Prayer Circles

My dear sister Eva. I am praying for you and your family so that God will give you a little peace today, I wish everything went find at church. Nothing can be said to relief the pain, we understand, but keep on pressing on, remember life does not begin with birt. I does not end with death. Life is an eternal progress. Eternity is not an alternationof life and nonlife. The truth is that we can not die, for we are Life. It can not end because it is endless. We may change forms and vanish from view, but we can not cease to be. Some pass quickly beyond the bend in the road that hides them from us, some walk besides us all the wau. Remember when people die they do not cease to be: they only pass beyond human sight. You son is with you my dear Eva, even if you can not see him, we pass beyond the reach of hand, but not outside the heart. May God bless you and yours. I love you my sister and I understand that pain. Selva

Hi my dear Lisa, Remeber? you are a mom, and mothers don hold anything againts their childs, so I Know your mom will untestand, no problem there, I remember when I used to get mad at
Solange, and at the end I always loved her. So just call your mom and tell her I love you, about Aaron, let me tell you this, I allowed for Solange to be a organ donor, do you know what an operation she went through? but I'm sure that is the way she wanted it . She had beatifull hair, and they had to shaved her hai, she was buried with a wig who reembeld her hair, her body was empty in order to save more lifes, but I have no regrets, the body is nothing my sister Lisa, it is their Souls that count, nad its their soul that we will meet again. Please my sister, keep hanging in there, just like I do and just like everybody in this
circle of Love. Dont be a stranger, we are here for one another. Love you my sister and so does every one on this Circle of Love. Selva

Hi my sister Verna, you are inded an Angel Mom, I really love you, Your prayers are so beautiful that I'm sure Jesus is full of joy, you are one of His precious Angels, so is Sandy, oh God , he is so happy to hear you!, please throw a little prayer for Solange,. I do everyday, but you know my ways, full of Anger and grief, so I'm sure He will listen to you guys, you are closer to Him than I am. Thank you my sister for putting the fort togehter for our dear Sandy, and lets all of us Please pray fo her. Love you my sisters. Selva

Hi my Angel moms. I have been praying for you so much, well I should say for us all, I pray Eva that you are feeling a little better, I'm glad you took time off, your work place is so hard that I am sure you are feeling better at home, no matter what, remember we are going through raw pain, just please when you get a chance, post so we'll know how are you doing, remember you belong to this family also, and we worry about you. Lisa, I hope you are feeling better and your argument with your mom its just that,you know that due what we are going through a little feather that touch, hurts, but priorities OK? You mom will understand, let your pain go here my sister, this is the place where you can cry, scream, let your heart out, swear, and we will understand. We are sisters. Donna I know you are going through rough times, but I tell you the same , this is the place where you can scream, get angry, cry, and we will be here for you. Verna thank you for holding the fort for Sandy, I received an e mail from her, very short, she has a bacteria infection and its taking antibiotics, so she will be feeling better in a few days, so lets all Storm Heaven for our dear sister Sandy, I know Verna how busy you are that is why I triple double Thank you, for keeping the fort. I love you all my sister, and I will come back to the Circle in a little while. Love Selva

Hi my Angel sisters, I know my prayers are not that beautiful like our sisters Verna , Sandy, Donna and the rest, but I want you to know that I'm keeping you all close to my heart, and as much as I can pray, I really do for all of us. Please keep pressing on, and I know will get through somehow. I love you all my sisters, and I really pray that God will give us some peace and a little relieve to this awful pain. Love Selva

Hello dear Sandy, ~ I pray that you are feeling much better and that you are getting plenty bed rest and following doctor's orders. What ever you do, please don't worry about posting until you are feeling better. Remember your advice to me? Well, now it is your turn to (as we use to say in the old day) "Mind your elders!" :) You know how dearly you are missed, but coming back too soon would mean you might get worse, and that, my dear Sandy, we do not want to happen! So, for now, just let us angel moms shower you with our love, prayers, and devotion, OK? OK! :) Besides, I have thought of a way to share your humor, compassion, and also your warm and wonderful advice to our angel moms. I hope you won't mind. I know the other angel moms will enjoy reading some of our most memorable posts.

So, if you just happen to get up for any reason, and just happen to sign on to read to keep up with how things are going at our circle of love, I hope my sharing some of our most memorable post from the past will cheer you, bring a smile to your face, as well as the other angel moms, and bring you moments of joy and peace of mind. Yeah, ... You're right ... We love Ya just that much! :)
Much love, hugs, & we pray that you have begun to feel the affects of our heartfelt prayers!
LOVE2U

This first selection is a copy/paste exchange between you and Donna. It made me smile, because I remember that fwd page oh so well! Ha-ha! I think I shared it with everyone I knew! Enjoy! :)

Leander72
3/9/03 02:42 Dearest Sandy, Thank you for the forwards, and letter they made my day. My husband & I cracked up because we have been looking for a kitten and a dog from the shelter or humane society and so far the cats look like they want to scratch your face off, they must feel so sad to be there and then we find a small dog and again someone got 1st listing then no kittens the cat we liked belonged to the owner,so you see why when we got home it was to funny. Thanks for turning disappointment to hilarity. Love&BearHugs Donna

shaner
3/9/03 09:31 Hello dear Donna, ha, ha, I can see why that fwd. would be hilarious to you after your experiences yesterday! Most people wrote me back and said, "YES, I've been that tired", :) Speaking of tired, I read all the posts, and it seems I wasn't the only one who couldn't get to sleep, looking at the times you and Selva posted. Selva wrote me this am to say it was 2am and she still couldn't sleep. I should have come online instead of tossing and turning!
Somewhere out there is a kitten and a dog just waiting for you, and I think it's wonderful that you're looking into your own Shelter for one. My hubby goes to our Shelter every now and then to take some of the dogs there out for a walk, it helps the staff out and he loves doing it, but it breaks my heart to see all the dogs, cats there, especially the dogs, they look at you with hope in their eyes and I just want to round them all up and bring them home. It's so sad. Well, I hope we can all have a nap today, :) and Selva, hope you got SOME sleep! Love and hugs to you dear Donna,
Luv Sandy

Dear Donna, ~ I selected the above posts because they made me laugh out loud when I recalled the picture of that poor little tired kitten! You see, in my opinion ... This is a perfect example; ... Just one of the many, many ways that God shows up (through our friends and family), providing those peaceful moments for which we all pray! In time, we learn how to recognize the little things that give us reasons to seek any measure of joy, and peaceful moments. No, it won't stop our grieving process. That is something that we must go through; ... in our own time and in our own way. As Sandy and some of the best grief counselors will tell you, there is no set time ... No road map when it comes to grieving the loss of a precious and beloved child. There is no advice, no matter how well intended, that can stop the grieving process that each of us must go through. There will be days when we feel OK for a few moments, and then, something will happen or the reality will try to come into our minds, and we simply don't know how to deal with it. That, in my opinion, is why being a part of a support group, or having that special person that you feel comfortable talking to, is Soooo very important; especially in the early stages. And, yes, even years later, there will be set backs and many days when we feel we cannot go on for another moment. But, (slowly at first), we begin to recognize, and focus on whatever we can that helps to carry on. It's an ongoing process that we learn slowly, ... A little at a time.

As Donna and some of the other angel moms will tell you, ... There is no way you could look at that photo and not laugh ... (Even if only for a moment!) ha-ha!
Love & hugs ... And, ...[As much joy as you can manage, ... One moment, a few minutes, one half hour, ... Eventually, one hour, and Someday, ... (almost), one day at a time! :) I love you all, my sister-friends! I pray that God will grant you those peaceful moments for which we all pray! In Jesus' name, Amen!
LOVE2U,
Verna

Dear Selva, ~ You are one of God's most precious angel moms, and your prayer post and advice to the other moms,... Your sharing of how you feel are what makes you so special and needed! Please accept that as a fact! We love you and appreciate your love and devotion that you give so freely! I appreciate your kind words, but as Sandy says, it is God doing His work through me. The same is true for you and all of our other angel moms! We are all special in God's eyes, And so are all our prayers! And whether we can grasp it or not, God has a purpose in this life for each of us ... We will complete that purpose in our own way, just as God has determined. Your prayers reach heaven the same as mine, as Sandy's as any of the other angel moms! ALL ARE PRECIOUS TO GOD, OUR FATHER!!! We cannot impress God with the way we pray or the way we express our thoughts! God LOOKS AT YOUR HEART! :) Again, your prayers are just as special as my prayers, or Billy Graham's, or anyone else's prayers! And, ... You can take that to God's "Prayer Bank!" :) God promises us, ... No heartfelt prayer will return "Void!" :) That's God's promise to each of us! So, don't worry about fancy words, or HOW you say what you say when you pray! We cannot and should not attempt to impress God with our fancy words! Just go to Him and talk to Him just as you would your earthly father, or father figure. :) We are ALL God's children, Selva, ... All of us! He knows our deepest secrets and our heart desires! He knows what's best for us, and He will provide our needs according to His will! ... So, don't worry, be happy whenever and for as long as you can! [Even if it's only for a split second!] :) As a treasured friend and grief counselor advises ... "Accept God's blessings!" :) Again, you are one special lady, and all of us here love you AND your big loving heart, just as you are! YOUR PRAYERS AND POST ARE SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL AND DEARLY TREASURED!!! :) I mean that from the bottom of my heart!
Love & hugs,
Verna

Dearest Verna, Selva and all you Angel Moms, Your Prayers and e-mails and advice have kept me going, but I didn't come here to Post about me, Dearest Lisa, Please Please don't give up the fight you been treated badly for so long it is worth the fight so you can go on and know you gave it your best there has to be justice for all you are enduring I'm sorry that your Mom doesn't understand but like Selva and Verna have said Mom's middle names are always Forgiveness no matter what, I know you feel lost right now you have attacks coming from everywhere but if you can hang on to something we all hang onto justice in this world is not and never will be God's justice thats what helps me when we see clearly the injustice of this world why, its like Verna said and when the Amber Alerts come or I hear of an abused child or worse I hold onto God's Justice it will come to those whose hearts are so bitter or lack Love because it is a choice. Hurrah for your Therapist, two steps forward one step back is pretty true but fight the good fight and when you can't we pray, without ceasing so don't judge yourself your faith or lack of feeling God will always be there waiting He knows what you have endured and suffered and someday I pray you will feel his hand holding yours and saying "Well done my Child you fought the good fight and endured and Loved and grew. BearHugs Lisa and we will keep Praying for Justice, Love and the open arms of your Mom maybe she is having some Valley Days?

Dearest Selva, Your prayers are so real I bet God says "Here is my child who has come to me in her own pain she prays for others and talks with me" You have been there for all of us, Please hear my Heart You are so Precious to All of Us, Where would we be without you and your prayers I don't want to think of what this Family would be like without you I think much sadder lonier and definitely less encouraged. You are a Light of Hope of Joy and a Sister whose pretty wise. Love&Joy because of You. Love&BearHugsssssssssssss Donna

Dearest Verna, You make me laugh and tell wonderful stories and keep us reaching for God and I worry about your hands but I'm so glad for all you have said You too bring a Light of Hope that would make my Heart very sad I love your saying Pressing on It has done more Good than You will know but someday God will say the same "Here is my Child who brought my light to a family lost without her also and my world be emptier MaDear must be saying there my girl she hasn't forgotten. Good Job my precious Girl.Thankyou for the Joy you have brought me and for your stories too. When I face the treatments you have all been with me when I can't write you are all with me and when I'm afraid or sad You every one of You help to give me Courage. I Love Dear Verna and I have pressed on and you know my Hope when I'm done with all these chemicals and pain there will be a puppy or dog and hopefully a kitten too so I can take to my sister and make her laugh and she/it will ease her pain and know they won't care they will just love her like I do and maybe they will bring a sparkle to others hopefully sick children, so I keep praying I keep pressing on and I Love You All.

Dearest Sandy, You know you are with us every hour through every trial we are praying and hoping and sending Love and Hugs that reach pass all the miles Forever and a Day. Love&Yup You Got it BEARHUGS soft and gentle but we are with you and always will be. Donna

Dearest Eva, We Love You and I can only agree to the wisdom written on these pages, no matter how far no matter how deep no matter how painful we are there Yup your going to make it because we can be unbeleivable persistant and you are already touching so many lives for the better, music brings Hope and Joy and sharing that you both do is reaching someone who doesn't think he/she can make it through there trial but now you've inspired them you given them Courage to press on so Please try to see you as we do Your going to make it because believe it or not you are through all the pain you are. Hope & BearHugssssssssss Donna

Now your all going to get some peace for awhile so don't worry just following Dr's orders and only one more to go after tomorrow Please keep my sister in your Prayers her name is Sharon and I call her Shar, she is being so Brave but she needs all the prayer you can offer. Know while I'm not here I am there isn't a day that each of you don't visit my heart for awhile and I pray and wonder and I wish I could send smiles e-mails Hi but this time no moving so just lock it away in your heart and when it gets tough or you feel alone Count me in because my Heart is with You. I Love You All Donna OH YeaH BEARHUGSSSSS Forever and a Day.

Good Morning All Angel Moms! God Bless each one of you!
~~~I'm so sorry I haven't written in awhile. I actually did write last Tuseday (a long letter, but I guess it was too long because once I submitted it I lost it forever!!!!!) Then I didn't have time to rewrite it, maybe it wasn't supposed to go through?
~~~VERNA, thank you for thinking of me, you're so sweet! I have been very busy with sewing. The wedding was this past Sat and the dresses turned out very nice. I was working on them until the day before, you know there's always last minute things! You always give very good advice to everyone here especially the newly bereaved moms. It is hard to understand and believe in that first year that it does get better as time moves on. Everyday is a day closer to having more and more peace, it's been 3-1/2 years for me and it still hurts very much, but God by His grace and love for me is showing me how to deal with it. Sometimes though I have days that just throw me for a loop! Like last week, I had received a call from a friend of Joe's from H.S. about their 10th year class reunion. She wanted to know if I had a picture of Joe that they could use at their reunion and anything else I wanted them to remember him with. It was very touching to me and when I got off the phone I just cried like a baby over it, I was trying to put out of my mind about it being his 10th year already and then I get this call! I hate it!
~~~SANDY, I hope you are feeling better. I'm praying for you, our CHIEF ANGEL MOM!!! Get better now soon, we need you here!!! We had a great time in Ca for my son Aaron's graduation from Life Pacific Bible College. He has grown so much in the past few years, its hard to believe. I'm humbled to have a son for a Pastor now and he will be blessed by God as he begins his ministry.
~~~SELVA, EVA and LISA, I pray for each of you always, I know it's hard. Eva, I thought of you and your family on Sunday being the first anniversary. I think you are doing what you have to do to cope with it by taking time off work and remembering Matthew. You have to do what helps you. Listen to Verna, she has some good words to you all in the above posts. This is how I feel but I can't always put it into the right words to share with you all. God loves each one of you and He is right beside you even if you don't feel Him. He is taking care of you and your faith in Him is what will sustain you.
~~~DONNA, I am praying for you and hope you are doing better. God Bless you! I will lift your sister up in prayer also!
I would like everyone's prayers here for a family in our church that lost their 15 year old son Jacob last Thursday to a 3 year battle to a rare form of cancer. They had lots of time to prepare for his death and say their goodbyes and Jacob knew he was going to heaven, but still I don't believe that anything ever prepares you for the grief you feel after. They have 6 other children, 4 of which are younger than him. Maybe my husband and I have a ministry with them who knows, our Pastor seems to think so. We are going to start by writing a letter to them.
I better go or I'll lose this letter too!
Dear Father, I come before Your throne today and ask You to touch the hearts of all of our grieving Angel Moms here. I ask for Your peace and comfort to their broken hearts and give them Your grace to sustain them. I pray for healing for Sandy and Donna and Verna who are not feeling well at this time and bring them back to a full recovery. I give You all honor and praise and glory. I love You Jesus. In Jesus Name, Amen. God Bless you all!
Love, Yvonne<><

Oh gosh, angel moms! ~ I come here to do a quick post, and was so touched by reading all the new posts, ... I thank you one and all! I will respond to all at the end of this very busy day! Right now, I'll submit this short post, and the copy/paste post that I clicked on to submit. [Sure hope I haven't lost it.] Then, ... I must begin my longggg list of things I just gotta do today, ... (Some of which should have been done yesterday, or the day, week, month before! :)
Love to All!
Verna

Oh my dear sister,... What a touching fwd page you have shared with me today. I just signed on and saw it in my new email. I really needed that; ... to help give me the encouragement to make it through this day. I have soooo many important tasks to finish today! I hardly know where to begin! So, I am mentally making a list of things I just gotta do today. I will share that list with you and the other angel moms once I make it through this day, with God's help and your prayers! God bless you, dear Selva, and may you and the other angel moms feel the presence of your guardian angel today and always!
Love, hugs to all our angel moms, ... And, as we continue on our journey, ... Please, ... Accept God's blessings!
Prayerfully yours,
Verna

Hello all you wonderful Angel Moms, I've missed you all so much, and coming here and posting and reading! I'm slowly getting there, Praise God for penicillin, :). A very big Thank You to our dear Miss V, and our dear Selva for looking after our Circle of Love while I've been ill, what would I do without you, I loudly second what our dear Donna wrote about both of you on this page! And another very big Thank You from my heart to those who've sent me cards, e-mails, fwd.'s, prayers, you're all so dear to me and I love you all! Verna, your post above about the 'tired cat' made me laugh, I had forgotten about it, and don't forget the picture of the Scot's Man in his kilt, :). Our dear Donna, one more to go after today, hurray, of course your dear sister will be prayed for. Eva, you know I was thinking about you on Sunday, God love you & Ron. Lisa, I'm sorry you're going through so much, but you've been given very good advice here! Yvonne, hurray for you posting, thank you for your prayers, so happy that you had a wonderful time in Ca., and seeing Aaron graduating, of course we'll also pray for Jacob's parents, and who better than you to offer them support and love. Dear Deb, miss ya too, hope all is OK. I also have a prayer request dear Angel Moms, a woman in my faith-sharing group lost her 26 yr. old daughter suddenly on Sunday, I know you'll all include Vickie in your prayers too.
I love you all, and you all know you're in my heartfelt prayers, hope to be back in the next couple of days. Yes, my dear Miss V, OK!!, ha, ha!
Much love and yep, as our dear Donna says, here they come.....Big, Tender Bear Hugs,
Lots of love,
Sandy

Hi my Angel moms, first of all Sandy you are supposed to be in bed, so what are you doing posting, Verna, remember all the times we told you NOT TO POST?, well it goes for you too my dear Sandy, but, I will include Vickie in my so call prayers, yes I know God is listening to me but He must be so sick and tired of me, to tell you the true, if I was Him I will say, please please get this woman out of here and tell her that I have all her prayers written down. Donna you aresupposed to be in bed by now (I wishe) please let us know how the treatment went, and please know that you are in my prayers, Yvonne it is great to hear from you again, please don't be a stranger, we all miss you, Verna I told you not to make me blush, what I say it does come from my heart, thatdoes not make me special, YOU All are special, I keep repeating, I thank God 24/7 that HE brought me to this Circle of Love, I went to my pshycho today and I told her, I swear, I don't know how I got here but I Thank HIM 24/7 for it. I'm still in the valley, I told my Dr about Eva having her first annyversary, and I do not know how I will be handeling mine, she made sure I have an appt on that day, but God knows what I will do. I love you my sisters and I thank you so much for your much needed help. Selva

I forgot to mention, remember that I told you that from all that my sweet Solange saved their life , there was only one recipient that said Thanks, well we have been in touch though the Angency, his mother lost 2 sons so she knows our pain, the recipient Don, is having a good and woderful like Thanks to Solange, they keep writing to me and I keep writing to them through the agency, well, we are ready to keep in touch with one anotherm byt "the agency rules" will not allow it, in the meantime I know they live in Fla, Fort Myers, I live in Miami, but we don't have our last names or anything that could be "information" I spent last saturday sending e mails to most of the Real estate agcys that I found in the yellow book (his mom told me she was a real estate agent), I called about 25 real estate agencies, there are 398 agencies listed in the yellow book, and guess what, they came to Miami on saturday and visited the Organ donors agcym to tell them, they wanted to get in touch with me, to make a story short, the agcy called me yesterday to tell me so, and that they will be rewuing(?) hteir "rules" and maybe they will allow us to get in touch directly, of course it will take "a long time" but in the meanwhile, I will keep on tryin and I will post a page in Fort Myers newspaper or what God knows I will do, but I will find them, please pray for me that I will do so, all I want is to send them Slange's picture and tell them about what a wonderful human being she is etc etc. So please my Angel sisters, pray for me that I could find this people. Guess, the agent told me that he looks so healthy and fine, see Solange gave him the GIFT OF LIFE, that is why they are so eager so find me, all I want is to give them Solange's picture (she is beautiful isn't she) and tell them what a great soul she has. Pray for me Angel sister. I know I will find them. I will let you know the minute it happens. Love Selva

I will turn their morning into gladness; I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow, This is the word of God and I know he will do just as he said he would, I am praying for you and others who have loss an child, I lost a niece, 15 yrsold on Nov. 11,2002 in the city of Oakland, Ca.
BJM,
The EarthAngel Foundation

Good Morning all you Angel Moms,
Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. I am still "pushing on" as ya'll say. I have my therapist appt. today and am feeling a little queasy about it. I just don't like to talk about me.... Anyhow, I love reading all the posts from ya'll. They truly make me feel like I am not alone in my crazyness. I have still been praying for all of you and your families.
Sandy, it was good to hear from you...glad you are feeling a little better. Please rest up and don't over do, we need you.
Verna, one more treatment huh? That is great and I will be praying for you and for a successful outcome.
Eva, are you okay? I thought about you all day Sunday.
Donna, you are just an angel yourself! I love to read your posts and prayers. You really know how to lift a persons spirits. Please know I am praying for you and your sister.
Hi Selva,
Thanks for your words of encouragement too. I have talked to my Mom once since the phone coversation and I think everything will be fine. Although my Dad stopped emailing me since then. I guess they need their own time to process the feelings that were shared. I love them so deeply and I worry something will happen to them. But, you are great, never losing faith or hope....I pray that someday I will be like you. And you know....I bet Aaron and Solange have already met and become really close. Aaron always had a thing for dark haired, pretty girls. And Solange was just that...beautiful. I bet she looked alot like you, huh?


Isn't it funny the images we create in our minds of what we think people look like after talking to them for a while? I hope one day we can all get together some place and meet each other face to face. Maybe we should think about an "Angel Mom Retreat"....lol. That would be so much fun...Where is everyone located? I am in Houston, Texas.

Hi BJM,
Thank you for posting at our circle. I am so sorry to hear about your niece. Please feel free to come here anytime and post your feelings. We all understand what you are going through. I am praying for you.

Love You All,
Lisa