Prayer Circles

dear donna,
i pray that your sister will be ok. i'm thankful tha they found out what was wrong with her. i will keep her and you in my thoughts and prayer. love debby

dear selva, i pray that this week is better for you then the last. i pray that you found comfort and guidance during salonge special days. i pray that your valley days you have will not last and that you will find comfort in all her beautiful memories you share. i ask this in the father amen.

dear selva,sandy, and donna and verna,
when you check out her web page i think you can leave a message in her guess book i'm not sure you can in her journal. i haven't tried it. good luck

Dearest Angel Moms,
I want you all to know that I think about you often. I just can't seem to get to the computer as often as would like to read your posts or say Hi. I feel really guilty about that. I have been so caught up in myself and my problems I haven't taken the time to see how all of ya'll are doing. Donna, I am so glad Shar has finally been diagnosed correctly and can be treated for the right condition now. My grandfather had COPD and I know it is pretty serious. Surely, Jan would agree that she now needs to smoke outside??? I am a smoker and it does not bother me one bit to smoke outside. Actually it does me good because sometimes it is either so hot or so cold that I hardly smoke at all. We stopped smoking in the house when Aaron was little. It really helped a lot with all his ear infections and upper respitory (sp) problems. And actually now, I don't like to be closed up in a house with a lot of smoke. Oh, and what a beautiful story to share with us about Mikey and his angel Michael. Thank you so much for sharing it, it brightened my morning. OH, and I almost forgot...THANKS for the angel garden..what kind of plants did you plant? Love You, Lisa

Debby,
I am happy that your brother was able to fix your computer...I know how aggravating it can be when they don't do what you want them to. Really urks me sometimes. It's good that you were able to save some things too. My computer at home has been acting up and moving really slow lately. That is probably one of the reasons I don't get on it to often, makes me mad (if you know what I mean)..lol Sounds like you enjoyed your time away with the hubby. I have a week of vacation left to use before 11/01 and I have been thinking about going off somewhere by myself. Just to relax and get my thoughts together. But I am kinda scared because I think once I get there I will get really bored really quick. Sounds like your next week will be a busy one! Keep in touch when you can, Lisa

Sandy,
Thank goodness you are so far away from those awful fires. That would just be such a scary thing to have to go through. So, the weather is pretty nice there, huh? Sounds wonderful, I wish we would get a break in the heat it went up to 102 yesterday. We are literally melting away down here...

Everyone I have a really bad memory too and I would love it if I could get a list of everyone's childrens birthday's and rebirthday's. I would also like to know your birthdays. Please email them to me asap at loneil@rwanational.org Thanks a bunch!!

Selva,
I'm glad you were able to cry too, but I know how hard it is. I too have a hard time letting my feelings out especially in front of people. I seem to do it better when I am by myself. I think of you SO often and just imagine your cuban accent when you talk. I bet Solange is SO proud to have you for her mother. Your love is so obvious there is no way she did not and still cannot feel it. She is there with Aaron and the other Angels having the best time of her life. I know it. Did you give the tree thing a try?
Lisa

Hi Verna,
Ok, I have now started a list of all the angels and their birthdays and anniversaries. I have asked everyone to email me the information about their children and when I get it I will email it to you...ok? That way we can both have a list. lol Can I ask how old your Diane was? And Steven and the other grandchildren are they her children or another childs? I wish so badly that I could have a grandchild from Aaron. I just that would be the neatest thing in the world. I am truly sorry to hear about your friends wife and man that had to be really hard to take the phone call alone. But don't feel bad for crying, you have every right. I did not know about Princess Diana's dying on your Diane's one year anniversary. I can only imagine what an impact that had on you. I will light a candle and say a special prayer on Sunday for you and YOUR Diane.
Love,
Lisa

Hi Angel Moms. Deb thank you so much for your beautiful e mails but you still have me blocked from your e mails I can not reply or send you an e mail, I know, I still can not figure out how to get the blocked messages back, but I want you to now that I am still praying for you and I have tried to get into Skyla's site but I can't get it, so if you please try to post again the site, I tried the one you posted many times, but no luck. Lisa it is so nice to hear from you again, Thank you my sister for your prayers, I am still in deep valley days, a year has gone past and its seems that this second year it is going to be more dificult, I can not accept that Solange its not here, and that I have not seen her for a year, the first time in my life, so I'm going through difficult times, I can not accept the fact that I will not see her again in this life and I miss her soooooooo much, I pray that God will help me. Donna I know that you are not on line, you are taking care of Shar, but just in case, please be sure that my (our) prayers are with you and Shar, and that God will listen, we will keep nagging Him with it, so He has no choice but to listen. Verna Thank you for all your beautiful e mails and prayers, I am a little late for wishing your grandson a Happy Birthday, but please tell him for me, his cuban grandmother is wishing him the best life and future. Sandy my dear sister, like I always say, Thank God for you making this memorial and praying circle, I have been in the valley today, I don't know why I am feeling very very tired, but somehow I know that our Angel Kids are all together and they have the same praying Circle that you created. Eva, we have not heard from you, I pray that you are doing fine. Lisa, when we will get reunited in Miami, you will be surprised at my cuban accent. I do have one, but it is very little, we will have a lot of fun I promise, and you all will get back home with a little more pounds but what the heck. Love you my sisters. Selva

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Dear Lisa, ~ Thanks for starting the list of our angels birthrates and heavenly date. I will email the information that you have requested. I know once the list is completed, it will be a lot easier to keep up with all the special days. I so look forward to having all the information handy to that I can place the list right by my computer and keep up with everyone's special days. It really helps to know that others who understand and can relate to the depth of your pain & loss will be pulling for you during those valley days! I think that is what God would have us to do, and I love reaching out, just as others have reached out to me; in the past as well as presently. Although it will be 7 years since God called Diane home, I still miss her so very, very much. She was just so full of love and joy, and could sing like an angel. :)

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In answer to your questions: Diane had just turned 36 on August 16, 1996, and was killed in a chain reaction crash on August 31, 1996. Princess Diana was also 36 at the time of her death. And, like princess Diana, Diane's ex-husband's name was Charles. As I have shared with the other angel moms, many times, I felt as though it was happening all over again. I was home alone that night, and felt every emotion that one could possibly feel: shock, sadness, disbelief, etc. I was afraid to be alone, but didn't want to call anyone, and later learned that everyone who saw it on the news was afraid to call me. :) Everyone was hoping I wouldn't find out, at least until the next day.

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No, Diane didn't have children, although she desperately wanted two; a boy and a girl. Her ex had a low sperm count and unfortunately, they were not able to have children. She and Ron, the guy she was dating, both wanted to have children someday, but I guess God decided to keep them in heaven to greet her when she arrived. :) Still, I would have loved to have had grandchildren from her because as she said in a paper she had written, ... A part of her would go on living after she was gone.

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Steven is my other daughter's son from her first marriage. Antone' is Tammy's [my niece's] daughter. Tammy's Mom died in my arms when (Tammy), was only a little over 4 years old. Her Mom, Betty Sue, had Sickle Cell Anemia, and died at the young age of 25. Betty was married to Lynn, my husband's brother. David and I helped raised Tammy, and she calls me and my husband Mama and Daddy, and Antone calls me grandma. Steven is 9, and Antone' is 8. She reminds him often that she will catch up with him in a few months; (meaning she will be 9 on Aug. 12, 2004), and he won't be 10 until Aug. 23, 2004. :) Needless to say, they (and the rest of our family) think they have me wrapped around their little fingers! :) The minute Pa Paw leaves, they act as though they have been let out of jail! Ha-ha! But, I love every minute of having them around. :)

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Lisa,I sincerely appreciate you and the other angel moms lighting a candle and saying a prayer for me and Diane on her 7th anniversary date. Just knowing I have the support and prayers of aother ngel moms does make it easier to get through the day. Before finding this prayer circle, I was convinced that no one could possibably have felt my kind of pain. That was then ... This is now! :) Sure, I will be a day mixed with bittersweet memories, but I have learned to regroup over the years, and focus on the fond memories as much as possible. :) In time, the pain is not so intense, and it really does become easier to bear. :) Thanks for allowing me to take a walk down memory lane. :) Much love & BearHugs to you and all the other angel moms. :)
Verna

May God be with all of you who have lost a child or a loved one. Please know that while the pain you feel is great you are always surrounded by God's love. I pray that you find comfort in God.

Hi dear Deb, glad you had a good, relaxing weekend spending time with your hubby. Wow! That's terrific news about your Dad, 43lbs. is a lot of weight to lose, and he should be proud of himself! He'll feel a lot better and be able to breathe easier with shedding those extra lbs., and he must feel good to be able to get out and walk around a bit! Yes, school's starting again, Deb, hard to believe the summer's almost over! Between work and school, you'll be busy again, doing what you love to do, but we still expect to see a post from ya every now and then!! Enjoy this last week of freedom, :)
Lots of love & Bear Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Lisa, well you should feel guily, ha, ha, I'm just teasing ya! But yes, it would be nice to see more of you here! I pray that your problems are being worked out for the better, and once again you have some peace and harmony within yourself! Aaron's Anniversary is coming up next month, his first, and we all know how difficult it is, but you know that we're all here for you! Gosh yes, take that week's Vacation, it'll do you so much good to get away just by yourself, and to avoid boredom, go somewhere exciting - like the Big Apple again! Just a suggestion, perhaps there's somewhere closer to home that would fill your days too. Gosh yes Lisa, all those people out in British Columbia losing their homes due to the fires, it's sad, some things just can't be replaced, but thankfully no one hurt, including the fire fighters themselves.
Gee, I spoke too soon about our weather, Lisa, :) we're back to hot and humid!
Yes, I'll send you my list, it's a very good idea!
Much love & Bear Hugs,
Sandy

Hello my dear sister! It's nice to see you posting again too, I know these are hard times for you right now, I/we understand why you don't want to believe Solange is gone, but she's only 'physically' gone, she herself is very much alive and with you - remember, talk to her from your heart!
God will help you to slowly come to terms with Solange not being physically here for you, and He alone knows when you're ready for that, He knows your heart better than anyone! Thank you my sister, I thank Our Heavenly Father too for planting the seed in my heart to start this Prayer Circle where I've been blessed to know so many wonderful Moms, who have touched my own heart in so many beautiful ways! Get some rest my sister, make sure to look after yourself,
Lots of love & Bear Hugs,
Sandy

Hello our dear Miss V, happy to see you posting again too, and I enjoyed your posts, walking down memory's lane! Hope your book is coming along and that your hand and arm are healing,
Much love & Bear Hugs too,
Sandy

Hello emary0977, and welcome to the Circle! Thank you so much for posting your thoughts and prayers here, we always appreciate it so much when someone takes the time to come here and offer up prayers for us all, and may God bless you in whatever way He knows you need,
Love Sandy

Hello our dear Donna, as Selva said, our love and prayers are with you and Shar, we miss you, but you're where you're supposed to be right now, and we're praying for some good news upon your return,
Lots of love & Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Dearest Angel Moms,
It is 11 months today and I can hardly believe it. One side of me feels like it just happened yesterday and the other side of me feels like I haven't seen or touched him forever. I miss him SO very much. I have to tell you guys something that I did though....
Saturday night I went to a channeling seminar with a well known phychic. Randy thought I was crazy and the girl that said she would go with me backed out at the last minute. Something kept telling me to go ahead and go. I am a really skeptical person when it comes to this kind of stuff but I thought what the heck, what can it hurt. WELL, I honestly and truly believe she was channeling through to Aaron. It was absolutely amazing!! The things she told me that he was saying was things that only he and I knew about. She didn't ask me any questions and she knew absolutely nothing about me or him or what happened. I'm telling you I am truly amazed. Of course I started crying as soon as I realized it was for real, but a peace has come over me that I haven't felt before. I now KNOW he is ok. I still miss him and I am still sad but I KNOW he is okay and happy. Please don't think I am going off the deep end because that is what I thought at first too. But I swear to you that the things he said to her to tell me were not just a generalization, they were things that were specific to him and I and things that happened over the past years. I am so relieved, but at the same time I am really really sad. I still want to see him and touch him, etc. I know next month will be really really tough and I will need all the help I can get from you guys.
Verna,
What a coincidence about the names of your Diane and her ex and Lady Diana and hers. My candle will be lit on Sunday like I said earlier and please don't hesitate to contact me. Your grandchildren sound absolutely wonderful. My mom used to tell me that we did the same thing to her as soon as my Dad left. My kids did it to her all the time, espcially Aaron, he could get practically anything he wanted from her.
Sandy,
I was thinking about going somewhere serene...lol and NY is certainly not that! I'm not sure yet, but will let ya'll know what I decide.
Love to ALL,
Lisa

Hi dear Lisa, ah, 11 months today, I know what you mean, on the one hand it still feels like yesterday, all those memories still fresh in your mind and heart, and on the other hand, 11 months is a long time not to touch, see, or talk to Aaron. It's so hard and painful, isn't it. You'll get through it Lisa, we're all here for you with our love and support, prayers.
So you went to a channeling seminar? I've heard of psychics of course, but I'm not too sure what channeling means.
Did she do all the talking, or were you able to ask questions? I'm very happy for you that you came away with some peace, and no, I don't think you're crazy, :) you're searching for answers, like dear Selva did when she went on her Retreat. But no, it doesn't replace the sadness, that's going to be there for a while.
OK, I just said the Big Apple because you said you were afraid of being bored, so if I wanted a serene place to go to, it would definitely be in nature someplace, a small cottage by the Ocean, or perhaps a B&B nestled in the woods, but that's me, :) I love being out in Nature, it renews my spirit. A friend of mine called today, and she lives in the Country now, and she was telling me how beautiful it is at night, the darkness, the sounds of crickets, the loons on the lake with their mournful cry, oh to get out of the city and live there - that's my dream place!
Anyway dear Lisa, our thoughts, prayers and love are with you, and you know next month we'll do our best to support and pray for you as Aaron's 1st year Anniversary comes around. God bless you sweetie,
Love & Tender Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Angel Moms. I tried to post last night but I'm having trouble with the computer and the internet, I think I have a virus, I told my sister thiss morning to do a virus scan again, but she knows very little about computers, so I will try to fix it when I get home, I was chatting with Deb and all of a sudden the comp went crazy.
Lisa, you are not crazy, we all understand, I saw a channelist also when I went to Omega, also mirrow gazing with Dr. Moody, I just bought a crystal ball for gazing, so you see we all try everything to get in touch with our children, I know that when God allowes it, they will be in touch with us, but the pain is to much and I run out of patience sometimes. I am glad everything went fine with the channelist, like Sandy says it does not heal the pain but it gives you some kind of peace, knowing that Aaron is fine. If you want to try to go to a terrific place try Omega, that is upstate NY, you will find peace and lots to do in that place, the web site is www.eomega.com
it will give you some ideas and check the workshops, it is fantastic. Dr. Moody and Dr. Brian Weiss will be there Sept 19, Dr. Weiss is the author of Many lifes Many masters, he does regressions, he is the head of the phsychiatric Dept of the Mount Sinai Hospital here in Miami, they are both very bright Drs. Also try reading Dr. Moodys books, he has one called Reunions, that is the worshop I attended at Omega.
Hi Verna, Sandy I could not open your e mails at home, but want you all to know that you are all in my prayers, I am in deep valley days, I am missing Solange so very much, I know that she can see me but I want to see her and talk to her so badly that it hurts.
I will try to post again tonight. love you all. Selva

Hi my sister, that's too bad about your computer, if you do a Virus scan and you have one called the Sobig or Dumaru, they are the ones going around right now, I can help you get rid of the Sobig, if you have any problems, Riversongs sent out a page on how to remove it if you get infected and I kept it just in case, :) Ah, that's too bad about the e-mail, I just wanted to let you know I received your mail to me and will treasure the Mass Card!
I know sweetie, it's so hard, you're in my prayers and love,
Lots of love to you & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my sisters, well I hope I can post, I did a virus scan and all that, but the comp is still acting up, I need the time to get in touch with AOL, but I don't feel like it right now, I am tired and not in the mood. My sister is getting jelous, she says the minute I come home I get into the comp and I don't have time to talk to her, the poor thing, she is right, so now I am going to watch beisball game with her, the Fla Marlins are playing tonight and we need to win so we can get in the wildcards, what I really want to do is go to my home and sleep in Solange's room and cry, but I will cry here anyway after my sister goes to sleep.What I mean its I will try to cry, I don't know why I can not, the pain its driving me crazy, I feel like I have a rock in the middle of my chest that I have to let out and I can't. I need to deal with that, because I feel like I need to let it out and don't know how, do you understand? I don't know why I am not been able to cry for the last few weeks, and the pain its getting stronger by the day. Have you heard from Donna and Shar, I pray to God that they will be OK, and that Shar's roommate trys to understand, I am a smoker, but please, if my sister or any friend can not stand the smoke I will not do it, just try to go someplace else. I pray that God will help Shar and Donna. I hope I can post this, in the meantime, I love you all my sisters, Verna I am keeping you in my special prayers I know that the 31 is Dianne's ann. I will be there for you my sister. I will make sure that I will pray for all of you. Love you all. Selva