Prayer Circles

I hate to see someone feel so defeated by life at such an early age! (and I am young too!) Sometimes our problems (financial stress, whatever) swell in our heads into things much bigger than they really are--in the grand scheme of things, at least. I understand that what you're going through is very real, and that you can't simply wish it away with just a change of perspective or good feelings like magic. But you should realize that you are so much more important than the temporary things you're going through right now. Gosh how can I explain without saying overused phrases that end up meaning nothing? There are times when I feel something verging on suicidal--truly overwhelmed. Sometimes I feel I really WANT to feel bad, and just let it happen; but other times I try to overcome it. What helps me is a sort of reverse psychology--in the midst of all my problems I try to take stock of the things I should be grateful for. I mean, something as simple and specific as, well--it will sound silly--having all my fingers and toes. Just being aware that things could be much worse is not enough, I know. But when I really think deeply about a particular problem that I DON'T have, it gives me a little perspective, anyway. I think those angels are always there with you--even if you can't always feel it.

you shouldn't feel alone. for what it's worth, my sincere thoughts are with you, in spirit at least.

I've been in a similar situation not only just recently but throughout most of this year. I must say to you that God is always with you and his angels are too. It is also very important that I share this with you as well...sometimes God will remove things from you or your path so that he can bless you with something so much better. Many times that will be the case. You might not want to hear this other part but he also wants to see how much faith you have in him. Just recently I felt like I had prayed so much that I didn't want to pray anymore. I felt that it wasn't helping. But it does. It shows him that you still believe that he's there for you and it can also be a form of meditation. I can't explain that last part too much. But it worked for me. I still have financial problems right now but I'm not feeling hopeless and discouraged anymore. If you get the chance to be alone I want you to praise him for all the things that he's done for you and all the things that he will do for you. I know it will be hard when you begin praising him but don't let that stop you. Keep praising him and he'll make you feel better. Just believe. If you're husband wants to join you that's even better. May you and your family be blessed.

Barbara, please don't give up, no matter how bad things may seem at the moment, pray, even if it feels as if it's am empty prayer to you. Our Heavenly Father knows how you feel inside, and that's all that matters. I don't know your situation, but maybe it's time to make some time for yourself, as you say, you're always there for others. Let them know how you feel, it's time they were there for you and your family. You're too young to give into despair, I know that's easy for me to say, I don't walk in your shoes, but we have struggled all our lives, lost a beloved child, and sometimes we felt like giving up. But with God's graces we're still here, still struggling and as somebody said in an earlier post, try just counting one little blessing you have, and thanking Him for it. You may not want to hear this either, but sometimes misfortunes come along to serve a higher purpose, and to help us grow spiritually. So don't give up, we're here in spirit for you also, and maybe, just maybe, those angels will come around you again so you can feel their presence. God sent them to you, so consider yourself much loved by Him just to have that one experience. May Our Heavenly Father take you under His wing and Bless you and your family.

Dear Barbara...
what can I say? I'm 24, my life hasn't been easy either and although everything's ok now I feel so close to you... please, even if it all feels too much for you, don't give up. There have been times when things seemed so bad I couldn't find a way out. But that's when your strength comes out... it's like a primordial will to survive, despite everything that's so negative in your life. Let your heart feel that strength again. As much as this can help, my heart's there with you... hope you'll be feeling better soon.

Dear Barbara,
18 years ago I lost my faith and my life.My wife left me and I embarked on a pathway of self destruction and hedonism, all the time blaming God for my misfortunes.I married twice more and became a single parent. At the end of my third marriage I was ready to give up. Then I offered one last prayer. That was one year ago. I discovered a book by Anthony Robbins. As I began to wake up to the reality that I had more strength within me than I ever knew, I began to hear a voice within. It was then I found out that Mr. Robbins was a deeply religous and spiritual man. He had accomplished much and credited God with his achievements. Yet still I ignored the voice and credited myself. And it all seemed empty. Two things happened, One was a teacher I knew began to talk spiritually to me and then my duaghter asked if we could start going to church (she had never been). Then one day I was watching the movie The Ten Commandments with Charlton Heston and I made the comment, God parted an ocean and protected them with a pillar of fire and still they worshipped a golden idol. The small voice within me then spoke loud. It said "How many oceans must I part for you, how many times must I send angels to protect you before you will come home to me." I went to my room and cried like a child. Now my life is finally coming to order. The tools God has sent me, like the Tony Robbins book and the people like my daughter and her teacher were gifts. And the Lord once again lives in my heart. I will never doubt the love and support of God again.
Reach deep within yourself and find the strength to find him in your heart. Use all the tools at your disposal, God is still with you and his angels still surround you.
Heavenly Father, please bless Barbara and send your angels to comfort and guide her. Amen

Dear Barbar,
I feel for you deeply. I understand being lost and feeling like you do for people and sometimes you get nothing in return. But you do, it may not be right away, but it will come and God does love you and so do the angels. Don't give up, keep praying. You're in my prayers.

Mother/Father God, please help Barbara to feel the presence of Your love and the angels you have sent to soothe her troubles. Help her to define clear and compassionate boundaries around herself so she is not taken advantage of or made to be a martyr for other people's sakes because of her generous nature. Allow her to see that You have been with her all along, in her heart, even when she was so distressed as not to feel you. Surround her with Your healing love.

Abundant Universe, please send into Barbara's life the materials and energy she her family need to sustain themselves in this world.

So be it.

Amen.

Dear Barbara,

I felt the same as you did when I was 20. I was married, minus the child, and had given up a lot to be with my husband. Things were falling apart and I felt as if there was no God. There was just wreched me and I had to fend for myself. I was depressed, suicidal even. I was hospitalized, drugged up and sent home as "well". I did not get well until I realised that God was within me. And it took me a while and it wasn't exactly easy, but in my state it wasn't exactly hard either. And I found that as soon as I stopped trying so very hard to contact my angels and guides, that they contacted me. They are subtle- you just may be missing cues. Every meeting with your angels is different. I am sure your angels are with you and Mother/Father God is with you too.

Blessings,

~~~A

It breaks my heart to know that you feel so down and so defeated. Myself, I am 21 yrs. and a wife and mother and fuul time college student. I feel the wayyou do at times. We could not make it and me stay in school if not for all the help we get from my family. I always semm to pull my self out of my depression and I hope you will be able to do the same. You have not scared your angels away. They are with you, and Jesus is as well. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Please do not lose hope and FAITH, sometimes they are the only things that keep me going (that and my son). You be strong and keep doing the good that you can and it will come back to you.

Oh, and Barbara, sometimes I have to say to myself over and over "this too shall pass"

Dear Barbara, You ask what did you do to scare the angels away? Nothing, they are still with you. It's at a time like this that you have to grab on to your faith, and know that God is with you. Always has been and always will be. I became an ordained minister 6 years after finding out I had chronic progressive MS. People ask me how I can believe in a God who would strike me down with this illness. My answer is easy, He didn't. He gave me the courage to go on, the wisdom to know I still had more work to do, and the strength to get up every day, even when the pain tells me not to. I have already beat time given me by my first doctor, and will continue to do what I do. I counsel on the web, try to offer support where I can. Faith is what tells you you can when everyone tells you you can't. Believe in God as much as He believe and loves you.

I pray God send you the strength, calm, will, determination and wisdom you need to make of this seemingly awful situation a blessing
for you and your family in the long run

Hector Lopez
Mexico City

Dearest Barbara,
Many light and blessings. Dark nights of the soul are the scariest especially when we feel the light and love of the angels and Spirit and then we don't. The GREAT news is that they NEVER disappear! I've gone through some pretty dark times, and still do. I'm a single mother and went through recently a really bad break up and was recently diagnosed as being bi-polar or otherwise known as manic-depressive. I'm also getting my hours becoming a licensed marriage, family therapist. I was once at the point of believing that through prayer, counseling alone that I could conquer depression and all my suffering would go away, until someone whom is one of the most spiritual people I have ever met said, "Wendy, counseling is extremely important, especially with you being a counselor. There is no shame in that. And who do you think invented medicine to help people to move through dark times when all else fails?" Anti-depressants are NOT cure-alls, happy pills, addictive drugs etc...like so many people are lead to believe! I was at my lowest point when I searched and researched and said to myself "I'll try anything at this point, to find the best, psychiatrist who knows all about the right medicines and the best counselor who can help me see, God does not want me in this state of constant unhappiness or torture. This is complete hell to me, when I can't feel the love of Spirit and the angels, especially my guardian angel." Now, I'm on medicines, I still see a counselor, I still have dark days, but, I feel God constantly, I know without a doubt, God and the angels love me no matter what, and depression is caused by all sorts of conditions that may be temporary or not and there's no cause of shame for them. If you had diabetes, you'd be taking insulin. Same thing for depression. It's an option, one which may or may not be right for you. Know that I care, even though I personally don't know you. It's important though if you do decide to investigate your depression and counseling and possible medication to get the best professional help possible! A great site for depression is at www. about.com and go to "d" for depression and/or just type in depression for the search. Action begets action. Suicide is a permanent act to a temporary solution. I know though you will survive and see and feel the light once more because of all the love and prayers heading your way!

Dear Barbara,
I understand. Please try to handle one "thing" at a time ~ the first being to ASK for help; not only from God, but from a therapist, as well. I suffer from depression and panic disorder, and your letter might as well have been written by me. Depression is a disease~no different than any other. Please remember that, ok? If you were a diabetic, you would require insulin, right? Depression isn't any different. I feel strongly you have the disease called depression, and yes...there is help for it. Please don't allow other people to tell you to "just snap out of it"; tell you "how great your life is, and what could you possible be upset about??", and on and on. I've heard them all. With this disease, words can be our major enemy; or words from someone who does understand this disease can be our greatest help. It takes courage to admit one might have depression, but please tell someone exactly how you're feeling~in this instance, a physician.
If he or she doesn't listen, tell another physician, and don't stop until someone hears you. I will pray for you that someone listens, and hears you, quickly. God made all living creatures, including the women and men who are out there waiting to hear from you~who can offer you help, through listening, understanding, and possibly medication. I went 10 years untreated because people (my family) weren't listening~either from ignorance of this disease, or because they saw it as a "weakness". It's not a weakness, Barbara. May God Bless...and yes, there is hope. In the meantime, ask for help; take ONE day at a time; one hour at a time; call a "free" financial services help organization to help you get your finances straightened out. People are out there waiting to help. Just ask for it. Blessings, Barbara...
It may not seem like it right now, but life can get better. Promise. Love,
Ana xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

BARBARA...I FEEL FOR YOU..I ,TOO AM IN A SIMILAR SITUATION.BUT I AM 30..2 YEAR OLD CHILD..AND HUSBAND. WE ARE TRYING EVERYTHING WE CAN TO KEEP IT TOGETHER AND MAKE ENDS MEET BUT IT ALWAYS SEEMS THAT ONE THING SOLVED IS ANOTHER THING GONE WRONG...I WISH,TOO THAT I HAD ANGELS AROUND ME ,...THAT I COULD HEAR /SEE...TO HELP ME THROUGH THESE TIMES..THEY HAVE BEEN GOING ON TOO LONG..BUT , ATLEAST I HAVE THIS DAY TO WRITE THIS TO YOU AND YOU AND I BOTH KNOW THAT WE ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS FIGHT FOR THE BETTER LIFE...I WISH THAT I COULD HELP YOU IN SOME OTHER WAY ...HEY, IF YOU WANT TO TALK MY EMAIL IS tnthardbodies@netzero.net/or dekaris8104@yahoo.com...I CAN'T PAY YOUR BILLS..CAN'T PAY MY OWN..BUT I COULD MAYBE SEE YOU THROUGH SOME TIMES THAT MAYBE I'VE BEEN THROUGH,ALREADY...YOU NEVER KNOW...YOURS JUMPED OUT AT ME...SO MAYBE THERE IS SOMETHING I CAN HELP YOU WITH....CONTACT ME..WE'LL TALK...IF NOTHING ELSE..UNRELATED FRIENDS CAN ALWAYS HELP...& ATLEAST YOU HAVE FAMILY HELPING YOU...I HAVE NONE !!

AND BARBARA...GOD IS ALWAYS WITH YOU....KEEP YOUR FAITH IN HIM..I KNOW IT'S HARD..I, TOO AM HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME WITH WHAT IT'S ALL FOR...BUT IT IS ALL GOING TO BE OKAY...HE WORKS IN WEIRD WAYS..ALL OF THIS IS FOR A REASON..WHAT IT IS , I COULDN'T TELL YOU OR I'D BE IN A BETTER SIUATION..BUT IT WILL WORK ITSELF OUT...YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON AND EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS THAT THINGS ARE AWEFUL,NOW..IT HAS TO GET BETTER, RIGHT?? EMAIL ME..WE CAN TALK..I AM IN BOSTON,MA..MAYBE WE'LL TALK ON THE PHONE..IF I CAN HELP YOU IN ANY WAY..PLEASE LET ME KNOW..MAYBE WE CAN HELP EACHOTHER..I MARRIED A BLACK/CHEROKEE MAN AND MY SICILLIAN/PROT. FAMILY DISOWNED ME...
SO ALONE...I AM !!
LOVE TO YOU AND YOURS...KELLY

It's not that the angels have disappeared, they are all around you. They want you to know that you can succeed on your own, you have to believe in yourself. For so long they have guided the way for you, but now it's time you took an extra step..you lead the way to where you need to be helped. They won't leave you. Has God ever really left you alone? or was it you that left God alone?

Dear Barbara K.
I feel your pain. I was a mother at 19 yrs. of age and not married. No, my dear you are not alone. For Jesus watcheds over you and yours; and your guardian angel is near to help you. But, remember, angels are God's creation! They are his messengers to us and help us according to his will. Never take your eyes off Father God! He is first, in between, the end, he is Omnibus!!! I could write a book on life's challenges/trials/etc... Years went by; I married and had to more beautiful children with my husband. I have had 4 miscarriages, lost loved ones in my family and on my husbands side. I've gone thru piecing back together my childrens life and mine; because my husbands decided to make a very stupid judgement of being with someone else this year (while i was pregnant)....Trust me when I say I cried out to Almighty God for help and deliverance!!!!!!1 He removed the pain and eventually I was able to forgive!! We all got counseling and worked together! We also are fighting to not loose the house we are in now. You see my husbands actions caused a snowball effect right down to finances,etc..now we both have to clean up the mess and move on. But, If it were not for the daily guidance of Jesus; I could not do it. I got a wake up call two years ago; while bathing my children one night I heard a voice say" Are you ready to get up yet?" I ask my sons and my daughter if they heard a loud voice. They said no. There was no radio or tv on either. From that day on I knew I was in for trials,.....Not necessarily from Father God....but from the lesser one.....My Faith is my strong hold!!No one or anything will ever remove my Jesus from my spirit. It is to His hands I commend my Soul, ONLY!! God has blessed me and my family in so many ways. I give all the praise to him===the Glory is his for what we do have...I know it is not easy. I have put my hurt and anger into poetry and songs....Perhaps you would benefit trying this or just keeping a journal of yours thoughts of how you feel. Just between you and Jesus. I talk to him all the time. And it for no one elses eyes....It is an outlet for your emotions and stress....Fear is not from Jesus...He instills only peace and serenity into our lives...We have a great gift from God....It is Free Will...We pray for guidance and wisdom on decisions we make; but it is up to us as humans to discipline ourselves to listen to what Jesus has to say to us. The choices we make are our own....Jesus will never abandon you..You have the right start by asking the Lord to help you. Never take your eyes off of him...Yes, it is hard to balance motherhood, wife, homelife, etc...but, when the seas strong, you only need look at that glorious face of Jesus and here those words...."Peace be still..." Please read, John 1:5 "The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it.." If, you would like to email me; please feel free to do so. I will keep you in my prayers. In Jesus Sweet name. Amen
Angeldove9@juno.com

Don't give up. Ever. If you are lost, hug a tree, it works. Seize the day, to live instead of survive. We are praying for you.

Dear Barbara
My heart goes out to you, and I AM sending you love, healing, God's Light, and abundance in ALL ways. I am also sending you many working Angels to assist you in insight, direction, and financial aid. I would like you to start visualizing what your desires are. First of all write a letter to GOD, and tell God the desires of your heart by writing a list of ALL the things you need, want and desire to exist in your life. At the end of your God letter thank God for all of the blessings (as if they already happened) and ask that they be "for your greater good and higher self. Please start to believe and know that they are part of your life NOW, and not in some distant place. You are a beautiful soul and child of God and God does love YOU!!!
The darkside does terrible things to control our love for God and self, these things that you are experiencing are only temporary...NOT forever...
Sit very quietly after you write your God letter and be open to receive your answers, and believe me they do come in strange ways sometimes. Sit with your palms facing upward, this is a sign that you are open to receive all the Blessings that you have a right to receive. God Bless you Barbara (\0/) Angels at work.

On this day I pray for you, my friend. So that God, the one who hears, who never abandon us, help you gain again the hope and trust you need for this difficult journey that is LIFE. Please welcome in your heart the feelings of happiness and joy, the feelings of protection and security that being close to God brings. I have lost so many times my hopes and my path in life, and I have felt lost in every possible way, but I am ok now, I found my peace again by going back to God whom I should have never abandoned. I am as young as you are, and I know that even in the worst moments in my life, where I have denied God, He has been with me, I am sure He is with you right now, and the angels... they are there too. You just have to let them inside you again. God blessed you.

Dear Lord,

Please help our young sister and her family in their time of need. Shed your spirit upon them so that they may be fruitful and prosper according to your will.

Amen.

The angels will sing to you again, seek God, he cares about you!

I can definitely understand where you are coming from. I am also in my twenties, married, and have two children with one income. There are days when I have no idea how our bills get paid . God ALWAYS provides. There was a time in my life when I was homeless and thought I might die that way. I was abandoned by my parents when I was almost a teenager. Things got really bad. God always lokked out for me even when I did't think He was there. I know this because I could not have lived through the horror of my life if He were not there. Now I put complete faith in Him no matter what my concerns are. I understand that you are depressed right now and my suggestion to you is to first pray and tell God that you are scared. He will answer your prayer. It may not be the way you want Him to. Be willing to let Him do it in His time. You may also want to see a doctor about some anti depressants. It is nothing to be ashamed of. There are thousands of people that suffer from depression. I was one of those people. The anti-depressants work. Lots of love! God is with you!!!!!

An Angel by me( Sonat Ertürk, 18)

At daytime an angel flies over me,
at night he watches my sleep.
He passes all doors,his love is the key
to oceans of feelings so deep.

I feel him beside me, though I never see
his body or at least a part,
but right through me passes his purity
which uniquely warms my heart.

He lightens the dark,he guides me the way,
he keeps me from being alone.
He shows me a beauty, whenever I pray,
that before him I´d never been shown.

He eases my pain with tender caress
and gives me complete satisfaction,
but humans won´t reach, what we must confess,
his immortal eternal perfection
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May your guardian angel find you again, dear Barbara, I´m sure he is already
watching over you again.
Most importantly: Never loose belief in ÝOURSELF!!! Even if there are higher powers, watching and helping us, it is OUR responsebility to live our life in a way that enables us to find answers.
Warmly
Sonat Soni1982@aol.com