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Dear Diary,

Jay asked me to go with him to the cotillion dance, and then to TCBY afterwards. (So to my family who is always asking me where you go when you are going with someone, I say HA!) I think his dad can drive us to TCBY and then I guess Mom can pick me up afterwards.

I hope we get to dance together though. Usually they mix us up and make us dance with any random person, which I guess is good because no one is left out. Last year they made us take off one shoe and each boy picked a shoe and we had to dance with the person who picked our shoe. I had to dance with Stephen, who is too tall and such a geek. I really wanted to dance with Robbie, but he did not get my shoe. So I hope this time they will let us dance with who we want, and I can dance with Jay.

Karin


Dear Diary,

I was passing a note to Jay in English class and Mrs. Gerbins saw it and picked it up and I was terrified she was going to read it out loud, I would have totally died of embarrassment, but she did not. It told him I was really excited about seeing him this weekend. Then we sat together at lunch. I totally want to marry him. He says he wants to go to Cornell to college, I don't even know where that is. I wonder if we can go together.

Karin


Dear Diary,

I am getting nervous about the weekend. The date. I am nervous about what to wear, and I am nervous about whether we will kiss, whether it will feel like a date, whether I even should be kissing or dating him. I am so embarrassed to admit that, I Would Not Admit That To Anyone But You. But in church they are often warning us not to start kissing and fooling around too young.
I don't think anyone at my church would say to not kiss until you're married (which is what they say at Krista's church, isn't that insane? That is so dumb and unrealistic). But they do say that if you start kissing, then soon enough, kissing won't feel very exciting and then you'll do more and more. Well, I want to kiss but I don't want to have sex.

Karin


Dear Diary,

HE KISSED ME!!!! We went to cotillion, and we didn't get to dance together even once, he danced mostly with Suzie and I danced with Andy J. and Wolfe. But then we were waiting for his dad to come and pick us up and he took me into the coatroom and kissed me. French kissed me! I know that he kissed Hallie at a dance last year, but I have never been kissed before. Everyone knew we were in there doing that and they all thought it was so cool. Except Josephine who told me alter that she thought I shouldn't kiss someone on the first date, but I think she is just jealous. I am going to write him a note and sign it Sealed With A Kiss and then kiss the envelope.

Karin


Dear Diary,

Today is Sunday. In church we had a confession, of course. I did not feel too bad about kissing Jay, but I thought, well, I would feel bad if we had done much more than that, and I can see that after kissing a lot you would want to do more than that.. But it doesn't seem like it is good to just go to extremes, which is what the church always seems to want us to do: don't drink in case you might become an alcoholic, don't kiss so that you won't have sex. Church should be a place where people can get balanced advice. I think kissing is nice.

Karin

To be continued...

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