Prayer Circles

Hi my friend Deb, yes, we were so worried about you and your Dad, but if he's back to giving orders, :) then he must be feeling much better! Wow, temps. in the 90's, 100's, that's A/C time. And I pray you do get to visit in August with your Parents and family, I know you miss them so much. Ah, sweetie, I know you're in pain too over Mother's Day, yes, it still hurts, I pray that some wonderful memories of Michael flood your heart, as well as the tears. You know we're all here for you, our love and prayers are always with you, you know that by now. And I thank you for all your prayers and love, they've helped all of us so much, dear Angel Mom Deb, and I'm so grateful that you are a big part of this family!
Much love and prayers to you my friend,
Love Sandy

Hello Angel Moms,
I will be thinking and praying for all of us tomorrow...it will be a very hard day. I am looking forward to getting it over with. I hope that makes sense. My Christopher has to work and Randy and I are going to visit my Mom and Grandmother. I would rather be like Selva and be home alone, but I know that is probably not good for me. I worry about you Selva, please, please contact your sister or someone if you find that you change your mind or if you just can't take being alone anymore. I too am an isolator and sometimes it is NOT good. I will be gone most of the day but will check back online tomorrow night. My cell phone number is 713-376-5593 and would love it if you called, just to let me know you are okay. I too have been in VERY deep valley days....matter of fact I am thinking on returning back to work soon because I am not sure it is good for me to stay home and think all the time. Donna, thank you for the e-cards and Selva you too. Sandy, I want to apologize for not having you in my "angel moms" group in my address book at home. I didn't even realize it until the other day when you replied to an email that I had sent all the angel moms but you. You were in the one at work and just thought you were in my home one too. NOW you are in it too. I love your emails. Peace, hope, love to all!
Lisa

God, please, please give us Angel Moms some extra blessings tomorrow. Thank you for letting me find these most special women, thank you for everything you have given me and most of all thank you for allowing me to be a Mom and for the 19 years with Aaron and 18 years with Christopher. I will treasure the memories forever and ever. Give my Angel Aaron a kiss and hug from me, and please help me through the rest of my life.
Amen

Dearest Angel Moms, Lisa Thank you and I agree with you, Selva, I'm not going away tomorrow and will be checking in here as much as possible so write You can rant and rave at me if it would help, My hubby had tomorrow planned to go to a beautiful resturant but I asked if we could just stay home and order pizza, I want to be here if you need and I'm not interested in being with anyone else I'd also like to be here for Justin it is never an easy day for him either and he'll proably spend time with friends so for all of you who choose to be home and it gets to much post, My hubby got me a yellow tea rose in a slipper with pink flowers for Christina Marie so first thing even before the critters I'll plant it and when I get a pink one I will for Christina Marie. There's a precious moment I'd like to share, It was Mothers day many years ago when microwaves came out,my Hubby thought we needed this and I felt like I had a bomb in the house anyway my Hubby was out to sea {He was aboard submarines for many years} and the boys were 10 and 5 I knew they were up to something when Justin came in with this big tray he was a beautiful elfish child and was holding on for dear life, and he brings this to me with a cup of tea on it and says {Happy Mothers Day drink your tea but you have to stay here} it took all I had not to pick him up and hug him to death he was so cute and I was so glad to take that tea cup off the tray he struggled so hard because it was a dainty one and he was afraid of dropping it you could see the relief in his precious eyes. Well as all of us know the tea was ice cold no sugar and it was the Best cup I had ever had, well by the time I got done, I hear MOMMY! and there was a caboom so I took off and the two of them Mikey being the leader were trying to make eggs for me and they Blew all over the microwave and they were so upset and promised to clean everybit of it but they thought they broke the micro I couldn't hold back any more and Laughed and we fell in a pile and then Mikey presented me with Breakfast two peices of toast that should have blown up with the eggs and together they said sheepishly Happy Mothers Day! No we aren't the same but those precious memories live in each of us but to think of it we were never the same once we had these Angels. God Bless Everyone those far away and those who smile from above and those who like to play with Bombs just for us. How truly Blessed we are. Sending Love and I hope with all my Heart this will make you smile. Love&Hope&Joy and Yes Bunches of BearHugs EVERYONE

Hi my dear Angel moms. I'm at my house smene43737@aol.com,guess what I can't cry, I'm feeling this deep sorrow and I can not cry, why? I guess it is because I just got home, my sister just left and I have not opened Solange's room yet, I'm having a hard time. Lisa my dear sister, I know what you are going through so its my sister Eva, we are new at this, but I know that all our Angel Moms are going through their own pain. I will keep you all in my prayers, I have locked myself in the house and my phone is forwarded to my sister, all I have is my cell phone, and I told my sister I will only answer it if its her. Don't want to see anybody , I'm worried about my neighbors, one of them lost hteir only daughter in 2000 with leukemia, at that time I did not know what to say to her, I felt so bad, than when I saw her I just hugged her and starting crying, imagine? little did I know that I was going to be through the same pain, but I will not answer my door or my cell. I hope tonight I will dream about Solange, please my sisters pray that I do.You know its funny, Solange used to complain that the computer was very slow (its a old computer) Now I know what she meant, I should have bought a new one for her, Anyway my dear Angels, I will be here tommorrow, right know I'm going into Solange's room and talk to her, I'm sure she is here with me, all I want is to see her or hear her telling me Hi mom I'm OK, Love ya. Take care my dear sisters and Thank you for being such an Angel. Love you all Selva

Hi my siter Angel Donna, please go out with your hubby, have a nice dinner you deserve it, then when you come back just get in line but please my sister go out and don't worry about us, we will be OK. I will be OK, I bought roses for my mom and Solange and me, I told Solange it was a gift from her, I will be talking to her all day, I know that she is here with me, maybe not tonight, she will go out on saturday to dance, she loves to dance and so does her friends, but tommorrow she will be here with me. I love you my sisters, and I thank God all the time for leading me to this Circle of Love. I really love you my sisters, you are a great help to me, better than my phsycho. Love you Selva

I will forever remember the last Mother's Day I shared with Matthew...He came up to me on that day and said "Here Ma, Dad did'nt take me to the store in time to get you a card" I was like it's okay son...this letter you wrote me is better than any card that you could of ever gotten me...I have decided to share it with you.....here it goes......To the best Mom in the whole world: My Dear Mom, First of all I want to say Happy Mother's Day. I may not be all that good all the time but I try. But thank you very much for keeping your cool with me all the times I need you. To me I think you are the coolest Mom ever. I love You!!! Love always, Matthew Parr I will be in deep prayer for each and every one of tomarrow..May God continue to hold us ever so close with his love and strengh....I love you all...In HIs Care I Press On.....Eva

Hi Shane, I'm sure you know that today is Mother's day, you are one of Chief Angels, you must be so proud of your mom,she is one of the most terrific person on this earth, and that my dear Angel, its so hard to find. I'm sure you are taking car of your mom today, just to let you know that you and all of aour Angel kids are in my prayers, and so does all the Angel Moms. It is a very hard day for us, but I'm sure you Angels understand, please take good care of your mom today, if you see Solange give her a kiss from me, I'm sure you two have met already, she is the one with the long beautiful hair, and the greatest smile. Seek the Light , my Angel, and be close to your mom today. Love and kisses. Selva

Dear Lisa, I pray that today, along with your tears, you'll remember the wonderful memories that Aaron and you made, the special ones that only you and he shared, and they give you some peace and comfort. Yes, it makes perfect sense that you want the day to pass quickly, we truly understand. That's alright about my e-mail address, :) nothing to forgive! Such a beautiful prayer for all, thank you dear Lisa, and He will help you through the day, He loves you!
Love, peace, comfort and prayers to you,
Love Sandy

Oh dear Eva, what a beautiful letter to look back on and be forever in your heart! Thank you so much for sharing it with us, and I know you treasure that letter more than a card, it was written from Matthew's heart to you. God bless you Eva, we love you and are praying for you, that today isn't too painful,
Much love,
Sandy

Dearest Donna, thank you too for sharing such a wonderful memory, I can picture the scene from the way you tell it, :) and it brought a warm smile to me, I loved reading it! That was so sweet of Mike to buy you the flowers in the Slipper, and when you get the pink one for Christina Marie, you'll have beautiful Roses to remind you of Mikey and Christina! I remember one year for Mother's Day the boys made me clay 'jewellery' at school, although they weren't of course in the same class, the Arts & Crafts teacher had the students make something out of clay for us Moms, :) Anyway, I received a 'Pacman' necklace from Chris, that weighed a good two lbs., but I wore that necklace all day with pride and love, remembering his face beaming, and to this day I still have it in my special drawer. Shane made me a flower Broach, and I pinned it on my top, and wore it with pride and love too. Shane also gave me a piece of paper that said "whenever you need a favour done, present this to me, it's good for a 1,000 uses". So when I'd ask him to go to the store for me, etc., and he's say 'aww', I'd remind him about the paper! Yes, wonderful memories made, and you're so right, we were changed women the minute we became Mom, the most beautiful title in the world. Yes, how truly blessed we are! Lots of love and Bear Hugsss to you,
Love Sandy

Oh, my dear sister Selva, what a beautiful post to Shane and I. I had my cry this morning when my hubby gave me a beautiful card from Shane, and now the tears of joy are blurring my eyes, because of your beautiful post to Shane.
I just read it to Shane, in case he hasn't read it here yet, he is my mouse pad, :) a friend of mine took his picture and had it super-imposed on a mouse pad, so he's always close to me with his smiling face. But my dear sister, you give me too much credit, I see on these pages much love from other Angel Moms, and you with your big, loving heart are truly one of them. Our Lord's love flows freely from you to so many others on these pages, and those that know you would surely agree with me! Solange and all our other precious Angels know how hard a day it is, and I know that each of them in their own special way are looking after us, and appreciate so much your prayers for them and for us! Oh yes, Shane will give a kiss to Solange for you, as well as hugs and kisses for all the other Angels, they're probably very busy today, not only looking after us, but giving their love for each other, for every single Angel Mom. Solange, please look after your Mom today, she loves and misses you so much, you know that, and I love you too, Solange. Selva, please let us know how you're doing, I have two very special candles lit here, one is in a sculpture called "Circle of Friends", it's based on an old Mayan piece, and all the 'people' are linked arm in arm as we are here. The other one is a Circle of Angels, and it has a candle in the middle and it's lit for all our Angels, reaching up to Heaven for them all.
Love you my dear sister, and let us know how you are,
Lots of love,
Sandy

Hi my Angel sisters, well the day its almost over, I had a bad day crying but maybe I'm going crazy, I made believe that Solange was here, so I talked to her all day, I smiled with her, we went over pictures and memories, i read the cards she gave me last year, she used to give me a funny card and a serious one, last year she gave me a card with a pile of aspirins on the cover and then she wrote, Mommie, Happy mother's day from your perfect child, he he . keep pilling up the aspirins I love you more that anything. love Solange.The serious one said Mom, on mother's day I realize once again how truly blesssed I am to have a wonderful mother like you. I thank you with all my heart for everything you've done and I wish you with more love that you can imagine, every happiness a lifetime can hold. I know some days it might not seen like it, but I love you with all my heart and I really do appreciate everything you do for me. I might not show it sometimes but I am grateful to have a mother that cares so much for me. Happy mother's day I love you Solange. Isn't that nice? Juny also gave me a mother's day card last year so sweet, I collect little ceramic houses from different parts of the world that I have in my kitchen's wall, so juny gave me one last year, Solange also would give one one. I spent the day with Solange, no calls, no visitors, my sister, God bless her soul, answered my phone all day I just called her a couple of times to tell her I was OK, and then she called my brother, he is working today.Thank you Sandy for your loving care, also Lisa, Eva, Deb, Donna and Verna and all the Angel moms, you have helped me through this day with your prayers and I can not thank you enough. I'm not going to owrk tommorrow, I took a vacation day, I did not want my co workers to see me with swollen eyes and all, so I will be here at home, and will clean up a little bit, then go back to my sisters, she is worry about me, and my Rambo ( 9 pounds maltese) misses me a lot when I'm not aroundJust to let you know that you all are in my prayers and I love you and thank you for your much needed prayers. Selva

Dearest Selva, Thank you for posting and no not one of us thinks your crazy trust us we do the same thing and whatever made us think we were sane, we didn't lead normal lives and I'm glad of it we are not cerifiable { well maybe sometimes} :} I have no doubt Solange was sitting there right with you and listening and remembering, I feel like I'm transported in time when I spend time with my hope chest I call it that for all the dreams that did come true the different things throughout there lives and there is an indescribable feeling the first years count the first 6 it was hard but now when I hold or read Mikeys writings or look at his art I remember and I do feel beamed to another place, thats good. Selva, as hard as this day was you made it beautiful, and I'm glad you cryed and smiled and remembered they are precious like you wrote also Thankyou for visiting Mikey and Christina Marie thats when I cryed reading what you and Sandy wrote it warmed my heart and though I cried it was with tears from the Love you wrote. Thankyou and God give you peace and a good nites rest. Bunches of Love and Lots and Lots of Bearhugs. Sandy, I hope you read what I wrote above, the Love you wrote to my children warmed my heart and my day was much better for all your Love, In the midst of sadness a shining light comes from afar and warms you heart and soul and you know the cost of that Love and it is freely given and freely recieved and I am rich beyond measure. Thank You Dear Lord for making us Mommies and teaching us through our Angels about your unconditional Love Thank You for Blessing Us. Amen Sending Love to All Eva, thankyou for your bravery and for sharing with us, Lisa you spent the day caring for others I pray you felt Love from above and the Peace of Our Lord sent through Our Angels, Ps Selva, one of my e-mails was returned will try again tomorrow and rest if you can, Verna, Sending Love and hoping your day had some good time and that God sent his Peace through your Diane and as I said to Selva I truly believe that God put them all on assignment. Again Love&BearHugssssssssss Donna

Good Morning All Angel Moms! Sandy, Verna, Deb, Donna, Lisa, Eva, & Selva,
I know how hard it had to be for everyone yesterday and I'm so sorry you all have to go through the pain on these special days. There is hope for a better day. ~~~DONNA, I love the little memory you shared with your boys on Mother's when they were little, these are the things we cherish forever. ~~~SANDY, you always seem to be the strong one for all of us, but I know that your pain is as much as the rest of ours and you are in my prayers! ~~~VERNA, I hope you are doing better with your health and following drs. orders! We miss you here and need you! ~~~DEB, I'm so glad your Dad is doing better, prayer really does take over when all else fails. Thank you for sharing your concerns for your family, we are all family and are here for each other. ~~~LISA, I hope your Mother's Day went ok for you. Out of all of the special days, I think Mother's Day is the worst to have to go through and their birthdays of course. I hate it when people say Happy Mother's Day to me, how can we be happy when we have lost a child?a very special part of us is gone from our lives and it hurts like everything! Don't they know that? I guess though some of us still have children and we have to be there for them too. God Bless you Lisa, I have a son named Aaron and I think of you alot, I'm so sorry for you loss of your little one! ~~~EVA, thank you for sharing the note that Matthew wrote to you last year, how very special, I love hand written notes, they truly come from the heart especially when you know they took the time to sit down and write their thoughts, you are a cool Mom Eva!God Bless you! ~~~SELVA, I pray you are doing better pysically! Wow, you have been through alot with that whatever you had! I hope your day went ok yesterday with Solange. I don't like to be around others on these special days either, just my own little family, for they are the only ones who bring joy to my heart. I pray for peace and comfort in your heart. God Bless you Selva. You will get through this awful pain.
~~~I want to share a little 'Dove" story with all of you. As some of you may know, doves have come to mean so much to me from day one. I asked God for a sign that my Joseph was in heaven the day after he died, deep down in my heart I knew he was ok, but my other children had questions, so the reason for my sign. Gad so graciously gave me that sign 5 days after Joe's death on Thanksgiving Day 1999. Someone who I knew only as an aquaintance had sent me a gift of a beautiful blue dove, which ever since I have sitting next to the last picture ever taken of Joe. Anyway, we also made a memorial garden to honor Joe in our front yard which by some miracle turned out to be the shape of a dove! We planted lilacs and other perennials in it. It brings me much peace to see it and see the dove shape to it. This year all of our lilacs bloomed, we have 2 that are magenta in color and 1 white, I took a boquet to Joe last week as I always do every spring from his garden and when we were driving down the lane into the cemetary, would you believe there was a dove sitting in the middle of the road and would barley move for us! This was my sign this year from God!!!!!! He is so good to me to continue with His signs that my Joe is still with us and with Him in Heaven and for that I am forever gratelful.
I pray for God to bless you all with signs that your children are with you and in heaven with Jesus. I hope this gives you all hope that we will get through the rough times and that God will give you the peace that passes all understanding. May God be with you all today.
I will be leaving for L.A. on Thursday for our son Aaron's graduation from Life Pacific College on Sat. I'll be back on the following Wed eve and catching up on all posts. Keep on keeping on all you a"ANGELS MOMS". I Love you and pray for you to all have peace and comfort in your hearts. God Bless you all.
Love, Yvonne<><

Hello our dear Yvonne! It's so nice to see a post from you, and I didn't have to post to you, wondering where you were, :) Yes, yesterday was hard for everyone, and that includes you too. Thankfully it's over with, and like you, I prefer to spend it alone with my family, and spend some time alone with Shane. Oh Yvonne, if you think I'm strong, it's because my strength comes from the Holy Spirit, I always ask for help before I come here to the Circle. I had my sad moments and tears too yesterday, but some wonderful memories too! Coming here with all the love that's on these pages is a joy, and it helps me very much!
Oh Yvonne, you saw your Dove!! I'm so happy for you, it must have made your heart lighter and happier, getting your sign again! God is so good to us Moms, isn't He! Yes, I agree with you in prayer, I pray that all Moms receive a sign, or signs, to comfort them.
You and your hubby have a wonderful trip, and I know you'll both be beaming with pride, watching Aaron graduating!!
Please let us know how it went when you return, we'll be praying for you and your family, love you too Yvonne, and I know you're going to have a terrific time! May Our Lord's peace and comfort, and His blessings be with you while you're gone, and enjoy yourselves!
Much love,
Sandy

Hi my sister Selva, Donna's loving post to you says it all, and I'm praying that today is a much better day for you, not only in your pain, but health-wise too. Love you my sister!
Sandy

Dearest Donna, the love you give to our children and what you posted, fills our heart with love, puts warm smiles in our hearts, and we feel strongly the love that goes into your beautiful words!
Lots of love & Bear Hugs to you,
Love Sandy

Hi my Dear Angel Moms, I'm back at my sisters today, I'm glad I spent Mother's day at my house, I felt Solange was there with me, and I really needed that privacy.Yes its was a very rough day, but I knew you were there and that made it easier, I did not want to bother anyone but I knew you were there and that made it so much easier. I can not thank you enough . Guess what , remember I told you about my pshyco not giving me an apptm, I was so hurt, well I left a message for her on friday wishing her a Happy Mother's day (she lost a son 9 yeras ago) I was really hurt, it turned out that her secretaries were not doing the job, they called my friday after I left the message but I did not returned the calls, anyway she callled my sister from her house, she was in tears, because I told them I did not wanted to come back, I lost the trust, so my sister gave her my cell number and she called me, she sounded so sorry and all that I decided to go back tomorrow, you what? I can not deal with anger feelings towards anyone, Solange was the same way, I can not hold a grudge, besides I was not angered, I was just feeling hurt. Well about my physical way, I'm still having diahrreas, but I will get a colonoscopy on thursday, well we what happens I will keep you posted. I was telling my sister what a wonderful Circle of Moms I have, she said that God will never let us down and there are wonderful souls (like you) still in this earth, she is a wonderful soul herself. I love you Angel moms and I really mean it. Love Selva

Dearest Angel Moms, Selva you know we are praying for you and will continue till you are well again, your sister is pretty special from all you have told us. Take good care as best you can and Our love will go with you.
There is so much I want to write to you but I have a request some of you already know but for those who don't all I can think and pray about is the Amber Alert I got today. A little girl was abducted Fri from OK and the license tags were from Mo and the man is 56 with home address in Branson Mo I don't know why it took so long to get the Amber but I know after all you went through I'm saying something painful and God knows you don't need that but please Storm Heaven for her and her family how did her family endure Mothers Day. Please pray for her and forgive me for bringing such sad news but all I can think of is she needs us now. Love to All and Hope Donna

Hello my sister Selva,
Yes, the day is over with, you got through it as rough as it was, and I think it was the best way for you to spend the day, with Solange, just you and she, and going through some of Solange's cards to you. You spent it the way YOU wanted to, and that's what's important for you and every other Angel Mom. Our prayers were with you that day, but you know they always are, as well as our love for you! Oh, Selva, that's wonderful about the misunderstanding getting cleared up with your psycho, yes, of course you were hurt, and now you understand what happened - she must be very special herself to phone you with her own tears, to want you to come back. I'm so happy that it worked out for the two of you, and no, I can't stay angry at people either, and as you say, the anger was really the result of the pain you felt, so now you can go back to seeing her again!
Gosh, you've still got it? The colonoscopy should tell the Dr. more about what's going on and then he'll be able to properly treat you and get you back healthy and well again! Yes, please let us know! Ah, your sister sounds so special herself, you and she must be very close, and what a blessing that is for you both! Love you too dear Selva, and I mean it too, :) and please take care of yourself and get better, we need you here! Prayers and lots of love to you my dear sister,
Love Sandy

Oh dear Donna, you're not adding any pain here, I know that the Angel Moms will say a prayer for this sweet innocent child, that she be found safe and returned to her parents, who must be beside themselves, God love them!
Lots of love & Hope too,
Love Sandy

Hi my sister Donna, first of all thank you for your e mails and your love, I did received the amber alert from you and I already forwarded it to all my friends, and yes i will be storming Heaven for this little child, I know of the horrors, uncertainty and pain that that situation brings to the parents and family, I went through that experience 18 years ago with my best friend's daughter, in those times there were not amber alerts, and the police did not even considered the case until after 72 hours, imagine, those are the most crucial hours, I went through hell at that time, Solange was only 2, but she knows the story very well, I wish there was something i could do, right now all I can do is pray and be on the lookout, I promise. Love you Selva

Hi Yvoone, please give a big kiss to Aaron from me,and tell him all of us Angel Moms are very proud of him. May God Bless him. You must be so proud, Have a great trip my sister and enjoy every minute of it. love you Selva

Hi Eva and Lisa, well we made it through, its was not easy but I knew that God will be there for us, and He will continue to be there for us, never forget that. I love you my sisters and I prayed a lot for you. love you Selva

Hi my dear Verna, I'm sure you were there for all of us, I just wish that you don't post yet, until you know about the tests and all, then please let us know. I love you my sister and I prayed a lot for you (never enough) on Mother's day, so does all the angel mom, you are a very important part of this Circle of Love, and we all care and pray for you 24/7. Love you my sister and please take good care of yourself. Selva