Selfishness has many forms; and there are many parts of us that do not want us to even suspect how deep and dark run their immoral fiber.
I had an email from a student saying that there are some things in her spiritual work that she can’t agree to do because to do so would make her a hypocrite. Seems there are certain areas in her life where she “fails miserably”…and to try and help someone else grow in this same area would be a “lie” as she feels so inadequate in the same. That thought is a “Trojan wooden horse.” It seems moral, wise, and even considerate…when, in truth, it is secretly masking a soul-corrupting lie.
No one is good; no one has Light of his or her own…period. We are reflections of a living Light that have been led to believe (by yet another wooden horse) that we have life and light of our own. And that’s why, to the mind so compromised, it makes perfect sense to think: “By the light in me, I see how dark I am…and so it would be wrong to step up and be of service in any way I can.”
But, here’s the truth: this darkness in us knows that if we try to help another (or ourselves, for that matter) — in whatever area — while working with and from what we presently are — that it will be further drawn out into the light it detests; it will be exposed for what it is, as well as where it hides…which is the same as spelling the end of its hold on our heart. And THAT’S why we avoid doing what we do…
The Light fears no darkness, and never fears anything that the darkness says is true about itself or the Light. The darkness is fear itself, because it “knows” that any form of light brought into it will reveal its essential nothingness.
As we try to “show” others the state of their interior life, by acting as what we think is a mirror for them, i.e., by telling them how much fear they have, how mistaken they are with present choices, the extent to which being identified with their negative energy betrays them, etc., we actually create nothing but resistance in them. The reason this happens to us and with others, as it does, is as follows.
A mirror never tries to reflect the objects in it; to reflect the objects appearing within it is its very nature. The mirror is without choice; it doesn’t care how others feel about what it reflects back to them because it is indifferent towards its own content. It just reveals what has come into it; that’s all.
When we truly act as a mirror for someone, it’s because we are not resisting the state he or she is in, but instead we are quietly aware of its (often painful) presence within us. We suffer this similitude willingly, understanding now why the person we want to correct is in the conflict that he or she is. We know their pain directly, and do nothing toward it in ourselves or try to “fix” them.
This state of conscious self-awareness, and the sacrifice that comes with it is the true mirror; there is no division between the reflection and the reflected; they are one. And in this (higher) state a healing can take place that can’t be imagined because there is no longer anyone trying to do the healing, nor is there the one to be (judged) healed… just the light of awareness that changes all that enters into it.
Of course there is more to this than words can say, but these notes will give you a good idea of what needs to be done, and what one should cease from doing when it comes to “helping” others. The law is… as Christ said so simply, “Physician, heal thyself.”
Here is a simple suggestion to help transform your life into its native Light. Remember that any (and every) attempt you make to manifest spiritual Light is itself a form of prayer — one that always receives an answer:
Use some of your time to do unselfish work. Unselfish work is work in which you do not directly receive a longed-for or otherwise personal benefit. For instance, maybe volunteer your time in the service of something Higher, or clean up after someone without complaining or trying to be “seen” doing it. Live out your wish for the Light by manifesting it. Do the Truth you want to be.