I wake up every morning and this terror comes over me to the point of producing many physical symptoms. I want God’s life with all my being, but I feel like I am standing on a bridge staring down into the abyss and cannot move through this. Please help.
These fearful states are being produced by parts of your body and mind that want you to desist from your wish to know something of God’s life, and the freedom that comes with such grace. We all have certain “mechanisms” in us that will do whatever they can to hinder our awakening to higher impressions, and the soul stirring effect they cause, as we begin to be a bit more conscious. So, watch these fears, but do not engage yourself in what they “tell” you through whatever physical conditions they manifest. Resistance to fear is futile since the action is fear’s negative reaction to itself. Break the cycle by surrendering to it; hand the whole mess over to God with the understanding that the Divine already knows what you’re going through and, in fact, is actually causing these events to bring you closer to it. Persist… and you will move beyond the reach of what is now trying to wreck your life.