Prayer Circles

I moved 1500 miles away from my abusive mother and still couldn't break free without help. For me it was therapy, faith and good friends. We are taught to honor our parents. I believe that we do that when we live lives that follow God's path. The sins of the father are "visited" on the child. God doesn't want them to be permanent, but if we don't learn how to break the pattern we risk repeating it in our adult lives. You are whole, complete and perfect as you are. You only need God's validation. He is your true father. The lessons you are to learn from your abusive Earth father are done. Move away from the pain and towards the light. Our planet needs healthy, healed future fathers. God is there for you. Trust in that. God Bless you. You are in my prayers.

Dear Heavenly Father,

Please help fortify and strenghten your servant Chris in his difficult moments thank you for allowing him to recognize that abuse is wrong in your eyes and help him to realize that although his hurt is real he must leave it with god and that through god all things are possible nothing is impossible for the Lord God.

I ask this in Jesus mighty name amen.

Lord
please help Chris to live a healthy and happy life. Thank You Lord for all You have given us. Amen

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The keepers of magic and dreams.
Angels watch over you wherever you go,
Keeping each day perfect
And promising a bright new tomorrow.
Wherever there is love
An angel is flying by.
Your guardian angel knows you inside and out
And loves you just the way you are.
Angels keep it simple and always travel light.
Remember to leave space in your relationships
So the angels have room to play.
Your guardian angel helps you find a place
When you feel there is no place to go.
Whenever you feel lonely,
A special angel drops in for tea.
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And help you soar with amazing grace.
After all, we are all angels in training;
All we have to do is spread our wings and fly.

I am struggling with the fact that my mother is very emotionally abusive to me, even saying I have hallucinated previous physical abuse done by another family member. My mother never admits she is wrong, blames me constantly for her negative emotional states, and has often sent me away on such a guilt trip that I've come close to committing suicide. My mother once told me that I had chosen to be born and that she felt she had to have me because of this decision I made (?). How can this possibly be rational. Obviously I am still stuck in this abuse with her. I have realized today this woman does not like me. I now must move on.

Whats hard is leaving without her getting so angry and laying a subsequent guilt trip on me, blame issue, that will make me feel obligated to stay and still try to mend this weird mother/daughter relationship. I am so fed up with her, I have blocked her email addresses. I am so tired at 39 years old of apologizing, taking the blame, and having my reputation ruined by her with other family members..I found this board and I am trying to cope. I am wondering if I should leave the state and get far from her so I no longer have to participate in holidays when she frequently gets angry that she has to cook the meal and acts extremely hostile while smiling. I have offered to cook and she never lets while continuing to complain about how much she hates it.. I have realized I was never really wanted and am just a constant reminder to her of a child she has never wanted in the first place since I was accidentally concieved out of wedlock when she was disloyal to my dad. She now tells me that once she felt me in her belly, she knew she must have me because I wanted to born (?) What a blame game this now seems to me now. What am I suppose to do, end my life to provide her relief or repent for her sin of having me?

I've had enough depression over this mother issue. I'm so angry that I've wasted so much time trying to save the relationship. From here on out, I'm going to find what makes me happy, what I want to do with my life, and leave where I feel safer.

Chris L if your highest self accepts this healing, then let it be so. I call to Archangel Raphael to assist you in cutting all cords to healing your relationship, past, present and future with your father. May your heart be healed with Universal Love energy and you be forever protected in the white light of the Universal Holy Spirit. May any guilt that you have be severed when the cord(s) are gently cut away and may you be FREE in knowing that you can love someone as a parent who made you, but nothing more. May you walk through this life in full compassion for yourself and fulfill your life in loving self-kindness. Release these burdens now in the name of the Holy Spirit. It is now done, let it be so. You are blessed.