If somebody out there can tell me the best way to deal with the death of my child. He has been gone for 10 months and 7 days he was 11 yrs old. I have no ability left to cope with life and would like nothing more than to die, but am having doubts as to that. I seem to have lost the ability to move on or to help anybody else with this. If anybody has any ideas I would love to hear them.
Hi I too lost a child my sons twin brother July22,2000, It is one of the hardest things to deal with losing a child, just when you think your finally starting to deal with it, wham you have another day filled with tears. Try to find a support group where you can express your feelings, one for grieving parents, grieving moms something like that.
-- mom25boys (Post #3)
Hello dear one...I am so sorry for your loss. I am still recovering from the shock of the traumatic birth of my first baby, Jeremy who was stillborn-full term this past December due to an umbilical cord accident.I light a candle for Jeremy every evening when I go to bed and say my prayers and meditate. It makes me feel like I've communicated my warmth and love to him and I sleep better (after I blow the candle out!) knowing that I've sent positive energy to him.
After over 20 years it still hurts. My son was 16 years old when I lost him. It seems to take about 2 years to begin to feel alive again..If you have other children remember that they need you now more than ever. If you continue in a state of mourning--those children have lost not only their brother but their mother as well. Surviving children often feel as if their parents would have preferred losing one of them rather than the one who died.
Perhaps mythology is right, life is a heros journey. All I understand is that we seem to be unable to embrace pain or darkness. Loving what is beautiful and light flows naturally.
Through coming to terms with our loss, we learn to somehow return the experience to light. We learn to develop within the meaning we give to the loss, a meaning that is useful. It seems to be that if we can find something useful, something good, we find a means to go on.
My wish for you is that in your loss you will continue to hold within you the love you have experienced. My wish is that this beauty will not be taken from you internally, as it has externally.
-- FireRaven (#22)
.The advice that a mother of a deceased child can give you is to stay in prayer, ask God for the streng[th] to help you accept the things that you can not change, ask God for the courage to make it through each day, ask God, and believe that only God can make it better for you.
-- myhearts (#23)
-- Docrichard (Post #28)
.I will pray for you that you will find peace. Try to get some therapy, it helps Keep active - don't isolate yourself. Be good to yourself - this is not punishment for something you did wrong. Cry when you need to. Laugh when you can - do not feel guilty for any joy you feel - it's okay to go on with your life - your child would want you too. He is at peace, he will never suffer or be sick, his "world" is perfect - he is in paradise. Love yourself as he would want you to. I know this seems impossible, but remember with God all things are possible. Even the Blessed Mother had to go on after the death of her Son - let her be your example.
-- angelgreyt (#48)
.I understand because I lost my 13 year old son in 1986. His death was devastating to me and my family. It is still hard to talk about him, even after all these years. Please, talk to your minister and get some grief counseling. Start a journal and pour out your feelings. Pray and read your bible. And most of all, remember that it is not God's fault. Lean on him, don't blame him. It took me a long time to realize that things happen, and we don't necessarily get a reason for it.
-- AgelessStudent (#51)
so sad for you my friend
I lost a daughter and went through all the motions for 8 months and had a breakdown....was trying so hard to be strong for everyone....I searched, read books and prayed for understanding....finally I read a quote: GOD DOES NOT TAKE OUR CHILDREN FROM US....HE RECEIVES THEM BACK...I think then the healing started.....God loaned me a wonderful daughter for a short time then took her home again..
-- arkiemama (#56)
The hurt never really goes away...I lost my son, (who was 21 yrs. old) 7 years ago...I have been where you are...it is a stage...so many people tried to help..no one, and I mean no one, knows what you are going through...each persons grief is different, and each persons experience is different...all I can say is that you will get through it...
-- WillyBeauTeaford (#68)
I totally understand what you are going through, and you have my deepest sympathy. I have lost most of my loved ones - a 19-year old beloved daughter, both of my parents and, more recently, my husband. Without a doubt it was tough to lose them all, but losing a child was the most devastating of all.
I was having a great deal of trouble dealing with her death, and felt the weight of the world was on my shoulders. I noticed her sister seemed to be managing better. Sometimes we learn from our children. I followed her advice and that night when saying my prayers added "God, I cannot handle this alone. Please help me." Instantly the heavy weight on my shoulders lifted and I felt God's presence. My grief did not end there, but I was able to handle it better.
-- helenadam (#90)