But after what she calls "the toughest four years of her life," Grant is back to the business of writing and recording songs. Her new album, "Legacy," mostly her renderings of traditional hymns, celebrates her 25th anniversary as a singer. A collection of new songs is due in the fall. In a recent interview with Beliefnet about her career and Christian music today, Grant came across as a confident and seasoned artist, who seems well aware of what she's accomplished in her quarter-century as a songwriter and a Christian--even if she won't admit it.
I read recently where you said you hadn't really considered your influence in the music world. Do you really not recognize your role in creating contemporary Christian music?
My brain just doesn't go that way. One night this week, two friends who have known me since childhood call me to tell me they'd seen Lifetime Television's intimate portrait about me. Both said to me, "You were working so hard that whole time and none of us really even thought about it!" I don't sit around and think about my influence.
Are you proud of where the Christian music industry is?
[Laughs.] The people I've been exposed to have been people of amazing integrity. Do I think all contemporary Christian music is good? No. There are a lot of records I'd buy, and a lot I listen to and say, "Ugh, that's popular?" But I think that's true of country, or pop. There are records that just hit a nerve. That doesn't mean it has to hit my nerve.
It's human nature to be curious about people, and to be more curious about young people than old people. We want to cheer something on at the same time we want to tear it down. That's just so normal.
What saved me during all that heavy scrutiny is that I was never working an unrevealed agenda. If somebody said, "I didn't appreciate what you had on," I was wearing it either because I woke up, walked in the closet and asked, "What fits?" or because I thought it looked cute. I was never trying to be someone that I'm not, or I'm trying to reinvent myself.
When I was younger there were more than one or two times when I would come away from a situation thinking, Boy, am I glad that particular person is not my father! I don't read articles about myself or go in chat rooms. If I'm frustrated by something, it's my fault for exposing myself to it in the first place. The rumor mill always seemed like a grass fire to me. Why walk out in the middle of the field, it's just going to flame out and go away just like everything else does?
But there have been a couple of times when someone would really get in my face. I remember thinking, I'm trying to do something positive here and I just pictured some guy and thought okay, when your child comes home in trouble, with a drug addiction or pregnant, I hope you are a lot more merciful toward her than you have been toward me.
Do you think that that's changed in the Christian music community, since you started, that judgmentalism?
Sure. The world my children are growing up in is so much more sophisticated and exposed-emotionally, intellectually, sexually. Back then there was still kind of an innocence, even how people expressed life as a believer in public. Music took a bunch of average-Joe Christians who could play electric guitar and sing and threw them into the limelight. But we were not a bunch of Billy Grahams. The first [singers] whose lives became public, it was like, "Wait a minute, you don't know everything about the Bible. And you surely don't have all the answers!" Up to that point, if someone was a Christian and they were in the public eye, it was because they were a preacher or a teacher.