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Hi my sister Sandy. Yes 190 posts and many more to come. I have been in the valley, I am emotionally worned down, I moved everything but Solange's room. I will do that next weekend, I also have a cold and no energy, sometimes I fell I don't want to go on, but thanks to YOU, and all of my sister Angel moms , my sister, brother and my pshycho I will continue, but really I am sooooo very tired. I love you all my sisters. Selva

Sandy, when you get a spare moment can you please go to my father's page, Jerome Roeske, and leave a prayer for him, I cannot carry this heavy burden alone, thanks rosybell

Happy Birthday, Deb, ~ Today is also my husband's birthday. I hope you had a wonderful and peace filled day! Hope you checked email bright and early this morning and checked out the birthday card and message. I also hope you had fun clicking on the fireworks to light the candles on your birthday cake. That is my most favorite card to send. Selva, I have misplaced my list too, but may be able to locate it in my files. if I locate it tonight, I will send it to you. I believe I have all Dec. birthdays already scheduled at birthday.com . If my memory serves me right, Solange's birthday is Dec. 7th, and your birthday is Dec. 25th, Christmas Day! I know the special days will be very hard on you, but hold on to God and the fact that your beautiful Solange is near you always!
Love & Hugs
Verna

Hello my sister, yes, 190 pages and counting! I pray that there was no need for this Circle, everyone who post's here know's what I mean, but thankfully it is still here to help, support, understand and pray for all who have lost a child/children. I'm feeling much better, but when I was sick, I had a couple of very bad 'valley days', at one point I had a high fever, and kept drifting in and out of sleep, my hubby told me that I kept calling for Shane, oh boy, the missing never really goes away and you revisit the pain once again.
You take care my sister, rest and tend to your cold, it snowed here last night, first time this year, and some is still on the ground today, very cold north wind, brr, glad I'm at home all snuggly, :-) AND you keep pressing on, as Eva would say, make sure and rest and do something nice for yourself,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi rosybell, my Joy to say a prayer for your dear Dad, I posted at his Circle,
Love & Angel Hugs to you,
Sandy

Hi my dear sister Sandy. You did not tell us you were sick but somehow I knew, it is not like you to be away from the Circle, I kept sending e mails to make you laugh, I thought you were on valley days and did not want to imposed on you to write, but like I tell Donna ("who is also keeping very quiet"), please let us know, I think that our dear sister Verna and I are the only ones that say "hey we are not feeling well" and that is great, I am proud of you Verna, so please my sisters are we a family or what?. I love you anyway, just a little reprimend (?) you know my spelling. I still have a cold, but not that bad, I am going to my pshycho tomorrow need it very much and thursday I am meeting Don (Solange's recipient) and Evelyn his mother, I am so nervous about it, don't know how to react. Keep me in your prayers my sisters, and please be sure you are all in mine, the Holidays Oh the Holidays it is awful. I got Juny an appt with my phsycho, she needs it, she does not want to go but I will make sure that she goes.Solange's godmother is very ill (maybe 1 month) why now? God knows. Yes I am pressing on (with the little energy that I have left) Please write. Love you all my sisters. Selva

Hi my sisters, me again asking for another favor, please pray for Solange's godmother, I am praying that she feels no pain, but also that she meets God, she is a wonderful human being but not too religious, although the last time we talked she told me that she was in God's hand, did not want any treatments etc, but she is stil holding on to grudged, she did not wanted me there because I did not send her the pictures I made about Solange's passing etc, believe me I had no mind, no directions, no who to send pictures to, no sense of living, but she is that type of person, she did not forgive me and will not, I have no guilt in me about it, yes it does hurt, she is like a mother to me, but she will understand that I was (and still are) not myself anymore. I just want her to find forgiven in her heart, I am praying for her 24/7 and God knows I love her very much. Please help me on this I will tell you the whole story later, right now I am grieving that I am not there. Love Selva

My dear sister, go back to page 190, and read my post. The point of my post on this page was the sharing of my own pain and longing that I experienced when I was ill for a couple of days.

That's wonderful that you're meeting Don, his mother, you may be a little nervous now, but once you meet them you'll feel like old friends and have a great time! Yes, Christmas is approaching for all of us, a very, very difficult time of the year, I still don't like going into the Malls at this time of the year, with the Christmas music playing and watching happy families shopping, this is your 2nd Christmas without Solange, so again, spend it the way you want, the way that is most comfortable for you, sometimes it help's to change traditions, and include new one's, such as lighting a special Candle at the table for our child who can't be with us, or donating to a Charity at this time of the year in their name, it gives you something tangible to do with your grief and pain. And try to draw on the good, happy memories, of Christmas' past, as I said, do whatever makes you comfortable, this is for all Moms, if you don't feel up to attending the Office Christmas party, or traveling to spend Christmas with other family, don't, the only expectations that count at this time of the year are your's!

That is truly sad about Solange's Godmother, no, you have nothing to feel guilty about, and yes, of course we will pray for the situation, and for her, maybe our prayers will soften her heart, and she will make amends with you before she passes, of course it hurts, but it is her decision, not your's, but with the power of prayer, who knows what can happen!!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my sister Sandy, I did go back to page 190, sorry, forgive me? I know you will. Solange's godmother is very very ill, they are just keeping her under sedation for pain, that was all she requested I am praying for her.I wish december will go away very fast. Love you all. Selva

Hi dear Angel Moms,
Thank you all for the emails and cards, they are greatly appreciated. I'm happy to know that you guys haven't forgotten about me. Lord knows I haven't forgotten about you. I think everyday about posting but then just get down right lazy or can't find the strength to even get to the computer at home. I swear everyday I wake up and have all these good intentions of doing things different and then by night time I am so tired I don't do anything. I need someone to put a fire under my butt...lol. I know faith without works is nothing but I just can't seem to do anything but get myself out of bed and go to work. And even that is hard, I don't want to work anymore but unfortunately I am not in a financial position not to.
Thanksgiving was very hard for me this year, I cried off and on most of the day. My brother and sisters and their kids were all there. The only one missing was Aaron and it is not fair. I miss him so bad I can't stand it. I think about him constantly. I know in my heart that he is happy joyous and free but I am very selfish and want him to be here with me. I know you all understand. I don't know about this Christmas stuff either. One part of me wants to go all out and do it up right for Christopher but the other part of me can't even fathom the thought of Christmas without Aaron. Just putting up a tree seems like a whole lot of work. But I know....Aaron loved Christmas and he would want us to celebrate with our without him. I still have not received a sign from him yet, or had a dream. I am still praying for that everyday.
Selva, I am saying extra prayers for Solange's Godmother and for you. I wish I could be there to help you with the move. But I know Juny is a lot of comfort to you, hang on....
Love to All,
Lisa

In The Name of the Most Merciful, the Most Kind

May God keep us the patience to go through life without our beloved children. May God let them know that we always think about them and that one day we will be able to hold them in our arms (again).

Fly, fly little wings
Fly beyond imagining
The softest cloud, the whitest dove
Upon the wings of Heavens love
Past the planets and the stars
Leave this lonely world of ours
Escape the sorrow and the pain
And fly again

Fly, fly precious one
Your endless journey has begun
Take your gentle happiness
Far too beautiful for this
Cross over to the other shore
There is peace for evermore
But hold this memory bittersweet
Until we meet

Fly, fly - do not fear
Don't waste a breath
Don't shed a tear
Your heart is pure
Your soul is free
Be on your way
Don't wait for me

Above the Universe you'll climb
On beyond the hands of time
The moon will rise
The sun will set
But I won't forget

Fly, fly little wings
Fly where only Angels sing
Fly away, the time is right
Go now, find the light

by Celine Dion

Hi my dear sister Lisa. Ay I do understand so much what you are going through, I spent Thanksgiving moving and then came to my sister's house and went to sleep early, my sister went out, she needed a break I insisted for her to go out, now Solange's birthday, Xmas etc, I can't wait for december to go away, Solange's godmother is really very ill, she is in the hospital, just getting pain medication, there is nothing else they can do for her, I still have Solange's room to deal with, Juny took most of the clothes and shoes, and helped me a lot, I left her alone in the room she told me Mom let me throw away what I know Solange will do, now I will give her bedroom set to my neighbor, she lost her daughter 4 years ago 19 years old to cancer, she asked me for it, so that I will do this weekend, I asked Juny and Solange's friends to go and celebrate Solange's birthday I am sure she will enjoy that, she will be 22 on sunday. Leit it all out my sister, that is what we are here for. I also have problems even getting up, I make all kinds of plans, like going to Yoga classes, openning a prayer circle for spanish people, and I do nothing, just come home and go to sleep (?) or try. I understand. Love you Selva

Hi SarahMyAngel. Thank you so much for sharing that beautiful song, I like Celine Dion but never heard that song, I will make sure I will get it.Yes we all need that patience don't we, I lost my only daughter , 20 years old on Aug 15, 2002 in a car accident, next sunday she will be 22 years old, and yes I can hardly wait to meet her again and hold her in my arms and this time forever. God Bless you Selva

Hi my dear sisters. I was looking for Cyndi's profile today because I lost it, I have visited it many times and even tried to add Solange's name to her list (she did it) Cindy please let me know the web site I lost it, and I went back and back to page 84 (wow we are in 191) Thank you Sandy and Verna, from my heart, you were there all the way, also Yvonne, Deb, Peggy, then Eva and now we are a wonderful family. I thank God for that, and I will thank Him everyday for you all my sisters. I really really love you. May God Bless you all. Love Selva

Hi my dear sister, now, you know that's a silly question, :-) forgive what - I have a very bad memory, :-)
Aw, Solange's Godmother is in the last stages, God love her, at least she is pain free, and doing it her way, and you know dear Selva - I can bet my bottom dollar that she wishes you were there now, and any silly grudge she had is gone. So please remember that, and always remember her with love, the love she has for you, and the love she has for Solange, who will be there to meet her as she runs down the path! I know my sister, December is such a hard month, you have Solange's birthday, the moving, your birthday, Christmas, and now facing the passing of someone you love. All of this, on top of working, is stressful and emotionally draining, so if all you feel like doing right now is sleeping when you get home, little energy, then you do it, you have to take care of yourself too! You will get through it all, right now it's just painful to think about it. Hm, what exactly is it that you're looking for from Cin - her new webpage? Jog my memory in the morning, and I'll send it to you, love you too my sister,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello dear Lisa, you know we'd never forget about you, :-) You're probably experiencing much of what I just said to dear Selva, stress and grieving zap your energy, so please get your rest, don't feel guilty about it, you need to take care of yourself too! I'm so sorry that Thanksgiving was hard on you, but it's only your 2nd one without Aaron, and naturally you still find the day a very hard one, even with family around. I remember going to a family event sometime in the 2nd year, and all the nieces and nephews were there, various ages, and I thought Shane should be here too - I don't want a picture of him, I want HIM. I felt very uncomfortable, as though I was watching everything in a sort of detached way, and I asked my hubby if we could make our excuses and leave - which we did. And yes, Christmas is creeping up, another extremely difficult Holiday for newly bereaved Moms, and even a sad reflective one for us who are further along the Journey. There will always be our child missing, that empty chair, but you too will get through it Lisa, as painful as it is for you. The best advice I can give you is to do whatever is most comfortable for you, I know what you mean about Christopher, we felt the same way about our Chris and put the tree up and celebrated it in our own way, scaling back some traditions and adding some new one's, try and do the same, once again, it's only your 2nd Christmas without Aaron, so be gentle with yourself, and celebrate it however best it is for you. I was reading today that another Mom who lost her son a few years ago, buy's a present for him, put's it under the tree, and they open it last - it's always something to adorn his gravesite, a little Christmas Angel, etc., and I thought that was a pretty neat idea! As for your sign, it will come - I just heard today that a Mom who lost her daughter almost 4 yrs. ago now had a vivid dream visit, so you see, it happens when the time is right - so hang in there, it will come!!
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello SarahMyAngel, a warm welcome to the Circle, I'm so sorry that you have lost a beloved child also. Thank you SO much for posting that beautiful song by Celine Dion, I had tears running down my face when I finished reading it, it's so touching, isn't it! I think she wrote it for her little niece who passed away, if i remember correctly, :-) What a beautiful gift to give to her sister - a touching song that will last forever. Thank you so much once again for posting it!
Please post back again, and tell us about your beautiful daughter, I would love to hear about her.
In the Name of the Most Merciful, the Most Kind, you will see your precious child again, He knows of your heartache, the bond of love is Eternal, and your sweet daughter knows how you love her still.
Salaam my dear sister, and lots and lots of Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello To All Angel Moms!~~~Please forgive me for not posting for a while, I hope and pray everyone is is doing ok. I am so sorry for the newly bereaved Moms and the loss that you have to endure. It is the most painful trial a parent ever has to face, but you have come to a safe haven to let out your pain and we all know how you feel and will be here for you when you need a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear.
~~~I want to thank all of you who remembered me on Joseph's 4th anniversary on Nov. 20th. It means alot when others remember. It's hard to believe it's been four years, I got through it ok and then Thanksgiving with my family was a good time. ~~~But now we are facing another crisis in our lives and this is the reason I haven't posted for awile. My husband has been recently diagnosed with primary liver cancer and we are trying to decide how to go about it. So far all he's had done is tests and these will determine what kind of treatment there will be if any. We are also looking into nutrition for the most beneift. We need your prayers. We are believing for a complete healing! It's been a very stressful time for our family. Our lives have been turned upside down again and this time of year for us is too much sometimes, we found out on Nov. 17th. We have hope in God who is the healer of all. By His Grace we will get through this, Amen!!!
~~~Dear Father, I come before You with Praise and Thanksgiving and Honor to You with all of my heart. I thank you for this prayer circle of love, hope and courage to all Angel Moms. I ask You Jesus to bless each one with Your peace and comfort. And through our circumstances we will be brought closer to You. I love You and give You all glory and honor. In Jesus Name, Amen. God Bless each one of you Angel Moms! I love you all! I will keep you posted.
Lots of Love, Yvonne<><

Ay mi sister Yvonne, first of all it is nice to hear from you again, I am so sorry about your husband going through all this,Please be sure that we are all here to Storm Heaven with our prayers, I believe in prayers and healing through prayers, I also believe that God has other plans for us, but please my sister, keep on posting and let your feelings out here, we are all here to help you. Jesus is our Friend, He knows how much pain we are going through so I think He keeps a little more attention to us and believe me, all your Angel sisters will be storming Heaven with our prayers. Please keep us posted and you know that you are not alone in this. You are our sister. God Bless you both. Love Selva

Oh dear Yvonne, it's very nice to hear from you again, but I wasn't expecting to hear this. I'm so happy for you that Joe's Anniversay and Thanksgiving went well, but now, you and your dear hubby must be under so much stress. But, as a dear friend of mine say's, "God get's to write the final chapter", so nothing as you know is ever impossible with Him! I pray that the right Dr.'s are guided to him, who will know exactly what type of treatment that he needs to be rid of it, and looking at dietary changes is a very useful tool too, so I pray also that you are guided to the right one for your dear hubby. Yes, please keep in touch, you know we're always here and if the burden gets heavy, we'll be storming Heaven as Selva said, and you post too. Lots of love to you and your hubby, agreeing in prayer with you, and waiting for a good report!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my sister I feel like s.... Sunday its Solange's birthday in Earth, you know me, I am honest and try not to keep things to myself, after all we are all sisters, I am going back to my house tomorrow and that will be IT. I have to get rid of Solange's room. Please keep me in your prayers, I need all the prayers from you. Sorry to be so OPEN but I need you. Love Selva

Hi my sister, you're having some tough days, Solange's birthday coming up and still facing the prospect of making the move final, no wonder you're having a hard time, hopefully once you've made the move complete tomorrow, as painful as it's going to be God love you, it will finally be done and you can then put that part behind you. It won't be easy, let the tears flow freely, and I hope you have someone again to help you, like Juny, or your sister, so you have some support doing it. I'm going to be honest with you too my sister, it's probably going to be a difficult weekend, not only with the move, but also because Solange's birthday on Monday will be on your mind too, so you have a double whammy this weekend, but you know you will be in my prayers, and everyone else's and it will make it easier for you, you always have us here for you, you know that, so no apologies, be as open as you want! Love you my sister, and we will help you through this weekend, you can count on it, once again I ask for God's Angels to be with you too, for comfort and guidance,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Angel Moms, ~ It literally warms my heart to tell you that I have finally gotten caught up with the reading of back posts! Although I am still having to take it easy and not type too much until the pain in my hand and arm responds to treatments, I want you to know that, God willing, I will begin posting again on a regular basis. I would also like to thank you for all your prayers, compassion, unconditional love and support. Thank you also for your kind comments concerning the poems I most recently shared with you. Thanks to Sandy for her behind the scenes detective work, and to Angela xoxo, my poems will soon be read worldwide! God willing, I will be sharing some more pages with you and keep you updated as time goes by. Again, thank you Soooo very much for everything. Your support means more than you will ever know! Please continue sending up the prayers for both my family and me. I pray that God will give all of us the strength, courage, and determination to make it through the holidays. Together, with God's help, we can do it!
God's peace & powerful blessings to all!
LOVE2U,

Dear God in heaven, ~ Please shower our sister, Selva, with your unconditional love and tender care. Pamper her throughout this day in whatever ways that she needs. Lord Jesus, walk with her throughout this day. Fill her big loving heart with peace which passes all understanding. Surround her with warm and joyful guardian angels as she reflects on the big celebration that is taking place today, for her beautiful daughter, Solange, in Your heavenly garden. Allow all of our angel kids to surround Solange and give her a warm and tender hug from her mom, and all angel moms who love them both Soooo much! Lord, let our sister feel Solange's nearness throughout this day! Send her warm memories to fill her day! Let her know it's OK, to shed bittersweet tears as she longs to hold her child in her arms again. Lord, during moments when the pain seems too much to bear, please encourage her to close her eyes and hug Solange's pillow, photo, her favorite stuffed animal, or anything that her precious and beloved daughter left behind. She will not need it in heaven, where her every need is being taken care of, and where all things are new! Thank You, Father, for hearing my heartfelt prayer for our sister, on this very, very special day!

LOVE2U ~