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Scott 42, I was concerned where you went ? are you OK ? smile713

Hi Smile713, she lives in Queens, Sunnyside, I am waitin for her sister in law to call me, she was supposed to arrived at 3pm in Ft Lauderdale, she was going to talk to the Dr before she came back, but I just called and she is not home yet and I just called NY and there is no answer. So I am praying. Thank you so much, that is so sweet of you. I will keep everybody posted on what is going on. Love Selva

dear donna, thank you for the words of wisdom, i will take my time. some times when chris puts on his colonge i smell micael too. some times when he sits just right and i get a side glance i see michael, even ways he talks, acts, walks, i see michael. it was hard at first to do some of his room but it was worth to smell him again. thanks love to you debby

Selva,Verna & Sandy and all the other angels moms & dads. sorry I haven't been out to write, i have been going through some really tough times. It just seems that everyone has just forgot that I am hear and what pain I am still going through. I guess they feel if they don't come around they wont have to hurt or see me hurting. What makes me angry is that my sister Sheila who has always been around has just seemed to go her on way. She has her own agenda I guess. But I feel that she has pick her friends over me. Especially there is one that I don't get along with and she is always defending her to me, I can not stand that, so I just told me sister just don't even talk to me about her. I will always be nice to that person but I don't have to carry on any conversations with her. I guess I truely see what my sister is "it is all about her". I am sorry to have to unload this on you angel moms but there is no one else I can talk to about this. My husband just runs and tells her every thing I tell him so I just told tell him things anymore.

There has been times that I will be laying in my bed and it feels like it is shaking, has anyone else had that happen to them. Last night I really felt that Nick was there with me. I sometimes get this burning pain in my left shoulder and Nick always gave me massages so when I get this feelng I just say hello to Nick. I know I could be just crazy but I truly believe that the spirits are all around us. Thanks for listening and I will try to write soon, my computer is still down.
Lots of prayers to all
Billie

Hi Billie, nice to hear from you again, yes Nick was with you, see, there is this special feeling that we can not explain in words when our children are with us, please take care of "your feelings", your sister has another life and can not expirience the pain that you are going through, we can because we understand, but don't let it bother you, she is still your sister and I am sure she loves you a lot, but this pain it is difficult and not everybody understands it, we are here for you, but don't think your sister does not love you or anything like that, she has not experience this pain, that is not important , right now you have to pamper yourself, be easy on you, let the tears flow, and feel the pain, yes feel that pain, but also know that your Nick is with you 24/7, he can see you and he will try to communicate with you as much as he can, so everytime you feel those special feelings, enjoy it my sister, that it is Nick, see, he is not dead, he just went to another realm, (think maybe he moved to IOWA), but he is still there waiting for you, and eventually when God wants, you will be with him again. I know that for sure my sister, and please keep on coming back and posting here, and of course we do not think you are crazy, this is just a matter of understanding, try to read books about Life after life, if you are interested I can tell you about a lot of good books, the more understanding you have on this, the more it can help you. Love. Selva

Dear Angel Moms, ~ This is your nutty buddy, VClay ... 100% drained! God willing ... Will play catch up ASAP.

The Editor
Shreveport Times

I just finished reading the letter in today's newspaper written by Susan Whaley of Minden, La, and was able to locate it online at www.shreveporttimes.com by clicking on the Opinion link. However, I could not find the letter that I wrote to the Times. I believe I am the person she was referring to in her letter. My name is Verna R. Clay, and my letter was published in the Times Tuesday, November 11, 2003. I would love to share the Shreveport Times' copy of both letters in an email and a post to the Angel Moms, who are members of our online prayer circle. If possible, please forward a copy of both to VClay100@aol.com. Thank you so much for considering and sharing both letters, so that grieving parents in our area are made aware of the support services, compassion, and many resources that are available to them. Thanking you in advance, I am

Verna R. Clay

hello angelmoms and dads...just here to post a small hello to all and to say I continue to pray for us all. My Matthews birthday will be Nov17...he would of been 17 that day..God help me..I miss him. It hurts to even think about him still...Ron wrote another song (in his memory). Only from God do these words and music flow from him. So thankful I should be. Please keep us in prayer....In His Care....Eva

I Wonder
Oh I, I often wonder..what Heaven's like
what could it be like.
When I get there will I see you?
Is the grass still green
is the sky still blue?
I wonder..Oh Yes I wonder

Oh I, try to imagine
days with no sorrow
no sad tomorrow
Oh! To see the streets of gold
the gates of Pearl
that's what I was told about it
Yes, I believe....

Oh I,I often pray
I'll be there one day,
What a GLORIOUS day!
I'll walk through the streets of gold you made
for all the ones who have believed about you.
Thank you Lord

Oh I.....Oh yes I wonder

words and music by Ron Parr 9-03

Hi dear Eva, oh, what a beautiful, tender song Ron has composed for Matthew! Ron has an amazing God-given talent for composing, God bless him. The kind of 'gift' that's meant to be shared and enjoyed, and touch others. I love the song, I imagine it as a 'ballad' type. Matthew's special birthday coming up, you know our love and prayers will be with you, as they always are, keep pressing on Eva, we're always here for you,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Billie, you don't ever have to apologize for sharing how you're feeling, that's what we're all here for, to offer support and understanding.
Selva gave you some very good advice, it's oh so true that only another Mom/Dad who has lost a child truly understands. A friend and I were just talking about this the other day, grieving can be a very lonely experience, sometimes even our loved one's don't understand and don't know how to help. And no, I don't think you're crazy either and neither will anyone else here, I too believe that was a sign from Nick, letting you know he's around you - what a gift for you!
What an awesome God we have that allows these signs to come through to us to comfort us from our children! You write here whenever you want to Billie, we all understand and care,
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hello dear Miss V, good for you getting a letter published, you must have written a Mom who's lost a child/children. Look forward to seeing it!
Much love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

p.s. can you and Deb give AOL a cyber-kick in the butt, :-) I'm getting things sent back to me again from you both, (: - but it's not your faults, it's AOL itself, apparently a lot of people are having their mail bounced back to them by AOL - I was reading about it in PC World.
Love & Hugs to you both,
Sandy

Dear Billie, Through these pages we have all thought we are crazy, don't ever think you are we do understand as all the other Angel Moms have written. We walk a different journey and experience what others don't know try if you can to take a deep breath and talk to Nick like Selva said and Sandy we are so Blessed when they visit I talk to my children alot so no don't apologize ever thats why we have this Haven it saved my sanity, the Love and Support here will help you, families have a hard time absorbing and most of the time they just don't know what to say or comfort they want to but that means they will feel there own pain its taken seven years for my family to begin to express there pain in small amounts as Sandy said and I agree its a loneilessness that only others who have been on this journey understand when we can't others do like Selva said be gentle on yourself and let yourself feel your own feelings they are overwhelming but in time {sometimes a long time} so many memories come bittersweet. Its taken me seven years for my son and many more for my little girl so please come to this Haven and remember 1minute 1hour 1day. A friend explained it well its like ocean waves you get stronger and then something triggers the pain but it gets better and here has made the difference for me to come to terms because of the support and Love. BearHugs Donna

Dear Eva, its so good to hear from you its become apart of me your saying of pressing on, what a heartfelt song and know our thoughts and prayers are with you BearHugs Donna

ok nutty buddy Verna, never have I thought of you that way but I understand I hope they will send your letters, I'm glad you follow your heart and I'm sure what you wrote helped many take good care BearHugs Donna

Dear Deb, I'm glad if what I said helped but you did the painful work which took so much and I know what you mean sometimes Justin's mannerism or a look and both of my boys liked cologne I was grateful not the same I would spray Mikeys too sometimes when he seemed so far away and still pick it up in a crowd or group Hang in there Deb I didn't do anything but God gave you what you needed not me I just remembered and Christmas is less painful due to the wreath and decorations that were Mikeys it helps and I cry because of the bittersweet but it does help Love You Deb and be very good to yourself and Thanks I'm glad that my journey could help, like Sandy I'm getting returns too and will keep trying someday aol will get there act together but know we are all thinking of you too and everyones prayers got you through and your courage TeddyHugs Deb Love Donna

Dear Selva, yours is coming back to but will keep trying, I had an idea when you spoke of Solange's Prom dress I've had friends keep there Mom's and there Wedding dresses and they kept them on a dress manequin maybe that would help I've seen them in thrift stores and it would keep her dress in good shape if not now when your ready if you like the idea and yes we are praying for you and your adopted Mom let us know what your plans are and we are hoping Love&BearHugs Donna

Sandy, Selva & Donna, thank you for your comforting words. I am trying to take it one day at a time. I need to just let things not bother me. I need to go for now I will write again soon. Lots of prayers Billie

Hi my sisters, AOL its giving me a hard time, Donna your new e mail address its being returned, some of Verna are also returned, Sandy you are the only one I can connect but I am worried about you, you are keeping very quiet, is there anything we should know about? I hope this can go through I am getting flashes from AOL, Sandy I heard Lake Ontario had BIG WAVES, are you OK? Donna thanks my sister for your advices, I will keep on pressing on, like our dear sister Eva, and on monday I will start my "moving", please keep on praying that God will give me the strenght, I really need it. Love you my sisters. Selva

Dear Sandy, ~ We need to know that you are OK! Like the other moms, I get a little worried when you get a little quiet. :) So let us know all is well.

Selva, my sister, I am also worried that you may be over doing it a bit. I don't know into the details of all that is happening, because I've gotten behind in my reading. But I pray that our Lord will help you through these trying times!
Love & Bear Hugs,
Verna

Dear Eva, ~ I love the words to the song that Ron wrote in tribute to your beloved son. It is so touching until I couldn't help but shed tears! The tears may come, but the words help to heal torn and shattered hearts. I know you thank God everyday for giving you a hubby who can express his grief in such an eloquent manner! I pray that both of you will continue to use your music ministry to help heal bereaved parents hearts. You both do your beloved Matthew proud!!!

Heavenly Father, ~ I pray for all parents who, like me, have lost a beloved child. And, like Donna, has lost more than one child... Lord, we need You 24/7; especially in the beginning stages. For, it is then, that the grief is so very, very difficult. Father, I know You understand what it is like to lose a child. So, please give us those precious moments of peace for which we pray. Lord, we know that our beloved children are in heaven in your loving care ... But, we miss their physical presence. Therefore, I ask that You would give us signs, to assure us that our children are alive and well, never again to know pain! Lord, we know heaven is beautiful, and that someday our children will greet us at the gates of heaven, and we will be with them forever! Father, give us the strength we need to continue reaching out to other parents who are just beginning their painful journey. Please wrap your loving arms around them, God. These things I ask, in Jesus' name, Amen!

Good Morning to All,
Hello my wonderful friends, sisters, Angel Moms, I'm sorry to make you worry, yes, we did have a very bad windstorm come off the Lake, I had a Dr.'s appt. that morning, and whew, it was even moving the car back and forth, had to grip the steering wheel tightly, when I made it back home, I said I'm staying put for the day, until it stops!
The only good thing to come out of the storm was the Lake yielded the body of a young man, a Cadet here at our Military College, only 21, who had been missing for 2 weeks. If not for the storm, it may have been months, if not longer before his body surfaced, so God, in His own wonderful way, brought some good out of it. You know what I mean, far better for his Parents, God love them, to finally know, have his body returned to them, than to go on hoping and wondering. Could you please remember the Grozelle family in your prayers, their Journey is just beginning. I've just been very busy, but I am OK! Thank you for your loving concern!
Today, the 15th of the month, marks the 56th month since Shane passed away. One day maybe I'll stop counting the months, or maybe I always will, I'm writing about this to help newly bereaved Moms realize that the Journey does get better, but a part of you will always be with your child, and your child will always be a part of you. So nothing that you're feeling is ever called 'crazy'. Thanks to Our Loving Lord, and all the prayers that so many good people and our Angel Moms have said, I would not have made it this far, so thank you to all and as Eva says, I keep pressing on, but stop every now and then to reflect.
My sister, today, the 15th, is a special day for you also, and you know my love and prayers are with you.
Miss V, a beautiful prayer for us all, they are always so heartfelt!
Yes, my sister, my mail to you always gets through, and you're with AOL, so I'm going to try again today and send to you Miss V, and you Deb, hoping it will get through.
Love & Angel Hugs to all,
Sandy

Hi dear Miss V, yep it's me again, :-) wanting to scream at AOL, ha, ha!! 3 things sent back to me, and one was supposed to definitely go to you - I opened the link for the Bear Hugs page, and you were supposed to get confirmation that I had indeed opened it, instead, AOL sent it back to me!!
I think? 1 of my pages got through to you, I didn't get the bounced back message from AOL about it, so I'm hoping it at least got through, :-)
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

dear angel moms,
sorry my mail is coming back i don't understand why things keep coming back. things have been a little craxy for me. i was having a problem with my vivion and i couldn't understand why when i ad my eyes checked in july. the first thing the eye dr asked my was when i had a physical last? which was in july also. i try to get all the dr appoints done while i'm home in the summer. he thougt i might of had a sugar problem so had all the test done and thats not what the problem was. it was my eyes. my grand mother has sugar so they thought maybe i did. now i'm wearing glasses for the first time in my life. beside that kind of worry i'm doing ok. working hard with the children at school and still going to school. sorry my email isn't getting to me maybe you should try Timothypoo@aol.com that is my 1st screen name i have.

dear father, today i come to you and ask for you guidence and strenght for shaners friends family. they are in the beginning stages of grief and they could use your arms around them as they go on their journey. i ask this in your name of the father, amen.

thoughts and prayers to my family,
love Debby