I can’t tell you how important it is for you to set your spiritual aim for self-freedom over and over, each day. Then, start over as though a whole new wind were at your back. If you will do this, this new wind will be there to help you along.
More than anything else, try to remember each morning — before the winds of this world pick you up and carry you off — that you want to be more awake to yourself than you were the day before, and that you want to have more choices today — in who you are and what you embrace — than you did yesterday. This wish, and the work to fulfill it, will increase your awareness of NOT having real choice.
To grow inwardly requires we enter, willingly, into a new kind of struggle wherein we begin to become conscious of our own divided nature. This new and heightened consciousness of our present division — in our longings and the relationships they engender — produces a new order of self-awareness. From this awakened awareness, and in it, we can begin to grow.
Remember: What you want from this life you will eventually have to have, so be wise: Want truth, freedom, and Light. Win these things and you have won it all.