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Dearest Selva, Your Love & Kindness is overwhelming, and yet while your own pain is so deep you spared your sister, while as sick as you are,tell me that is not the Faith of God working through you, I'm sad that so much has befallen you and pray that the antibiotics kick butt, You have the spirit of God within you to do all that you have done I think of you as the LIONESS of JUDAH, for all who know you , you are there for them, Sister how could God not hear your prayers, yes Grief is a hurdle that can make many turn from God but you haven't, maybe you can't feel His nearness but Faith is not a feeling it is what you Hope for,it is taking action when you could easily turn away,you have done none this, why we walk this journey I have no answers but I agree with Yvonne,whatever happens we have a choice and you are always there for others, imagine Sandy in a chair across from you and what would you say to her. I believe that God Heart is like the Heart of a Mother so I believe he understands better than we do,the pain the sorrow,the letting go. No, nothing said right now is going to stop the awful process but we are forever changed like everyone has said we are not the same person,but we can choose to turn our backs on God like many have and blame him or we can embrace him for opening the gates of Heaven for our children by his letting go of his only Son, we have an arsenal to fight with and do Love Faith Hope Charity the Greatest of these are Love and you my Dear Sister testify to that Love at every obstacle you have faced and always for others all of us included may my heart be like YOURS. Heavenly Father, Your child Selva is suffering beyond her strength right now please intervene for she is your servant unawares because she Loves and Love can only come from you, please give her heart rest and her mind and body and even her soul for she doublts which does not come from you,Father she is in a knock down fight to hold on and those who are sorely tested as Selva are in a Spititually Fight and she needs Spiritual Protection that only you can give her, she has asked only one thing Lord ever to see her Solange, Please Father we are asking for your Mercy and accept all that you give in your time but Hear our Cry O Lord and Grant Your Faithful Servant time with her precious daughter, heal her heart give Peace to her Mind,Body and Soul and Protect her from the enemy,right now she can not defend herself but every witness Here "Satan You Have No Place Here and must Leave in the Blessed and Powerful Blood of Our Saviour WE STAND AGAINST YOU and Stand in Her Place And call on the MINISTRY of God Angels for Her Protection, LEAVE IN JESUS NAME AMEN. Donna

Hi Angel Moms,
It's been a week since I have read or posted. Or even read any emails. I have been isolating pretty much lately and haven't taken the time to even get on the computer. I just read all your posts and emails and was thinking how beautiful you all are. Thank you SO much for the beautiful emails and e-cards. They really touched my heart. Deb, I am really glad your Dad is doing much better. Is he home yet? Selva, reading your posts is like being in my head, I swear you and I think SO much alike it's scary. Maybe it is because we are at the same point in our greiving, I don't know but you say what I feel. I haven't even been able to go into Aaron's room yet to sit and look through his things or think about him. The few times I have had to go in there to get extra pillows out of his closet for guests I can still smell him too. I just take a quick glance around and see his stuff the same way he left it. His 19th Birthday card from me is on his dresser and it breaks my heart everytime I see it. Christopher turned 18 on Tuesday. It really bothers me that next year he will be the same age as Aaron. And then he will be older than him. That is just not right. Aaron will be 19 forever! I miss him so badly. We had a small family get together for Christopher's birthday and I even found myself saying out loud...."Ok, Aaron, you can have the rest" and my sister said "Oh, my God, I thought you were really talking to him." I said "I was" because I know how much Aaron loves birthday cake and ice cream. Christopher laughed and said "And you know he would eat the rest" It was quite a large portion left and we all just chuckled and laughed and agreed that he would have probably eaten it all! Well, I went to the pyschiatrist last Thursday and he is changing my medicine to help with anxiety. I also talke to my boss about taking some time off and she said ok. So I began my leave of absence on Monday. I also had to go to court on Monday for delinquent child support from my ex-husband. I got very emotional at the courthouse and felt like a fool because it took everything in me not to just burst out into tears. All I kept remembering was the last time I was there was with Aaron and it just brought back alot of sad memories. And I was SO MAD at my ex for having to put me in this situation. But I got through it and we have to go back on June 5. I went to the cemetery on Sunday and spent about 2 hours cleaning and cutting fresh flowers for his grave. The installed the picture of him last week and it came out really good. Now, when I go I can see him and talk to him, but I think it made me cry more...I don't know.
Sandy, I am so glad your son bought you a new computer and I am so thankful for the emails. I have been praying alot lately and I like Selva have my doubts about God listening. I want SO badly to get a sign from Aaron that sometimes I think I am trying to hard. I have not seen him in dreams or anything. Please God give me some sort of sign that Aaron is okay and happy with the other angels. I pray for you to remove from me my shortomming so I may better do your will. Please God, thy will not mine be done. Amen
I love all of you Angel Moms and I think the idea of letting someone know in case we can't post is a great idea. I will talk to Randy tonight about letting him know all of you and your names, etc.
Love
Lisa

Hi my sister Donna, thanks millions for your prayers I hope God will listen to you, you are a very special Angel, I'm not a bid deal, it is just life that made me be strong (not now), later I will share a story of why I did go to the police station, not because I'm special, it is just because like a toughed my daughter we should help people in the time of trouble, for parties we don't need help, everybody will be there, but for sorrows, not everybody will be there, and she did that, that is why all her friends leave messages in her memorial, and the ones that don't go to the cemetary and leave flowers, that is so beautiful to know that all her friends always remember her and miss her so much. Thanks again my dear sister and thank you for your much needed e mails. Love you Selva

Hi my sister Lisa, of course we think the same way, we are travelling the same road, we are new at this, and this road it's very painful, but remember we have to keep on going, until God decides what to do with us, you have another son to look after and should should be thankful, I have no one, but I will try to keep on going until God decides what to do with me. I have not vidited the cemetary, I don't think I ever will, I rather think that my daughter is just beside me even though I can not see her, the only thing I pray and pray and pray is for God to allow me to see her just once, just to be SURE that she is happy, but I will keep on praying and maybe He will understand how much I need that to go on. Love you my sister, and please keep on posting, we are all here to help one another, and these wonderful Angel moms are a terrific help, they understand and I am sure they will not get tired of listening our pains and sorrows, they are Angels too. Love you my sister. Selva

Dearest Lisa, I'm glad about the birthday cake and that you talk to Aaron,we understand and I bet he was laughing with you. I'm sure going to the cemetery must be hard and painful but I hope healing through tears. Mikey is buried in the Mountains where I can not go but it was different for me in that he had been captive in his body for so long we agreed to a freedom he never knew, I talk to him everyday and I talk to him about you Selva Eva for where you are now and that it is a trial by fire, I'm glad you have Selva as painful as it is you have understanding and unspoken words, keep talking, crying when you need to,you are suffering and like Selva the trials don't help but We Love You and we keep you near in our Hearts and Prayers, its to late you are truly stuck in a family of Love, I'm sorry you had to go to court that took guts because your still fighting, pressing on, the only fool is the one who doesn't cry you are fighting for your son tears are the petals of Love so be gentle on yourself I wish we could all go with you in June and we could hold you and surround you with Love. My son Justin is older now than Mikey but he is as all children different and unique and I cry for him to have Lost his brother and feel alone and yet he is out going charming and always willing to help any one who needs help someday he may open his heart or be able to talk and say his brothers name that is my Hope but I can wait I'm not going anywhere, I leave it in God's hands and never miss the opportunity to tell him I Love him and once in awhile he does half Hugs, sometimes I see that little boy and just like you he is stuck with this Loving Family. I pray God will in his time give you time with Aaron like Selva card says a piece of each others heart help heal the hole in time. God Bless You Lisa and give you His Stength and His Peace. Love&BearHugs Donna

Hi all my Angel sisters , I'm doing a little better today, had to go to work but it wasn't easy in the morning, but after 2pm I felt better, so I hope by tommorrow I will be OK, my stomach is not feeling good yet.Our sister Verna shared a story today that I cried and smile at the same time, I think it is a good idea to share stories, mine its not a very happy one, but I'm sure the time will come when I will be able to share happy memories. Here it goes. What I said about going to the police station about my niece . I have a very very good friend (in the cuban way)she is my sister, we worked at the same place, in 1984 her oldest daughter then 20 (well 19 and 11 months) went to the Miami Grand Prix to hand out samples of a "cuban" pill equivalent to aspirin, she was a model, beautiful girl, and the modeling agcy send a few of the girls to this promotion, this event was feb 26, 1984, Solange was 2 years old, her name was Rosario , she was a very good girl and was planning her wedding for june 6 of the same year, she used to call home if she was going to be late all the time, well this time she did not called, the Grand Prix was over at 11pm, at 1.30am Haydee (her mother called me to find out if I have heard from Chary (her nickname) she was desperate, she told me, that Chary was not home (no cells at that time) and that she did not called home. Then the ordeal started, I went to her house that morning, I left Solange with her grandparents, and what we went through I do not have enough space to tell you. There was a man at the Grand Prix his name was Christopher Wilder, he is the one that supposed to have abducted her, he became the number one wanted by the FBI, after that he scaped from Fla and killed 13 other girls all over the US, he was caught in New Hamphshire trying to cross the border to Canada, the police in that little town recognized hin and he pulled a gun so the police shot him, so he took the secret to his grave, all the other 13 girl's corpses were found but my niece and another girl from Miami, his first 2 victims, were never found, I with the help of our co workers and people from Miami who found out about the story, searched all over the county, to spare my sister Haydee from going through the terrible experience, had to go to the FBI, to the Morgue, to the police to anywhere they were supposed to be, so her parents did not have to go through the ordeal. but no luck, we never (FBI, Police etc) found any remains, little did I know that I was going to go through the same pain that I was trying to avoid for them, that it is why I used to take Solange to Calle Ocho festival with handcuffs, I went nuts and ever since then I became over protective with my daughter, can you imagine now?. Well after all these years we are still like family, they were with me all the time since I went to the hospital until now, so now these remains were found , supposed to be very old, so one more time I wanted to spared them for the pain, her husband is very ill, he does not know about all this. I did it not because I am a special person, I just wanted to speare the pain, mow more than ever that I understand the pain they have been through, specially that they do not know what happened to her daughter , and they don't have a place like the cemetary, or they do not know for "sure" if she is really dead. The FBI could not come out with an answer. and that is just a little bit of the story, they went through HELL and back, we found out that there are very mean and bad people around that made them suffered more than they could stand. That is the partial sotry about this, they even made a movie about it, because he let go of his last victim. That is life. bad isn't it? Love you all. Selva

Hello dear Lisa, I'm so happy to see you posting again, but you probably needed some time off to just be by yourself. I'm glad you're back though and bringing us up to speed with what's been happening with you. Oh, wow, you must have had a lot of e-mail and cards, etc. to go through, :) And that shows you're thought of and cared about!
Yes, you and Selva can strongly relate to each other about your emotions and feelings right now, for each of you it hasn't been very long, and it's so hard!
If you can't go into Aaron's room yet because it's too painful, that's OK, give yourself all the time in the world.
Shane's room is pretty much the way he left it, 4 yrs. ago, and at one time it was too painful to go in, sometimes I couldn't even look at his picture, it hurt so much, but now his things bring back good memories, and sad ones too, but that's OK too! Eventually, when we're ready, we'll put those things away, but for now they're not hurting anything so we leave it as it is. Oh gosh, good for you talking to Aaron about the cake, :) I talk to Shane all the time too, and we laugh about it also, I know Aaron was there with all of you, laughing too! Good for you going to the psychiatrist and I pray that the med. helps and makes it a little easier for you. And that's so wonderful of your boss to give you the time off, you need it, do something nice for yourself and pamper yourself!
Oooohh, it must have been rough to have to go to court over your ex, as Donna says, if we could all be there for you to support you we would! That's wonderful that you're doing a lot of praying lately, prayer is so powerful and God always listens to it, and answers it in His perfect time. Don't despair, you will get a sign from Aaron, letting his much loved Mom know that he's happy and at peace. Yes, I'm very happy that my Chris bought me this computer, he's a wonderful son, and misses his brother too. Keep praying Lisa, let your tears out, and know that we're here for you all the time Angel Mom! Yes, it is a wonderful idea to have a contact person, so I hope your Rick can remember all our names, :)
Lots of love and prayers to you sweetie,
Love Sandy

Oh dear Selva, what a tragic story, but thanks for sharing it with us, your friend/sister Haydee must have been devastated not knowing what happened to her Rosario, as well as her husband, thank goodness she has you as her sister! And doing all that you did for the family to spare them is so loving of you, but that's you, with your big heart. No, little did you know that one day you'd be going through what your dear sister has, I pray that these remains are Chary's, and the family is finally given the chance to bury their beautiful daughter. Only 20, her life ahead of her, getting married, and then this man comes along and takes her life as well as all those others, what heartache. He can't hurt anyone else now. They made a movie out of it? Maybe I've seen it and didn't know of course that it was your niece. What is the name of the Movie??
Yes, I can imagine there is more to tell about the story, and when you're ready or want to, please share it with us. Love you lots my dear sister, I know you're deep in the valley tonight, and I'm thinking of you and praying, you are so dear to us all, and we're always here for you. Rest up, let your tears, anger out, we understand, and we still walk beside you on your Journey.
Much love to you my sister,
Sandy

Hello dear Donna, I just wanted to say what beautiful posts and advice for our fellow Angel Moms, your love for them shines like a big star on these pages!
Lots of love & Bear Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear Deb, haven't heard from you this week, I pray everything is OK, and I also pray that your Dad is doing great and back at home!
Love you my friend,
Sandy

Dearest Sandy, I wonder how your doing? and what you've been up too. What would any of us do without your love as bright as a comet but as constant as the moon. Thanks for your kind words and the Love you give is written across our hearts. Love&Joy&BearHugssssssssssss Donna

Dearest Selva, I know you don't think your special but we do you are always there for us, I've thought of your friend and as horrible as it is to lose our precious children I know there is a God when a child is missing and the family waits in Hope and anquish for so many years. You are an Angel unawares and I'll tell you everyday Jesus said there is no greater Love than to lay ones life down for another. You are forever laying your Heart down for another, you minister God's Love Dear Sister and Lay roses at Our Lords feet with tears and yes I'm going to say it Courage. I pray your heart will find peace and the same for your friends. I've shared this story with many of my friends, why you wonder because only God could help them carry such a pain. Rest my Sister, I pray you will find joy in the sunset the song of a bird a smile of a child and know we Love You. Donna

Dearest Verna, I hope its a good weekend. I can tell you scrub a dub and the squirrel are finding a harmonious relationship, I found a baby nest today and heard the parents cry when they came to feed it wrenched my heart people don't think critters have feeling but I've seen to much to ever believe that they swooped in to feed and let out a cry that we would all recognize because it is the same peircing cry that our hearts made, I pray they will begin again somewhere safer, the roadrunner has stayed away so the sparrows and finches are back to singing, I watched the squirrel take a dust bath I've only seen the birds do that he/she was having a ball, our tempatures are up so I did alot of watering I think more the critters than the grass and they splished and splashed there so tiny but boy can they flutter and sputter. I hope your doing better, everyletter I've written had come back because one I forgot subject 2 the second line was wrong so I'll write it here Thanks for sharing I feel Blessed to be your friend and that you count me as one of yours, I love your talent like Sandys with the computer and I've kept everyones Angels but you were my first than Selva's than Sandys so I have a few folders and they are all Beautiful and heartwarming, I finally wrote you in color I tried to forward with the right info guess what? Returned Well I hope you do something fun thats my wish for everybody we need to have that in our lives easier said than done I'm hoping we go to the Mountains. I forgot to tell you, I have a Dear neighbor who has never been to keen on the critters but his new wife has taught him well he rescued a robin trapped in string hanging upside down and the other robins were trying to help it butit was to trapped, my neigbor got a ladder and with the help of his grandson saved the little fellow well you know me I didn't let him off easy I told him he was forever doomed now with the official title of "Animal rescuer" when I moved here he would trap the critters and have animal control come and relocate but he would get so angry but you see he is a wonderful gardener it is his passion but yup he's doomed forever now. I do hope you get a voice writer, you have so much work ahead of you and even if its not perfect it might help enough so your hands wouldn't become weak. Have a swell weekend or at least restful. Love&BearHugssssssssssss Donna

Hello dear Donna, what am I up to? Oh, about 5 foot one, :) Other than my neighbour/friend and I going out for a walk, it's such a nice day, that's about it - hubby's working today! Thought I'd check in at the Circle, but everyone seems to have disappeared! Of course it's the weekend, and people have things to do, but I still like hearing from all you Angel Moms! I am doing fine, had a valley day on Wednesday, now that the weather is so nice and summer's almost here it reminds me of how much Shane enjoyed it, the fun that he and his krazee Mom had together, and I miss that so much.
Read your post to Verna, love reading about your 'critter' adventure, ha, ha, and yes, I agree, they do have feelings, just look into a dog's eyes and see the unconditional love that they give you! Did you ever find a cat for yourselves? Have a wonderful weekend, and lots of love and Hugssssss back to you my friend,
Love Sandy

Our dear Verna, no, I'm not going to start crying again, :) and I know I've written to you about this, BUT I wanted to say how touched I was, as I'm sure all the other Angel Moms were, with your beautiful pages you made for us this week! They are very special to me and I'll treasure them forever! Thank you our dear Miss V! We know you have to rest your hand and arm right now, so please take care of yourself, and come back when you're ready!! Love you my sister,
Joy to you!
Love Sandy

HI ANGEL MOMS,
SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN POSTING BUT I HAVE HAD A LOT ON MY MIND THESE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS SINCE I'VE GOTTEN BACK. MY SON CHRIS'S BIRTHDAY IS MONDAY. HE WILL BE TWENTY AND I TALKED TO MY MOM LAST NIGHT AND MADE HER TAKE MY DAD TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM. HE HAS BEEN DOING THE SAME THINGS ALL OVER AGAIN. THEY ADMITTED HIM AND HE IS VERY UPSET WITH MY MOM FOR LYING TO HIM. BUT IT WAS FOR HIS OWN GOOD. THE FLUID IS AROUND HIS HEART AGAIN AND THEY DON'T KNOW WHY AND HIS DR. IS ON VACATION. HE WAS SLEEPING ALL DAY AND WETTING HIMSELF AND FEEL A COUPLE OF TIMES AND HIS ARMS WHERE JUMPING AND HIS SPEECH WAS SLURRED AGAIN. MY MOM TOLD ME THAT HE CRIED TO HER THE OTHER DAY AND ASKED WHAT WAS WRONG WITH HIM. SHE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. HE WASN'T EATING a lot AND HE DECIDED ON HIS OWN TO KEEP THE OXYGEN ON 24/7 AND HE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT/WHEN THE DAY OR TIME WAS AND HE DIDN'T KNOW IF IT WAS MORNING OR NIGHT. I TALKED TO A NURSE FROM 1 - 8OO - 622 - 6877 THAT THE HOSPITAL GAVE ME FROM WHERE MY PARENTS ARE. IT'S AGAINST THE LAW FOR EMERGENCY PERSONNEL TO GIVE OUT ANY INFORMATION THEY HAVE TO TALK TO A NURSE. SHE THOUGHT THAT MAYBE THE OXYGEN WASN'T RIGHT AND THAT HE WAS DOING MORE HARM TO HIMSELF AND THAT MY MOM NEEDED TO CALL 911. SHE DIDN'T INSTEAD SHE WAITED FOR MY AUNT AND THEN TOLD MY DAD THE DR. WANTED TO SEE HIM AND DROVE HIM TO THE HOSPITAL AND THAT IS WHY HE IS UPSET WITH HER RIGHT NOW. SHE GOT HOME AROUND MIDNIGHT AND I WOKE HER UP THIS MORNING TO SEE HOW THINGS WHERE GOING BUT SHE HADN'T TALKED TO HIM YET. I WILL LET YOU KNOW HOW THINGS ARE GOING AS SOON AS I KNOW. PLEASE STORM HEAVEN FOR ME AND MY FAMILY. LOVE AND THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS TO ALL MY ANGELS AND MOMS.

DEAR FATHER,

I PRAY THAT ALL MY ANGEL MOMS ARE DOING FINE AND THAT THEY ARE HELTHY AND NOT IN VALLEY DAYS AND I PRAY THAT THE SUN SHINES BRIGHTLY ON TEM ALL. I ASK THIS IN YOUR NAME OUR FATHER, AMEN.

GOD BLESS AND LOVE TO ALL!! DEBBY

Hi all my dear Angel Moms, I just sat at the computer, had a busy day (thanks to my borther and sister), they knew I has having a rough time, so my bother passed by last night and he brought us stuffed salmon (he likes to cook gourmet dinners)and he knows I love salmon, (I think is was planned) so he said that I have to cook cuban food for him today, so I said OK, then they came up with the idea of bringing our 2 aunts,( 84 and 87)the oldest one lives on a Assisted Facility (modern nursing home) the other one lives with her grandson and his wife and kid, but his wife does not talk to her ?????, my sister goes every saturday and takes her for lunch, and I used to go and pick up the other one, but now my brother does it for me once in a while, they both lost their only daughter, one 40 years ago, the other about 10 years ago, a family tragedy isn't it. But the older one is very funny, full of hope and faith, and it is very pretty (both of them are)Juny (coincidence?) decided to pass by too, they had a wonderful time, Juni tought my oldest aunt was 68 or 69 years old (that how good she looks for 87), well I cooked the cuban food, I did not have a very good time because I thoughed about Solange all the time, I used to cook like that before and we used to have family dinners at least once every two weeks, but it is not the same anymore. Anyway they kept me busy all day and they just left, I'm still kind of sick from my stomach, but I'm happy they came, they were so happy to be here and the poor things don't get a chance to enjoy themselves often.Juny has a cold so she also left because it is going to rain again, this is rainy season in miami, it is also very hot, we do not have spring or fall just mild winter and hot summers, (I miss fall and snow). Thank you all my sisters for your beautiful e mails, I really enjoy reading all of them, I'm forever grateful that you think of me and also pray for me. I don't know how to thank you enough. I still did not hear anything from the medical examiner's office, she told me it could take some time, I will let you know the results, I know my poor sister Haydee its going through agony, she has not said anything to her husband and I'm so sorry I had to call her for the info, but I needed it.They were the ones who tough me to have Faith, her husband is a deacon for the catholic church, and while all that was happening, I was the one getting angry at God, and they kept telling me to have Faith, could you believe it?.I don't remember the name of the movie, because , as in all movies they did not have the real story and I was suo upset I did not watched it, you have no idea what we went through, just because she was a model, people though she was "easy", they made up stories and after a while they realized that it was not that way so the media started to help us, she was a very good girl.Well my angel moms I will not keep you busy. it is the weekend and you deserve a rest, Donna, my sister's patio, where I have Solange's garden, it is also full of little critters, I sit there everyday when i come from work, and look at the birds, and butterflies etc, I enjoy the outdoors, our 3 dogs always go out with me, one of the alwasy sits with me at the swinger (if that how you call it) well its a very big chair or couch that swings and has a roof over it, and it is under a huge avocado tree, I look at the ground and see all this little critters, going about their way, my sister told me the other day, you know? this backyard its so alive, and I agree. Mother nature its so wise and perfect. Love you my dear sisters, and thanks again for your prayers and e mail. Debby I will be storming Heaven for your dad, I went through the samething with mine, don't worry about it, he will be OK, he should stay at the Hospital until they find out what is exactly wrong. I love you all and I thank God everyday to give me the opportunity to have you as friends. Verna you take care of those hands and arms hear me?. Love you Selva

OH, DEAR DEB, thanks for posting about your Dad, I've been worried about you because you usually post 1-2 times a week, but I didn't see you here. Now I know why, things on your mind, and Christopher's birthday on Monday (Happy Birthday Christopher) and now your Dad again! All of you must be so worried about him, but your Mom did the right thing bringing him into the hospital, and if he's upset about being tricked, he'll realize that it was for his own good. It must be so stressful for you, living so far away, but he's in the best place possible right now, and you and your Mom can call each other and see how he's doing. Please let us know as soon as you hear something! My dear Deb, we WILL be storming Heaven with prayers for your Dad, you, and your family, you know we love you and are here for you, if there's anything at all we can do, besides praying, please let us know. My prayers, thoughts and love are with you sweetie,
Love Sandy

Hello dear Selva, you're so blessed to have such a loving sister and brother, they knew you were having a rough time, and they did their best to rally around you and help you! Yum, stuffed salmon, gourmet cooking, and then cuban food, you're making me hungry, ha, ha! That was so nice to have your 2 Aunts over, I bet they really enjoy coming over to see you, your sister and brother. And Juny stopping by, what a nice compliment to your Aunt, saying she looks so young, and I bet she does! Oh, I'm so happy that you enjoy all the e-mails, and prayers too!, that's what we're all here for, to help and support each other! Now we'll rally around Deb and storm Heaven with prayers for her Dad.
It must be very hard for Hardee too, thank God she has such a good sister like you to help her out. Oh, they made their own version of the movie, yes, it would make those who knew her angry, and I don't blame all of you.
Wel, I'm very happy that you had a better day than yesterday, I know it's still painful, but we're all here for you and love you too. Have a good weekend, my dear sister, lots of love to you,
Love Sandy

Dearest Debby, You bet we will Storm Heaven, I'm so sorry that right now there aren't any answers and hopefully this week you will get some,maybe Monday seeing how its Chris's Birthday, you are carrying so much right now and I know its hard, but try to take care of yourself too. I hope that in spite of your concerns Chris will have a Wonderful day with you and do your heart and spirit good, its so hard to feel helpless but we are here and we will be praying for you and your whole family, I'm glad your Mom has you and visa versa, try and rest when you can I know thats pretty tough but please try even if its a bubble bath. Heavenly Father, You've told us when we are heavy with burden to come to you and you will refresh us, could you do that for all the Angel Moms who are carrying Heavy Burdens help them to climb on your lap and rest in your Loving Arms so there trials will rest with you and they will feel the embrace of your Love that only you can give and protect them from pain and help us who Love them help carry the burdens of the Heart but most of all Grant them Your Peace and Understanding that only you can impart. Jesus you said where two or more are gathered well you have all of us and we ask in your Precious Name. Amen. Love to all and Hope beyond measure. Love&Big Big Gentle BearHugssss Donna

Dearest Angel Moms, Sandy you are to twisted five foot one Ha Ha and the heart of a Giant, I'm sorry Wed was a Valley Day I just wrote Mikey about those precious Kool- Aid days yesterday, I'm glad you wrote and told us and I'm glad its the week-end and I Loved your e-mail on seize the day for me that is the time I spend with the critters everything stops I even ignore the phone, my getting out there is just that because the most important part is sitting and being still to watch to listen to feed them and have them settle back down, for me its seems the phone never stops and now that I'm getting better cleaning is a joy shampooing the carpets vacuming cleaning out stuff and it is amazing what you can do on one's behind I planted two small gardens that way and my hubby laughed and I told him I wish he could come play in the dirt with me, even if it hurts its so good to accomplish more, I spent yesterday with my sister, it was good just to be together and catch up and she always ask "How are the Angel Moms doing with all that she has on her plate she never fails to think of you. Its great to drive again I've missed that so much I get the car on weekends because Mike needs it at his job and he doesn't come home till six he prearranges the Dr and treatment days so I can drive but that isn't the fun easy driving, we have tomatoes growing already and its only been in since Fri before last I was trying to get everything done before treatment this time but it went well. I never know who I will get each time its a different resident and I was so Thankful God heard my prayer and sent a particular one the first night is bad than each day it gets better I even pushed the lawn mower with my chest and arms while I stood on one foot most of the time that was a sieze the moment because Mike didn't have time and Justin works goes to school and I did this stuff for years when I'm outdoors life is so much better, we decided to hold off on our own critters we spend alot on the critters food and someday Mike and I both will be in sinc, we have the Angel garden the front area too than the deck than the washer the list goes on and if Mike gets the job he wants this coming year it would be best to wait, seem like we have all had seize the moments so again Thank you Sandy for that e-mail and for Selva Verna as well you make my day and I never know what to expect its like a present in the mail everyday and they have helped me, it always seems to fit for that day its amazing. Last nite Mike and I saw two movies on TV and refused to answer the phone and relaxed had some wine and just enjoyed the evening, its nice not to answer the phone sometimes I always check to see if its Justin or my Sister so I know there ok but usually its Mike job or friends and sometimes the evening is gone, so I'm sorry I wasn't here but I was sure happy to have time with Mike alone, I think we will do this more often, so I hope today will be lighter for all of you and like I asked Jesus, climb upon his lap and let him embrace you with his Love and I hope where ever you are a critter will brighten your day like the song at the break of day or evensong, I'm glad Selva that you enjoy it too I could picture you swinging in the swing resting with the critters. Verna I'm trying to learn and will spend more time today and Thank you for sending the instructions on copy and paste I wasn't successful yesterday but I was messing up one part. I hope you are feeling better and having fun something You like and found a seize the moment kinda of time. Don't write just enjoy. I Love all and wish and pray for goodness to follow you all day. I hope thats the Best for each and everyone of you. Love&BearHugs Donna

Hello my dear Donna, yes, I am twisted and krazee sometimes, and it's fun! I have a wacky sense of humour, :). And yes, I had a valley day on Wednesday, but those of us further along the Journey know that we'll always have them, but thankfully they pass, and we remember the good memories fondly and not sadly. Glad you liked the fwd., and you did seize the day and spent it with your critters! I miss that living in an apt., we're only on the 3rd floor, but the only birds that land on our balcony are the sparrows, we used to have a big, beautiful willow tree right in front of our apt., and it attracted lots of birds, but the city cut it all down, right down to the roots, and I was on the balcony yelling at them to stop, :) but they said it's roots were clogging up the sewer system, so we lost the beautiful tree, (:
Oh gosh, it's SO good to hear you're feeling well enough to be vacuuming, planting, carpet cleaning! even if it is hard on the butt, that's amazing that you're doing all of that! Oh yes, I bet it does feel good to drive again, and have the car to yourself for the weekends! You pushed the lawn mower with your chest and hands on one foot? There's no keeping you down, is there, but I am so happy that the pain goes away long enough so you can do the things you want to, you're such an inspiration! Tell your sister hello for us, and that's so sweet of her to ask about us, God love her! Ah, how romantic, :) you and Mike watching 2 movies together with a glass of wine, seriously, good for the two of you, take the phone off the hook, or turn the ringer off, and spend that time with your hubby! Actually we do the same thing ourselves sometimes, turn the ringer off, and watch a movie, or tv, but if it's family calling we answer it of course. A beautiful prayer for all dear one, and you have a seize the day moment today too, and Oh, that's nice of Verna to teach you cutting and pasting, keep practising and before you know it you'll be a pro! Have a wonderful day with your family, and have some fun too! Do something twisted and blame it on me, :) !! Lots of love and Bear Hugsss to you,
Love Sandy

Hi dear Deb, we've been storming Heaven, so when you get a chance, let us know how your Dad's doing and you too! Much love to you my friend,
Love Sandy

Hi dear Lisa! I finally found your Aaron's website yesterday, wow, it's so nice, I signed the guestbook, what a handsome young man, and I love his smile! And I saw that Deb has signed it too! Beautiful page, Lisa, you should be proud of it! Lots of love and prayers to you,
Love Sandy