There are parts of us that want the Truth, and then there are parts of us that only want what allows us to be comfortable and content with our life as we have known it. The upward path requires taking one step after another into what the self that perceives itself as doing this “walking” will feel is precarious, and perhaps even dangerous. But be assured, there is no danger to any human being who puts the Truth before all else, including his or her fear of making a mistake. As best you can, follow the “I” that wants the skies for its Home.
There come times in our lives when our wish to be new, coupled with our interior work to realize this wish, produces certain “effects” that can be most trying; in fact, times such as these are a kind of trial. What happens is that the spiritual changes occurring within us — and their new values — outrun the existing physical conditions and relationships that helped give rise to these changes in us.
Be patient, be kind, and remain intent upon being true to yourself with regards to your growing spiritual wish to be whole and free. Things must and will come to a “head,” and there will be a change; it’s inescapable. Don’t fear, or at least, don’t allow that negative state to make you act against your own best interests. When relationships pass, as most must, it doesn’t mean that the love that caused them to appear must disappear. A new form always rises when an old one passes… watch for it.
The only thing “fixed” in us are those parts of our presently unenlightened nature that convince us to resist life’s natural changes. As this fear-filled, downward-trending nature tricks us into accepting its conclusions, they become the same as our captivity. We unconsciously accept the limited and painful life this alliance-in-the-dark produces. We can do better!
Real self-change begins with seeing that Real Life is change itself. This means there is no condition that can hold you captive without your unconscious cooperation. Withdraw it. Wake up. Walk out of yourself by changing how you see what you call your life. Realize that while the contents of your life may come and go, turn dark, or suddenly seem delightful, regardless, these things will pass. Resting in the awareness of this Truth while working to stand upon its higher ground, you come upon the life within you whose nature is the unchanging witness of these movements. This self dwells outside of change, even as all that changes moves through it.