Question: Recently I have been seeing some things about myself that are both startling and surprising. For instance, how silly it seems (now) to think that I could possibly know what is greater than myself without that same greatness inviting me to first be a witness to my own (unseen) limitations. In the great mystery that seems to surround my wish to awaken to myself, it is seeing these same (self-imposed) limitations that I realize the need and the will to transcend myself. It feels like such moments are invitations to give myself up, surrender the same self that is so sure it “knows.” Seems as though I’m headed towards a new “me” but I have no idea who this is or will be?
Answer: Yes, all that you are seeing is as it should be; as best you are able, have no concern for those periods of confusion that must appear between a glimpse of truth and that truths work in and upon you. We are intended (through the work of truth within us) to awaken to and realize a whole new order of individuality, one in which our deference will be to live in and from the larger body (of Christ)…the Great Individual. And this growing awareness (of one’s true self) serves to fuel in us a growing indifference to who and what we have been…with all of its unconscious (and ultimately self-serving) ambition. In a way, it’s a reversal of polarity; the first becomes last, and the last, first. Our one great responsibility in all of this is to remain willing to see what is true, and then do what is asked of us as a result; and we are not to judge the outcome of these actions, for we cannot know what awaits. Instead, we must hold to what we have seen and intuit as being true…that God is good. The more we love this goodness, the more we see its all-encompassing, uncompromised Individuality, the more we will be willing to act in a singular way to embody this same Good. God takes care of the rest.
When you run into a personal obstacle, you have not run into an outer condition that is denying you happiness. You have run into your own present life-level. Your level of being is what determines where you are at any given moment, because your experience is always who you are.
When you hear someone say, “I’m sick and tired of it,” what they are really saying without realizing it is that they’re sick and tired of suffering from their own lack of understanding. This all becomes clear once we understand that unhappiness does not come at us, it comes from us. For instance, impatience with our level of understanding is the very level of understanding we are impatient with. The understanding of this spiritual principle allows us to disconnect ourselves from our impatience. Life becomes instantly better. For one thing, the frustration fades. In its place, learning flowers. And the more we inwardly grow, the easier our whole life flows.
The idea of acting to deliberately disconnect ourselves from whatever we think has us blocked leads us to true self-liberation because we have never been trapped by anything outside of our own lack of understanding. This is why even the attempt to disconnect ourselves from the limitations of our present life-level already belongs to a higher level of understanding. This conscious action on your part “works” by gradually breaking down the painful circle-of-self that is repeatedly formed by asking the problem for the solution. Barriers begin to crumble and disappear, because you have stopped creating them. In the truest meaning of the words, you are getting out of your own way! Practice self-disconnect as often as you can. The more you work at this special kind of letting go, the freer your days will flow and the higher your life will go.
All of us have felt, at one time or another, trapped in our own life. During these periods of heightened unhappiness, one thing seems clear: the only reason we haven’t realized our great potential is because we’re being held back. There is some unpleasant person, an inescapable condition, some unwanted place in life where we got “stuck.” So, over and over again, we plan our great escape. And over and over again we find ourselves either having gone nowhere or back where we started from, both results being the same. For all of our efforts, nothing really changes. New loves, new jobs, even new homes change only the walls that surround us — not our feelings of being imprisoned. We sense that all we have done is changed cells! We mustn’t fight with or in any way fear this shocking conclusion. Why? Because this temporarily disturbing discovery about our actual condition contains a crucial insight. It was never that person or circumstance that was blocking our moment in the sun. No! In spite of how things may appear to us, we are never trapped by where we are. The trap is always who we are.
Guy Finley explains that multitasking is a form of greed, which has its root in fear.