A Fear of Whales

A Fear of Whales

3 Years Ago

Three years ago at this time I started this blog. I backdated some posts from earlier blogs when I started it.

I was fundraising for InterVarsity and trying to increase my web presence. I had a lot of time on my hands, a lot of people who I wanted to be able to stay in contact with, and a need to feel heard.

Yesterday I left Kansas. and as of Today I live in Austin, Texas.

Three years ago I felt like I had been waiting forever for my life to start. That I has abundant training and experience, but precious little application. I felt pressed against the door to adventure and adulthood, but I felt it locked from the other side.

Today I feel tired. Poured out like a drink offering. I gave everything I had in mission at Kansas State University, and now I look forward to a break where I can think and fast and pray and rest while I get my MDiv


The process 3 years ago took longer than I wanted it to. More than a Full year from first contact to final departure. In that time I left churches and friends, often months in advance. I took I moved 3 times and regretted my storage unit and moving truck.

Today I packed everything into my van and left in a few weeks notice. 3 Different churches blessed me on my was this past Sunday. And I arrived ahead of schedule.

When I arrived in Kansas I was greeted as a spiritual leader, and given overwhelming hospitality in the prairie. I come today as a servant and learner, and don’t know yet how it will go in the big city.

3 years ago I watched a Church open it’s doors for the first time, this Sunday I saw one laid to rest


I will always treasure the experiences I had.

-I learned a new methodology of Bible Study
-I gained experience with the cultural differences inside the US
-I saw people come to know Christ
-I learned incarnation
-I got the big typical college experience I had always wanted
-I led a Black Bible Study, which I had never expected
-I spoke at many churches
-I made lifelong friends
-I played matchmaker and got some folks hitched
-I lived with A Christian Philosopher
-I started a Bike ministry, a paintball ministry, a computer ministry, a car ministry, and an RPG
-I was inspired by great teaching, and read great books
-I succeeded at many things, and failed at more
-I learned to make Chai from a Pakistani, and talked social media with a Jasmine Revolutionary
-I saw parts of America the coasters never bother to visit, and grew in love for the flyover states
-I ate the best BBQ in the world at no less than 3 distinct places
-I applied scripture in new and radical ways
-I did a thousand other things
-I lived, laughed, and Loved

Now I look forward to the next chapter

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