Salt Lake City, Nov. 12, 2001-- James Bennett received an unexpected gift while serving an LDS mission to Scotland in 1988--a copy of the missionary diaries of his great-grandfather, David O. McKay.
The 19-year-old was aware that McKay, president of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints from 1950 to 1971, was one of the most popular Mormon leaders ever, renowned for his open mind and gentle, benevolent manner.
What Bennett learned from the diaries, though, was that during McKay's mission to Scotland nearly 100 years earlier, the teen-who-would-be-prophet hated "tracting"--knocking on strangers' doors--and was often cold, discouraged and homesick.
"I thought I was nowhere near where he was spiritually," says Bennett, now artistic director at Tuacahn School for the Performing Arts in St. George. "Reading that he started out as a missionary with all the same frustrations I had was reassuring to me.
"If you only read about people being perfect, it makes you feel hopeless."
Today, McKay's diaries are in the University of Utah's Special Collection, where anyone can peruse them.
But such openness makes some Mormon leaders, members and even historians nervous. They want to shield the faithful from the foibles of the past, keeping leaders safely on their pedestals. To do otherwise, they say, destroys faith.
The LDS Church's guarded stance toward its own history is a hot topic among historians and even rank-and-file members who are keeping a close eye on the tug of war between the church and Utah State University over materials donated to the school by the late Mormon historian Leonard J. Arrington.
Arrington's huge collection includes copies of documents owned by the church. The church also says it rightfully owns the copies, especially of church leaders' papers and minutes of meetings.
But USU officials argue Arrington clearly believed those documents should be more freely available, which is why he deposited his copies in the school's archives.
As a newly formed committee from USU and the church wrangles over the Arrington collection, many observers wonder where other Mormon historical gold mines might be found and what nuggets of insight they hold, bringing unprecedented attention to material typically considered rather mundane.
Early members were enjoined to keep journals and most complied. Many believed they were telling the story of God's handiwork in their lives and left out few details.
In the past two decades, however, access to documents at the LDS Church archives has fluctuated.
When Arrington was the church's official historian in the 1970s, the archives were almost completely open to researchers and historians.
That changed after Arrington and his team of historians were moved to church-owned Brigham Young University in Provo. Almost immediately, materials involving the faith's general authorities were sealed from view, even to family members and descendants.
For example, many of Brigham Young's letters and journals, including copies, still are unavailable to the public, says Ron Esplin, director of BYU's Joseph Fielding Smith Institute.
"[The church] is still trying to determine how much to open up and to whom and how often," says Esplin, who believes that those decisions are made on practical grounds, such as protecting the privacy of individuals.
Other researchers find it hard to understand the basis for denying access to the materials.
It is based on "capricious policies, whimsically applied and silently changed," says researcher Lavina Fielding Anderson, who has edited several books and written many articles on Mormon history.
The LDS Church declined to explain its access policies. But Richard E. Turley Jr., managing director of the historical department, wrote in an essay that "the majority of the thousands of collections in the Historical Department are open and available to the public."
Records of church disciplinary proceedings and journals of church officials who record confidential information are among the restricted papers, Turley wrote.
Fearing that no one will be able to read their relatives' journals or correspondence, many faithful Mormons are choosing not to leave those documents to the church, says historian Michael Quinn, an adjunct professor at the University of Southern California.
Instead, they are entrusting their treasures to such repositories as the University of California at Berkeley, Yale University, Princeton University, one of Utah's public universities or Utah State Archives, where they will be public. Quinn himself gave scores of research notes, including thousands of transcripts of Mormon documents, to Yale University.