I suffer from clinical depression and lost my job, but here's what happened after suffering hugely from being in such a dark hole of depression: I got laid off. Obviously, getting fired from my job right before Christmas 2001 was a trigger, and I knew it and dreaded the approaching doom. I couldn't read, I couldn't concentrate on ANYTHING, and I couldn't sleep. My anxiety progressed. I became apathetic, weak and unable to function, and the hole grew and darkened. It seemed there was no way up and out of the darkness. I needed some stairs out of there or things would get even worse. I
have no kids. I had nothing to do, after interviewing with recruiters,
waiting for a job. I was unmotivated to search the Sunday paper, as all
the good ads were ads for the recruiters I'd already been to, who
weren't calling me. I could not see any light in my darkness. I stayed in my pajamas all day for days on end waiting for a recruiter to call.
I'd stopped going to church years ago, thinking I'd needed the "rest" on Sunday
morning and didn't need the weekly spiritual food. Boy was I WRONG.
I decided to go down the street to a nearby church to the 8:00am service in the chapel. I sat near the rear because
I'd been on a crying binge and didn't want anybody to see my red face. I was ashamed of being depressed, even in God's house. After the message, the pastor asked if anyone had any prayer
requests. About 7 people spoke out with life and death and surgery and
cancer and missionary issues. He asked, "anybody else?" I hesitated
for what seemed like a long time. He asked again. I hesitated. He asked again, and it seemed as if he was talking to me. I felt silly with my problem when young people were dying of cancer, but I figured, problems are problems. I raised my hand, surprising myself, and said out loud in the small church, "For me to get a job." I immediately turned a bright shade of red and tried to laugh. Everyone turned and smiled at me. He said, "what kind of job?" I said, "legal secretary," feeling a little more strength. He then said a long prayer for each request and I heard mine, grateful. Not 3 minutes later, a man behind me tapped me on the shoulder and handed me a business card. On the back of the card was a
hand-written message: I know many attorneys and know I can get you
interviews. God Bless" and signed his name. I flipped the card over and it was the business card of the CEO of a huge design firm. I turned around and the man behind me pointed out the man who handed it to him. I mouthed my thanks to him and sincere gratitude, planning to hold it together long enough to thank him after the service was over. I was overwhelmed with a feeling of love and care from this stranger, and I needed it SO BAD right then! The service ended, I turned around, and he was gone. I could not find him anywhere. I burst out the back doors, my hurting heart soothed with tears of joy. Sobbing, I drove
home and couldn't stop my uncontrollable tears, seeing proof that God had heard me! That day, I got a Sunday paper and e-mailed out resumes to each ad I found, about 6, still rather doubtful anything would come of it, but at the same time, just protecting myself from another letdown. A few days later, the calls started coming. One from a law firm
originating from the nice man in church, and every email or fax I sent
from the paper. One was of particular interest. To make the rest of the story short, the job I've always wanted is going to make me a firm offer this week and the others are also calling me. I should land one of them this week.
This is a true story. I hope it gives you a blessing. I will pray for
you to find a job quickly, with God's help, and that you will not be
afraid to ask for help. From human angels and from God.
God knows what He is doing, even if we think things are falling apart.
Remember, this period is but a blip on the movie of your life.
And He Listens. He really does.
I feel your pain, your aloneness and your sorrow. Please be uplifted. Praises are to the Almighty because nothing comes to us that he is unable to use for our good. I know you must feel very despondent and incapable of praise, if you will but utter the Creator's name in supplication please know that he will be moved to send his Angels to act on your behalf. It is when trials come that the Lord triumphs, without them we may become even more lazy in our relationship with him. It is these trials that he uses to pull us out of the mire to give thanks to him and him alone. Satan is also there to pull you down into the depression and the fear that Our Father has abandoned you. He has not, and he will come. Please call out to him with moanings and songs and psalms the words do not need to be right because he feels and hears the communications from your spirit. Be blessed be uplifted this is my prayer for you today. May God's will be done in your life today as every day, I ask this in Christ Jesus name by the blood. Amen and Amen.