As I sat down to write this post I began by looking over a post from my own personal blog for inspiration and this really caught my eye:
“These past few months have been really hectic for me. I quit my job, made a move, and am now working retail, living with my parents, and trying to figure out what my next step is going to be. I’ve been doing a lot of networking which has been super helpful in the job search but also in learning about relationships and generally gaining wisdom from those that have gone before me. With every passing day I have become more certain that I am not yet ready to make a big decision about committing my life to anything. The only thing I can commit to right now is following Christ. I’ve always said that I was following His will for my life. And I always have in a very general way. But if I’m not spending a great deal of time in the word, I can’t discern the specifics of any plan He has for me. So for the next few months. I’m going to keep putting out feelers for jobs, but really focus on my relationship with God. I’m getting plugged in at church and I really feel God moving in my life for the first time in a while. I don’t even begin to understand exactly what He’s doing or where He’s going to take me but I know that he has heard the cries of my heart and is providing me with the community that I need right now, which is super encouraging. ”
I wrote this back in February and looking back it is AMAZING to see how God has worked in my life. I was feeling really alone when I moved back home. I was in my hometown but all of my friends live elsewhere now and I didn’t really have a peer group to hang out with. Since then I have spent a lot of time in the word, in praise, in fellowship and just in various types of communion with God. He has provided me with this incredible small group, friends, and most importantly peace in the knowledge that He is leading my life. He has stepped out and shown up when I felt like things were falling apart and has allowed my faith to grow so that I might trust Him in all things.
It strikes me that this is what it’s really all about isn’t it? It’s not about having everything all figured out. I still don’t know what my next step is. But it’s about trusting in Him, the provider of all things. I know that whatever my next step is and regardless of how scary or intimidating it might be, He will be with me leading the way.