When we are anxious, when there’s a pressing desire, we don’t see the fact that the state has occupied us and is trying to reconcile itself through what it pushes us to acquire. If we could look at something we want, and at the same moment we feel that pressing anxiety, the push to acquire it, we could use these same eyes for a mirror to be able to see the nature that wants to acquire, we would in that instant know that we are in relationship with something that is not right for us, that cares nothing for anyone or anything else, only to get what it wants. The discovery, the awareness of that, is the nullification of the anxiety.
This isn’t something that you choose to do. You don’t have to try to be good. Goodness itself produces it with the simultaneous glimpse of these opposites, which only your awareness can do.
Do the best you can to see yourself as you go through your day. The task is to first be aware of yourself, and be aware of others at the same time. This is practical, down to earth spiritual work, so that there is no mistaking the difference between wanting to feel good about where we are and what we have vs. being in the Goodness that is always where we are and allowing it to live our lives for us as we are there.
There may be no greater self-deception than the false notion that rushing through anything actually helps us in any way whatsoever. After all, if anxious thoughts and feelings had any power to deliver us to a place or time where peace awaits, don’t you think we’d have gotten there by now? Let there be no mistake here:
When it comes to being in a hurry, what difference does it make how fast you can get somewhere when all you find there is the next thing for you to rush through?
Anyone who rushes through life always finishes last! This is a truth unseen by the masses, but evident to those weary of going nowhere fast. You race as you do to escape the unhappiness you feel being where you are, running towards what you imagine will free you from that dissatisfaction. But such races are always lost before they begin because you can’t outrun yourself!
The more clearly we can see that it’s impossible to reach a place of rest by rushing to get there, the sooner we’ll arrive at the true solutions that allow us to relax, slow down, and realize the relaxed pace of an inwardly liberated life.
Think of how many dangerous car accidents wouldn’t happen at all if only motorists slowed down their cars even to a small degree. Then imagine just how many painful personal encounters with others we would be able to walk right by — without a hint of a hurtful collision — if only we could slow ourselves down enough to see them coming!
We don’t feel the pain of our rushing around to get things done because we unconsciously mistake it as being an antidote for the pain of anxiety.