Question: I have been studying positive thinking and spiritual truths for many years, and in some ways I have grown from it. However, at this late date in my life I have to look up and say: “So what’s it all about, really? ” After all this knowledge, and acting on it most of the time, I am left without a friend, and now I have cut ties with my children. I have lost everything I ever possessed. I do know that we create ourselves, our lives… I have just never learned… how do I finally actualize what I really want?
Answer: The lesson here — albeit a bit unpalatable for now — is that there is a real difference between knowledge and being; the former is intended to be only a ladder to another level of self that doesn’t look for itself in any exterior condition, while the latter knows, without thinking, that it is always right where it needs to be to continue its true spiritual growth.
The sadness you feel belongs to the part of you that now realizes it never knew, never had the “power” it imagined… and wants to hide itself from you so that you don’t walk away from it yourself.
There is another kind of happiness that awaits anyone who will walk away from their disappointments and anger that comes only with seeing that they have never been these dark states, their demands, or the self that serves as their unconscious instrument.
Persist… you are near an important discovery, but only if you remain in the world of seeing what is… instead of rejecting and resisting what is not.