Prayer Circles

HI my dear Angel Moms, well one more day and it will be over (the stress not the work) but it's a very sad day, I have been in the Valley and I guess that being that I'm so tired it makes it worse, I'm still holding on to Jesus because I need His help and strenght, but I know that He will help me and so do you all Angel Moms, tomorrow it will be 8 months since Solange was called to Heaven and I still can not believe it, or should I say I refuse to believe it, sometimes I think she is visiting her father, other times that she is in Disney World, etc, that how I amd trying to hold on to, but deep inside I know. Stacilee, I'm sorry I have not been able to write to you, but I will the day after tomorrow, but I do know about you from reading the posts and believe me this is the best place to come, you will find all the understanding and love in the world, I don't know where I will be without these Angel Moms, so pleas keep on coming back here and tell the parents to post, I read that the father's name is Juan, its sounds very spanish, so if they will like to post in spanish, I will be here for them and translate to our Circle of Love.Verna I'm keeping an eye on you, so you better behave and follow Dr's orders, but just make a little time to let us know about Chain Reaction. Sandy my sister, thanks for always been there. Now I will try to connect the new MSN Svc, we just received the CD, if I get lost from nadpa@msn.com
(just in case) you can always reach me at Selvam@wometcoent.com, I went to my office today, and WOW, I don't think I have the time to do everything that was supposed to be done last week, but I will try. Love you Angel Moms and may God Bless all of You. Selva

Hi my sisters. It's me again, I just connected the cd through technical support and it seems like it is working fine, so the e mail address remains the same. Right now I'm going to bed, very tired, I will pray for all of us Love you Selva

dear love2u,
hi and i'm so happy things are a little better for you. i really need to catch up on some back post so give me some time and i need to do it before i leave thursday morning.
i didn't know i'm on the grief with my boys. i know i posted but i'm having ahard time to find out how to get back there (HELP) when i was home sunday with my hubby i was on line checking so many thngs AND i didn't write any thing down so i have no idea were i went. noT a good thing.
thanks for all the nice things you have said about my boys. the picture was taken on or poarch before michael's daughter was born, he was taken his girlfriend to her senior prom and she was pregnet at the time. the limo was waiting in the back ground and chris was going to his 8th grade graduation. they are so handsome. i have t say sandy they got there looks from me :-) i will try to post using my laptop while away but it will be hard for my family has plans while we are there. loe and prayers to you.
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BORN:
MICHAEL ANTHONY WASILEWSKI 8/12/81
SPECIAL DAY HE BECAME AN ANGEL: 8/14/00
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Dearest Sandy & Selva, Our hearts and prayers are with you today. God Bless You Both and keep you in his arms. Love&BearHugs Donna

Dear Sandy,
3 years today Shaner went to heaven. My heart goes out to you and your family. Please know I am praying for you. I bet all of our angels are celebrating together this special day! God Bless you.
Lisa

Selva,
My heart and prayers are with you too! 8 months today. Just remember our Angels are together waiting for us.
Love, Lisa

Hi Sandy, Verna, Lisa, Donna, Eva, Debby and all you Angel Moms, well income tax its over Thanks God, we just returned from the post off sending Extensions, now we have until Aug 15 to finish it all, no more stress, I had a very bad day today, I want to thank you for all your e mails and prayers and posting in Solange's memorial. I cried all day, I think it is getting worse as time goes by, 8 months since I have not seen my daughter, I still don't believe it, I'm sure that she will be back. Sandy my sister I know it is 4 years and 1 month for you, I'm sure that your pain is still heavy, maybe not like mine but it is something that we have to live with it for the rest of our lives, I've been praying for all of Us, in my own way, you know I still get angry with Jesus, then I tell Him to forgive me, it is such a mess of emotions. I will be going to bed now, I don't know if I will be able to sleep but I'm very tired, physically and emontionally, I will post again tomorrow, but I just wanted to say THANK YOU to all of you Angel moms, I don't know what will I do without you all. You are part of my short family now, and I will be here for all of you always. I really love you all, I swear , I really mean it. I will post again tomorrow. Love you all and may GOD BLESS YOU ALL. Thanks Selva

Dear Angel Moms, I got a message from Sandy, her computer has become toast and was able to send from a friends but she is very upset, she doesn't know when she will be able to get a new one and is very distessed not to be able to write or e-mail. I'm asking for all of us to pray that God will find a way for her to buy a new computer and help her through her hour of need, this is very hard on her and will be till she can come back to us. I know this will be hard on Sandy and for us and pray our prayers will be answered soon. Love&BearHugs Donna

DEAR ANGEL MOMS,
I'M LEAVING IN ABOUT 20 MIN. TO GO DOWN SOUTH AND I JUST WANTED TO POST T YOU ALL AND IPRAY THAT YOU ALL STAY HEALTHY, SAFE, AND OUR PRAYED UPON WHILE I'M AWAY AND THAT SANDY WILL ET HER COMPUTOR FIXED SO SHE MAY POST TO US ALL. WE ALL KNOW HOW IMPORTANT HER POSTS CAN BE TO BRING US OUT OF THOSE AWFUL VALLEY DAYS. GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND I'LL TRY TO POST WITH MY LAPTOP AND LET YOU ALLL KNOW HOW I'M DOING.
LOVE DEBBY

Hello dear Angel Moms, I have time for a quick post from my neighbour's computer! Thank you dear Donna for your post asking for prayers for my situation, that's so sweet and loving for you to do, and I truly appreciate it!
Thank you Lisa for your posting, and your note to me re my computer. Dear Selva, I'm so sorry I wasn't able to post to you on the 15th, but you know that I thought of you and Solange and prayed for you. Thank you also for your letter re comp. problems. And Deb, have a good trip, and thank you too for your prayers! I miss you all and I'm still praying for you all, you're always in my love and prayers.
I hope to be back online soon, and with all your prayers, love and support I know that God in His love for all is listening.
I know Easter is this weekend, I wish you all a very Joyous Easter, and I also know how these Holidays can be so hard too.
Love you all Angel Moms, and thank YOU all for your love and prayers, I am SO blessed!
Much love and prayers to you all,
Sandy

Hello my sister angelmoms....not much to post..only that I've been praying for you all..especially during yall's "anniversaries" ...I know how painful it must be...I pray that God will continue to hold us close..and brings some comfort.. I went to my Captain at work and asked him if it would be possible if he would give me atleast a week off from work..He let me..I took the must time needed and was able to catch up on some work here at home....spent some much needed time with Ron...I was able to attend a get together with some friends I met at a Survival Inc...Organization I was introduced to ..I met a beautiful person named Carolyn,who's daughter was murdered years ago...this organiztion is for people whos loved one has been murdered...I told her that though my son was not murdered...I felt like I did'nt belong there...Ms Carolyn went on to tell me that though Matt was not murdered,,,he was still gone...A lost child is a lost child...They took me in...there have been times when i would call them in the middle of the night crying..and they would listen and just let me cry...they know the same pain as we do...I could never explain just how thankful I am for you guys and for my friends at Survial's Inc.I feel so blessed...anyway...most of these new friends I met are excited yet surprised to know that I work at the exact prison that the person who killed there loved one...they always want an update on the murderer...It makes them feel a little better knowing that these covicts are not "comfortable" there in the prison...hot in the summer and cold in the winter...There always telling me..."so...they don't have airconditioner? I'm like...no...as a matter of fact....one time while working...one of the convicts was like...Officer Parr...will you open your door so we can feel some of your cool air in there?" I'm like nOOOOOO where do you think you are? At a Holiday Inn?.so anyway...enough of that...just wanted to let yall know I have been thinkin of yall and praying for my dear sister friends..I love you all....In His Care I Press On....Eva

Hi all my sisters Angel Moms. I'm going through crisis, I was supposed to go to my phsyco today but her grandmother is in the hospital so she needed time to be with her, so I posponed my appt until tomorrow God's willing. I have a plan and I want everybody to e mail me with your answers nadpa@msn.com
or selvam@wometcoent.com
I need Sandy very much as much as I need Verna, Donna, Lisa, Eva and all you wonderful Angel Moms. Sandy its having a difficult time with her computer, so this is my plan, if you all agree. I pledege $100.00 and lets try to get Sandy a new computer, my sister bought a brand new one 2 weeks ago for 670.oo maybe if she can still use her screen it will be much cheaper, are you willing to help out? I don't mean to put you through a tough question but I we all chip in we can have Sandy on line, I swear she does not know about this. It is my crazy idea. but maybe with all of us we can help her to get a new computer. I really need Sandy, after all we are all here because of her, so what do you say. A little here and a little there we can help her to get on line, the only thing is I don't know her address so If anyone of you know it please let me know. I love you my sisters, and I really need all of you. I can not stand the though that I have not seen Solange for 8 months, I can not accept it and I 'm going nuts. Please pray for me. Thank you all. Love you Selva

Hi Eva, I guess we sere posting at the same time, I'm glad to hear from you, I'm always thinking and praying for you, I'm so glad you found this org. but please don't forget ours. I can never forget the type of work you have, the enviorement its all about violence, that it is why I always pray for you when I get to work, believe it or not, I'm glad you are holding on, You are in my prayers my sister Eva. Love Selva

Hello Angel Moms, ~ It's been a while. :) But I promised to follow doctor's orders, and that I have been doing. Thank you so much for praying for me. It will be at least a week or more before my doctor gets the results of both tests. So, I still need your prayers! Please don't worry about me, for I accepted God's will for my life a long time ago; no matter what it turns out to be. :) Of course, I am hoping that He will allow me to hang around here for a while longer! :) I don't remember if I told you all, but after getting over the pneumonia, another x-ray revealed that the large valve in my heart is swollen and appears to be a little twisted. I am not surprised with all of the coughing I have been doing while recovering from the pneumonia. I pray that the meds are working, and that the other test results turn out OK. Again, thanks so much for your prayers!
Selva, you know you can count me in on helping to purchase a new computer for our Sandy. You are such an angel and have a very giving heart. Knowing how modest Sandy is, she may protest, but let's do it anyway! Ha-ha! Sandy has given 100% to all of us here, and your request does not obligate anyone who, for whatever reason, may not be able to help at this time. :) Lord knows I understand what it's like to be on a fixed income, so I can identify with what that is like. Still, I mess up all the time shopping for stuff I really could to without! Ha-ha! So investing in a computer that will enable our Sandy to continue posting her wise and caring posts, I will be happy to help out. :) The angel moms who can't can still pray that God will bless us in our efforts. That way, we all will be a part of making it happen! There is power in prayer!
Sandy, ... Hush up! Not a peep out of you! Ha - ha! You know Selva is honest, and has a big heart! Please accept your blessing ... Allow us to be there for you for a change! You have carried us angel moms for a long time now! It's about time for you to allow God to do His work through us ... "Please allow us to return the love! :) God bless you, dear Sandy, and thank you sooo much for understanding that our feelings will be hurt if you don't accept this love gift that comes from all of us through our donations and our prayers!
Much love,
Verna

Selva, I will check with another angel mom whom I feel sure can get Sandys address for me and I will send it to you in an email ASAP. Also, if you will send me your mailing address, I will send my donation to you, and you can send it to Sandy once I get her address and send it to you.
Much love and prayers,
Verna

THANK YOU VERNA MY SISTER, Thanks for understand me, please try to get Dandy's address for me, I love you my sister, and all you Angel moms. Today is a very special day, so I will be praying (you know in my own way) but I'm sure Jesus is so tired of listening to me that He will answer my prayers,I pray that all of us find Peace, a little comfort on our pain, a little hope that we will be able to meet with our children again, and enough strengh to go on, and that He will help (me) us to keep our Faith strong enough that we will be able to smile thinking that our Angel kids are Happy in Heaven, in Peace and waiting for us, and specially that they are all together having the time of their life. I love you all. Selva

Hi all you Angel Moms. Things are quiet in the Circle of Love, I guess we need Sandy, I will hold up the fort until we can get her back to posting. I know its Easter weekend and all of you must be sharing it with your family, but please don't forget us. My humble prayers will be with all of you, this is my first Easter without Solange, so I will not celebrate anything, Just Jesus coming back to Us. I pray that all of you will have a Happy Easter and may God Bless you All. Love you my sisters. Selva

Hello my dear Selva, ~ Thank you again for sharing the beautiful photo of your beloved Solange. She is really a knockout! :) I know that she is having a wonderful and joyous time in heaven along with my Diane and all of the other angel moms precious and beloved children. Selva, I know how hard this is for you, God bless you. The first of everything is always so very hard on us angel moms. :( I remember the first time I went to the grocery store a few months after Diane passed. I couldn't make myself get out of the car. I just sat there for a few minutes, looking our at all the people going in and coming out of the store. All I could think of was, my child is dead, and they are still shopping just as though nothing has changed! Unrealistic? Crazy? Not at all, my dear Selva and other newly bereaved moms! This is just how it is in the beginning. Without even realizing what is happening sometimes, we begin to view everything in terms of before and after. That is to say, before we loss our beloved children and after we have lost them. Our minds are just unable to accept our loss all at once. As Sandy has reminded many moms over the years, It's God's way of allowing us to deal with our loss in a manner that we can handle with His divine help. God knows exactly how we fell, and He feels our pain ... No part of it is in vain!

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God truly cares and will not leave you comfortless my dear angel moms! I know this now. I did not know this when I was in the beginning stages of grieving the loss of my precious 36 year old daughter, Diane. I still miss her Soooo very much, the same as you miss your precious children; especially during any holiday, or special day. Tomorrow, we will have family dinner over at MaDear's and Auntie's house. But, as you know, MaDear is no longer with us. Neither is Diane. Nor will my father, grandmother, grandfather, or 3 brothers be there. Auntie, (Marie), is MaDear's (Frances), only sister who took care of MaDear in their home with our help and the help of hospice until the end. For those of us who are left behind, we will try to keep up the tradition of having family dinner after church over at MaDear's and Auntie's house. Will it be easy? No, of course not. But, with God's help, we end up laughing and sharing fond memories, looking through the scrapbooks and photo albums, repeating some of MaDear's wise teachings ... And, before we know it, we have gotten through the day and realize that somehow, we are a little stronger that we imagined we were just a few hours earlier! One of my most cherished friends, and classmates...wrote to me shortly after we celebrated our 40th high school class reunion anniversary. I will never forget what my classmate said to me, because it changed my way of thinking, and was the beginning of my desire to seek joy in life again.

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I will try to recall the exact words used: :)

"I know these holidays have not been easy for you ... Grief is something that we never get beyond. But, we can still find joy! We do this by taking the support of friends and family and magnifying it, until it permeates our being ... And we become joyful souls! Remember the old spiritual which says, "Even after all I've been through ... Still I find joy!"

These words were sent to me in an email by a classmate I had not seen for over 40 years! Somehow I knew that God had spoken through an old friend to say to me ... "It's time!" Shortly after that, I felt a peace that only God can give. :) I could hardly believe it. :) I felt God's peace for the first time, at years end, Dec. of 1999. There are no words to describe that feeling of total peace for the very first time since my daughter's death! My beloved daughter, Diane, was killed in a chain reaction crash, which involved 2 cars, 2 pickup trucks and drunk driving, Aug. 31, 1996. Diane was a front seat passenger in one of the cars. It was said that she was ejected from the car. Because it was the Labor Day weekend, I had to wait 3 days before I was allowed to see my child. :( No words can describe what that was like for me.

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Within a year after Diane was killed, I lost 4 other relatives. On Nov. 20, 1999, MaDear had her first massive stroke in my home. I was the one who found her. I thought she was just sleeping late. She was given 6 months to live. God blessed 4 of her remaining 5 children to spend time with her while she was still alert. My last brother made it home a week or so before she passed. My brother was on dialysis at the time. His oldest son, who I am told is one of the vice president's body guards, was given special time off to that he could drive his father (my brother) home to be with his Mom for the last time. She knew he was coming, ... So she held on. It was difficult for all 5 of us and all her grands to give her permission to go on home to be with the Lord. But ... With God's help, We found the strength to do it.

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I was the last of MaDear's 7 children, so I don't have to tell you what that was like for me! On May 22, 2000, just 2 days before my birthday, MaDear waited for me to got to the store ... So she could go home to be with God. Oh, it took some doing, but the hospice nurse and chaplain both insisted that MaDear did not want me present when she left, and that I should try to be strong and respect her wishes. Then, finally, on July 1, 2001, this same remaining brother, who had been on kidney dialysis for years, and had since learned that he had terminal cancer, ... committed suicide. Now there are 4 of us sisters left, and MaDear's 3 sons are pampering her in Heaven! :) And, so is her granddaughter, Diane! :)

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Easter will always bring back bitter/sweet memories for our family. Bitter because it was on Easter Sunday morning (1975) that we learned of my oldest brother's death (killed by a hit-an-run driver), and sweet because it is the day our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ rose from the dead. :)


So angel moms ... We must keep holding on to God our Father, who loves us dearly. And, don't forget ... He knows ... And, He cares! He will walk with you through this loss ... He will forgive you when you get angry! He will help you get pass the rough spots! He will carry you when you can go no farther! He will wipe away your tears of grief and pain! Over and over and over, He will do these things, because He cares! He will give you all the time it requires to learn just how much He loves you! And, when He knows you are ready ... He will send the messenger and you will experience the kind of peace that only God can give! No, you won't get beyond the grief, but you will never be able to go back to that feeling of hopelessness and get stuck there! Only in God's time, will you be able to experience the joy of knowing that ... In spite of the indescribable grief you may be feeling at this very moment ... Because of the price Jesus paid for all mankind ... You will embrace your beloved and precious child/children again, forevermore! Once you enter those heavenly gates, you will know in full that it was worth the price you paid ... Worth the heavy crosses you have endured and will continue to endure, in Jesus' name. Remember ... Jesus has paid the ultimate price. And, for us, that means ... The best is yet to come! :)

Happy Easter to all! :)
LOVE2U

HI ALL YOU ANGEL MOMS.

I JUST WANT TO DROP A LINE AND TELL YOU THAT I'M HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE WITH MY FAMILY. I ALSO WOULD LIKE TO WISH YOU ALL A HAPY EASTER AND HOPING YOUR ALL WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I WILL POST AGAIN SOON.
LOVE AND PRAYERS TO YOU ALL.

LUV DEBBY