The mastery of anything, including ourselves, begins with the faith that we are not here on earth to be perfected according to an image we hold of ourselves, but rather, to allow perfection to work its way upon us, so that only the awareness of something greater than ourselves can draw us into a greatness beyond ourselves, if we will it so.
Question: I work in a very challenging environment and I haven’t been able to understand why I am so unpopular and unhappy. I am slowly realizing though that the desires I have are earthly and do nothing for my spiritual growth. How can I relax and not worry about what people will think of me?
Answer: The more we awaken to who we really are — see the truth of all our interior possibilities, and the richness of that relationship with the Living Light within us — the easier it becomes to let go of the many former unconscious and dark demands placed upon us by the social environment in which we live. Part of our release comes as we see how misguided we have been ourselves, giving ourselves over to a nature that cares for nothing other than pleasing itself… often at the cost of “punishing” others for failing to go along with our plans and “needs”. As this unconscious character in us comes into the light of our wish to be free, we begin seeing that literally everyone we know lives from the same lower sleeping nature. We know the secret depth of their frustration, fears, and unhappiness because we have now seen it living in us! But, the difference is, we are no longer the victim of these dark states (to the same degree, anyway) and that revelation starts to change everything. A small miracle happens that liberates us from longing for the approval of others: why would we want something, anything, from people around us who don’t even want their own life! Persist with your wish to be free, to help others, and to make an innocent living. God hears the one heart that holds onto this wish.
All human enacted tragedies, and the grief that follows in their wake, are regrettable; it’s almost unimaginable that any individual could be so inwardly corrupt as to deliberately wish to hurt anyone else, let alone a group of innocents. Heinous acts like the one that took place in the theater in Colorado (and that happen all over the world on a daily basis) should only help to prove that we all need to “wake up” to a certain fact of life:
The discovery that our beautiful world — with all of its beautiful relationships — is at best temporary (let alone subject to the destructive act of any maniacal, pain-ridden person who takes it upon himself to punish others), should only serve to strengthen our wish to transcend those parts of us that are identified with it (this world). Such a wish doesn’t deny, or in any way denigrate the suffering that seems so inherent in our physical existence, (and may those who have lost loved ones in this senseless crime be consoled). Rather, I believe it places this inevitable suffering — that we all must face — into the service of something higher, of something loving that wants us to know, in spite of temporary and confounding appearances, that God is good.
The feel of fresh understanding, an infusion of light; the sweet flood of a new knowing pouring into and integrating one’s soul, familiarizing it with its own forgotten wholeness and perfected peace. This is our hope in prayer: To become one with the Living Light whose dawning opens the doorway to the Divine.