays

Just a note to let you know that I am thinking of you during this hard
time of the year and keeping you in my Prayers. I know as many of you it is so hard to get through
the Holiday Season without our kids. For some of you, this is your very first, and you may just want to wish the day away.

I know that I have had to venture out a couple of times to the local
mall and it is so hard seeing everyone running here and there with all
their kids. I often wonder how many others there are going through this
process of wondering what it would be like if our kids were here with
us. I know that it really does no good to wonder, but I think it's not
possible to do anything but that during this time of the year.

I guess the way to get by is by trying to remember the true meaning of
this time of the year. I have always felt it is about love. Love can be
felt in so many ways. We all still love our kids, that will never
change. We have our families, I hope you are able to count on them. We have
friends that have stuck with us. We still have a lot of love
surrounding us. We have to take that love and hold it close. I know it is easier
said than done, but in the end
that is what will count the most.
I can't stress enough that it's important to do what makes YOU feel comfortable, other people, family members, may expect unrealistic expectations of you at this time, not fully realizing that in your pain, you can't possibly live up to them. Explain to them gently what you can or can't do, for they also may be confused as to what is best for you. They fortunately haven't experienced this ultimate loss for a Parent, so in all fairness to them, they don't understand, and may unintentionally add to your pain. The intentions of them and friends are well-meaning, but as I said, do what is most comfortable for you, and express to them just what you are capable of at this time. May God bless you all in His great love,
Prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Angel Moms,
I am in a really bad mood today, nothing in particular just mad at the world I guess. I just want to leave work and go home and cry. I don't want to be here but I have to be......I ran to 3 different stores on my lunch hour looking for this certain thing for someone for Christmas but couldn't find it. So...now I need to think of something else. Not a big deal but I know she really wanted one....
Selva,
You have been keeping quiet, I hope you are okay???
Sandy,
I also received that letter you posted from Indigo and thought it was very compassionate. How are you doing this holiday season? Is Chris coming home for the holiday? I get so caught up in my own grief sometimes I don't even take the time to see how you are doing. Do you have all your shopping done, etc? I just a have a few things left and I'm done. Now comes the wrapping part, I always seen to do it all at one time and feel overwhelmed with it. I plan on doing some tonight and then some tommorrow. I remember one year (lol) I procrastinated until Christmas Eve! My sister was very kind and came to help me wrap all day and night.
Angela,
I went to you website and it is absolutely inspiring. You are such an angel yourself supporting all of us with such kindness and caring. It means a lot to us to have someone that truly cares. God Bless You.

Well, even though I don't want to be here....I guess I better get to work since that is what they pay me for, lol.
Love to All,
Lisa

Hi dear Lisa, hey, we're all allowed to be in bad moods sometimes, and in your pain right now it's very easy to get frustrated! It's too bad you can't go home early and have yourself a good cry and let it out, I understand dear Lisa.
You belong to Indigo too - what a terrific site it is, did you light your star there? As you can see, I changed it around a little bit to better reflect what is important to AngelMoms here, but left in their part about love.
Yes, Chris is coming home to spend Christmas with us, hurray, and no, I'm not ready, :-) I dislike wrapping, so I buy those bags, put the gift in, and then the tissue paper on top. If the gift doesn't fit in one of those bags, then I wrap, :-) Oh Lisa, that was so kind of your sis to help out, I'm a bit of a procrastinator too, so I understand, ha, ha! Don't forget to make some time for yourself, it can be overwhelming and you're still in much pain yourself, dear one. As for our dear sister Selva,

A note to all: she e-mailed this afternoon that her adopted Mom, Solange's Godmother, passed away today, she's also in deep valley days, and now for this to happen, well, my sisters, we need to pray for her, and keep her close in our hearts and love.

God bless you Angel Mom Lisa, and if you still need to cry when you get home, then you do it.
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Angel Moms, ~ First of all, thank you for your prayers & all the uplifting fwd pages & emails. My dear mother-in-law seems to be improving; so that is a powerful blessing! Thanks again for remembering her in your prayers. I am trying to follow Drs. orders, but it is not easy during this time of year. The holidays are always difficult. Both my MaDear and my beloved brother, Charles were born in Dec. MaDear was born on Dec. 10th and Charles, Dec. 18th. So, it's been valley time for me. The meds seem to be working on the flu bug, but still have a lot of pain in wrists and swelling in my ankles. I plan to go in tomorrow to see if I need to get back on the meds for the diabetes. Please keep me in your prayers, and you know all of you are in mine.

Dear Bird, ~ Welcome to our circle of love & compassion. I join other angel moms in prayer for the nine Afghani children killed by accident and for their families. I also pray for world peace.
God's peace & blessings,
LOVE2U

Dear SarahMyLove ~ My heart goes out to you in the loss of your precious Sarah. There is no greater pain than that of losing a precious and beloved child. I will be in prayer, asking God to grant your wish to have another little one. Your Sarah, will always be in your heart. She is also your guardian angel, and you will always be her angel mom! Thank you, also, for visiting Valour's website, and for your kind words about Valour's wonderful transformation. I thank God everyday for Sandy introducing me to Valour, and for all the kindness she has shown, and help she has given to me. The pages which she creates are simply Spellbounding! Since I have been unable to type much, I have been spending a lot of time in her lovely garden, reading all the wonderful stories and healing poetry that are there. She is truly one of God's very special angels!

Thank you, also, for extending an invitation to another angel mom, who is in so much pain, to join our circle of love. God bless you dear one, and I pray that God will continue to give you those moments of peace for which we all pray!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Dear Heartbroken Mommy, ~ While surfing the net earlier tonight, I came across your post on the loss of your precious daughter, BJ. I am so sorry to read of your tragic loss. It brought tears to my eyes. I, too, lost my daughter because someone chose to drink and drive. My precious Diane, was an adult; 36 years old at the time of the death. When I first heard the news, once I could breathe again ... I begged God to let me die. They called it a chain reaction wreck because the car in which she was a front seat passenger, was first hit by a car, then a pickup truck, and finally another pickup truck. It is believed they were drag racing at the time. The last pickup truck finally knocked the car off into a ditch ... And landed on top of the car in which Diane had been a front seat passenger.

It is not known at what point she was ejected from the car. The wreck occurred around 10:30 PM, on Aug. 31, 1996. On the first anniversary of her death, princess Diana, was killed. To me, that felt like I was reliving what had happened to my daughter all over again. I was at home alone at the time, and my feelings were ... Now, I will never be able to forget what happened. My husband was out of town, my other daughter, was living in Texas at the time. No one called, and no one came by. It was just me, and God. So, I cried out to God. I wanted to know why, of all the people involved in that wreck ... Why my child was the only one to die. God did not give me the answer that I desired. Instead, He sent His Holy Spirit to say to me, "Go write this down!" It was on that night, with tears flowing, that I wrote An Ode To a Drunk Driver. I have since used that poem to place it on the hearts of those who choose to drink and drive, to refrain from doing so. It is my love tribute to my beloved daughter, to ensure that she will not be forgotten, that she was more than just a statistic, and that her death was not in vain. I feel that if I can convince just one person not to drink and drive, to save one parent from living with the kind of indescribable grief and pain a mother has to learn to endure on a daily basis, then it is well worth the effort.

Even though my pain has become easier to bear, I will always miss my precious and beloved daughter. I will still have valley days, but I have learned how to manage my pain a little better over time. The tears still come; especially on special days, holidays, birthdays, or any day that I am reminded that my child is no longer here. But, I know now, that it's OK to grieve for my daughter whenever, and for as long as I feel the need to. Let no one tell you when it is time to move on! In your case, you had the added trauma of being with your precious angel, and seeing the sights and all that went on. And then being told that she was gone. In my case, I had the added trauma of not being there with my precious daughter, being told that we lost her, and how it happened, and learning that I would have to wait three days before I could identify her body. I can't begin to imagine how painful that had to be for you!!! No one can!!! The only thing that I and the other angel moms can do is walk beside you and pray for you, and listen and shed heartfelt tears, and relate to your pain as only another angel mom can!!!

There is no set time when it comes to grieving the loss of your precious child. Only you and God can decide when you are strong enough to slowly begin to move on. You will know when that time comes! Something will happen to let you know! You will feel as though a heavy burden has been lifted off of your shoulders! And, for the first time in a very, very long time, you will be able to laugh again, and feel life is still worth living! And, you will know, that there will always be valley days. They will come and go throughout your grief journey. The only difference is, what you feel will not be as intense and will not seem to last forever as it did in the beginning stages.

I pray that God will continue to give you the strength to continue on your journey, and that He will soon deliver you from the indescribable grief and pain over the loss of your precious and beloved B. J. I will light a candle at 7 PM each night, in loving memory of your precious and beloved child, B. J., as we here in our circle of love have begun doing for all our precious and beloved children you. On behalf of all our angel moms, I welcome you to our circle of love, compassion, and understanding. Please know this is a safe place where you can pour out your heart to others who have been where you are now. You will never be judged, and you can always count on us to storm heaven with prayer for you and your beloved B. J. The two of you are in my thoughts ... Which places you in my heartfelt prayers!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Good morning Angelmoms,

My dear Selva, I hope you are reading here although you are not posting. We understand your pain and you were on my mind all day yesterday, after our dear Sandy brought us the news that Solange's Godmother joined your dear daughter in heaven. You must feel so betrayed now that even her, who was so close to your daughter passed away. I pray that you will have the patience to bear this and that God will lift your spirits and you feel the peace that you need. Life seems not fair sometimes but God has His plans that we don't always understand. Sometimes I too wish to hear an answer to the question "Why" but most of the times we have to wait until we go home, too. My dear Lord, free our sister Selva from her pain and shower her with Your blessings and Your light, show her the right path to peace of mind and heart.

Dear Lisa, I hope that you too will be feeling better soon and that your spirits lift and you find peace.

Dear LoveU2, I pray that your mother in law will be doing better soon, especially during the holidays next week. And for you, I pray that you will be doing better, too. May God give you the strength to go on and make it through these tough days.

Thank you for your words. I already feel much much better since I joined this circle, this is my third good day in a row, I didn't have this before! I can't describe it, but I feel such peace inside of me all of a sudden, it's like the clowds have lifted and the sun is trying to break through, I hope that soon the sun will make it and shine again on all of us.
I went to the doc yesterday, she ordered me an ultrasound and a huge bloodwork, the ultrasound is tonight and I don't have an appointment for the blood work yet. I hope they will find the reason for loosing my Sarah baby and I hope so much that one day I will have a living child. I always wanted to have a whole basketball team but now even asking for one seems to be almost too much.

My dear Sandy, I hope you are doing well. Yesterday was too busy so I couldn't post. I was reading your posts though and as always, they are very uplifting :o)
I read a post about another angel mom who lost her daughter in a car accident, I invited her to join this group so I hope she will. If you like to drop her a few lines with your great support and understanding I am sure she will appreciate it. Unfortunately I just can't figure out how to turn a 'link' into a real link on B-net so please copy and paste.
I wish you a good day, may you all find peace.
God bless
Sou

http://www.beliefnet.com/boards/message_list.asp?boardID=332&discussionID=313728

Dear Selva,
I am so sorry for the loss of Solange's godmother. I know this is a very sad time of year for you anyways and now this on top of it all. You must be so very deep into valley days. I will pray extra prayers for you. I wish I could be there to comfort you. Maybe you can find some comfort knowing that Solange now has her Godmother with her in heaven.
Love, Lisa

Sandy, thank you for the kind words of encouragement. I'm glad to know that I am not the only one who hates to wrap gifts. Those bags sure make it easy don't they? I did get some of it done last night, but not as much as I would have liked to. I can't believe Christmas is just a few days away. Where has the time gone? I am scheduled to be on vacation beginning Christmas eve until Jan. 5, but I am thinking about asking my boss today if I can just go ahead and be off Monday and Tuesday too. I feel like I am not in the right state of mind to be working. I really don't have much to do here right now anyway, it's kinda slow and I can't concentrate on what I have. I am really worried about waking up Christmas morning without Aaron. Last year it had only been a few months since he died and my family agreed to stay the night Christmas eve at my house. We all woke up early and went to the cemetery first than came home and opened presents, etc. So, having the family there when I woke up made it a little easier I think. This year it will only be me, Randy and Christopher. It makes me so sad just thinking about it. I am worried about how I will react. I don't want Christopher to feel bad if I breakdown, etc. I am trying so hard to be merry for him....and Jesus. But I just feel so damned depressed. I wish I could just sleep through Christmas and wake up next year, lol. I know on the special days that have past, the days leading up to the day itself has been worse. Maybe that will be the same for Christmas and I will wake up excited and happy like I used to!
Still praying.
Lisa

Good Morning SouSou,
I see we were both posting at the same time, lol. I am so glad you are going to the doctor to find out why you lost your precious Sarah. Hopefully after the tests you will have a solution and can have another baby as soon as you are ready. A whole basketball team!! Wow, that's quite a few, lol. I too love children. My prayers are with you.
Lisa

Verna,
I hope your mother-in-law continues to do better through out the holidays. I will be praying for you and your family as you cross these difficult days. You are such and inspiration to me and I just love reading your poems. Keep up the good work. How much longer till you finish your book?
Love,
Lisa

Lord my God.. I come to you this morning to lift these precious angelmoms up to you. Father I ask that you be with us during this Holiday season. Father comfort those who just recently lost their beautiful child. I know in my heart Father you hear our prayers. Father thank you for the sweet spirit that our Angelmoms have.Lord God I thank you for each and everyone one them......In Jesus Sweet Name I Pray...Amen

Hi Susie,
Thank you so much for words of encouragement. Yes, we do have other children that we have to be here for. I thank God everyday for that. Gosh, it has only been a month for you. Way to early to put him to rest. I'm sure you are still in shock and numbness. This will be my second holiday season without Aaron and it is still very hard and sad. Do you feel like talking about the accident? What happened. Only if you are ready. We are always here for you if and when you need to. God Bless You,
Lisa

Hi our dear Miss V, I join in everyone's prayers for continued healing for your mother-in-law. You also have many valley days in December, it can be so overwhelming when they are all clustered together as your's are in one month. Take time for yourself for your own healing and renewing of your Spirit, and you know you're always in out hearts and prayers,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Eva, we are so grateful for your prayers for all, in your own pain, reaching out to and for us. You know our heartfelt prayers and love are with you also, may you keep leaning heavily on God, and pressing on in His loving care, Angel Mom Eva,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Prayer Warriors Needed

Dear Angel Mom's!

Today I talked for an hour on the phone with Angelo from USA. His Daughter, Angela 11, was murdered by a sick perverted pedophile. Angelo is in need of prayers and encouragement; I have his permission to post the web site about Angela's murder and I am happy to tell you the murderer is in jail as we speak. Please, if you can, email Angelo to encourage him and let him know you know his pain. We prayed together on the phone and were in tears with each other and holding each other. Here is his email address

Mrbird7777@aol.com

A site about Angela's murder: Angela Marie Wong; murderer caught

Angelo has been in denial for 17 years over his dear daughter Angela's death; he could not handle the pain. But now, he is dealing with the loss and there are more losses he has recently suffered which he can tell you about. Angelo is in deep distress and needs your support; just as you all need support from each other.

I did inform Angelo I do not walk this path so I leave him in your loving and caring arms as a group of bereaved parents and Angelo and I will continue to stay in touch with each other.

Angelo is also a NYC cop, has been on America's Most Wanted for his daughter Angela's murder and has been on every talk show in America.

In addition to you giving Angelo your support; so he will give you his support. The more we give, the more we get back in return. This is my testimony. I get back way more than I give and I know it is from the Lord.

I had just finished my Bible reading this a.m. and my prayers asking the Lord to direct more grieving parents my way so I can help them. I also mentioned all of you Angel Mom's in my prayer as I do every morning. I just turned my pc on and Angelo's email was there. His phone number was on the email so I called him immediately. We talked for an hour.

Angelo was on my website and emailed me from there. In Angelo's prayer at the beginning he thanked God for "finding this Shining Star to help him; me being the star." I told Angelo after our prayer that on the website where I make pages for your beloved babies, my name is Star. Can you see how the Lord leads????

Thank you all Angel Mom's for your courage, love, hope, prayers for each other, telling of your dear child, your depression, your despair, your pain. It is only by you that the growing public will be educated in the Bereaved Parent's nightmare.

I am making a page on my site for all Angel Parents to put in their prayer requests as this is what the Lord told me to do 5 minutes ago. I will let you know when it is up and that way visitors new to the site can place their prayer requests as an Angel Parent and then on that page I will direct them to Sandy's Prayer Circle so they can find solace here.

My love be with you all. In His Love, Angela xoxo

Dearest Angel-moms,
Just wanted to let everyone know that you are all in my prayers. It's hard enough for everyone to survive the holidays with all the added "stresses" but for those of us who grieve...It can be unbearable at times. This past Wed. night we went to a candle lighting cermony. I wanted to be a "big girl" and not cry from the beginning to the end! It was a blessing for me to go. One of the Pastors who spoke told of a Leper colony on an Island outside of Hawaii where a pastor ministered for 15 years to his gravely ill congregation. One morning he awoke with numbness in his ear… the tell-tale sign of Hansen’s disease (leprosy). When someone asked him if he regretted his ministry he replied that he would have had it no other way. That Sunday morning he greeted his members that now finally he was ONE OF THEM. Then he shared with us that he lost his beloved son in May 03. At 36 years old, he passed away in his sleep. They weren’t aware of any illnesses. His wife was 7 months pregnant with their second child. We all ask WHY? I don’t think anyone here on earth has the answer. I do know that when he spoke I knew his pain and grief and he knew mine. He was ONE OF US. With much love and prayers, Marci~.~

Prayer Warriors Needed

Dear Angel Mom's!

Today I talked for an hour on the phone with Angelo from USA. His Daughter, Angela 11, was murdered by a sick perverted pedophile. Angelo is in need of prayers and encouragement; I have his permission to post the web site about Angela's murder and I am happy to tell you the murderer is in jail as we speak. Please, if you can, email Angelo to encourage him and let him know you know his pain. We prayed together on the phone and were in tears with each other and holding each other. Here is his email address

Mrbird7777@aol.com

A site about Angela's murder: Angela Marie Wong; murderer caught

Angelo has been in denial for 17 years over his dear daughter Angela's death; he could not handle the pain. But now, he is dealing with the loss and there are more losses he has recently suffered which he can tell you about. Angelo is in deep distress and needs your support; just as you all need support from each other.

I did inform Angelo I do not walk this path so I leave him in your loving and caring arms as a group of bereaved parents and Angelo and I will continue to stay in touch with each other.

Angelo is also a NYC cop, has been on America's Most Wanted for his daughter Angela's murder and has been on every talk show in America.

In addition to you giving Angelo your support; so he will give you his support. The more we give, the more we get back in return. This is my testimony. I get back way more than I give and I know it is from the Lord.

I had just finished my Bible reading this a.m. and my prayers asking the Lord to direct more grieving parents my way so I can help them. I also mentioned all of you Angel Mom's in my prayer as I do every morning. I just turned my pc on and Angelo's email was there. His phone number was on the email so I called him immediately. We talked for an hour.

Angelo was on my website and emailed me from there. In Angelo's prayer at the beginning he thanked God for "finding this Shining Star to help him; me being the star." I told Angelo after our prayer that on the website where I make pages for your beloved babies, my name is Star. Can you see how the Lord leads????

Thank you all Angel Mom's for your courage, love, hope, prayers for each other, telling of your dear child, your depression, your despair, your pain. It is only by you that the growing public will be educated in the Bereaved Parent's nightmare.

I am making a page on my site for all Angel Parents to put in their prayer requests as this is what the Lord told me to do 5 minutes ago. I will let you know when it is up and that way visitors new to the site can place their prayer requests as an Angel Parent and then on that page I will direct them to Sandy's Prayer Circle so they can find solace here.

My love be with you all. In His Love, Angela xoxo

Hi my sisters, just to let you know I am keep on pressing, I will post tomorrow, I am in deeeeep valley days, but I am still praying for all of you and me. Love you my sisters. Selva

Hi dear Lisa, I know this time of year is so painful for you also, it will also be your 2nd Cristmas without Aaron, your handsome boy with the beautiful smile, so I hope and pray that you do get the time off you need, I'm sure your Company won't mind. Yes, those bags are a God-send, aren't they, for those of us who dislike wrapping, or like me, who is wrapping challenged, :-) You're way ahead of me dear Lisa, I've still got shopping to get done! Last year the Holiday didn't seem real to you, you thankfully had your family there for support, getting you through a surreal day, I understand your very real apprehension over this year, you don't want to 'spoil' it for Christopher especially, but what if you do cry - you can explain gently to Christopher the reason why, he's old enough to understand and he knows, God bless him, that it has nothing to do with your love for him, it's constant as ever, sometimes we underestimate our other children. And you're so right - sometimes the dreaded anticipation of the day is far worse than the actual day itself, and you just may find that this is the case for you this Christmas. I DO understand dear Lisa, my 2nd without Shane was a very sad one too, and I did break down, managed to collect myself for our Chris's sake, and then went on to make the day as special as I could for him, and he did enjoy it, while I wore my 'mask'. I truly wish I had great 'pearls of wisdom' to offer you from experience, but I don't, dear Lisa, except to say that do what makes you feel most comfortable, each of us handles it in our own way, and my fervent prayers are with you dear Angel Mom, trusting in God to make the day more bearable for you, and to even experience a little joy,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Angel Mom Sousou, once again I am late coming here, :-) but am very happy to see your post! It brightens my heart to read that this is your 3rd good day, with the sun finally coming out again, peeking through the dark clouds, I pray that it will appear more and more, until all the dark clouds are gone. I'm also very happy for you that your Dr. is ordering all these test, the ultra-sound tonight, and that they will reveal the answers so you CAN have that child or God willing, the basketball team you so want. With God nothing is impossible, so we're all in your 'corner' rooting and praying for you! Your own posts to your sister Moms here are very heartfelt too dear one, yesterday was not a very good day for me, so I wasn't online much myself, just experienced a reflective sort of day, and needed to renew my own spirit. I did go to the Grief Board and saw your kind, warm post to the Angel Mom there, and added my own Post, thanks so much for making us aware of her, and I truly hope she does take up our offer and post here. Praying for continued Peace in your life dear one, and more and more sunlight coming through those clouds,
salaam my dear sister,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy