Prayer Circles

Oh Tara, I pray for you so much. I am going through a very, very similar situation. I have three children. I quit my job when my husband finally got one so that I could stay home with the kids. Now that he is out of the house. It is hard to find a job. I even have an excellent resume and experience but cannot find any work yet. My husband changes his mind every other day whether or not he wants to come or stay out there in the world. He too has slept with and had a relationship with some chic 4yrs younger than me. I can say honestly that I feel your pain. I have been there and am still there. I am at the point now though. And this has been going on for about 4 months, this crucial anyway. We have always had the ups and downs. I turned my life over to CHrist nearly 3 yrs ago. My husband knows the Lord, probably more than I do, however has never surrendered to him. I have gotten to the point and been directed by the spirit to stop worrying. The Lord loves my husband more than I do. God is the one who created him. I just met and fell in love with him. As for my kids. The Lord loves them more than I do as well. If my husband doesnt come back home, there must be a reason. I can only believe that he must not be good for them or for me. I personally get sidetracked from the Lord when I am dealing with my personal problems with my husband. I just finally surrendered again let go. I let the Lord take control. I realized that nothing I can say or do will make him change his mind or want to come home and I dont want him to come home if he is going to be th same person. I used to feel so lonely and so afraid of being alone and raising these kids by myself (our youngest is 14months) that I was willing to take him back under any circumstances. That is not how I feel any longer. Praise the Lord. My heart and my soul go out for you. Just please remember and try to keep it in the forefront of your heart. The Lord knows what he is doing. Standfast as long as you feel it is necessary. But dont compromise your own convictions because your lonely or you feel responsible in any way. There will be alot of people that will tell you to leave him. That your worth much more. Which you are, but how do they know that you arent in his life to bring him home. But then how do you know your not? We all learn something from the people we interract with. There is a reason you two have been together. ANd that your children were born. So many women cannot have children and yet you have been blessed with 4. Oh, I wish you could see me face to face and perhaps you could see how much my heart goes out to you. All I can say is trust in the Lord, He hears you and he will do what is best for you. I always like to think of life as a cross-stitch project. You know how from underneath it looks all messy because you could go any direction to sew the lines your supposed to? And then you look at the top and its the picture it was supposed to be. That is our life. Sometimes we make mistakes but the Lord uses all of that and puts it all back into perspective. There is a good site on the web that has helped me. Its at www.brokencircle.com, and then go on to crosswalk.com and look around there. I have found comfort and more links that helped me with this whole thing. I still dont know whether or not to file for divorce. I love my husband very much. It is just such a comfort to let go and know that God is in control. I pray for you. I pray that the Lord will show you what he has shown me while I have been going through the same circumstances. Let me ask.. Is your husband using marijuana and drinking also? Hanging out with buddies doing the same? The Lord will take care of you. I pray for you to be comforted and learn what you are to learn from this experience. IN JESUS NAME I PRAY FOR YOU> AMEN

Tara,
I am a Buddhist, but I hope you will welcome my prayers as well.

May you learn to see the truth in all of these things, to see all of the true motivations and causes of your surroundings so that you may better them by understanding them as they really are. May you never become ensnared in the illusion that you are alone, for because you love, all loving beings are with you, and this cannot be taken from you. Remember that you shall be in my heart, and in the hearts of all others as they pray for you.May you learn to resolve your troubles quickly, and with compassion.