If God loves you so much, why he allowed you to "suffer"
A hard or painful question to answer, but I know many will ask after reading this will be, If God loves you so much, why he allowed you to "suffer" from an "undiagnosed" syndrome?
Towards the beginning of middle school I went through a phase where I was so angry with God. I could not understand why he punished me with a syndrome that not only no one knows a thing about but one that causes me to be ridiculed and judged because of my appearance. It wasn’t until high school that I started realizing that no matter how hard I prayed, no matter how many times I wished upon a star, I was never going to wake up in the morning and magically look like everyone else.
My mindset started turning and I started realizing that maybe there was a reason that God decided to make me so unique. It hit me that my attitude is what is going to make or break me. I could either stay in my room feeling sorry for myself or I can start looking at the bright side of things because even though I had it rough there is always someone else out there who is worse off than I am. Once I started on the path of self-acceptance everything started to make sense. God didn’t punish me with this syndrome; he gave me one of the biggest blessings in my entire life.
Having this syndrome has opened up so many doors for me to help other people who are feeling like they aren’t good enough. They might not have my syndrome and know what it’s like to be in my shoes but I can be someone they can relate to who has gone through similar struggles as they have. Looking back I feel so guilty that I was ever angry with God for this syndrome when he actually blessed me with it.