Prayer Circles

Hello dear Selva, I hope you're feeling better today, and you're able to go to work. If you're not, take care of yourself and stay home. A pedicure! That's really nice of your sister to take you with her and have one. I know what you mean, sweetie, I was the same the first year, I hated leaving the house, and also became nervous going out on my own. Home was where I felt 'safe', and didn't have to look at others who were happy and going about their lives. It just hurt too much to see them. And I also experienced the same thing with the grocery store as you are, Shane had his favourite things that he always wanted me to pick up for him, especially ice cream, and do you know, for that first year I couldn't bear going near the frozen aisle, it was depressing and a painful reminder of my Shane, just as it's a painful reminder of your Solange right now. The more we do these things though, the easier they become. Just take your time, Selva, and do things at your own pace. God DOES understand your heart and prayers, sweetie, even though right now you feel as though He doesn't. You don't have to say formal prayers to Him, just talk to Him about how you're feeling and all, and He understands better than anyone! Thank you for your prayers Selva, we all appreciate them very much, and you know you're always in our hearts and prayers. Much love to you,
Luv Sandy

Hi Angel moms. I'm back at work and Thank God feeling much better, piles of work but I'm glad for it helps keeping my mind busy. I just took a little break to pray for all of us and our children, I hope they are all together, I'll give my life just to know that Solange is happy, just to hear her saying Hi, mom I'm OK love you. But I don't hear from her at all it going to be almost 5 months. Eva I know tha pin and your thoughs sometimes I think that Solange was also alone in the car, when I got to the Hospital she was unconcious and never regain it, I don't know if she heard me when I talked to her, that kills me when I think of it. I hope that God hears my prayers, sometimes I think I rather go nuts. Thank you Sandy and all you Angel moms for your prayers. I love you all. Selva

HI Angel moms, I hope that you are all OK, I'm at my sister's house tonight "again". Please say a little prayer for Solange. I will try to talk to GOD about us all and our children, I really don't know how to pray like Verna and Sandy but I hope with time I will be able to do so.In the mean time I will talk to HIM, maybe HE understands that I'm in valley days as so many of us moms. So I will explain to HIM about us.Love you all. Selva

I haven't posted in quite awhile, but as I near the 3rd anniversary of my son, Matthew's, death on January 18th, 2003, I needed to feel close to the other people who can understand my grief. We have had a difficult year; my daughter, Kara, was in a sledding accident on December 5th, 2002, and her legs have been paralyzed. We are seeing some improvement and hope she will be back to normal soon. I came down with Bell's Palsy, which has caused the left side of my face to be paralyzed. It is also improving. I finished my 1st semester of college, studying psychology to become a Christian counselor. I start my 2nd semester next Monday. I was able to make the Dean's list, even though we were going through tough times. As I remember Matthew, I see a giving, loving son who I will miss everyday. He blessed my life for 22 years, 7 months, and 11 days. I thank God for the time I had with him, and pray that we will be together again in Heaven. I pray for all the parents who have lost their precious children; nothing can compare to the loss of a wonderful child. Please keep our family in your prayers as we approach the anniversary of Matthew's death.

Hello dear Selva, if it's too painful to be alone at home right now, then stay with your sister, I can tell that she loves you and supports you very much! You are so blessed to have her. Solange and you are in my prayers, and if you're having trouble praying, we'll all stand in the gap for you! YES, please talk to God, He already knows your heart, and whatever you say to Him, He understands and is helping you, as hard as it may seem to you right now. Think of Him as your Father, He loves you so much, and will never leave you. We all love and care for you too, and we appreciate your prayers for us so much, and you know you're always in ours. May Our loving Lord give you some peace today, much love to you,
Luv Sandy

Hello b_debbra, I remember you posting a while back, and I'm so happy to hear from you again! Oh, sweetie, Matthew's 3rd year Anniversary coming up, I can imagine the pain that you're feeling. These special days are always so hard on us, it doesn't seem possible that that much time has passed to us, our child's passing is etched into our hearts forever. And we miss them so much! Hold tight onto the good memories of Matthew and his love for you and the rest of his family, love never dies, it's eternal, so the love you all shared with him is still there, a bond that's never broken. I find that doing something on my own Shane's Anniversaries such as lighting a candle for him, saying a prayer, donating to a charity in his name, helps me to get through those very difficult days, so please do something that you feel comfortable doing, it will help. And so will talking about it, we all understand here, and we offer our support, prayers, understanding and love to you as you come up to his Anniversary. Oh gosh, you have had a hard year, thank God that your daughter is improving, you must have been beside yourself when it happened! And you youself getting Bells Palsy, all of this must have taken it's toll on you and your family. I'm very happy to read that it's improving, you've certainly had a lot of stress in your life this past year! We'll storm Heaven with prayers for a complete recovery of your precious Kara, and for you and your illness. You're an amazing woman, on top of all this, you found the time to study to become a Christian Counsellor, that's wonderful, and congratulations on making the Dean's List! What a wonderful calling to have. You must be very focused and disciplined to be able to study on top of all the rough times you've had this year, God bless you. God did bless us, didn't He, for putting our child/children into our lives for as long as they were, and yes, one day we'll be reunited again with them. No, nothing can compare to the loss of a child, the pain is indescribable, but with Our Lord's help, we're able to cope as best we can. Thank you for your prayers, and please know that we'll be praying for you and your family, May Our Lord wrap you all in His loving arms. Please post again, we all care, and we'll do our best to help you with Matthew's Anniversary. Much love and prayers to you,
Luv Sandy

[PART I]

Dear Angel Moms, ~ Just a note to let you know what's going on, and that all are in my heartfelt prayers. A lot going on here. Some extremely stressful and some joy. My dear mother-in-law is still in hospital with pneumonia. She is not doing very well. My husband and his brother are her only two children. They have been making the three and a half hour trip to South Louisiana to see about her. My husband, who is the oldest of her two sons has been with her since Saturday, Jan. 4 and returned home late yesterday. His brother, Lynn, who also lives in North Louisiana (Shreveport), went down to relieve my husband yesterday. I, in turn, pick up the grand kids from school and keep them until my daughter, Cheryl and niece, Tammy get off work and come for them. I pray that I will be able to go spend some time with my mother-in-law this weekend.
My mother-in-law will be 90 years old (God willing), the 21st of May. The doctor's are concerned because she is not eating. They said it is partially caused by the progression of age and a condition which causes the brain to not send the proper signal to indicate to her that she is hungry. Once such a lively and joyful person, it just breaks our hearts to see her this way. :( During our family reunion, last year, she asked me how was Diane? :( I simply told her that Diane was doing fine, and sends her love. Please keep my dear mother-in-law and all of us in your prayers.
Even though we know that we are all headed back home to God, it is still so hard for us to let go. We will always have the fond memories of our loved ones that go home before us; but the pain of missing their physical presence lingers also ... And, that is the painful part that we all must seek God's divine help ... to learn to manage that kind of pain.

[PART 2]

I've had a house guest since Sunday. Cheryl's mother-in-law from her first marriage came in from San Antonio, Texas to visit and spend a little time with our grandson, Steven. I have been doing my best to make her short visit enjoyable. Therefore, I have not been able to finish my posts to everyone and copy/paste. I have, however, kept up with reading, and I continue to pray for all according to their specific needs and/or prayer request.

I thank each of you for remembering me in your prayers, and for all the uplifting fwd pages, and your kind words of gratitude concerning the posts/prayers/and recommended readings I submit from time to time. There are so many wonderful books out there to help us on our grief journey. Although no amount of reading will take our pain completely away, it helps to learn as much as we can about all the different stages of grieving -- The kind of emotions others have experienced, and shared their views, with the hope that by so doing, those of us who are now living with the pain and loss of losing our children will have some idea of how others have managed to move on in spite of the cross which, through no fault of their own, has been placed squarely upon their shoulders.

[PART 3]

As we all know, it is the cross of a lifetime... But, we also are slowly learning that it is not one that we have to carry alone! We know that in spite of the evil one, we have God the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit (Which lives inside of us and encourages us), and ... We have each other here in this circle of love! Praise God!

No way is it an easy journey ... The evil one may knock us down in the valley (winning battles) many, many times. But, praise God, we will continue to come back fighting, with the weapons that we possess: The prayers of family and friends, our army of Guardian Angels, our own personal guardian angels, the power of the Holy Spirit ... And ... with God's help, and by holding on to our undying or renewed faith, we will win the war!

Last, but not least, God has provided us with His Holy Word, the bible, to guide us along our journey. As we meditate on His Holy Word, and pray for understanding, God begins revealing the answers to some of life's questions. I truly believe that as we continue to seek Him, He will continue to provide us with everything we need to know as we continue on our grief journey ... Having faith, that in God's appointed time, He will wipe our tears away, as He provides the answers to all of life's painful questions. And in that day ... The evil one and all of his evil forces who have robbed us of our loved ones, our peace, our joy ... Will be no more! Praise God, Almighty!

Angel Moms ... Hold on to your faith in God, and we will win this War of the Spirits!

I will always use the weapon of prayer... Asking God to continue to have mercy on those who are still in so much pain. I feel and share your pain each time I get to come here and read. I pray day and night that God will continue to hold each of you close to His heart and wipe away your tears of sadness ... And, as always, I pray that our Lord and Savior will give each of you moments of peace along the way, as only He can.

Angel Moms, make no mistake about it, this is a war of a lifetime. And, although we cannot see him, the evil one (satan), and his evil demonic forces, are alive and well. Consistently, patiently, and systematically, they can and will continue to kill, steal and destroy, to invade our minds with evil thoughts meant to kill our faith which will interfere with our efforts to complete divine purpose in life, according to God's will. It is their ultimate purpose to wipe us out, to prevent us from receiving all of the eternal blessings which God has in store for us. No matter what, with God's help, we will not give in to our grief. We will continue to watch, fight, and pray ... Even as we continue to grieve!

I pray for the healing of families that are together, and for those that are apart. I also pray for the healing of the nations, and for the sons and daughters who risk their lives daily in an effort to maintain world peace. For I know that they, too, are fighting the same evil forces that seek to invade the minds of many of God's children ... Causing them to kill, steal, and destroy each other, just as we read in His Holy Word, the bible. I pray that God will touch the hearts of all people all over the world and teach all to learn how to love one another and give love and peace a chance. And, I pray that our heavenly Father will bless and keep each of us, our families, and our guardian angels in His divine, and loving care. In Jesus' name, Amen

Much love to All,
Verna

AMEN.
Dear Verna, so nice to hear from you, when I read your prayers it gives me strenght to go on, also Sandy's prayers. I'm so sorry about your mother in law, it is very sad to hear, but God knows, HE won't let her suffer at her age. You are so right that Satan is always trying to break our Faith in God, I go myself through those times when I ask WHY, but thanks to this Circle of Love . I come here everytime I can, just to read all you Angel moms prayers, and then i go on for a little at a time, and pray for all of us and our children on little breaks I take.I will include your mother in law in my prayers. Love you all. Selva

Dearest Verna, I'm so sorry to read about your mother-in-law. It must be very hard on your husband and his brother, as well as you and the rest of your family. We'll pray for her and put her in God's Hands, and pray for your family during this difficult time. Much love and prayers to you,
Luv Sandy

DEAR FATHER,
TODAY I ASK FOR YOUR PRAYERS FOR MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY, I PRAY THAT YOU WILL PROTECT THEM AND GUIDE THEM, I PRAY THAT YOU WILL LET THEM FEEL YOUR FAITHFUL PRESENCE WHEREVER THEY GO AND IN ALL THEIR UNDERTAKINGS. WHEN THEY ARE CONFUSED I PRAY THAT YOU WILL SEEK YOUR SOOTHING CALM ONTO THEM, I PRAY THAT WHEN THEY ARE ALONE THEY WILL FEEL YOUR LOVING PRESENCE AND WHEN THEY ARE SICK I PRAY THAT YOU WILL LAY YOUR HEALING HAND UPON THEM, PLEASE LEAD THEM TO YOUR STILL WATERS OF CALM AND RESTORE THEIR SPIRITS. I PRAY THAT WHEN THEY FACE DISAPPOINTMENTS AND DASHED HOPES AND FRIENDS AND FOE ALIKE ABANDON THEM, I PRAY THAT YOU LET THEM FIND REFUGE IN YOUR NEVER CHANGING FAITHFULNESS AND LOVE. THIS I ASK IN YOUR NAME THE FATHER, AMEN.

DEAR VERNA,
I'M SO SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR MOTHER-N-LAW. PLEASE KNOW THAT MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. LOVE DEBBY

Good Morning Wonderful Moms, I pray you're all doing OK. I have a favour to ask, my brother-in-law passed away last night at 9pm, after a 2 year struggle with Cancer. My husband's family stood around his bed praying, and he passed very peacefully, Praise Our Lord. Could you say a prayer for my sister-in-law, that God comforts her in her time of grief. Much love and prayers to all of you,
Luv Sandy

Dear Sandy. I'm so sorry about your brother in law, of course that I will pray for her and also for your brother in law, may he be at Peace now without pains or worries, and remember dear Sandy you are always in my prayers. Love Selva

Hi Verna. I'm wondering how you are doing and how is your mother in law. Just to let you know that you are all in my prayers. Much love to you Selva

Dear Father, ~ I come to You in Your Son Jesus' name ... Asking that You would wrap Your powerful and loving arms around Sandy's sister-in-law, and her husband, Sandy, and their entire family as they release their loved one back to You. Oh Father ... You already know ... how very painful, and how hard it is for them to let go. Father, I ask that You will give them the strength they need now, during their hour of sadness. Remind them often, Father, that their loved one has already entered the gates of heaven, and was greeted by family and friends, and the heavenly host of angels ... And by Jesus, and You, God! Reveal to them, here and now, that where he is, there is no pain, no sorrow, no tears ... Only joy and peace forever! Oh Father, we know that it won't be easy and the tears must be shed. Just continue to hold this entire family close to Your heart, and comfort them, as only You can. Please, Father, let them know that every angel Mom here, will be storming heaven with prayer for the entire family; Especially Sandy's sister-in-law, and her dear husband. Bless and keep them one and all, Father,in Your loving care! In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, I pray this heartfelt prayer, Amen!

Dear Sandy, ~ You know my heart goes out to you and family at this time; as does all the other angel moms. Please know that we will be here for you and family, and be praying for all. May our heavenly Father be with you and family in your hour of sadness. God's peace and blessings to all of you.
Much love and sympathy to all,
Verna

Dear Deb and Selva, ~ Thank you so very much for your prayers for me and family. So far my dear mother-in-law is holding on. We have not gotten an update from her doctor yet, but should hear something by Monday, after he sees her again. Please continue to pray for her, and you know that you all are always in my prayers.
Much love, and God's peace and blessings to all our angel moms!
Verna

Deb, ~ What a beautiful and touching prayer you've posted. I know it will warm the hearts of all our angel moms, as it did mine. :) God bless you, Deb.
Much love,
Verna

Good Morning dear Selva, Verna and all you wonderful Moms. Thank you for your prayers, especially for my sister-in-law, she is of course going to have a rough go, but everyone in the family will be there for her. Due to his wishes, my brother-in-law requested no wake, and to be cremated immediately. There will be a Memorial Service sometime in the near future. He lived a good, long life, (86) and I'm certain he's enjoying his heavenly reward. Thank you Verna for your heartfelt prayer, it's beautiful, and thank you Selva for keeping me in your prayers, as well as my hubby's sister and her husband. You're always in my love, heart and prayers, all you wonderful Moms. Verna, we'll keep praying for your mother-in-law, that the Dr. on Monday gives you good news. Much love to all,
Luv Sandy

Hi Verna, Sandy and all you Angel mom. Verna I will keep you mother in law in my prayers, and Sandy I will pray for you sister in law to find God and His love for all of us whoe need HIM. I'm alway here for all of you. Praise the Lord that you had teach me to love so much Than you again. my love and prayers for all you Angel Moms. Selva

Hello dear Selva, I know how difficult a time it is for you right now, so thank you so much for your prayers. I appreciate them deeply! You're a loving woman yourself, with Christ's light shining through you to others, so I don't think we had much to teach you, :), it was already there. May God give you the necessary spiritual and physical strength in the days ahead for you. Much love and prayers to you dear Selva, and you know I'm always here for you and everyone else, you're all in my heart.
Luv Sandy

Good Morning Angel Moms, ~ May our Lord and Savior give us those precious moments of peace for which we pray.

I have been experiencing computer problems again. This time, however, it has to do with a scam email. Apparently, someone was able to obtain my email address and the last 4 digits of my bank checking card, and sent me an email telling me that they would be billing my checking account for a membership that I had taken out, (which was untrue).

When I contacted AOL representatives, I was told that the email was a scam, and advised to report it to TOSReport. I was also advised to fwd the email to them so that they could take care of it. Moments later, I received another email from the same company, saying that they had canceled my account, and they had the nerve to invite me to subscribe to their service again!

I mention this so that all of you will be very careful about using your credit card or checking account card online. I had been using mine at sites that were supposed to be secure, but now, I am having second thoughts about making any purchase online again! Now, this morning, just to be safe, I will have to go to my bank and cancel my checking account card which I normally us for everything. So, please be careful when making online purchases.

Once I reported the incident, and followed the instructions given to me, I clicked on to check my email, and discovered that someone had set up a web page advertising "Viagra." In all, there were about 9 or 10 emails from the same person. This is how it looked:

From:Vip113
BCC: VClay100

Having already reported problems, I knew to fwd all the emails to TOSReport@aol.com

I then did as the AOL representative advised, and changed all of my passwords for each of my user names, and customized my emails to keep out Spam, and hopefully scams of this nature. They also advised me to read up on the current virus and scams that are going currently going around ...

I am taking the time to mention this so that all angel moms can be aware, just in case something like this should happen to you. They are very slick when it comes to getting your personal information.

In my case, they represented themselves as AOL representatives by cutting me offline with a popup warning that said that I had performed an illegal operation and would not be able to access my online account unless I filled out a new form, which they provided. And, seeing the AOL symbol, I assumed it was OK. That is just one of many schemes that are being used to access one's account. So, be sure you read and learn all you can about this. I hope sharing this helps. :)

I will post a copy of the actual email that I received later today, just in case it shows up in your email. hopefully it is still in my delete files. For now, I can only give you the following:

Subj: Billing reminder notice for Travel Values Plus members
From CustomerService-TVP@Litle.com
Reply-to" customerseervice@travelvaluesplus.com

If you receive anything from the above email address, please know that it is a scam.

Much love,
Verna

PART I

[LOVE2U - Responding to your post: 1/6/03 02:37]

msjmd
1/6/03 02:37

Dear Msjmd, ~ First, let me say how very sorry I am to read of your tremendous loss. I have been trying for days now, to think of what, if anything, I might say to give you some relief from the indescribable grief that I know you are forced to live with on a minute by minute basis. Each time I have tried to put into words the tremendous pain I feel just thinking about what it must be like to lose your entire family in such a tragic manner, it just literally takes my breath away!

I want you to know however that I have been praying in the spirit since I first read your painful story, several days ago. I do this often, when consumed with compassion for another sister angel Mom. Sometimes, there are no words to sufficiently describe our feelings of grief that we share with each other. We know what we are feeling, but we just can't seem to put it into words, you know? That's the only way I can explain the heartfelt compassion I have for you, each time I think about all you have, and are going through. I hope it helps just a little to know that all of us here share your pain.

I pray for you day and night, in the spirit, and also in the natural, as I continue to gain the strength to do so. And please understand that the pain that consumes me each time I think of all that the evil one has stolen from you, me, as well as the other angel moms, I become more determined than ever to hold on to my faith in our loving Father in heaven, thanking Him for continuing to hold all of us close to His heart; Even during the times we are angry, and can't pray. Trust me, Msjmd, He really does understand, and loves us unconditionally anyway! I have often shared in many of my earlier posts that while I was in the anger stage it's a wonder God didn't zap me off the face of the earth. I mean I was in such a bad way! I listened to each and every evil thought that the evil one flooded my mind with. I couldn't hear what God had sent His Holy Spirit to whisper in my ear! I mean I was a mess! OH, but my God did not give up on me!!! Praise God!!! :)