Prayer Circles

You begin to sign and then you see that the
number of pints of blood to be taken is empty.
"H-how many pints?"
And that is when the old doctor's smile fades and
he says,
"We had no idea it would be little child. We weren't
prepared. We need it all."
But-but...You don't understand."
"We are talking about the world here. Please sign.
We need it all!"
"But can't you give him a transfusion?"
"If we had clean blood we would.

Can you sign? Would you
sign?" In numb silence, you do.
Then they say, "Would you like to have a moment
with him before we begin?"
Can you walk back? Can you walk back to that
room where he sits on a table saying, "Daddy?
Mommy? What's going on?" Can you take his hands and
say, "Son, your mommy and I love you, and we would
never ever let anything happen to you that didn't just
have to be. Do you understand that?"
And when that old doctor comes back in and says,
"I'm sorry, we've-got to get started. People
all over the world are dying.

Can you leave? Can you walk out while he is
saying, "Dad? Mom? Dad? "Why, why have you forsaken
me?"
And then next week, when they have the ceremony
to honor your son, and some folks sleep through
it, and some folks don't even come because they go to
the lake, and some folks come with a pretentious
smile and just pretend to care.
Would you want to jump up and say, "MY SON DIED
FOR YOU! DON'T YOU CARE?"

Is that what GOD wants to say?
"MY SON DIED FOR YOU. DON'T YOU KNOW HOW
MUCH I CARE?"

~ Father, seeing it from your eyes
breaks our hearts. Maybe now we
can begin to comprehend the
great Love you have for us."

Until later . . .
May you be in the company of angels today!
 
"Soar with the Angels Krissy, Miranda, Matthew,
Damon, Casey, Jessica, Randy, Andrea, Scott,Michael,
Jeff, Robby, Erin, Shane, Sam, Denise, Mark, Ben,
Danny, Teresa, Kelsey,  Randy, Beau, Sheryl, Jarek, Eric,
Gabriel, Lane, Jesse, Joshua, Beverly "Diane", Kodi &
Brandi!"

MY ANGEL

DO YOU REMEMBER ALL THE GOOD TIMES
AND BAD TIMES THAT WE SHARED,
ALL THE HOPES AND DREAMS WE HAD
NOTHEN ELSE COULD COMPARE.

THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A PLACE
DOWN DEEP INSIDE MY HEART,
A SPECIAL PLACE WHERE ONLY YOU
WILL OCCUPY THAT PART.

I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER
ALL THE BEAUTY AND THE GRACE,
YOUR SMILE AS BRIGHT AS SUNSHINE
AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL ANGELIC FACE.

THE WAY YOUR BODY FELT
AS I HELD YOU CLOSE TO ME,
IN MY HEART AND IN MY SOUL
IS WHERE YOU'LL ALWAYS BE.

GOD GAVE ME AN ANGEL
TO CALL MY VERY OWN,
NOW WE'LL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER
FROM THIS MOMENT ON.

DEAR BARB,
HOW ARE LIFE WILL CHANGE FROM THAT MOMENT ON AND HOW WE LEARN TO LIVE AND MOVE ON...... EVERY MOMENT OF A SECOUNT WE LEARN TO NOT TO TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED.

DEAR FATHER,
TODAY I PRAY THAT LIFE IS NOT SO HARD FOR US AND THAT WE REMEMBER OUR CHILD/CHILDREN IN BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE HAVE STORED IN OUR HEART AND I PRAY THAT YOU WILL WRAP YOUR ARMS AROUND US AND WALK BY OUR SIDE AND HELP KEEP OUR HEAD UP HIGH AND CONTINUE TO GIVE US STRENGH ON OUR JOURNEY, I ASK THIS IN YOUR NAME THE FATHER, AMEN.

BRB,
THANK YOU FOR THE BEAUTIFUL TRIBUTE TO OUR CHILDREN SOARING OVER HIGH. GOD BLESS YOU. LOVE AND PRAYRS TO YOU . LOVE DEBBY

Lord God....this morning as I come to you..I lift up my sister moms up to you..Father...you know our deepest sorrow..only you Father can lift us from these moments of desperate loneliness..I thank you Father for loving me..Lord...I don't know what else to say...only you know what my heart cries out for..Father be with us today....whisper in our ear to let us know you are here for us when we feel like there is noone.Lord as I get ready to go work I pray that I will walk mighty and tall for you.Lord God I pray that I will have safe passage to work...Thank you Father for the out pouring of love in this circle..I love you Lord...In Jesus sweet name I pray....Amen

Hi Cin, I wasn't at the Circle yesterday, so it was a really nice surprise to see a post from you! It must have warmed your heart to see Krissy's friends and Jason there, it really is comforting that our children's friends still keep in touch, I love it too. If being numb helped you through the day Cin, then it helped you cope with Krissy's Anniversary. Take the time off and concentrate on you Cin, it must be difficult dealing with other people's misery all day long when you're grieving.
We spent yesterday in quiet reflection, with some painful moments, like you it was bittersweet. We went to Mass and lit candles for Shane, you & Krissy, and Solange & Selva. And today we all carry on, loving and missing our children. Love you too Cin, and talk to you later,
Love Sandy

Dear Verna, your prayers and tributes are beautiful, they touched me and I'm sure they touched Cindy and Selva!
Much love,
Sandy

Hi Deb, a very touching poem from you, thanks for sharing it with us all! And a beautiful prayer also, good memories and strength to carry on. So you DID mind your little niece, :), yes, I knew you'd love it! Feels like Spring here today too, maybe it's on it's way? Prayers and love to you too dear Deb,
Love Sandy

Dear Eva, thank you for lifting us all up, we all need it and appreciate it! You know we lift you up too, in your grief and sorrow. God's love is strong and He will carry you through today, walking tall for Him and keeping you safe. Our love and prayers are with you always dear one,
Luv Sandy

Hi dear Selva, I know you're in pain, and I pray that yesterday wasn't too hard on you. I hope our love and prayers helped you dear one. I lit 2 candles at Mass for you and Solange yesterday, it was a reflective, bittersweet day for us, and some painful moments, but we also remembered some good memories of our Shane. Don't worry that you don't feel that way yet, it's only been a short while for you! Please post when you're ready to, we love you and miss you,
Love Sandy

DEAR SANDY,
YES I ENJOYED WATCHING MY NIECE. YESTERDAY WAS SO NICE THAT MY HUSBAND AND I WENT TO THE CEMENTARY TO GET THE WINTER FLOWER BOX TO MAKE IT OVER FOR EASTER AND SPRING AND THEN WE SPENT A COUPLE OF HOURS ON THE LAND LOOKING AND SEEING WHAT WE NEED TO DO TO GET STARTED. I CAN'T WAIT TO BREAK GROUND. FOR DINNER CHRIS COOKED US DINNER ON THE GRILL(HOT DOGS AND HAMBURGS). IT WAS SO NICE THAT I THOUGHT OF MICHAEL ALOT AN HOW HE LOVED THIS TIME OF YEAR. WE WOULD WATCH FOR THE DIFFERENT BIRDS THAT WOULD BE OUT AND SEEING IF WE COULD NAME THEM. WE WOULD SPLASH IN THE PUDDLES AND LAUGH. SMELL THE FRESH AIR AND JUST HAVE A GOOD TIME. WE WOULD EVEN TURN THE ROCKS OVER TO FIND SALAMANDERS AND PUT THEM IN A JAR AND COUNT HOW MANY WE HAD. WE WOULD CHECK OUT THE STREAMS FOR POLLY EGGS AND TRY TO KEEP THEM UNTIL THEY WOULD HATCH. MY HUSBAND AND I LOOKED IN THE STREAMS YESTURDAY ON THE LAND BUT TO MUCH ICE ON TOP STILL. IT'S GOING TO BE NICE ALL WEEKEND AND I HOPE THAT MEANS SPRING IS ON IT'S WAY FINALLY.
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LOOKIN BACK

I'M WALKING DOWN THE ROAD OF LIFE,
MY DREAMS WITHIN A SACK,
AND THOUGH I ALWAYS LOOK AHEAD,
THERE'S JOY IN LOOKING BACK.
THINGS ALWAYS SEEM MUCH CLEARER
AND WE GET THE RIGHT PERSPECTIVE,
FOR AT LAST WE'VE REALLY SEEN.
FOR WE FASHION OUR TOMORROWS
FROM MISTAKES OF YESTERDAY,
AND WE PROFIT FROM THE PIPER'S SONG
FOR WHICH WE HAD TO PAY.
WE AR BETTER FOR THE LESSONS
THAT LIFE TEACHERS SO WELL;
THERE WOULD BE NO RISING UPWARD,
IF OUR FEET HAD NEVER FELL.
IT IS GOOD TO BE A DOER,
BUT A DREAMER HAS IT'S PLACE;
IT IS HELPFUL TO REMEMBER
THAT THE TURTLE WON THE RACE.
I HAVE FOUND THE HIGHWAY STRAIGHTER,
BUT I LOVE THE BEATON TRACK...
THE VIEW AHEAD IS LOVELY,
BUT I'M ALWAYS LOOKING BACK.
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DEAR FATHER, TODAY I ASK YOUR PRAYERS FOR THESE FAMILY'S HERE AT THIS PRAYERS CIRCLE, I PRAY THAT YOU WILL GUIDE THEM AND GIVE THEM STRENGHT AS THEY MOVE AHEAD IN THERE GRIEVING STAGE THAT THEY ARE IN AND I PRAY FOR LOVE AND PEACE AND ENCOURAGEMENT AS THEY TAKE DAY FOR DAY, I PRAY THAT YOU WILL CONTINUETO GUIDETHEM ALONG THE WAY, I ASK THIS IN YOUR NAME THE FATHER, AMEN.

Hi dear Deb, yes, the weather here is beautiul too, in the low 50's so maybe Spring has Sprung, :) Yes, hopefully soon you'll be able to plant your flowers for Michael's grave. It must have been a little difficult for you to go there, but the rest of your day sounds as though you remembered all the 'good' memories of you and Michael, so I'm happy for you! It sounds as though you had a lot of fun. What a nice thing for Chris to do, cooking supper for all, yum, things taste so good on the grill! Yes, I bet you and your hubby are anxious to start your building, it's such a nice thing to look forward to! Loved your poem Deb, 'Looking Back', it's really nice. And your prayer once again for all is so heartfelt and needed, thank you my friend for posting it! Well, time for me to figure out what to make for supper?? :) Prayers and lots of love to you Deb,
Love Sandy

Hi Angel Moms. Well I've been in deeeep valley, I've just read Verna's post and e mails and also Sandy's, Lisa, Eva, Donna and of course I have to post in our Circle of Love, this is such a peaceful place to come! I've been working a lot (Thanks God) for it keeps my mind busy, but the 24/7 pain is still here, I can not believe that I have not seeing Solange for 7 months, I'm still in shock and denial, but of couuse hanging on to God (even if I don;t feel like it) this is so incredible for me, You have been such a great help to me that I thank God for taking me to this wonderful Circle of Love. Guess what, my sister has a client who is a phsyco (not mine) and she recomended it this Circle of Love to her, she was really grateful for she has several patients who are in the same pain as we are and she told my sister that she will recommend it , I'm glad, for I have found so much love, relief, understanding and help that I think everybody should know about this Circle of Love. Thanks Verna for your posting, Debby thank you for your prayers, Eva thanks honey for I know you are new bereaved mom too, Sandy, what can I say to you but love you. Lisa you have been such a great help. All I want to say it is Thank you All you Angel Moms for keeping my sanity. I love you and in my own way I pray for all our Angel Kinds and all you Angel Moms. Love you Selva

DEAR FATHR,
I PRAY THAT YOU WILL CONTINUE TO GUIDE US AND GIVE US STRENGHT TO MOVE ON AND THAT DURING THESE HAD TIMES YOU WILL SOME HOW SHOW US A SIGN THAT YOU ARE RIGHT BUY ARE SIDE, I PRAY THAT DURING THESE HARD TIMES YOU WILL HELP US REMEMBER ALL THE MEMORIES OF OUR CHILD/CHILDREN AND THEY WILL HELP US TO LOVE LIFE TO THE FULLIEST AND PUT SMILES ON OUR FACES, I ASK THIS OF YOUR NAME THE FAHER, AMEN.

HI SANDY,
YES WE CAN' WAIT TO START ON THEHOUSE. YESTERDAY IT WAS 67 HRE AND TODA IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE AROUND 55. TOMORROW I HAVE OFF AND I'M TAKEN FRIDAY OF. SATUDAY MORNING MY FAMILY ARE GOING TO MAINEAT MY BROTHERS FOR MY NIECE'S CHRISTENING. I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO POST UNTIL MONDAY FOR I WONT GET HOME UNTIL LATE SUNAY NIGHT. MY OTHER NIECE'S BIRTHDAY PARTY IS AT NOON ON SUNDAY. MY SON AND HISGIRLFRIEND ARE GOING UP. I'M JUST ALITTLE SAD FOR MY HUSBAND WONT BE GOING. HE WILL BE WORKING TO CATCH UP ON HIS SECUDRULE FROM ALL THE DAYS HE LOST FROM IT SNOWING. WE ARE ALL STAYINGAT MY BROTHERS ITH ARE SLEEPING BAGS AND AR MATTRESS. IT WIL BE SO MUCH FUN. MY NIECE (MYA) WILL BE BAPTISED AFTER MASS ON SATURDAY NIGHT AT 6PM. I WILL E TAKEN LOTS OF PICTURE'S :-). OK I'M GOING TO GO AND GET READY TO GO WORK OUT SO I'LL BE BACK LATER TONIGHT.
GOD BLESS AND LOVE AND PRAYERS FOR ALL. LOVE DEBBY

P.S.
I'M SORRY ABOUT ALL THE MISSPELLEDWORDS. I NEED TO GET A NEW KEYBOARD. ALOT OF THE KEYS ARE NOT WORKINGWHEN I TAP THEM. HAE A BEAUTIFUL DAY. LOVE DEBBY

I feel ur pains and i tried harder 2 understand d hurt but then Christ knows better and He will give comfort 2 where words and human can reach. Just know something dat all things work together 4 good. Besides u have people like us as children. I love u and God loves u better. Right now put ur right hand on ur left shoulder,also put ur left hand on ur right shoulder and squeeze. Good dat's a hug from me.Shalom

Hi dear Selva, it's nice to see you posting again, and it probably was good to take a few days off - but not for too long, we'd miss you! I know sweetie that you're in Valley Days, it's so painful, isn't it, but you have all of us here, and I'm very happy that you find this Circle of Love peaceful for you to come to! You must be really busy at this time of the year, with tax season here. As you say, it's good to be busy working, but of course Solange is always on your mind. Keep hanging in there sweetie, it's only been 7 months for you, and of course you are still in the shock and disbelief stage, and that's OK. I thank God for leading you to the Circle too! Oh, that's terrific that your sister has told her client about this Circle, hopefully they will post, and you know we'll do our very best to help them, just as we do to all Moms who post here! Tell your sister thanks, that was a very nice thing for her to do! You know I love you too dear sister, and you know that I'm always here for you and all the other Moms, and we're so happy that we have helped you and will continue to do so, with the help of God. Much love to you dear one,
Love Sandy

Hi dear Deb, you're having good weather too! Yes, I know you're anxious to start on the house, I don't blame you! Wow, you've got a busy weekend coming up, but a very happy one for you and your family! Yes, Deb, take lots of pics, :), and give your little nieces kisses and hugs for them, from us. That is too bad about your hubby, having to work, but I guess it can't be avoided. Sounds like it's going to be a fun weekend, and that's nice too that Chris and his girlfriend will be there!
God bless you too, dear Deb. and our prayers and love are with you always too.
Love Sandy

Hello mediesther, and welcome to the Circle! Thank you so much for your prayer and encouragement for us all, and I loved what you wrote at the bottom of your post about your hug for us! That's so swet of you. God bless you, and thanks so much for posting!
Luv Sandy

Hello Angel Moms,
Sorry I haven't written in so long. It was my son's spring break and we went to New Orleans to visit my sister and her family. We visited the zoo, did a swamp tour, etc. It was nice but I really don't think I was ready to leave home. It's weird...when I'm home I don't want to be there but when I go somewhere I don't want to be there either. I had a really rough day on Sunday after we got back. I woke up crying and couldn't stop for most of the day. I think being on vacation with everyone really put a strain on me. I was trying to be nice and happy and could never get alone to think or cry. And after returning home everything hit me full force again. I finally made an appointment to see a grief counselor next week. I don't know if it will help or not. I don't express my feelings very well and have a really hard time verbalizing my thoughts and feelings. I am just in so much pain sometimes I can't stand it. I want to touch his freckled arms and scruffy chin just one more time. I have been praying desperatly for God to help me. I go to work everday like I am supposed to but I just keep shoving all my feelings farther and farther under. Don't have time to think about it. I try not to think about him. Isn't that awful? When actually that is all I really think about. Geez, I guess I better go, I'm not making any sense even to myself. God bless you all!
Lisa

DEAR LISALOU862,
WELCOME TO THE CIRCLE, I'M SO SORRY ABOUT THE LOSS OF YOUR SON. I TOO LOST MY SON AT THE AGE OF 19 ON AUGUST 14,2000 DUE TO A CAR ACCIDENT WHERE HE WAS A BACK SEAT PASSENGER. MY FIRST YEAR IS SUCH A BLURR. I FELT THE SAME WAY THAT YOU DID AND WHEN I WAS HOME I THOUGHT AND CRIED AND WHEN I WAS HAWAY I PUT ON THE BIGGEST ACT SO NO ONE WOULD KNOW TE PAIN I WAS IN. I DIDN'T WANT TO BE HOME BUY MY SELF AND I DIDN'T WANT TO GO ANY WHERE EVERY ONE WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME. EXSPECILLY THE HOLIDAYS WAS THE TOUGHEST FOR ME. SHANER, VERNA, AND BARB AND NOW SELVA WHERE SUCH A BIG HELP FOR ME TO MAKE IT THIS FARE. AND I LOVE THEM FOR THAT. THEY GAVE ME NAME OF SOME BOOKS THAT HELPED TO. I RALLY ENJOYED THIS ONE(A TIME TO GRIEVE BY:CAROL STRAUDACHER) THIS BOOK TELLS YOU WERE YOU ARE IN YOUR GRIEVING. I STILL THIS DAY READ THIS BOOK TO HELP WHEN I'M HAVING A VALLEY DAY. I HAVE A LOT OF STICKY PAPERS STICKING OUT OF THE TOP WHERE I JUST LIKE TO READ DIFFERENT SPOTS IN THE BOOK AND IT HELPS. I HOPE YOU WILL COME BACK AND POST OFTEN. WE WILL TRY TO HELP AS MUCH AS WE CAN.PRAYERS TO YU AND YOUR FAMILY. LUV DEBBY