Elizabeth Smart ~ Prayer of Thanksgiving ~
From: Prayer Circle for Bereaved Parents who have lost a child:
Heavenly Father, ~ Thank You for answering our prayers! When I picked up the newspaper and saw the article, I smiled and said, "Thank You, Jesus!" :) Lord, we know that You can't always say "yes" according to our will. But, in the context of Your divine purpose ... The answer to our heartfelt prayers is always "Yes!" We just don't know it now, but if we continue to hold on to Your unchanging hand ... In the words of on old spiritual ... We will understand it better, by and by!:) In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, Amen!
Hello Everyone! ~ Thank you all for all the love, prayers, emails, fwd pages, etc. :) You have truly been my strength through all that's going on. It's really been rough going, but my faith tells me not to worry; just thank God for my many blessings! So, right away, I thanked God for having all of you in my life! :) Again, thank you all for being patient with me; even more so than I have been with myself. :) I am slowly beginning to accept that I must give myself time to heal; so that I can continue to post as often as God permits. :) I laugh when I think about the many, many times during my valley period, when I have said out loud, "Now, Lord, You know I need to post!" :) But, just as He did shortly after my precious daughter, Diane, was killed in that tragic chain reaction wreck, when I was asking Him to just let me die ... God acted as though He didn't even hear me! (ha-ha)! Anyway, I just kept on reading every chance I got, and as always, I kept right on praying for all. :) But, it sure does feel great to be posting again! Ya'll, I promise I won't over extend myself. I will post a little at a time, and continue to take my rest, and take care of the hand and all of "DIS" other stuff that's going on with my bronchitis, and swollen feet and ankles! (ha-ha)! And, I promise I will NEVER take myself off of all of my medication again! :) I know ... Pretty dumb thing to do. :) So again, thank you all for thinking of me, and also for keeping me in your prayers!
On Your Specil Day ...
To: Sandy, Cindy, Debby, Selva, and all Special Day Angel Moms, ~ My heart goes out to each of you, as
you remember your childís spirit in your own special way. May it help to know, that I have asked our
Lord and Savior to let you feel His presence, and the affects of our prayers all day long ... His love and
compassion and our love and compassion, throughout each of your special days. I ask that God will allow
you to feel the divine presence of your very own Guardian Angel ... Your precious and beloved child.
And, though it is impossible to go through your special day without experiencing some valley time, I pray
that you will also experience the joy of fond memories that God blessed you to share with your beloved
child for however long that may have been. Sometimes, God calls those whom He needs to perform some
heavenly tasks very early on ... So soon, that it makes a mom wonder why; just as we all have done, from
time to time ... No matter how long or short the stay. God gave me Diane for 36 years, and I still have
problems accepting that my life has been changed forever. But, I know that when I do, itís still OK with
God, because He knows the depth of my pain. And, never doubt, angel moms, He knows the depth of your
pain, and just how much you long to hold your child again. As hard as it is for us to understand, some
moms never had the pleasure of seeing or holding their precious child, because their heavenly calling was
so much greater. We will never be able to fully understand the ďwhy.Ē God knows this, so donít deny
what you are feeling, or allow yourself to feel guilty about talking to God and others about whatever you
feel at any given moment. We canít help but ask ďwhy!Ē Itís a fair question, and very much a part of the
healing of our shattered hearts. One day, God will explain the why of each of our precious children He
has called to fulfill their heavenly duties. No matter what, we moms will never be prepared, or willing, or
able to let go. We go on, but life for us is never the same. We just do the best we can from day to day.
Our grief becomes bearable, but it takes a lot of time, and even then, itís never far away. It helps to know
that God always sends the comforter to help us to endure those painful, valley times. He always has ... He
always will. As I light a candle as a tribute to your child ... May you rejoice as you remember that you are
that One in a million Mom, that God chose to be the Mother of your beloved child. :) As we angel moms
light special candles in recognition of our childrenísí spirit ... (I light mine daily for 15 minutes) for all of
our children ... May we say a special prayer, as we meditate and find joy in knowing that the end is just
the beginning! No, it wonít take away our heartfelt pain, but it helps to just think about it ... We have
Godís blessed assurance that ....The best is yet to come!
Godís Peaceful Blessings to All ...
~ A heartfelt Prayer for All Angel Moms ~
Dear God, ~ You are Our Father ... And because we are human, we donít have the power to stop the
endless grief and pain that is thrust upon us as a result of losing our child/children. Lord, we need Your
divine help to carry our daily crosses. On our special days, Father, we really, really need Your comforting
and loving spirit to surround us, and give us the strength we need to make it through the day. We know
that Your love for us is eternal, and of such magnitude that You gave Your Son, Jesus, so that we might
live forever with our precious children someday. Father, because of the unconditional love bond between
a mother and her child/children, we cannot even imagine making such a sacrifice! Because we are human
with limited wisdom and abilities, and because we donít understand Your ways and divine master plan ...
It is sooo difficult for us to even try to comprehend such divine, unconditional love that both You and our
Lord and Savior have for all mankind. Father, each of us are Your creation. Therefore, we recognize that
You know everything there is to know about each and everyone of us. Youíve always known ... Even
from the beginning ... Before, we were born. And, likewise, Father, You also knew that ... As it is with
the seasons ... When winter turns to spring and we discover that everything that seemed dead has come to
life ... right before our eyes! Only, we are usually so busy we donít see it happening. :) Then, all of a
sudden, we realize itís Spring! So it will be at the end of our final winter ... As we spring forth in an
instant, at your calling ... to join You, God the Father, our Lord and Savior, our beloved children, our
friends and loved ones ... In the beautiful, spacious Gardens of Heaven ... Forevermore! Let Thy will be
done! In Jesusí name, Amen!
I am asking that all angel moms visit the web site of Dawn Brown; the angel mom who lost her unborn child, Laura, and her mother in a drunk driving crash. Dawn is a MADD Advocate, and there is an updated article that is a must read. I still find it hard to understand how she has managed to weather such a shattering storm ... And is still doing so much good to help save the lives of so many! God bless! :)
Also, please help me pray for Dawn ... that she is not over extending herself. She emailed me a couple of weeks ago and asked my advice on how I got started writing my book, so I am sure she is thinking about writing one also. She already has a very good start, and I have told her so! :) She has parts one and two posted at her site. She has also added the photo of two items she is trying to sell to help raise money to pay off some of her and her husbands huge medical bills. I won't spoil the surprise by telling you what the items are. :) If at all possible, please sign her guest book or send Dawn an email to encourage her on her grief journey. I first learned about Dawn in an email from Kristina Guy, who is now MADD'S LOUISIANA STATE Director of Victim Services: firstname.lastname@example.org God bless! :)
Just a note to let you know that I'm thinking of you tomorrow on the 4th anniversary of Shane's passing and I will be praying for you and your family. I know how hard it is even after more time has passed. In a sense I think it gets harder because we miss our beloved children so much and it's a longing in our hearts to see them again. God is with you always and He will see you through this once again. I will remember Shane too by lighting a candle in his memory and for your heart to have peace and comfort. God Bless you Sandy.
Dear Lord, I ask You to fill Sandy with Your peace as she and her family celebrate Shane's life tomorrow. Give her the comfort that only can come from You. Bless her in Jesus Name, Amen.
*Hello to all Angel Moms*
I want to thank you all for the cards, e-mails, fwd.'s, candles being lit and postings from all of you as we come up to our Shane's 4th year Anniversary tomorrow. Your love and support has meant a great deal to me and you know I love you all. You're all amazing Moms with your love and big hearts. Through you all I've been privileged to come to know your children and I thank you for that also. Yvonne, you're right, 4 years is a long time to go without your child in your life, I miss my Shane, God's Shane, everyday, and how I would love to see him again, hear his voice, hug and kiss him, feel his kiss on my cheek again. I have his pictures and almost 25 years of memories locked in my heart. I am SO grateful for them! I'm grateful that Shane died at home, the paramedics rushed him to the hospital, where he was pronounced DOA and I'm grateful to the wonderful hospital staff who put us into a room by ourselves with him. I'm grateful for many things, but especially to Our Heavenly Father who gave us such a wondrous gift in Shane. What have I learned over the past 4 yrs.? I've learned that the tortuous, searing pain that fills you completely in the beginning DOES slowly subside. It's been replaced with a quiet sadness that I have learned to live with. I've learned that laughing and experiencing periods of happiness are not a 'betrayal' to our child's life and spirit. I've learned that good things can come out of the tradegy of losing one's child. I have become much more closer to God and my faith since Shane passed. I appreciate with a new approach all the little (and big) things in life. I don't take things (or people) for granted anymore. I've learned to appreciate what I have, and I tell my family and friends that I love them more often. Yes, I'm forever changed by Shane's death, on the other hand, I've lost old friends but gained new ones. I don't like being in crowds anymore, and my family understands that. I'm telling you all this not for my benefit alone, but hopefully to give hope to our newly bereaved moms that the searing pain you feel right now will subside eventually, you'll still have moments of pain, but they won't be 24/7 anymore. That you will one day emerge from the 'dark pit' that I called it, and once again be able to enjoy life, just in a different way. Things WILL slowly start to get better, we who are further along this Journey of Grief are living testaments to it! Take your time, grieving at your own pace as I did and do, and eventually the good memories will start to outnumber the bad ones. Cindy, Selva, my prayers are with you also tomorrow and together all of us will make it through, this Circle of Love truly is one, and I thank all of you special Moms for making it that way! Lean heavily on Our Lord, He's there for us all the time. Thank you all once again, and my heartfelt love goes out to all. I love you all, Angel Moms, and my darlin' Shane, Dad, Chris and I love you so much! Say hello to all the other children and give them big HUGS from their Moms.
Much love to all,
I PRAY FOR YOU TO DAY ON SHANE'S SPECIAL DAY, THAT YOU HAVE COMFORT IN ALL THAT YOU DO AND I PRAY THAT YOU HAVE FOUND PEACE ALONG YOUR JOURNEY AND THAT OUR FATHER FROM ABOVE WRAPPED HIS LOVING ARMS AROUND YOU AND GIVES YOU THE STRENGHT THAT YOU NEED TO MAKE IT ON THIS SPECIAL DAY. I PRAY THAT HE WILL CONTINUE TO HELP GIVE SO MUCH GOOD ADVISE AND COMFORT TO OTHERS HERE AT THIS PRAYER CIRCLE FOR AS I KNOW WE WOULD NOT KNOW WHERE WE WOULD BE IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU AND ALL THAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR US. I ASK THIS IN THE NAME OF THE FATHER, AMEN..
MUCH LOVE AND THANKS TO YOU,
LOVE YOU DEBBY
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL POEM AND I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU FOR SHARING IT WITH US. I JUST WANTED TO CRY WHEN I FIRST STARTED READING IT. THANKS LOVE TO YOU . LOVE DEBBY
DEAR SHANR, I DID CRY AFTER READING YOUR POST ABOVE. YOU HAVE JUST SAID IT ALL ABOUT HOW SOME OF US ARE FEELING IN OUR GRIEVING STAGE. IT WILL BE THREE YEARS IN AUGUST AND I KNOW BECAUSE OF YOU I HAVE COME ALONG WAY AND I KNOW I WOULD OF NEVER GOTTEN THIS FAR IF IT WASN'T FOR YOU. YOU OUR MY GODSENT AND I LOVE YOU FOR THAT. GOD BLESS YOU AND MUCH LOVE SENT YOUR WAY. LOVE DEBBY
I NOW HAVE PICTURE'S ON.
Hi Sandy, Verna, Debby, Eva, Yvonne, Lisa and all you Angel Moms. First of all AMEN Verna, thanks for you so much needed prayer, Sandy, you know that my heart and prayers will be with you tommorrow, 1I know it is Shane's 4 years since He was called to Heaven and it will be 7 months since my Solange was also called to Heaven. I will try to pray, you know I'm honest, no matter what I will pray so satan will not get a hold on us, I have to work tomorow, but I will be thinking about our Angel Kids all day. I love you my sister. Selva
Hi my dear Deb, thank you for your beautiful prayer for me, it means a lot!
I pray also that God will continue using me to try and help other moms, and I can't think of a nicer compliment Deb, I am SO happy that God has used me to help you! Ah, that's very touching Deb that my post made you cry, I thought about maybe sitting down and writing something, but at the last minute decided against it and just posted from my heart. I believe that most of us go through the same things and feelings, so I'm happy that it 'spoke' to you personally, expressing much the same things that I felt and still feel, and the changes that occur in our lives after we've lost one of our precious children. I'm so happy too Deb that you've come a long way, and I'm humbled to have walked beside you on your own Journey of Grief, and still will. But it also shows what a brave, courageous Mom you are yourself, coming this far! Thank you Deb for your kind words, now you're making me cry all over again. Love you too, Deb, and I know Michael's Anniversary is coming up in August, his 3rd, imagine, time certainly goes by fast. God bless you too Deb, need you here at this Circle, you have a big, warm heart too. Lots of love to you,
Hi dear Selva, I know that your heart and prayers will be with me tomorrow, it's so comforting to know that all of your love and prayers are with me and my family tomorrow, Angel Moms, it shows exactly what this Circle is all about and was meant to be. Dear Selva, you know I'll be lighting a candle for Solange and you tomorrow. Much love and prayers to you,
Hi Sandy. I started early today, can not sleep, so I will start praying, thanks for visiting Solange's memorial, I'm sure they are having a good time and are Happy under HIS care. Thanks for lighting a candle for Solange and thank you for all the help you have given me to carry on this 24/7 pain and sorrow. May God Bless you and all the Angel moms from this Circle of Love. Selva
I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO COULDN'T SLEEP. I GOT UP AT 3 THIS MORNING AND STARTED SPRING CLEANING SO SPRING WOULD GET HERE. HA HA HA i REALLY JUST WANED THINGS CEAN FOR I'M WATCHING MY NIECE TODAY AT MY HOUSE. IT'S THE FIRST TIME SHE HAS BEEN OUT AND I WANTED THINGS JUST RIGHT FOR HER. SO YES SANDY I DON'T MIND AT ALL BABY SITTIN :-) SHE JUST WOKE UP I'LL BE BACK IN A WHILE. LOVE AND PRAYERS TO YOU . LOVE DEBBY
Remembering your spirit ...
Happy Anniversary Wishes go out to:
Sandy's Shane His 4th
Cindy's Kristina Her 2nd
Selva's Solange Her 7th month
Dear Angel Moms, ~ Today, each of us pay tribute to very special heavenly angels and their moms. Each of us will to this in our own way. :) Since my typing is limited at this time, I chose to take a walk down memory lane and share some post from days gone by. I used/copy paste, so the dates are included :) I will do this throughout the remainder of this special day!
From the memorial site of Kristina Schell ~ Cindy's beloved daughter:
3/12/02 04:41 Dear Cindy, ~ My heart goes out to you and your family at this time. The anniversary dates are so very hard to get through! This is especially true of the first. How well I recall what it was like for me. I had to go it alone. But, God helped me get through it. And, with so many praying for you and family, I know our heavenly Father is going to send precious moments of peace to you leading up to, and on that day. I just noticed that both Shane and Kristina have the same anniversary day. Itís Shaneís 3rd, and your
Kristinaís 1st. I want you to know that we, at the prayer circle, are storming heaven with prayers for both you and Sandy, as well other moms and members who are going through a special day. I just recently went through a valley period. Even though the
month of February only had 28 days this year, I was so emotional that entire weekend. I did not realize until days later that it was the 5 1/2 year anniversary for Diane. That weekend also marked an anniversary day/month of my dear brother, who committed suicide on July 1, 2001. Again, I just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts,which places you in my prayers. :)Here's a (((((BIG HUG))))) for both you and your precious angel, Kristina. :)
[Selva, I started typing this email to you after I got back from my doctors appointment. I am finishing it on 03/15/03]. I will get it to you later today!
I am typing by candle light right now. :)
Hi dear Selva, ~ Thank you so much for visiting Dawn's site. I know God will richly bless you for reaching out to her. Oh, how thoughtful of you to fwd her site to your friends! I know Dawn will appreciate your donation and your thoughtfulness! Yes, I know that tomorrow is a special day for you and your beautiful Solange. I know she, Shane, Krissy and my Diane are very close, and are sharing their joyful spirits with all the other precious and beloved Angels. I will light another candle for her and the other angel moms children tomorrow. :) I left a post to you at Shane's site and one to you, Sandy, Cindy. I know the three of you have the same special day during any month. I have a very busy day today. will continue posting later on after a much needed nap and a business meeting.
8/26/01 02:16 I am a new member. My heart goes out to each and every one of you who have lost a child. I've been there, Therefore, I have a good idea of what each of you are going through. I lost my precious daughter, Beverly "Diane" Clay, on August 31, 1996. (Please see her memorial) She was killed suddenly and without warning in a chain reaction wreck which involved 2 cars, 2 pickup trucks, and drunk driving. When I first heard the news, I wanted nothing more than to die! Today, almost 5 years later, I still grieve for my daughter; but the pain in my heart has become easier to bear. The thing that has helped me the most has been the help and encouragement I have received from God and the prayers of those whom God has sent into my life to encourage me during the times when I thought I no longer wanted to live. Fortunately, I found out that it wasn't that I wanted to die. What I really wanted, was to STOP THE PAIN! Once I began to understand this, my desire and the efforts I have made to reach out to others who are just beginning to know this kind of pain, has actually help me to continue to progress in my own efforts to survive. Had it not been for God, the Holy Spirit, and the support and prayers of others, I doubt that I would even be here today. I believe there is a spiritual and universal chain reaction that exits among parents who have lost child. Here's why:
Three months before my daughter was killed, God, by way of the Holy Spirit, gave me several poems to write. The title of the last poem was, "Chain Reaction" Recalling the words of that poem has helped me in my efforts to move beyond the unbearable grief and pain, also. In addition to my heartfelt prayers for each and every parent who has lost a child, I offer the words of this poem with the hope that they will help each of you on this never ending road to survive:
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep
When to life's trials I see no end
Just when it seems that no one cares
God says to me, "I'll be your friend."
Sometimes I feel life is not worth living~I get tired of trying~I don't want to go on! Just when I've almost given up~God steps right in and makes me strong!~And uses me, to help someone~Who just can't bear their cross alone~When to life's trials~they see no end~I say to them, "I'll be your friend!"
To me, the meaning is clear. That is; when God provides the encouragement we need during the storms of life, we must reach out to others during their time of need! This prayer circle, in loving memory of your precious child, is such a beautiful way of doing just that! :) Thank you, and may God continue to bless you for sharing, and giving others a chance to reach out and share, also. My prayers are with each and every one of you who have taken the time to reach out to others who, like you, have lost their precious child. God Bless!
God Bless you Verna, Sandy, Debby, Eva, and all you Angel moms. Its valley day so I will post tomorrow, just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for all our Angel Kids. Love you my sisters. Selva
Sandy, Verna, and all Angel moms . . . thank you for the much needed prayers . . today was very bittersweet - when we arrived at the cemetary all of Kristina's friend, and her fiance' Jason were there, sitting around telling stories, crying, laughing, and reading some of Kristina's poetry. I am so thankful the kids are still a part of our lives - they loved her so much . . . I'm numb today, which is probably a good thing. . . had a rough week at work and my boss and I decided I needed to take some time off... dealing with other peoples emotional issues (divorce) is not easy to do when one is in so much grief . . maybe a change in career is in the cards.. Thank you all, for remembering us in your prayers. I love you all!
Sharing a fwd page I received from Cindy :)
Subj: Fwd: The best em I have read†
Date: 3/15/2003 9:42:08 AM Central Standard Time
It's a Wednesday night and you
are at a church prayer meeting when
somebody runs in from the parking
lot and says, "Turn on a radio, turn
on a radio."
A little transistor radio with a microphone
"Two women are lying in a Long Island
hospital dying from the mystery flu."
Within hours it seems, this thing just
weeps across the country. People are
working around the clock trying to find
Nothing is working. California, Oregon,
Arizona, Florida, Massachusetts.
It's as though it's just sweeping in
from the borders. And then, all of a
sudden the news comes out.
The code has been broken. A cure can
be found. A vaccine can be made. It's
going to take the blood of somebody who
hasn't been infected, and so, sure enough,
all through the Midwest, through all
those channels of emergency broadcasting,
everyone is asked to do one simple thing:
Go to your downtown hospital and have your
blood type taken. That's all we ask of you.
When you hear the sirens go off in your
neighborhood, please make your way quickly,
quietly, and safely to the hospitals.
Sure enough, when you and your family get
down there late on that Friday night, there
is a long line, and they've got nurses and
doctors coming out and pricking fingers and
taking blood and putting labels on it.
Your wife and your kids are out there, and they
take your blood type and they say, "Wait here
in the parking lot and if we call your name,
you can be dismissed and go home."
You stand around, scared, with your neighbors,
wondering what in the world is going on and
if this is the end of the world.
Suddenly a young man comes running out of
the hospital screaming. He's yelling a name and
waving a clipboard.
What? He yells it again! And your son tugs on
your jacket and says, "Daddy, that's me." Before
you know it, they have grabbed your boy. Wait a
minute. Hold on!
And they say, "It's okay, his blood is clean.
His blood is pure. We want to make sure he
doesn't have the disease. We think he has got
the right type."
Five tense minutes later, out come the doctors
and nurses, crying and hugging one another-some
are even laughing. It's the first time you have
seen anybody laugh in a week, and an old doctor
walks up to you and says, "Thank you, sir.
Your son's blood type is perfect. It's clean,
it is pure, and we can make the vaccine."
As the word begins to spread all across that
parking lot full of folks, people are screaming
and praying and laughing and crying.
But then the gray-haired doctor pulls you and you
wife aside and says, "May we see you for moment?
We didn't realize that the donor would be a minor
and we need ... we need you to sign a consent.