This is what we’ll remember about David Foster Wallace. He was fully
attuned to the complex difficulties of contemporary life, and, we know
now, he was wrestling with his own demons of darkness. But again and
again, his writing expressed faith in the goodness of creation (meaning
life as we know it) and creations (meaning the artful stuff we make of
My favorite piece of writing by DFW is this piece from Harper’s Magazine
about dictionaries–yes, dictionaries! It’s a lively, funny,
informative, intensely readable piece of work, and could only be
created by a man deeply in love with language. I read that thing seven
years ago, and to this day I can hardly look up a definition without
remembering the experience of reading that essay. How’s that for a
gifted artist, aye? Someone who can change the way you look at a
dictionary? Heavens, what a loss.
I’ll leave you with two uplifting DFW passages, the first (via Alan Jacobs)
from a recent profile of tennis great Roger Federer, the second from a
2005 commencement speech at Kenyon College. In Federer, DFW finds
occasion to celebrate the nature of inspiration, and what it does to us
all. In the graduation address (read the whole thing for a real shot in the arm), DFW talks about how we all worship, and must carefully choose what we will give our worship to.
In the same emphatic, empirical, dominating way that Lendl
drove home his own lesson, Roger Federer is showing that the speed and
strength of today’s pro game are merely its skeleton, not its flesh. He
has, figuratively and literally, re-embodied men’s tennis, and for the
first time in years the game’s future is unpredictable. You should have
seen, on the grounds’ outside courts, the variegated ballet that was
this year’s Junior Wimbledon. Drop volleys and mixed spins, off-speed
serves, gambits planned three shots ahead — all as well as the
standard-issue grunts and booming balls. Whether anything like a
nascent Federer was here among these juniors can’t be known, of course.
Genius is not replicable. Inspiration, though, is contagious, and
multiform — and even just to see, close up, power and aggression made
vulnerable to beauty is to feel inspired and (in a fleeting, mortal
…in the day-to day trenches of adult life, there is actually no such
thing as atheism. There is no such thing as not worshipping. Everybody
worships. The only choice we get is what to worship. And the compelling
reason for maybe choosing some sort of god or spiritual-type thing to
worship — be it JC or Allah, bet it YHWH or the Wiccan Mother Goddess,
or the Four Noble Truths, or some inviolable set of ethical principles
— is that pretty much anything else you worship will eat you alive.
If you worship money and things, if they are where you tap real
meaning in life, then you will never have enough, never feel you have
enough. It’s the truth. Worship your body and beauty and sexual allure
and you will always feel ugly. And when time and age start showing, you
will die a million deaths before they finally grieve you. On one level,
we all know this stuff already. It’s been codified as myths, proverbs,
clichés, epigrams, parables; the skeleton of every great story. The
whole trick is keeping the truth up front in daily consciousness.
Worship power, you will end up feeling weak and afraid, and you will
need ever more power over others to numb you to your own fear. Worship
your intellect, being seen as smart, you will end up feeling stupid, a
fraud, always on the verge of being found out. But the insidious thing
about these forms of worship is not that they’re evil or sinful, it’s
that they’re unconscious. They are default settings.
They’re the kind of worship you just gradually slip into, day after
day, getting more and more selective about what you see and how you
measure value without ever being fully aware that that’s what you’re
And the so-called real world will not discourage you from operating
on your default settings, because the so-called real world of men and
money and power hums merrily along in a pool of fear and anger and
frustration and craving and worship of self. Our own present culture
has harnessed these forces in ways that have yielded extraordinary
wealth and comfort and personal freedom. The freedom all to be lords of
our tiny skull-sized kingdoms, alone at the center of all creation.
This kind of freedom has much to recommend it. But of course there are
all different kinds of freedom, and the kind that is most precious you
will not hear much talk about much in the great outside world of
wanting and achieving and [unintelligible — sounds like “displayal”].
The really important kind of freedom involves attention and awareness
and discipline, and being able truly to care about other people and to
sacrifice for them over and over in myriad petty, unsexy ways every day.