Prayer Circles

Dear God, Please grant me the strength to go on. I miss Casey so much and some days I just feel like it's so unbearable. Give me strength to go on.

Dear God, It is so hard to face each day without Casey. I know you are carrying me through this because without you, I could not withstand the pain. Thank you for being there for me and please continue to send your angels to comfort me and my family.

Dear God, It has been 24 days since my son left me and joined you in Heaven. I know I have to go on with life but it's so hard. I wake up every morning missing Casey terribly. He doesn't have no more worries or concerns. He sees no tears in Heaven and he's reunited with you and his family members that had gone on before him, this I know. I just miss him so terribly. Wrap him in your loving arms and give him a hug for me. Tell him I love and miss him. I will try for the rest of my life to do the right thing so I can get there to be with him.

I lost my mother last year and for some reason this helps me to read other peoples stories and what the have been threw. I guess I find solice in knowing im not alone...I hope you do to. My heart and prayers go out to you. God bless you and your son.

It has now been 38 days. It doesn't seem to be getting any easier. I still wake up every morning thinking of another day without Casey. I still go to bed every night missing him. God, I know Casey knows how much he was loved and I know I could not have loved him more than you do. Did you miss him as badly as I do when he was here on earth with me? Thank you for the strength you have given me God. Without it, I could not possibly go on. Thank you for Blessing my life with Casey. Thank you for the memories of an angel that will live in my heart until I can join him in Heaven. Help me to live my life every day according to your will to make that journey. Amen.

I imagine Casey has had a joyful 61 days in Heaven now. I get a lot of comfort from knowing he's experiencing happiness like we've never known and his health has never been better. No more episodes with his asthma and no more medication. He's with my grandparents and other family members that has gone on before. I still feel him near me. I'm holding him close in my heart. God, I pray you continue to give me strength to take a day at a time and live a full life until it's time for me to join you and Casey. Help me to be a good mother to my other 2 children, good grandmother to my 2 grandsons and a good wife.

It's been over 5 months now. God, I miss him. Please let me dream of him. Let me see his face and hear his voice. Let me touch his hand and tell him how much I love him. Let me see that he's happy. Please God, Let Casey visit me. I miss him so much. You know how much.

I finally had a dream about Casey. Christmas morning I dreamt that I was standing in the backyard looking up toward the cemetery when I heard Casey saying, "Mom,Mom?" When I looked to my side, there he was. I saw his face and then woke up. I just know he was letting me know he's with me. Thank you God for such a wonderful gift.

Dear God, Please tell Casey I still love him and miss him terribly. I am so thankful for all the memories I have of him and I pray you'll help me to never forget them. Wrap your arms around him for me and tell him it's a hug from Mom.

I dreamt of Casey's sitting on the side of my bed with me. We where having a conversation about his old room. How I redecorated it. I have often wondered if he was upset. He wasn't. He was surprised it could look so different. Then the phone rang and woke me up. God I appreciate me having these little moments with Casey. Thank you so much.

10 months. How much I still miss you Casey! I still think of you every single day. I hope you know that. I also hope you know how much I still love you and miss you.

THE WORDS I DID NOT SAY

If I had said, “Stay”,
You may not have driven away, never to return.

If I had said, “Don’t Go”,
You could still be here with me
Confronting our futures together one day at a time.

If I had said, “Don’t Rush Off”,
You could be back from Poppy Mountain
Telling us about your wild and crazy time.

If I had said, “Stay A Little Longer”,
Your family might have been deciding on which
Cake to buy
Instead of picking out your casket.

If I had said, “Please, Casey, Don’t leave”,
You wouldn’t have encountered that terrible tragedy
That took your life and shattered my heart.

If I had said ANYTHING
You might not be sleeping forever.
Instead, trying to find time in life to sleep.

Because there are words I did not say,
The next time I say, “Hello”
Will have to be on judgment day…

In Loving Memory,
A Friend.
Memorial Day 2004

The above poem was written by one of Casey's friend and left at the cemetery Memorial Day weekend. I really appreciate people visiting and being so kind.