Prayer Circles

About twelve years ago, my life was a complete mess. I prayed, read my bible, went to church and did any and everything because I thought that as long as I'm doing the right things in Gods eyes, good things would come to me. Well, they didn't. As each day passed my life went further and further downhill. I stayed on my kness talking to God. Asking him why had he forsaken me. I was a good servant and I defended him so, I wanted to know why didn't he defend me? As the months went by, I finally gave up. I had prepared myself for death because I thought that it would be better to end my life than live in Hell. I tried to commit suicide but was too coward to go through with it so, I admitted myself into a mental ward. I didn't realize that once you are in the mental ward, you could not leave until the doctor feels that you are no longer a danger to yourself. My room-mate on the other hand was truly unstable and so was everyone else in the ward. I was scared to death. Each day that I was there, I looked out of the window and saw the sun shinning and other people just going on with their lives. I begin to realize what I was trying to give up-my freedom. I also realized that God never gave up on me. He had to let me get to this point in life so that I could see for myself what I was giving up on. The day that I left that hospital was the day that I began to live all over again. That very bad time in my life was just like a nightmare. You know that nightmares end because you can't sleep for ever. You just have to wake up and realize that this pain and heartache is only temporary and that God is teaching you the only way that he knows how, thrue experience. How can you help others with their problems unless you can testify about how you have been through similar situations yourself? I would like to thank God for my rough times because if I had not been through these things, I would be able to tell you today that it will all pass. You just have to wade through the troubled waters and most of all, JUST TRUST IN GOD....