What’s ahead for me…for us?
It’s important to understand that God is the healer, and you aren’t. We’re sure that you desperately desire to bring healing, respite, stability, normalcy back to your husband and to your household. But that job is too big for you. It’s too complex. Only the infinite mind of God can get a handle on your situation and bring about the conclusion you desire. But He will use you in the process. You could be the most significant “bridge” that God will use to create the environment that will give Him optimal access to your husband’s body, soul and spirit. Keep your mind open to the partnering God wants to forge with you.
Trauma is a thief. The self-defense mechanisms that God built into your husband were vital at the time his body and mind were attacked, but now – not so much. As a Marine, Soldier, Sailor, Airman or Coastguardsman, he sacrificed. As his wife, you sacrificed. But more has been taken from you both than you bargained for. God wants to reimburse you for what has been taken, if you let Him:
Then I will make up to you for the years that the swarming locust has eaten…You will have plenty to eat and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, who has dealt wondrously with you; then My people will never be put to shame. – Joel 2:25,26