Our interview was conducted on the stage of Roone Arledge Hall, at Columbia University, as Amma, dressed in a simple white sari, gave darshan (literally, 'a vision of') to hundreds of spiritual seekers who lined up for a long hug. Even as she answered questions, she continued embracing her devotees, offering words of comfort along with a Hershey's Kiss. Divinity or not, it becomes clear just what makes grown men weep at her touch. When they're hugged, however briefly, many feel that the crowd recedes and the world fades away. The Goddess becomes the mother, a child in her arms.
You had a difficult childhood, and many of your devotees come to you with heavy hearts. Can true understanding and compassion come to us only after great suffering?
For those who have a spiritual understanding, this will happen. Not for everyone. If you understand the essential principles in life, then sorrow can become the light in the darkness. But normal human beings sometimes become deeply depressed when faced with challenges of life's sorrows and pain. Whereas the spiritual seeker channels all his energies to God, the pain and the sorrow. He pours out his heart to God, to a higher reality. For him, it becomes a source of great understanding and compassion.
So pain is necessary?
It's not that it's necessary. It's just the nature of the world, it's the nature of experiences, the nature of life, that it will bring pain and pleasure, failure and success. But how you receive it, and how you look at it, how you evaluate it, is more important.
So a normal human being, he doesn't receive it with a positive attitude. So it becomes a source of unhappiness and sometimes even culminates in depression. Whereas a spiritual seeker channels that to God, the pain and sorrow, he pours out his heart to the Divine. Then it becomes a source of compassion, and it really deepens your understanding.
As the wax melts, the candle becomes brighter. Likewise, in the case of a spiritual seeker, when there is more pain, when there is more sorrow and suffering, his inner light becomes more and more brighter.
Is the wax representative of the ego?
It can be compared to the ego, but it depends on how you interpret it. You're going beyond the body and the mind mechanism. Basically, it's the ego or the mind or the thought process. A spiritual person--or a person who has a higher goal in life, like self-realization or God-realization--gains more awareness and alertness while going through the pain and sorrows of life.Suppose you have a headache and you suddenly become aware of your head. Until then, although we have a head, we have a forehead, we're never aware of it. It's the way you look at it.
Some people become depressed and they even reach a dead end of life, but others utilize it as a path to attain more understanding and also to move closer to God.
The story of your childhood is filled with many miracles. Aren't you worried that these miracles will distort your true message?
I'm not interested in all these miracles. There are no miracles which don't exist already on Earth. The biggest miracle of all is the miracle of mental peace. That's the only miracle I'm interested in. I never did anything. [In her youth, Amma was often berated by her elder brother, who disapproved of her spiritual ways. As the story goes, he one day destroyed the oil lamp that she and her followers used for prayers. She then instructed her distraught followers to fashion lamps out of seashells, substituting water for oil. The lamps managed to stay lit overnight.] They wished to bring water, so I said, "OK, go ahead and do it."
They alone did it. I didn't touch anything with my hand. They wished it themselves. I have no interest in it. They were the ones who created an uproar.
When we went there [the temple], there was neither oil nor lamps, so what was I supposed to do? I just told them to go get some seashells and pour a little water into them.