Prayer Circles

Hi Sandy, Verna, Debby, Eva, Lisa and all you wonderful Angel moms. Still valley days and lots of work (thanks God)Lisa I understand so much what you are going through, you know since Solange was called to Heaven, the only place I've been to its Publix (a supermarket) and then when I go there I cry my way through, Solange used to call me on the cell to give me "her list" of things that she wanted me to buy for her, so everytime I go I wait for that phone call, so my dear its OK to feel that way, we are going through such a tremendous pain , much more that we can handle, that everything ITS OK, don't feel bad for feeling bad, do you understand?. Hi Debby, my friend do you know that my Dr. asked me last week how long was I out of work and I could not answer, I have no recollection of what happened during those days, "I think I was out of work for about 3 weeks" but I really don't know. Sandy my sister, what can I say, I'm in deep valley, I keep remember that night 3.20 am when the police came to my house and I was all alone, that keeps banging in my head and I can't sleep past 3:20, I wake up everynight at that time and then , you can imagine. I know I need to rest specially now that I;m working 7 days a week, but I can not sleep beyond that time. Verna my sister, I love you so much and AMEN for your prayers. I love and need you all you Angel Moms. Selva

Dearest Sandy,please forgive me for not posting on Shane's day. I just can't seem to get out of that dark place i get myself into. That is no excuse though and i know it.But please know i thought of you and your family and you all were in my prayers.I love you and all the Moms here.I come sometimes and read to be close to you all.Sweet Shane has been gone to Heaven for four years now and next month the 2nd,Carol will be gone four. It seems like yesterday when i talked to her and laughed with her.God how i miss her as i know everyone here misses their precious children.I see all the new Moms here and my heart goes out to each and everyone of them.I talk to Carol quite often at her memorial site.That gives me some peace.Take care,Sandy and continue to keep this wonderful prayer circle going. We all need it.It is a gift from God.Love you much,Barb
Lots of love and prayers to Debby,Verna,Tammy and all the Moms

Dearest Angel Moms, Selva I had a space of missing time after Mikeys death. I had always slept nearby but Easter Eve I slept in my own bed and the last sound I heard was Mikeys breathing I was awaken at 3am when my husband told me Mikey was gone I asked my Dr about the missing time and he said the mind forms a safe place because of the shock, I felt guilt for years that I wasn't there of all the nights to sleep it took me along time to forgive myself for not being there but I wake up a 3am every morning. I always wondered did this happen to other Moms Thank You for sharing what was and is a devastating memory, I think God was protecting you as best He could as he did me so now I pray when I'm awaken because maybe someone else has been awoken the same way. Take Care Love&BearHugs Donna

Angel Moms many of you don't know me but I'm asking for your prayers. The ocean waves of grief have hit hard this season. Seven years ago the first day of Lent Mikey began his journey to go home, Hospice came and the memories flood back but for my family, my health compounds what is already a difficult time, I will have surgery Monday start treatments Friday I have hope all will be well in time but it is hard to see my Hubby and Justin go through more and I'll admit I'm scared, so if you could please pray for us when you can while we are seperated know I read every night I just didn't know how to ask till my son Justin said don't hide from your family and Sandy encouraged me. I don't want to add to your valleys they are hard enough but I need you and I didn't want you to think I don't care what is happening in your lives I just needed to find courage to ask, I'll write when I can and pray someday we will all stand on the hilltop together. Sandy thank you for your encouragement and you were right. Love&BearHugs Donna

Dear Donna, ~ I just signed on to copy/paste something but read your post, and just had to put everything else on hold. Donna, we are your extended family, and we love you unconditionally. Always know that you can come here and post your feelings, your prayer request, or prayer offerings anytime. You are covered in prayer, but please know that we will storm heaven with prayer for you and family and walk with you through it all. Best of all, we will pray to our Lord and Savior to walk through it with you. We know He is with us always ... Still, we honor Him with prayers and thanksgiving. Please, don't ever doubt that God love you and will see you through this trying time. Just let go, and let God! I know how hard that is to do. However, I am having to do the same thing, right now because of health problems. But I am confident that if I place it in God's hands, I have nothing to fear, because I am His child, and He loves me more than I can imagine. Just know that He feels the same about you, and your precious family. Thank God your loving family are there for you, just as they know you would be there for them. Just rest in the assurance that you are loved, and being prayed for 24/7. You're in my thoughts and heartfelt prayers!

Hello my dear friend, I'm SO happy that you posted Donna, it did take courage, and that courage is what's going to bring you through your grief right now and your illness! God is going to give you the necessary spiritual and physical strength to fight this battle and restore you back to health. And you know we all understand your grief right now, painful memories are emerging, as you recall this time of year and let them come out, time may take away our harsh 24/7 pain such as Selva's in, but those of us further along the Journey still have our painful valleys too. You know that we're praying for you, that peace will come soon to your heart. Justin is a very wise young man and I'm happy that you listened to him, for you and your family's sake, and I'm also very happy that you listened to me and posted. Love you dear Donna, and I know that Our Lord and Saviour Jesus is beside you and your family as you face this battle. Your courage, strength of spirit and your faith, along with all of our prayers and love will sustain you during this trial. Thank you for sharing your own pain and fears, that's what we're ALL here for! We also pray that you feel Mikey's love for you right now, wrapping you in a warm blanket of his love. Much love to you,
Love Sandy

Dear Angel Moms;
Donna didn't want to burden anyone with her serious problems right now, God love her, telling me that all of you have enough to deal with. But I told her NOT to underestimate all you Angel Moms, that's why we're all here, and I know that each and everyone of you will lift Donna and her family in prayers and love in the days and weeks ahead, due to her illness she may not be able to post, but she will be reading the posts. Donna is suffering from a very serious illness, I'm sure you can all guess what it is, and I know that all Angel Moms will send her their love and know that she's not alone here, she has all of us. Our prayers and love will carry her through her surgery on Monday, and in the days to come. What a beautiful person she is, not wanting to 'burden' as she put it, any of you, but we all know that she's NOT a burden and we'll rally around her as sisters should. Donna, sorry for talking about you in the 2nd person, but this letter is for all the Angel Moms who care deeply about you too. And not only your illness, but your grief also right now as you recall painful memories of your Mikey. We're here for you, we'll always be here for you, and may Our Lord wrap you and your family in His loving arms as we also walk this Journey with you. Thank you dear Angel Moms for reading this and sending Donna our prayers and love. You're all so special!!
Much love to all,
Sandy

Dear Selva, Debby, Sandy, Cindy, Eva, Barb, Yvonne ... And all of our Angel Moms! Thank you for your prayers. :) ~ Thanks for all the fwd pages, emails, and for supplying me with your birthday and your child's birthday and anniversary date. If you have not received an invitation from the birthday site, please send me your email address and I will send a request to you ASAP.

My email is: vclay100@aol.com

Selva, thank you for figuring out how to supply me with your birthday, and Solange's birthday and her anniversary date. As everyone knows, I still don't know dada about what I am doing on this computer most of the time. :) So, I am depending on everyone to help me out on this. It is such a beautiful way to pay tribute to our children. I really like the site and would like to invite all of our angel moms to see it. So, as soon as I receive your email address, I will fwd an invitation to you. Thanks for all the fwd pages and emails, ya'll.
They really lift my spirits during my recovery time. I am doing my best to rest, take my meds, eat right; (Thanks Cindy for sending the diabetic recipes - I can't wait to try them!) I am following doctor's orders, taking care of my health so that I can post often again very soon. :) May God continue to watch over each of you and keep you in His loving care. Sandy, thanks for always being there for all of us angel moms! You and family are always in my heartfelt prayers, as are the other angel moms and their families. Deb, what a touching fwd page I received from you this morning! It really speaks from the heart. I am sure the other angel moms that you shared it with agree. As Sandy would say, it speaks volumes to me! Thanks again Deb. Yvonne, nice to see a post from you! You know how much we miss your when you can't post. And it always warm my heart to read an update post from you. Give the precious grand babies a big hug from all of us. :) I still smile when I recall that Zoe was born on my Diane's birthday! :) May you continue to receive your doves from heaven. :) I am trying not to get too depressed over not being able to post often ... I need your prayer on this, ya'll! Selva, keep holding on to God's unchanging hand. Eva, keep allowing God to use you and hubby in His ministry. :) I continue to pray that God will touch the hearts of those around you who don't know the Lord. It's so very hard to do, but keep trying to turn it over to God. I promise you, He will handle it in ways that you cannot imagine. :) Barb, Good to see a post from you. Carol sent me a shinny penny from heaven yesterday so I knew I needed to check on you, and when I signed on, I saw your post. I have taped that penny to my desk and dared the grand kids not to mess with it! Ha-ha! Of course, I had to explain that it was a very special penny from heaven. I wish you could have seen their eyes! :) To Lisa, and all other newly bereaved moms ... Please know that I will post to you very, soon. Just continue to let us pray for you during this stage in your grieving. I have been where you are right now, so please know I share your pain, and you all are in my prayers. And, please continue to come and read and let your pain out, and let us who are farther along pray for and with you! My love to all and God bless all!
Much love and heartfelt prayers,
Verna

Hi my sister Donna. Please don't do that again. we are here for each other and thats that, we will like Verna said, storm heaven with prayers for you, so don't you hide your fears and feelings from us, that is what this wonderful Circle of Love its all about. Please my sister, hold on to GOD and you can count on our 24/7 Prayers and love, I will like to ask a favor from you, please tell Justin or your hubby to keep us informed of how you are doing as soon as they can, and don't forget, this Prayer of Love will be with you at all times. Love my sister, and let God to the rest. Selva

Hello Barb, what a nice surprise to see a post from you! Gosh, it's been a while, and I'm sorry to read that you're still in a lot of pain. You should be posting, we can't take your pain away, but you know we love and pray for you. But no pressure, you post if and when you feel up to it. That's sweet of you to post about Shane's Anniversary, don't feel badly about it, and I thank you for your prayers for myself and my family. Yes, 4 years, and in some respects it's seems so long, missing him so much, but like you, sometimes it seems like yesterday. Time doesn't seem to matter very much when you've lost a precious child. And your Carol's 4th Anniversary coming up, God love you. I'm really happy to know that you still come here to read, yes, so many new Moms, it's heartbreaking, isn't it. But I thank God for steering them here to the Circle so they can be prayed for and supported, loved, as they travel on their own Journey of Grief. I do the same thing Barb, talk to my Shane at his Memorial site, it gives me peace too, and somehow I know he reads them, just as your Carol reads your's. You take care too Barb, and I intend to keep this Circle going for as long as God allows me to, He asked me to start it, and I know He's blessed it greatly!
God bless you dear Barb, and I love you too, you're always in my prayers when I pray for all Moms. Peace and love to you,
Love Sandy

Hello dear Selva, I'm so sorry that you wake up every morning at 3:20, it must be awful, and I think that our dear Donna, going through the same as you, waking up, shared some very good advice with you. Sometimes these bad memories can be like a broken record, going around and around in our minds, hearts, and perhaps doing what Donna does may help you or someone else that needs prayer. In time Selva, those painful memories will become less, I know you find that hard to believe right now, I did too in the beginning, but eventually it does happen, so keep holding onto God, even when you don't feel much like it, He understands and loves you very much, and He'll never let go of you!. And neither will we, you're stuck with us dear sister, :). Always in my love and always in my prayers,
Love Sandy

Dear Verna, yes, Cindy's idea of the Birthday club is a fantastic idea and seems to be a hit with everyone! I've got a few other Moms to pass along to all, I've just been very busy lately. I'll get around to it, :). You're very welcome dear Verna, and thanks so much for keeping myself and my family in your prayers, and you know it goes without saying that you and your's are always in mine. God keep you dear one and rest up and listen to your Dr. That's an order, :). Love you dearly,
Love Sandy

Selva,
I too wake up at the same time most nights. I thought I was the only one that happened too. What is really weird is on Wed. nights early Thurs. mornings I wake up twice. Once at 2:10(time of accident) and then again at 4:20 when I received my phone call. And I too have been thinking about the whole ordeal over and over like a broken record. I just can't seem to get it out of my head. It seems like it was just this morning. So Horrible! Deb, I wish you all the best and will pray non-stop for you. Please have your hubby or son post and let us know how you are doing. I will miss your posts. Thanks to all you angel moms for your kind thoughts and words. You are all in my prayers. Love you all. Lisa

Verna,
I would love to join the birthday circle. Will I get everyone elses birthday too? That would be great! Please email me at loneil@rwanational.org

Donna,
I'm sorry I addressed you as Deb in my earlier post. Please forgive me, sometimes I don't think very straight. God Bless You and Yours.
Lisa

Hi my Angel moms. Went to my phsyco today, with all this war and all, I had to go to a meeting to Miami Seaquarium, (part of my company) guess what the FBI told us our contingency plan was not enough, we have to have more security etc etc etc, anyway my mind its with Donna, let's spray Heaven with prayers for her, let's storm Heaven ( like Sandy and Verna says) for her, we will be there for her, and God will have the final answer, but I'm sure if her mission it's not over yet, she will be fine. My dear sister, my prayers are with you. Love you Selva

Hi Verna ,Sandy, Lisa, Eva , Donna and all you Angel moms, I'm in 24/7 but that does not keep me from praying to help us all Angel Moms. No matter how I feel, if I don't feel like it or I do, I keep on praying for all of us and all our Angel kids, Love you all. Selva

Hi Lisa, I read your post on the previous page, and it reminded me so much of myself in the beginning, actually for the first year and a half or so. We are the only ones on both sides of the family who live in another city, all of our family lives about 2 and 1/2 hrs. away. For the longest time I didn't want to go anywhere, except perhaps to the store, church, then right back home. Then one day my hubby suggested we go to Ottawa to visit our families. A part of me didn't want to go, and another part did, I wanted to see our son Chris and sisters, etc. When we got to Ottawa, I was miserable. Other than seeing our son, I was very anxious to get back home, in my mind I felt as though I had 'left' Shane alone and had to get back! I also felt as though I had left my 'comfort zone'. And I had! Grief makes you feel these emotions, and gradually I came out of that stage and one day you will too, when you're ready. Until then, do whatever YOU feel comfortable with, and you did express your feelings very good!
As for the Birthday Club, you've posted your e-mail address, so everybody can copy it down and send you an invitation to join their site and the site will ask you if you want to join yourself! You've got Verna's e-mail address up above in one of her posts, and mine is sewhalen@yahoo.com Selva, Debby, will also provide their e-mail addresses to you, but in reality you don't really need them, because you'll see them in their invitation to you to join! Sounds complicated, but trust me, it's as easy as pie, :). Lots of love and prayers to you dear Lisa,
Love Sandy

Hi again angel moms! Hi Lisa! Thank you for your post. And, Lord, do I thank you, Sandy, for explaining how easy it is to do this. I think I understand it better myself now! Lisa, I will send you an invitation as soon as I submit this post.:)
Much love,
Verna

Dearest Family, Your Love overwhelms me and I am so grateful for your all your prayers but know that when I can read then I know how to pray for your needs, someday I hope we can all meet and figure who is who and Hug and cry and laugh, and listen to more stories of MaDear and the children our Blessed Children . I don't think there are words that can express what is in my heart but know I Love You All Very Much. Sending Love to All and Big BearHugs Donna How could I ask anything when God has Blessed me with His Greatest Gift of LOVE

Dear all Angel MOMS! (Sandy, Verna, Deb, Barb, Eva, Lisa, Selva, Donna),
God Bless you all! You are all very special, I want you to know that! I continue to read everyday, something always calls me to come and read and then pray for whatever needs are here, even though I don't always post. I'm finding it very hard to find time to write, I've been so busy once again as spring is approaching, yard work to do, another wedding to make 5 bridesmaids dresses for by June 7th! Plus, I just haven't been feeling all that good through the winter, hopefully I will start doing better now that spring has offically started today!!!!!!!!! I have had a difficult time also with my grief. It's almost like it has come back like it was in the beginning, but not quite as bad. I'm getting counseling now and I think that might have something to do with it, trying to release some of the pain.
Lisa, I can relate to what you said about not wanting to be somewhere else, for two years, I couldn't stand to be around my extended family members, I only wanted to be with my kids and husband. I feel safe at home and still after 3 years and 4 months yesterday, home is where I spend most of my time. These are all normal feelings as we learn how to deal with our loss of our precious child. So you are not alone and my prayers go out to you for peace and comfort from our Lord Who loves you!
Dear Donna, Please know that I will keep you in my prayers as you face surgery on Monday and treatment after. I will be storming heaven too along with all the other Angel Moms for a complete healing for your body. God bless you Donna! And your family.
Dear Selva, I know how much pain you are in and my heart goes out to you. You are in my prayers for comfort and peace from our heavenly Father that only He can give to you. Don't ever give up on Him, He is right there with you always holding you up, when you feel like giving up, give up to Him! He loves you so much. You are doing better than you think you are, I can tell that you have come along in your grief as you reach out to offer support to the others here that are in need as well. God Bless you always Selva!
Dear Lord Jesus, I ask You to fill the hearts of these Angel Moms with Your peace and love and comfort of there broken hearts. Let them look to You as their Source to come to and give them signs that You are always by their sides. Bless them now in Jesus Name, Amen.
Love, Yvonne<><

Dear Verna,
How are you doing? Thank you for thinking of me in your last letter. I appreciate that so much! You are loved!!!! I love my little granddaughters, Zoe & Ruthie (7 & 5 months old now!). They bring so much joy to my heart, it's truly different than having your own, but yet they are part of me and I love that. They are so totally different from each other in their personalities and I love them each in that way, it's quite amazing! You know I never really paid that much attention to my own like that. But then I never had two babies at once either!!! Yes, I remember that Zoe was born on your Diane's birthday too, 8/16, so cool! Zoe means life. Life is so precious! I don't take it for granted at all! I make every moment count now, it means so much to me.
How's that book coming along? I can't wait until you get it published so I can read it! Take care of yourself now Verna and God Bless you.
Love, Yvonne<><

Dear Sandy,
How are you? I hope you are doing ok. You and your family were in my thoughts and prayers on Saturday. I know how hard these anniversaries and birthdays are. We just had Joe's 28th birthday on March 7th, it was hard, but we always get through it. I wasn't able to take flowers to his grave that day because we had so much snow on the ground (we did drive though the cemetary though to remember Joseph), so I did it a week later and also put up a new wreath up for spring. And I found this beautiful white stained glass 'Dove' stake to put in the ground near his stone. It's about the size of a real dove and it's wings are attached by little springs and so that when the wind blows they move like the dove is flying, it's really neat, my husband wants me to buy another one to put in our dove shaped memorial garden at home. I believe the Lord always leads me to find these things for me and Joe and now Gary likes the comfort of the dove too! So do my kids!
Thank you Sandy for the time you take to write to us all. You are so special and I believe God is truly blessing you and this ministry here. I can't wait till we all meet someday here on earth or in heaven when we greet our beloved children. What a glorious day that will be! It might be sooner than we think with all this war stuff going on. God has control over everything though and He already knows the outcome of this war.
I hope your spring and summer are filled with all that God has in store for you Sandy. May He continue to bless you abundantly! Lots of Love to you!
Love, Yvonne<><

Dear Deb,
How are you? I hope you are doing ok. So this spring you are building a new home then? That's great! I'm excited for you. We built 8 years ago now and we are in the country on 5 acres and just love it. I hope all goes well with that for you and your husband!
I wanted to thank you for that poem you posted the other day "My Angel". So special! I printed it out and titled it "My Angel, Joseph". I will put it into a memory book someday when I get around to getting up enough courage to start on it! It's still so painful for me to do things like that yet. I wonder how long it will take me? Some times I think I'm doing ok then it hits me like a ton of bricks. I don't know! Anyway, I will get to it when I'm ready I guess. Thanks again Deb and may God continue to bless you in every way that you need! He loves you! Lots of love to you!
Love, Yvonne<><