Prayer Circles

Hey San, ~ Thanks for your kind words about the poem I shared. It always warms my heart to share the poems God sends (through me), with other angel moms whom I know can relate to the words, and hopefully, in someway find a measure of peace & comfort, just knowing they are not alone, and how sharing our faith in a loving & compassionate God helps to mend our broken hearts & spirits! What a blessing to know we can always call on God who is there for us 24/7!!! Sometimes we don't recognize Him ... Or think that surely, He has forgotten about all that we are going through. Nevertheless, He is always standing by in one form or another! I have learned that the more I seek Him, the more He will reveal Himself to me and through me! This is especially true when it comes to fulfilling our purpose in life ... Even as we grieve! As I shared with Donna in an email, In God's eyes, we're all special and doing the work He has given to us to do, in our own way, and in HIS own time! So there is no need to worry about why we are still here. When He is ready, God will reveal these things to us as we draw nearer, and nearer to Him! OUR GOD IS AWESOME!!! To God be the glory!!!
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Gee, I'm glad your email is finally getting through! :) Hopefully, AOL has it's act together ... At least for today! Ha-ha!

Love & Angel Hugs,
Miss V.

Hi dear Deb, it's not your fault Deb, it's AOL - so many people are complaining about AOL bouncing their messages back to them - but today I struck pay dirt, :-) 2 of my replies to Miss V went through alright, and I sent you a fwd. back as you had requested, and it went through also, :-) so maybe things will run smoothly from here on in! Thank goodness you don't have Diabetes Deb, that's how my hubby discovered he had it, his vision went blurry on him - finally went to his Dr. and after bloodwork, it was discovered.
Wearing glasses isn't so bad, they have such nice frames out today, and if I didn't have mine on right now, I wouldn't be able to read this page,ha, ha! You could also try contacts too, if you're able to wear them. Working and going to school must keep you busy, but I'm always happy to see a post from you!! Aw, that's so sweet of you to post a prayer for the Grozelle family, I don't know them, but like the rest of us, they're just starting on their own painful Journey, God love them. Have a terrific week, Deb, and post when you can,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Miss V, we're on at the same time, :)
yes, your Prayer/Poem to All Angel Moms is one that all can relate to, and as I said, I'm happy the Holy Spirit moved you! Yep, as I just said to Deb, I think AOL has given up and stopped bouncing e-mails back to me and others, :-) so that's terrific that they've finally got it together!
Amen to what you shared about Our Loving Father, in the beginning of our own Journey's sometimes we think He doesn't hear us, but through suffering, even in the smallest ways, it draws us nearer to Him, and only in hindsight do we realize His great love during those times. Another big AMEN, :-) all of us, unique as we all are, are all loved in His eyes and given certain gifts from Him, so that each of us has our own special purpose, our own work to do for Him, all in our own way - yes, He is an AWESOME God that we love and serve!! His blessings to you Miss V,
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Lord God, my Heavenly Father, I come to you today with a thankful heart for the love of my family and friends. Forgive me Father when I don't release my grief in a positive way. I have no other way Father.for the anger is still running through me.I feel if for not the anger..I would not know how to live. I know you said for us to forgive . Lord help me...I love you and I want to be like you...forgiving...
Today is my sweet angel son's birthday. Lord he loves chocolate cake.And likes the candles that come back to life when he blows them out. 17 Father....my boy...but you know all that don't you?tradition is always that the birthday child get the first piece of cake..but not my Matthew..bless him Father..he always gave me the first piece.I miss him Father...we all miss him..Hold him and whisper in his ear that his mama and dad wish him a beautiful birthday in Heaven................Amen
In His Care I Press On....Eva

A Poem I'd like to share with all,

The Cord

We are connected,
My child and I, by
An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.
It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't be seen
By any on Earth.
This cord does it's work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.
I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.
The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.
It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.
And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.
It pulls at my heart
I am bruised... I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.
I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can't take it away!

by Terri Apostolakos (w/permission)

Love, Prayers and Hugs,
Sandy

Happy 17th Birthday in Heaven, sweet Matthew, laughing along with all the Angel Children as you try to blow out your Candles, on your favourite Chocolate Cake, while the Angels sing Happy Birthday to you, and you feel the love of your dear Mama and Dad!
LOTS of {{HUGS}}
Sandy

Dear Eva, ~ How my heart aches for you today! Special days are always so very hard. Your beloved Matthew is celebrating his heavenly birthday today, but that doesn't keep you from missing him. We know that the love bond between mother and child never dies. Yet, we still miss them so! And that's OK! And, believe it or not, it's OK to express your feelings of anger. God understands how you feel and the depth of the pain you are feeling. God choose you to be Matthew's mom. He knew that no one else could be his mom but you! So, yes, God understands your pain! He knows your heart is shattered and He is holding you in his loving arms, and will continue to do so, and give you that needed strength to press on! We all know that joy awaits us when we are reunited with our beloved children. I imagine the joy we will know will far out weigh the pain of losing our children. But for now, we must grieve because we miss their physical presence. It's been 7 years since my Diane was called back to heaven. Yes, I've made some progress, but there are still times when I long to hold my child in my arms again. Today, your Matthew was surrounded by all our guardian angels, and I am sure they helped him celebrate his heavenly birthday along with our Lord & Savior, and all the other angels! Still, knowing all of this will not take away your missing him! So, be gentle with yourself, and allow us to lift you up in our prayers! The pain will always be there because of the love bond that you share with Matthew. But the intense pain will gradually begin to lose that hold on your heart as the fond and loving memories begin to overshadow the bitter memories. God bless you and Ron in your music ministry and please know that all of us here will keep you & family in our heartfelt prayers!
God's peace and blessings,
Verna

Dear Angel Moms, ~ Below is an angel mom's poem which angel mom, Cindy, shared with us, quite some time ago. I hope I can submit it because right now, my computer is acting up! :(

Sent from the Internet (Details)
My Mom is a survivor
or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night
when all others are in bed

I watch her lay awake at night
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand

But like the sands on the beach
that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving Mom
who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others ...
A smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see
tears flowing from her eyes.

My Mom tries to cope with death
to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her, knows
it is her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving Mom
through Heaven's open door . . .
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her ...
Or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her ...
And show her that you care.

For no matter what she says ...
No matter what she feels.
My surviving Mom has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal.

(c) Kaye Des'Ormeaux
10/15/98

Eva,
My heartfelt prayers are with you a day late for your Matthew's 17th Birthday. I apologize for not posting yesterday...I didn't go to work and that is where I have saved all my Angel and Angel Mom inforamation. I'm sure Matthew had a grand ole time amongst God and the rest of our children. Partied till the wee hours.....lol.
Keep pressing on, God be with you.
Lisa

Hi my dear sisters. I have not been posting because I am back at my home and don't have internet, I transfered it to my sister's house. I started packing yesterday, will be moving at the end of the month. It has been a decision that I 've been putting off, but it can no longer wait. I will have to dismantle Solange's room and that its the main reason while I've been posponing it, but yesterday am, I got a sign from Solange, telling me its OK to move her things, it is OK. I have been asking God to allow Solange to give me a sign, so it will help me with the move, and she used an ex boyfriend to give me that sign. It is a very long story that I will share when I'm back at home, but it was a SIGN. So my dear sisters, please keep on looking for signs, they will come in a strange ways but they will come, have Faith and keep on pressing, yes Eva I am sure Matthew had his birthday party with all our Angel kids and they are all very happy. May God Bless you all. Love Selva

Dear Sandy&Verna, how Beautiful your poems I wish I could copy and print they are full of Love and Wisdom, Thank YOU Bunches Love&BearHugs Donna

Dear Eva, I'm so sorry it took me so long to straighten out with Beliefnet but finally, Eva, I'm so sorry for your pain I won't say it will get better I'll just say let it out and God understands our hurt and anger and he's there just keep talking and Happy Birthday Matthew its a bittersweet day but we know that in Heaven there is joy I'm sure you are with your family and understand why here the sorrow is so deep Our Love Matthew and Eva you touch our hearts and we hope for you be gentle feel our Love but most of all just know God understands.Love&BearHugs Donna

Dearest Selva, We are reaching with Love and know God will hear our Prayers for you. Love&Hope&Lots of BearHugs Donna

Dear Angel Moms, the last 48 hrs have been diconcerting and we were sad but we are doing better. Mike's Dad we were told by Mike's sister was diagnosed with alzhiemers we learned this when we were calling for her b-day than we talked with Mike's brother and we were told there is some serrious confusion Dad's primary diagnosed and the Neurologist says that isn't what the test show that its a calcification in frontal lobes but he won't legally dispute the primary{feeling dizzy I apologize} the reason its important is Mom&Dad are moving to the retirement community Dec 1 and Dad went to get his medical signed and was told this and the retirement community won't cover any previous condition and as usual Mike was told not to talk to them about it, than Justin was told the company he works for is folding in Jan and this is his last week working there its been a crazy 48 hrs so I'm asking for Prayer for Mike's folks and family and Mike and for Justin the good news is Dad and Mom have alzheimers insurance We are praying he doesn't have this desease he has shown signs of some kind maybe its with aging but we are Praying its not this and they are both so tired and getting on each others nerves it been a long haul and we had hoped it would settle down after the move Thanks for your Prayers Love&BearHugs Donna

Hello dear Donna, I'm so sorry to hear that, not only his illness and the worry for all, but also that they won't be able to move into their new retirement community! And then Justin finding out his job is gone as of the end of the week, he must be so disappointed, I know something better will come along for him, and you know that extra prayers will be going up on the wings of the Angels for all these things and your intentions, I am happy though that you posted about it, so now we can all pray for good things to come about for all. And peace for you and Mike,
Lots of love & Teddy Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Donna, ~ I am praying and asking God to hold you, and your entire family in His loving arms, and that it will be well with your souls! We know that our God is a loving God, and that whatever we are facing, He will go through it with us. In the words of an old spiritual, He makes a way out of no way! I know all that's going on has to be so stressful on your entire family. It is during times like these that we must pray and trust God to handle the difficult tasks. It is my heartfelt prayer that there will soon be brighter days ahead for you and your entire family. God's peace and blessings, and remember also, that all of you are covered in our heartfelt prayers!
Love & BearHugs,
Verna

Dear Sandy, ~ I just finished reading about the Beliefnet award! Thank you so much for letting us know because I have not been online most of the night and would have surely missed seeing it. I was able to go there and add my post congratulating them! As a matter of fact, I did a double post. ha-ha! But, as you always say ... Double the post, double the blessing! And, if site deserves double blessings, it is Beliefnet!
Love, peace & blessings,
Verna

Oh gosh, my sister, I am Sooo very happy that your beautiful Solange sent you a sign! We angel moms have been praying for that, and now you have received it! No, it won't take away the pain of missing your Solange, but it will give you peace of mind to know that she is watching over you, and wants so much to let you know it. So, again, I am so very, very happy for you! May God continue to bless you and reveal Himself to you, my sister. And may you continue to receive many more signs from Solange!
Love & Tender Angel Hugs!
Verna

Hi Lisa! ~ I have been so upset with my AOL service for sending back the fwd pages that I've been sending to your home email address. I will start sending to your email address at work. Hope you are doing OK, and being gentle with yourself. When it gets really rough, just remember you can always crawl up on our Father's lap and let Him comfort you, and stay there for as long as you like. :)
Love & Tender Angel Hugs,
Verna

Dear God, ~ I just feel like hugging You today! Thank you for family and friends, and for helping me to weather life's storms! In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!

Billie, Cindy, Chris/Mike, Deb, Yvonne, & anyone that I have omitted ~ The hands have given out for now, but please know, you're all in my heartfelt prayers!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

My dear sister Donna. Thanks for sharing your troubles with us, and of course we will Storm Heaven for you and your family, I am sure like always God will answer our prayers and things will start to get better. I love you my sister, so hang in there, remember our prayers are with you 24/7. God Bless you. Selva

Hi Verna,
Yes, it's best that you send email here at work, I rarely check my email at home. Something I need to do but don't...
I am truly having a very difficult time. I swear I feel more disconnected and out of sorts now then I did in the first year. It's been 13 months and sometimes I feel like I am someone else and that everything is fine and it was just some bad dream. Then all of a sudden I get totally out of control with sadness, anger, etc. I have so much to be thankful for but I don't feel thankful, I feel cheated. Sh-t, I don't know what I feel. That is the problem. This is why I have not posted, I can't seem to get the words or "feeling" out right.
I do read the posts everyday though to keep up with whats going on with the rest of the angel moms. Thanks for sending the emails and forward pages.

Sandy,
Thank you for the email and listening to my whining....

Selva,
I am SO SO happy for you to finally get a sign. I still have not gotten one from Aaron yet and still pray everyday for one. I understand completely about Solanges room. I still don't want to do anything to Aaron's. I can hardly stand to go in there. I just run in and out really quick if I need something. I have only sat in there once over the last 13 months and I totally lost control. So....I don't go there.

God, thank you for connecting all of us angel moms through this website. Please guide us and bless us.
Amen

Dear Lisa, We are Praying for you too and no you are not going crazy and sure glad you posted, its those ocean waves and yes its normal it was one of the hardest questions to answer and anger and knowing how you feel, well there aren't words that I know of that described the pain the loss so be gentle and keep writing ok it will help where not asking how you feel you just write what you want ok no judging here you know that and we have all at one time or another come to the circle and don't know what to say but Hi is good if thats all you can write or its in the valley grief takes its time somedays and its been seven years for Mikey I break down and cry I miss him and if someone asked why I'm sobbing I looked at them as though there from another planet I hated hearing Move on let go Well guess what there is no letting go but we hope for the gentle days and they come its an ocean wave for awhile for a long while but God helps to change our sorrow it gets gentler Hang in there Lisa and just keep writing even if you can't write here write it out tear it up or keep adding to it and pillow punching helps the anger so it doesn't get misplaced like you want to scream at the world or someone triggers it and tell yourself it OK to feel it may be awful but its still ok there is no schedule. We Love You and we are here and Praying for the journey to be kinder but sometimes its getting through the anger the pain God is big enough and understanding too talk to him pour it out. BearHugs and Love Donna